It's weird to apply for Witch Academy as a boy

But I have never suggested to myself "unity of knowledge and action". Just like the name of this spell, this feeling is like a revelation. When I think of this spell, I know that I am thinking about the right thing.

The moment the spell effect of the spell book took effect, I felt the feeling that my own consciousness was superior to my own emotions and even my own thoughts.

It was as if at this moment, my emotions and my thoughts could no longer control my consciousness, and those complicated emotions and the toxic chicken soup imposed on me were clearly distinguishable at this moment.

At this moment, I realized that I seemed to have used the spell book of the unity of knowledge and action incorrectly. It was not a tool to help me improve my efficiency, but a tool for self-reflection and self-examination in conjunction with meditation.

Although some spell books do not indicate the usage threshold, unqualified people will ultimately be unable to unleash their true power.

It's like a mirror. The other side of the mirror holds the analyzed self in front of me, and the rest depends on me to decide how I should change.

So this spell book is called the unity of knowledge and action?

I cannot decide where I am born, my family, my environment, or even my world, but I can choose who I want to be.

It doesn’t even matter the external environment.

Previously, I was even afraid because I didn’t understand the outside environment. I was thinking about whether I should master stronger power. After learning about the disorder of the void, I made up my mind to give a certain amount of attention to the acquisition of power.

But now it’s different. The void is also an environment. Maybe it will be my future stage. Even if it is a very bad environment, will it interfere with my exploration of the extraordinary realm?

It does not interfere. This reminds me of those lunatics who blasphemed the revolution in their interpretation of life. No matter how the external environment changes, it will not interfere with what he wants to do, even if that will be hostile to the entire void.

That is the proof of his extremely strong heart. Even when he has not grown up yet, he is still the same. He will not be afraid because of the difference in level.

This seems to be what I expected?

Maybe, but I still want to live my own life. When I was a child in my previous life, I wanted to be a scientist. Maybe I was just following the crowd like others, but many seeds were planted in this way.

In the end, life crushed me, but gave me a chance to start over again. This time, I touched upon the supernatural. The seed seemed to sprout in the decay. I still wanted to be a "scientist," a scientist who studied the supernatural. The first step was... to become someone who possessed supernatural powers and to obtain the qualifications to study supernatural powers.

This is my original intention. Put aside everything else, put aside all thoughts, what witch academy, what classes, what interest exchange, what script?

Many things don't seem to matter anymore.

It’s like my self-study efficiency is far greater than that in class, because Teacher Ji Niang discovered my value and didn’t let me waste my spare time in class, so even though I was in the Witch Academy, I was exempted from the courses.

And now, my value has far exceeded expectations and even attracted the attention of the dean. Even though I am in this world and trapped in the script, I will eventually cut off the so-called shackles of the earth veins and escape from the control of the script, and even the control of the world.

It has nothing to do with strength, I just feel that this is the way it should be.

But this requires a deeper understanding. If it has nothing to do with power, you have no value in yourself and you feel you should deviate from the script, then no one will pay attention to you.

This is a judgment that can only be made after the goal is clear and the self-worth is clearly recognized.

If I don't have the value of clairvoyance, but I have such a state of mind, such cognition and such a normal mind, I will feel that I deserve to be swept in as cannon fodder, but I will seek benefits and avoid harm, enhance my own value, and find ways and means to escape from control, rather than doing nothing and complaining.

This is the truth, the strong will not complain about the environment.

At this moment, leaving here, I feel as if my control over my body has improved a lot. If I had fought to the death in the dream before, I would not be so hysterical and fight like a madman. I would use the most ideal way to find the best solution, and even... fight to the end with ease.

When I started criticizing my past self, I realized that I seemed to have grown, but it all seemed to happen on the same day.

Can someone really grow up in a day?

Yes, as long as you figure it out, no...it should be that you just need to figure out what you want to do.

It is impossible for me to maintain such a state of rational thinking all the time, but this state has given birth to valuable experience that guides me on how to live.

Taking off the disguise, letting go of the inner friction, and facing everyone with a normal heart, these are all ways I express myself outwardly.

It is just to make up for what I lack in my heart. My heart is not strong enough. If I want to be strong, I need constant external stimulation to make up for what it once lacked.

It is similar to retaliatory compensation, but different. I am not compensating, but making amends.

It's like I'm facing a broken mirror, I pick up all the pieces, but instead of putting them back together, I take them back to the furnace to be remade.

People who complain that a broken mirror cannot be mended are just complaining. The strong do not complain, they just quietly pick it up and forge it again.

