If you can't learn, then just fall in love

Qingkong looked into Mitsuha's eyes seriously. "Although my memory is vague, I am sure I have seen you somewhere. It was about two and a half years ago, on the day when the Comet Tiamat fell."

Qingkong dug out all the fragments of his memory and wanted to piece them together.

The so-called jigsaw puzzle requires all the pieces to be put together. Qingkong, who was missing the most important pieces, couldn't figure it out no matter how hard he racked his brains.

However, Qingkong still tried hard to recall.

For the 'stranger' in front of me, the most familiar stranger.

With a splitting headache, but trying his best, Hanyu Aozora bit his fingers and searched among the fragments for any traces that Miyamizu Mitsuha had once been there.

"Are you okay, Qingkong?" Sanye looked at Qingkong with some concern, "You look a little pale."

"it does not matter."

Sanye stretched out her hand and gently placed it on Qingkong's forehead. "It's not necessary. We may have just met each other accidentally before. Because of the illusion of memory, we feel so familiar with each other. The divine body is just a coincidence. After all, we are just strangers..."

Mitsuha Miyamizu tried to deny her own existence from the root. She didn't want Qingkong to continue to recall the painful self without any trace.

What's the point even if Qingkong feels that he is someone he has met before?

If there is no trace of a person in the memory, then this person can be regarded as never having appeared, right?

"So don't think about it~ I'm just a senior of yours. I like your novels, and because of the book signing..." Suddenly finding that there was another blank in her memory, Mitsuha frowned her beautiful eyebrows, "Why would the black rabbit teacher who never shows up hold a book signing event..."

It seemed like it was related to her, but it definitely wasn't. After all, she had no connection with Hanyu Aozora at that time.

Shaking her head, Sanye pulled herself back to her senses. This was not what she wanted to do now. What she wanted was for Qingkong to stop remembering her and stop suffering so much.

"Just treat me as a stranger, Qingkong."

Not even familiar with him, just a passer-by.

Meeting in Tokyo or something like that was just a fantasy of mine, a baseless fantasy.

Smiling and saying the sad words, Mitsuha Miyamizu felt that she had done this kind of thing before, and it was probably for the idiot in front of her. Really, it was the second time, but she hadn't improved at all. It might be even sadder than that time.

"Anyway, forget about those things." Holding Qingkong's face, Sanye hid her inner sadness, "This is my last request."

"Last request?" Qingkong repeated, looking at Sanye speechlessly, "Why do I feel like you're saying this for the second time?"

"Really?" Sanye was stunned for a moment, and smiled awkwardly, "Why don't I remember it?"

Qingkong took a sip of coffee, and the bitter taste spread in his mouth, calming him down a little.

“It’s just that feeling.”

Sanye smiled bitterly, "I didn't expect Qingkong to be like me, a person who is particularly prone to fantasy. In this case, I would be deceived by a little girl who came from nowhere."

"Sanye, who lied to herself, has no right to criticize me." Qingkong propped up his side face and looked out the window. "You said that my familiarity with you was due to psychological suggestion. It is indeed possible. However, I also know some things you didn't say. This is not something that psychological suggestion can achieve."

"You never told me "Meet in Tokyo", but I did tell you that when we were in Itomori, right?"

Mitsuha nodded.

"You can say I'm a fantasy person or I'm mentally ill," Qingkong laughed softly, "I once promised the silly girl that I would find all the puzzle pieces without the key props."

That was a message left by myself before I lost my memory. It avoided all the key words and only left this meaningless sentence.

"You really are mentally ill..." Sanye looked at Qingkong helplessly, but was unexpectedly happy, "It's enough for me to be stupid alone."

"Keep your word. I haven't forgotten the family motto of the Hanyu family." Qingkong held his forehead. "I used to be quite confident in my memory, but you and Yotsuba made me doubt that I am a fool. I have to avenge my previous shame."

Spraying a mouthful of coffee, Sanye glared at Qingkong, "Do you still have feelings for my sister?"

The corners of Qingkong's mouth twitched after being sprayed all over his face. "What?"

Chapter 109: Yandere Diary

June 9 Sunny

I went to buy a novel written by Hanyu this morning and ran into him, Xiao Runxiang, and classmate Furuhashi. I felt a little unhappy for no reason, probably because there are always beautiful girls around that idiot.

For some reason, Hanyu went back home again, and we met by chance on the road. We were quite happy, but we also ran into Sawamura, Hanyu's ex-girlfriend.

I wanted to have lunch with Hanyu during lunch break because I was worried that the idiot would think too much about Sawamura-san, but I only saw Runxiang and Furuhashi-san in the place where he often hangs out. I was a little envious of Runxiang for being able to make friends so easily.

I don't know if it's an illusion, but I have a strange feeling about Furuhashi-san, like same-sex rejection. To borrow Hanyu's words, it's probably because of the duplication of attributes.

After school in the afternoon, that idiot invited me to Kanda Shrine, but my cousin was coming, so I refused him...

I should use this emoticon at this time. I remember he taught me this.

(；′⌒`)

But luckily, he told me everything, just like before. I don’t know if it’s because of meeting Sawamura-san, but my feelings for him are growing stronger. Can I really keep it a secret from him forever?

My love for him...

There is another thing that I am concerned about. Who is the person who spoke to Hanyu in the dream?

