The civilization before the collapse, heroes and heroes are reborn with me

But Michael would not use this as an excuse to absolve himself, because there was no need. If he did not have these thoughts, so many things would not have happened in the end.

At that last moment, she finally figured out the true meaning of being human, and thus let go of the obsession that had troubled her all her life, choosing a small selfish desire. At the final battle of the end, as Michael, the key of God, she fulfilled her duties as a human being, and it was a reflection on her mistakes.

"God, please forgive the Son of Man's transgression and rebellion. People, you do not need to sing praises of his fame and glory. The stars will crown him."

Zhu Yufeng walked into the ward. Alicia and Lilith noticed that his face looked a little strange. As for what Michael had said to him, although they were a little curious, they didn't go to eavesdrop. At most, they could ask later. If the matter was really important and someone didn't want to talk about it, wasn't there Wei Wei who was always eavesdropping on someone? Why not just ask Wei Wei?

"Is the inspection over?" Zhu Yufeng asked.

"All indicators have reached the expected standards for surgery. We can proceed with the fusion warrior surgery." said a nurse in the lead. She looked at Michael who had just walked in from outside the ward, and guessed that Michael probably went to give Feng some kind of psychological counseling. Apart from anything else, Michael was indeed a qualified listener and counselor. Feng regarded Astaroth as her sister, and she must have had her own confusion when signing the consent form for the surgery.

After all, during the days that Michael came to the Fire Moth, she had been tossing and turning between the sick and the injured, listening to their requests and giving her own opinions, and was called an "angelic girl" by others...

And... Feng wouldn't even let Michael go, right?

Although before coming here, Michael also said that Feng's "disease" was the most serious... But if even Michael "fell", Feng would definitely be the first on the list of people that the Fire Moth male warriors wanted to kill the most...

Probably... not...

"Then send him to surgery right away." Zhu Yufeng also glanced at Michael who was standing quietly at the door.

Michael made a prayer gesture like the other nuns and whispered, "I hope Astaroth's surgery will be successful and her future will be as beautiful as a fairy tale."

Then he bowed slightly to the others and left.

"After all, she has to visit other patients today..." The nurse smiled helplessly, "It's been a long time since I've seen such a caring girl."

Zhu Yufeng was silent.

When Astaroth was sent to the operating room and Zhu Yufeng was waiting outside, Alysia asked tentatively, "Feng, what did you and Michael...talk about?"

Zhu Yufeng sighed softly and said, "She admitted that in the tragedy of restraint, she had always been dominated by her own consciousness... She was the one who fought with me, and she was also the one who gave me a hug instead of dying together..."

"Did she also say that she thought it was the existence of us fallen angels that kept you trapped in the darkness, so she took special care of the fallen angels?" Lilith didn't seem to be surprised at all, and instead spoke with a teasing tone.

"That's right...how did you guess that?"

"It's very simple. Do you think she only nagged you?" Lilith rolled her eyes. "I had a conversation with her before. I'm too lazy to think about the details. Anyway, the general meaning is that you tolerated our darkness, but because of this, you also gave up the light that you should have had."

Alicia was silent, which made her withdraw into herself for a while. She was the first person to know Feng, and Michael only met Feng after the Eighth Herrscher incident. However, even so, she was much closer to Feng than she was at that time... And the tragedy of the restraints afterwards made her and Feng no longer meet...

As for what Michael said about her consciousness taking the dominant position, Alicia didn't really believe it, because before that, there was the dormant leader of the Tenth Herrscher, Raguel, one of the high-ranking members of the Fire Moth, who had been behaving very much like a human before being lurked out by Mei. And she was just eroded by the Honkai because her resentment about Mei and others seizing her power was magnified.

"So, what do you think?" Lilith asked, crossing her arms.

"It's very complicated..." Zhu Yufeng pressed his brow and said, "My rationality tells me that it is indeed not her sole responsibility, but my sensibility makes me pursue her fault... But, just like when I was reborn in this life, I was willing to communicate directly with Alicia. Everything now only exists in our memories, and we can start over..."

"But once the rift is created, it will take more time to mend it. It may even take more time than you and I can imagine." Alicia said softly, "Just like us now, we will still dream about the day of the tragedy of restraint, and dream about the nightmare that we will encounter again... Before we overcome that nightmare, the rift between us will always exist."

Michael took the initiative to confess all this. To be honest, although the rift between him and Feng would still exist, it would be narrowed because Michael would share some of the responsibility. But in this case, the relationship between Michael and Feng, which did not have a rift to begin with, would be cracked.

No matter what the reason was, no matter what the position was, even if Michael was Feng's friend and the fallen angel was also regarded as family by Feng, Michael caused the tragedy of restraint because of her momentary obsession, even if she herself died in it, but with Feng's character, he could not help but mind.