Don't be afraid of trouble, don't be afraid of the boredom of the process, and don't be afraid of other people's eyes and comments.

The strong man only knew that he wanted the mirror to return to its original state.

The weak ones would say just buy another one, some would laugh at you and say you are a fool for going back to the drawing board for such a trivial thing, and some would even take a photo and post it to let others laugh at you.

Maybe this is why the strong are lonely.

Just like now, after so much trouble, I am ready to go back and have a good rest, instead of forcing myself to study during the last bit of the day.

I’ll deal with the remaining things tomorrow when I have enough energy.

Once you confirm your goals, both short-term and long-term, many things seem to go smoothly.

Return to the villa.

"Sister Xiaohan, you're back so early?"

"Well, don't you have classes today?" I nodded and looked at Dongli Yiren and asked.

"No."

"Then you take your time to learn. I'm going to sleep first."

"Hey? Sister Xiaohan, are you going back to bed so early?"

"Yeah~ I'm just a little tired, that's all. A lot of things happened to me today, and my intuition tells me that a good night's sleep will help me calm down. The same goes for you. I heard from Yu Yetian that you've been working very hard recently, but don't overwork yourself. You really should give yourself a break when it's time to relax."

"A holiday? I'd better forget it. If I continue to be lazy, I might not be able to recover."

"If you don't even have the courage to give yourself a holiday, then do you think you are qualified to prove that you can persevere? Don't pretend to be studying hard~ Surprise check! What did you learn today! Close your notebook and ask what you wrote on the last page!"

"Eh? I...that..."

Faced with my sudden action, Dongli Yiren subconsciously closed her notebook, but she stammered and couldn't say anything.

"Look, don't lie to yourself. Bringing a popular science book into the plantation is more useful than copying notes here. There is not only one way to learn. It's not just sitting there and looking at the secretary's notes. I'll give you a task. There is no reward, no punishment, and no enforcement. Find the Witch Academy Plantation tomorrow, and then take your notes with you to take a look. Isn't this more interesting than copying notes until your hands are sore?"

"I..." Dongli Yiren seemed to have not accepted my change yet. She hadn't uttered a word yet. But when she organized her words and wanted to say it, she found that I had already gone upstairs and disappeared.

"I see."

Dongli Yiren spoke softly, as if talking to herself.

She also put down the pen in her hand, looked at the notes, stretched, and patted her cheeks.

She always felt that Sister Xiaohan, who came back today, seemed to have changed. The previous change might not have been obvious, but it was particularly obvious today.

What on earth was going on?

Chapter 291 A new beginning

"Hmm~ Is it morning already?"

I stretched a little and glanced out the window. It was already pitch dark outside and it was obvious that it was not yet morning.

I checked the time on my phone. It was only a little past midnight, around one or two in the morning.

Even though I went to bed early yesterday, I found myself full of energy now. It seems that I will become one of those witches who need less sleep.

Sister Bai told me that witches are nocturnal creatures, and now I believe it.

After getting up, I don’t know what to do. If it were before, I might have hesitated for a while, that is, I would be in a daze thinking about what I want to do. This period of time would pass in about ten minutes, but now I have a clear goal, to make myself stronger.

What did Teacher Ji Niang tell me was the foundation of everything?

Of course it is the mental power, the magic source in the spell book, these are all false. The real extraordinary power that one possesses is only mental power. Meditation is the foundation.

After I started meditating directly, I realized that I didn’t have any incense for meditation. I seemed to have bought it the first time, but I didn’t go again at that time because I felt it was a little expensive. Anyway, I was meditating, so I didn’t pay much attention to it.

But now I understand the role of incense, the most direct means to assist meditation and conduct an efficient meditation.

The key is efficiency. Although you cannot be impatient when doing something, if you know the most efficient way and don't do it, you will appear stupid.

This is a mentality problem. Now I begin to thank Teacher Dina. Maybe she just did it unintentionally, or something else. Or maybe it was the dean's intention that would not surprise me. I don't care if it is a deliberate arrangement, as long as the result is good.

Perhaps even Dina herself did not understand how much change her riddle-like actions had brought to me.

Oh no...it's not a change, but it allows me to be my true self. This is me. I put down the mask. Everything I do is to further promote my own change. I understand that this kind of little change cannot be achieved overnight.

Others may think that I have changed a lot, but that is not the case. That is other people’s subjective feeling. I know that I just took off the mask.

Meditation is over.