......

July 9rd cloudy

He was late today. When I passed by his classroom, I saw the empty seats and felt a little worried. I sent a message, but luckily I got back before the lunch break.

But why didn't he notice me? The 'he' who treated me as invisible couldn't be the one for me, right?

After school in the afternoon, he ignored me and left. Runxiang and I were a little worried about his condition, so we followed him. But we didn’t expect that idiot to go to the coffee shop with Guqiao and bump into Sawamura. I immediately didn’t want to pay attention to him anymore.

Anyway, I'm just very angry!

I asked him in the evening what happened that day, but he didn't tell me. Suddenly, there was very little he could write today.

I just flipped through my previous diary, and most of it was about him. But I really don’t have much to write. If I hadn’t met him, my world would be very bleak. After all, I’m just an ordinary person with no sense of existence...

It makes me sad to think about this. I hope he can be more normal tomorrow.

Otherwise I would be sad, after all, he is the only one who can notice me.

......

June 9 Sunny

He turned back into the normal Hanyu today, but why did he hook up with Furuhashi-san?

After school in the afternoon, I went to a coffee shop with my classmate Gu Qiao. He said he wanted to create a club so that everyone could study hard. I didn't have any objections, but there would definitely be problems in the end because there would only be one boy in the club.

Well...there was one happy thing. He helped me wipe the cream off the tip of my nose. He looked so cute when he was embarrassed.

I just asked him what happened yesterday. He said it was hard to explain but he still told me a lot of things that happened today. It’s great that I have something to record now.

But what exactly is it that makes a person become someone else?

I don’t understand, but I don’t want to experience that kind of alienation.

......

September-May Sunny

He is not normal again. Although he tries his best to hide it, he can't hide it from my eyes.

He behaves like a girl and gets scared when I get close to him, making me feel like a ghost.

Although it may be the same for others...but it is not the same for him, because he is the only one.

When I chatted with him just now, he was quite enthusiastic, but his girlish narration was very strange. Was he possessed by a fox fairy? Or was his twin sister taking his place in school?

Speaking of which, he said that the girl at the table in front of him asked him a question, but he couldn't answer it.

That girl should be Nakano Miku, one of the famous quintuplets in school. When did she get involved with him?

want to know.

Why do I feel like I'm becoming more and more like a yandere?

......

September 9th, cloudy

After school, I ran into him in the Homecoming Club.

It would be more accurate to say that I calculated the time he would go home rather than encountering him.

He was quite normal today and even complained to me about a very willful person. From his description, I thought that person was Sawamura-san, but after thinking about it, it didn't seem like the person because he always avoided mentioning her in front of me.

After thinking about it for a while, the person he was talking about was very similar to 'him', the abnormal him.

I've heard him talk about a friend before, who seemed to have a second personality due to family pressure. Could he, who is also under great pressure, also have a second personality?

But no matter what, he won't give birth to a feminine second personality. Although he looks cute, he is a very handsome boy.

If he saw this kind of compliment, he would definitely complain.

......

September 9th, cloudy

Hanyu told me about Sawamura-san. I have to say that Sawamura-san chose the dumbest way, but why do I feel a little uneasy?

It doesn't matter. What I hope is that he, the only one for me, is happy.

That's it.

In the library this afternoon, that idiot seemed to be getting along well with Nakano-san (the third girl). He was really popular (laughs).

......

December 9 Rain

Rainy days are his favorite weather. I like it too. It is a very happy thing to walk on the street with an umbrella while listening to the sound of rain.

He seemed really excited to be out and about all day, like a Shiba Inu running into the rain, so stupid.

When we were chatting, he turned into a girlish 'he' again. I couldn't help but wonder if he really had a second personality, or was it ●●●●?

However, he looks very tired. I hope he can have a good rest. After all, tomorrow is Monday.

......

June 9 Sunny

He really has a cold, I shouldn't have said such a bad thing...

When was the last time he caught a cold? I can't remember. Well, I can actually remember it if I look through my diary, but I don't want to think about it because that was a turning point.

I went to visit him at his home. He must have been shocked to see so many girls in front of him. But so was I. So many people were worried about him.

I don't know if Sawamura-san went there. I think he probably went there secretly and made a phone call downstairs or something.

Subtle dissatisfaction...

Forget it. Sawamura-san has nothing to do with me anyway. As long as he is happy, that's all that matters.

......

September 9th, cloudy

He actually took the initiative to ask Zemura out, which scared me, and he also sent me a message. It seemed that he was blinded by love. He would have avoided such things in the past.

However, he was indeed abnormal during this period, with his second personality appearing from time to time, so it was understandable that he would do such a thing.

But I was very upset and didn't reply to his message.

Sorry, I'm just really angry. If things go as planned...

Forget it, since he has made this decision, I will help him. After all, it has always been like this.

......

June 10 Sunny

That idiot didn't take the monthly exam and went to Itomori Town, a place I've never heard of, saying that he was doing ●●●●, which is really hard to understand.

But I was a little surprised that he didn’t reconcile with Eriri. Is the misunderstanding still not resolved?

......

September 10th, cloudy

●●●●?

It's hard to understand, but it really happened. In this case, it makes sense that Qingkong would become like that.

But what is the opportunity?

●●? Logically, that thing should be in Eriri or Aozora's hands, why does ●●●● also have it?