In other words, Michael is not his love rival?

"Just as I can wantonly deceive the world and release my own malice, but you are the only one I am special to." Lilith said, "You also know that Michael is simply stubborn. She feels that there is no need to hide anything from you, so she will tell you these things frankly. Even if there are factors of Honkai involved, she will not put the blame on Honkai. And there is another point, she probably has the same idea as me..."

"What?" Zhu Yufeng raised his eyes.

"Nothing. Like me, Michael will never hurt you." Lilith shrugged and said, "Leaving aside Alicia, at that time, I always felt that she might be my biggest rival in love. Unfortunately, she was too young, and in every aspect..."

Alicia looked up. What did she mean by leaving her behind? She... Well, in her last life, she was indeed tricked by Lilith, who did everything she could to prevent her and Feng from communicating.

Too young... in every aspect... Zhu Yufeng glanced at Lilith, then glanced at Alysia, thinking. It seemed true that even if Michael grew up, he would be comparable to Hua...

No, I have been led astray by Lilith again!

Just when Zhu Yufeng was about to tell Lilith to be careful with her words, Hen's voice rang out: "Feng, are you going to wait here while you prepare for the surgery?"

Zhu Yufeng looked over and saw Hen smiling and waving at him. He then looked at Grayshu who was holding Hen's other hand. Little Grayshu's attitude still seemed a little cold and she didn't even take the initiative to say hello this time. So he nodded and said, "Yes, I promised Astaroth that I would wait for her outside so that she could see me as soon as she came out. This is also my duty as her brother."

"Astaroth... Alas..." Hen sighed softly, "She is also a poor child... It's hard for you."

If you think about it from another perspective, if one day in the future, Gresh also faces the same problem that Astaroth faces, as a father, he may not even be able to forgive himself for causing Gresh to get hurt? Feng, who regards Astaroth as a sister and is her nominal guardian, probably thinks the same way.

Who could have known that just reading a story book together would lead to the Eighth Herrscher's trick?

Thinking of this, Hen looked at Gray Xiu again: "Little Gray Xiu, it's a rare opportunity for you to come to see Brother Yu Feng today, why don't you say hello to him?"

Grace looked at Zhu Yufeng, and then said reluctantly, "Good morning, Brother Yufeng."

"Good morning, little Greyshus." Zhu Yufeng squatted down and touched Greyshus' head. Greyshus looked away, looking unhappy, but did not refuse...

Is this the tsundere he learned from Mebius?

Zhu Yufeng looked up at Hen, who looked up at the ceiling. He was also wondering when his daughter would learn tsundere from Mebius... It was the same when he came here in the morning. He asked her if she wanted to come with him and take a look. Gray said she hadn't finished painting yet, but she had already put down the brush in her hand...

In the final analysis, Feng found a younger sister to raise, so she had less time to spend with Grayshu. The other person who read the storybook should have been Grayshu...

It is true that children tend to get upset because of these things... It is also necessary for me to help Grayshu to adjust her mentality. After all, Feng has always been very good to Grayshu. Of course, it is impossible for her to stop caring about Grayshu just because there is an Astaroth. But Feng cannot be split into two halves, so it is inevitable that she will have to spend less time with Grayshu.

It just so happens that later on, we can let Grayshu and Astaroth become friends or something...

Chapter 238: Desdobia's Choice

The boy had a dream, a long dream. The world in the dream was similar to his previous experiences, but not exactly the same.

He dreamed that he and his lover were separated unexpectedly when their feelings were still in a hazy stage, and from then on the harmonica given to him by the girl was the only thing that kept him in mind.

He dreamed that his predecessor, who he had been with day and night, was forced to sacrifice himself in a dilemma, and after that he no longer trusted the hero he once admired and betrayed the organization as a monster.

He dreamed again that he finally returned to the organization and learned to control the power called "artificial collapse" with the help of the mad doctor. Then in the final battle, he chose to sacrifice himself and bought a moment for the hero who was about to bear everything.

Civilization is declining once again, and people are falling into a deep sleep in numbness and hesitation about the future, waiting for the arrival of the next era.

When everything was declared over, he stood on the moon, looked at himself leaning against a lunar rock, squatted down, picked up the harmonica that had fallen to the ground, and placed it in the hands of another self.

……

"Is that... the story that Feng mentioned before that was supposed to happen?"

Kosmo slowly opened his eyes and sat up from the bed. Logically speaking, he should not be able to use any strength for a while after lying in bed for a few days, but he was a fusion warrior now, and the physique of a fusion warrior was different from that of an ordinary person, so there would be no problem even if he lay down for a few more days (? ).

If you don't consider the feelings of the girl who is sleeping soundly on his right.

"Desdobia..." Kosmo softly read out the girl's name.