It was already morning, and I took a shower. According to my habit, I liked to take a shower at night, so that after returning to a place where I could feel at ease, I could wash away all the dust and unhappiness I had experienced during the day, and give the cleanest self to my only safe haven - the bed. This might be a rare behavior in my life where I treat myself better.

And now, I am making changes. Although some toxic chicken soups should not be drunk too much, sometimes listening to them can still be of great benefit. Trying to do things that you are afraid of, don’t like or have never done before is change.

If a person wants to change, but does not have the courage to change his original world view, it is just talk.

Take a shower in the morning and sort out your mood so that you can devote more energy to responding to external things.

When I reduce my mental fatigue, I find that I have so much energy to squander. Is this the mental state of Xianchong?

It really scares and fascinates me...

Being afraid of encountering the unknown, yet being fascinated by the unknown, this situation ultimately comes down to a lack of self-confidence, a lack of confidence in one's own ability to express oneself.

Maybe I could try taking a language course to learn how to express myself.

In fact, I don't have to go to class, because any time I talk to anyone in my life, the other person will be my teacher, and the entire Witch Academy will be my classroom. They are teaching me something all the time. The key is when I realize this.

After tidying up my hair and my clothes, when I really paid attention to my outfit, I found that the clothes that Sister Bai picked for me seemed to be very good when she was with me.

And I didn't use disguise again. The original intention of using disguise was to conceal one's identity and avoid trouble.

But it’s just being recognized, is that a problem?

It was indeed a hassle for me in the past. When a person's internal friction is very serious, his ability to withstand pressure is very poor. Anything that deviates from his expectations may break his defenses, and the slightest thing will be like the sky falling. I am very clear about this. Looking at my past self as a bystander, I can clearly see how fragile I was at that time.

The confidence that is built up is supported by the power that is mastered.

When facing Tan Han, after she surpassed me, I would become anxious and worried until I gave up.

It is still the same for me now, but now I will try to make changes. Only with changes will there be feedback, and only with feedback will I know whether what I am doing is right or not.

Today I made an appointment with Betty to prepare the wound healing agent in her mentor's laboratory. I don't know if Betty is awake at this time.

So I called directly to ask, although I was a little hesitant to do so because I was wondering if the other party might be inconvenienced or just not awake yet?

But I am forcing myself to change this idea. I feel that whether or not they are disturbed is other people's business. When someone calls me, will they consider whether I am being disturbed?

No matter what the other party was thinking, it was certain that I was disturbed the moment I picked up the phone.

After I finished the phone call with Betty, we agreed on the time and place. She was very happy that I agreed to make the potion with her, but of course she also complained about me getting up so early.

Well...the final result was nothing serious, I just got criticized. I held the phone with a silly smile on my face, always feeling like I hadn't done something yet.

After I pondered for a while, I finally figured it out!

I was about to go to the lab with Betty to try alchemy, but I forgot to tell Sister Bai!

"Hey~ Sister Bai is up~"

As soon as the phone was connected, I offered my greetings with a slightly coquettish tone.

"Hmm? Xiaohan, is there something urgent?" At this moment, Sister Bai did not expect that I would call her in the morning, so her first reaction was that there was something urgent.

"Hey~ If there's nothing wrong, I can't bother you, Sister Bai~ I'm going to return this to you~"

"Oh? Xiaohan, if everything is alright I will come to see you?"

"I have something to do. I mean, I have something to do, so I can't accompany you like I did the past few days, Sister Bai."

"So there is something wrong... Then tell me."

"I made an appointment with a senior today to try alchemy research. I'm telling you in advance to prevent you from being jealous~"

"Jealous? Jealous of what? Wait? Which senior did you go with? Are you doing serious research?"

"Hey~ and you said you're not jealous~"

"Okay, fine... I just wanted to remind you to be safe."

"Don't worry, I don't think he can beat me, so don't worry. As long as you don't think it's too troublesome for such a small matter, I'll just let you know."

"How could that be? Xiaohan, you are willing to share your living arrangements with me, why would I find it troublesome?"

"It's good that it's not a bother. After all, there will only be me and that senior sister in the lab, a single woman and a single woman. I'm afraid that you, Sister Bai, will misunderstand. If you smell the smell and come here, I won't be able to explain it to you, right?"

"What...what? Xiaohan, are you calling me so early in the morning just to tease me, Sister Bai?"

"Nothing, I feel relieved to see Sister Bai looking so energetic this morning. Bye~ I'm hanging up now~"

"Hey...you! Xiaohan..."