The girl seemed to be awakened by the noise he made. She stood up, rubbed her eyes, and said with some surprise: "Amo, you're awake!"

The next moment, she was embraced by the young man on the hospital bed. Kosmo's voice was trembling a little: "That's great, this time, I finally protected you, that's great..."

Desdobia was stunned for a moment, then she gently hugged Kosmo: "Yes, this time, it was you who protected me and everyone else, Amo, you really became a great hero, and... you will always be my hero..."

Outside the ward, Michael gently opened the door, glanced at the person inside, smiled faintly, put the breakfast aside, and then gently closed the door.

The head nurse was a little surprised and was about to ask why she left after just taking a look. Michael put his index finger in front of his mouth and said softly, "Now may not be the time for us to go in. I think we should give the people inside more time to be alone."

"Could it be Kosmo..." The nurses looked at each other and understood in their hearts that it must be Kosmo who woke up. Now in the ward besides Kosmo was Desdobia, and Desdobia had woken up a long time ago.

"Then let's come back for a check-up later. Let's give them some time to talk in private." The head nurse said with some sarcasm.

Inside the ward, the boy and the girl hugged each other tightly, and it took a long time before they separated.

After sobering up a little, Kosmo realized what a bold thing he had just done. He almost wanted to run away subconsciously, but when he looked at Desdobia, whose cheeks were also slightly red, he couldn't help but suppress the shameful thought of running away. He didn't know what to say, so he just stared at Desdobia in a daze.

He... succeeded...

He...did it.

"Hey, Amo, you... stop staring at me like that!" Desdobia was already a little embarrassed, and Kosmo kept staring at her, which made her even more embarrassed. She reached out and covered Kosmo's eyes with her hands.

After a while of noise, the two people's emotions finally calmed down a little. Seeing that the ward fell into silence again, Desdobia decided to take the initiative to find a topic. After all, if Kosmo came, he might say something straightforward that would embarrass her. Really, the demon was easy to deal with before, but since the arrival of the Fire Moth, the number of times she was defeated in front of the demon increased exponentially...

"Um... Ah Mo, I am also going to sign up for the Fusion Warrior Program." Desdobia said hesitantly. Of course, she was qualified to undergo the surgery, but the risk of the surgery was too high at this stage. She didn't know if Kosmo would agree. She also knew that Kosmo took a huge risk to undergo the Fusion Warrior surgery just to save her, so...

In fact, she didn't want to be protected by Amo like this in the future. She wanted to stand on the same level as Amo and fight side by side. It was basically certain that the fusion warriors led by Kevin and Feng would be the main force against the Herrscher in the future. If she was not a fusion warrior, sooner or later she would not be able to keep up with Amo's pace.

She had consulted Mobius before, and Mobius, who was busy trying to locate the core position of the Eighth Herrscher, simply said: "Just go to Lionel to help you arrange the time. If you have other questions, you can also ask Rovko or Beffinger."

Desdobia: "..."

Isn't the normal routine that you should explain to me the pros and cons, or ridicule me for how much effort Ah Mo put in to save me and then I am here trying to die?

But that's true. With Mebius's personality, apart from her own research work, she basically seldom cares about anything other than the vacation issues of Feng or Klein. Moreover, she really doesn't need to explain the relevant issues of consulting on the fusion warrior surgery. After all, the main person in charge is Lionel and the deputy person in charge is Beffinger.

Lionel... Desdobia still has a bad impression of this guy, but he is the person in charge, so she has to go through Lionel when going through the procedures - this is of course also because Mobius had performed the fusion warrior surgery in advance to create the first fusion warrior Xila. Now every fusion warrior must have a detailed file and go through a lot of procedures before the operation, just to prevent Mobius or possible crazy researchers like Mobius from performing fusion warrior surgery in private.

As for Beffinger... Destobia would rather go to Lionel than to Beffinger...

So she had no choice but to go to Lionel. Fortunately, Lionel didn't make things difficult for her. He just said, "I can approve your surgery application, but before that, I think you need to ask your lover's opinion."

When Desdobia expressed her thoughts, she was a little afraid to look into Kosmo's eyes. She didn't know how Ah Mo would react. She felt that her thoughts were very selfish. Ah Mo had obviously spent so much effort to save her and even risked his own death... and she just wanted to stand by Ah Mo's side and walk with him better, so she chose such a path...

She saw everything that Ah Mo had done for her, and she saw Ah Mo's feelings for her, so... she didn't want to become Ah Mo's weak spot, making Ah Mo worry about her safety all the time.

But if Ah Mo really objects...

“Although I really want to tell myself that I need to show my senior sister’s aura, but…” Desdobia thought with a wry smile, “As long as Ah Mo objects, I will definitely surrender immediately…”

After a while, when Desdobia thought that Kosmo must be against her undergoing the fusion warrior surgery, Kosmo said: "Desdobia, I... don't object to your choice..."

"Eh?"

"After all, you and I agreed not to have this surgery." Kosmo smiled and said, "In the end, I was the first to break the contract..."

"Aren't you... worried that my operation will fail?" Desdobia asked curiously.

"How could I not be worried?" Kosmo said helplessly, "It's just... I respect your choice."

It can't be said that he knew that Desdobia could pass the fusion warrior surgery, right? Although the possibility of accidents could not be ruled out, Kosmo knew in his heart that if he kept hesitating on some things in order to protect Desdobia, it might still backfire in the end if he protected her too much.

Just like how he had gone so far as to drag Desdobia along with him and not undergo the Fusion Warrior surgery in order to prevent her from participating in the positioning of the Eighth Herrscher, in the end Desdobia still got hit, and he was almost powerless to do anything about it.

Compared to the unknown, at least if Desdobia is given surgery this time, there shouldn't be any problem with Mebius, right?

If it really doesn't work, although Admiller deserves a beating, this time Admiller also owes me a debt. With Admiller and Mobius, there can't be any more accidents, right?

Of course, to be honest, Kosmo was still not very willing to let Desdobia take this risk, but he also knew Desdobia's character. During the battle against the Eighth Herrscher, Seele secretly gave him some information about Desdobia's dream. He realized that Desdobia could easily keep some things deep in her heart and then be detonated as a hidden mine.

In her previous life, Desdobia chose to escape from reality because of constant dilemmas, and this time, she escaped because she didn't want to see her comrades, especially herself, leave. Fortunately... her feelings for herself were strong enough to allow her to overcome the fear of loss.

Therefore, Kosmo knew that as long as he objected, Desdobia would definitely not undergo the fusion warrior surgery, but she would always mind this matter and feel uneasy about it.

She was actually... a very strong-willed girl, but also a very sensitive girl. This time, he took a big risk to undergo the fusion warrior surgery to save her. Even if he himself would not mind, when the idle warriors of the Fire Moth mentioned Desdobia, most of them would say, "Oh, the lover that Kosmo risked his life to save, right?"

Kosmo has always been very clear that Desdobia is not his vassal. He even feels that Desdobia is actually better than himself in many aspects, so he does not want such a situation to occur.

So, he chose to respect Desdobia's choice.

This time, Desdobia understood Kosmo's thoughts. She held Kosmo's hands with both of her own and said softly, "Thank you, Amo... Hehe... I... am really a very willful girl, right? Obviously..."

"No need to say more, Desdobia." Kosmo also held Desdobia's hand and said seriously, "No matter what kind of girl you are, you are the one I like, mine... mine..."

Kosmo was suddenly stuck, and couldn't utter the word "lover" when it came to his lips.

Desdobia smiled and said, "Now you, a fool, are finally embarrassed by your own words. Well, don't blame me for saying it, okay?"

"Because we are lovers. You tried your best to save me, so I will also try my best to stand with you."

After saying that, Desdobia leaned forward and kissed Kosmo's lips.

Kosmo: “!”

After a while, both of them separated with red faces, neither daring to look at each other.

"Is this what it feels like to kiss Ah Mo on my own initiative... Why does it feel different from when Lilith and Alicia kissed Feng?" Desdobia thought with her back to Kosmo, covering her face. "Is it because they are used to it?"

Kosmo also lowered his head and held his forehead.

(Destobia is so proactive this time... No, the book says that when a relationship reaches a certain point, it will definitely develop like this... And then, in the future... Should I ask Feng for her experience...)

"Ahem..." Kosmo coughed twice to change the subject, "Speaking of which, how are Feng and the others doing now?"

Destobia was just trying to change the subject, so she immediately said, "Feng is fine, but Astaroth... because she was severely eroded by Honkai energy, she will have to undergo Fusion Warrior surgery today... She is the youngest candidate to undergo Fusion Warrior surgery so far... Feng has no other choice..."

"Is that so..." Kosmo lowered his eyes, "Is that so... there is nothing we can do..."

"Dr. Admiral from Europe has come over for this operation." Desdobia said, "Astaroth...will be fine. Dr. Admiral and Dr. Mebius are both top figures in the field of biology."

Admiral is here at the headquarters too? That's just in time...

"Let's go and take a look later." Kosmo said. He believed that Zhu Yufeng would definitely be waiting outside the laboratory, and he also had something to say to Zhu Yufeng.

"Of course, after all, Astaroth is Feng's sister now." Destobia touched her chin, "Although little Grayshu seems very unhappy about this matter..."

(Maybe it’s because after Feng brought Astaroth back to the Fire Moth, she spent less time playing with Graysh… After all, after Astaroth returned to the Fire Moth, Feng did indulge Astaroth a little too much…)