I changed green tea

It's really unlike you to be so downcast, and you're not some lost generation. Do something pragmatic instead of always being a literary stream of consciousness.

It’s not that I don’t want to pay attention to you recently. I really need to take care of my wife and deal with my mother.

How about you come out at noon and we can have lunch together?

It just so happens that she wants to meet you too. "When I needed his comfort, Jiang Gou was like a penniless poet. He knew I didn't want to listen to his talk.

But what Jiang Gou said does make sense.

I am limiting myself. Jiang Yuncun doesn't care, Bai Zhi doesn't care, and more importantly, why should I care if they care or not? My audience is watching me, not my feelings. They like Mu Mingxue who lives in the video.

No one can stand my increasing sentimentality, and I am willing to hear Jiang Gou say this.

It's time for someone to shatter my so-called dream. My recent actions are heading towards a dark valley.

But this was not enough to clear the clouds for me.

"Well, fine, it's your treat."

"I'll send you the coordinates." Jiang Gou's voice was normal and calm. He seemed to have completely forgotten about my ankle and just treated me as an ordinary friend.

I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked a little haggard and my face was thinner. Worry is really the best poison for staying in shape.

I am different from before, but I can't tell what's different. I put on makeup skillfully in front of the mirror, changed into a white dress that looks plain but reveals my collarbone, and still wear high heels.

I started the car and looked at the location he sent me. There was some traffic jam on the road and it took me half an hour to reach the restaurant. I let them eat first.

But when I went there, only cold dishes were served in the box. There was indeed an extremely gentle and lovely girl next to Fengqi. She was very pleasing to the eye, with an almond-shaped delicate face and wearing a light pink dress. But she was not cute, but the mature, quietly blooming peony. She was not playing with her cell phone, but leaning quietly next to Fengqi. When I just opened the door, she stood up politely and greeted me, which was very decent.

"It's Mingxue, right? I've heard your name many times. Seeing is believing. My name is Ye Zijin, and I'm Fengqi's fiancée." Her introduction seemed a little too polite and presentable.

"What a nice name."

"Waiter, please serve the food." Fengqi shouted. The waiter said okay. He also walked to my side and looked at me seriously.

"You must not have eaten well this month and have no work. You have lost weight and looked haggard. The psychological pressure you have imagined for yourself is too great." Jiang Gou stroked my hair with his hands in front of Ye Zijin.

I didn't struggle violently. I asked him to be more respectful and stop doing these things that were like being a mistress and trying to be a saint. The purpose of my visit today was just to see Jiang Gou and listen to him talk.

Ye Zijin knew everything that was just said on the phone. She was also well aware of the ambiguous feelings that Jiang Gou and I had had before. Her smile remained the same and was not frozen.

"Well, when I heard you say these words seriously on the phone, I was also feeling emotional. The former Jiang Gou has finally risen from the bottom of the river. I didn't expect that I am the most ridiculous person now.

I still want to hear you scold me more, to wake me up."

"Scold? There's no need for that. I've said everything I should have said very clearly. Zijin is by my side. Although it's free and easy to be a scumbag, the fallen leaves must always return to their roots. Our tradition still needs this kind of warmth." Jiang Gou spoke of warmth while holding Ye Zijin's hand.

Zijin's smile became even more gentle and warm, like the summer breeze.

Although Jiang Fengqi told me that this woman was just making do with her life, I could feel that he cared about Zijin. However, he always attached great importance to family values, including how he treated his younger brother Yuncun, Chu Zhaozhao...

He was very protective of his mother, and in response to my seemingly frivolous actions, he just flicked his hair and patted my shoulder.

"Be the bridesmaid when the time comes?" Jiang Gou chuckled casually.

"Sure, just don't have the bad habit of making trouble in the bridal chamber."

"No, I just want you to be my bridesmaid. Aren't we getting married together with Yuncun? I want you to witness our happiness. Maybe by then, you will understand some feelings."

"Well, maybe~" I didn't comment.

The food came, and Jiang Gou still sat next to Zijin, rubbing her belly, "It just came, don't be like this." Zijin gently pushed Jiang Gou.

"Then I feel it, do you think it will be a boy or a girl?"

"It's all good if it's your child."

"Then when your belly gets bigger, we'll play some prenatal music, classical music, haha. I can also play the piano. You never expected that, little idiot Zijin."

"Indeed... it's a little hard to tell."

"I'll get you some fresh yellow croaker to eat. Hey, I've thought about it. I'll take some time to contact you about how to make diapers. I'm really worried about finding a confinement nanny. Although my mother will accompany you, she's not very reliable. Don't expect your mother-in-law to take care of the child. This woman took me to eat hot pot and ice cream when I was two years old. I was really impressed. Haha, it's a miracle that I survived. By then, the child must be well-educated. I'll buy a house in the school district and let him go to the best private kindergarten in Hangzhou... He can't be as lazy as his father. He must study hard."

At this time, Jiang Gou was chattering on and on, and he looked really silly. His words sounded enthusiastic, humorous and witty, but the most important thing was that he was not talking to me.

During the meal, he spent most of the time introducing how he met Amy Yip.

He slept with her on the first blind date, thinking that this woman was casual, but he didn't expect that she had been in love with Jiang Gou for a long time.

"Fate is really amazing. Zijin is a silly woman, but luckily she met me who has a change of heart. Tell me, if you met another man, wouldn't it be extremely dangerous?"

"I've always liked you." Jiang Gou smiled foolishly, and Ye Zijin responded sweetly.

"Hey, I, Jiang, am still very good. Women always like bad guys like me. Hahaha." At this time, he was arrogant again, as he had not been for a long time.

"Be good to Ye Zijin and don't mess around with other women in the future." I knew it was a little ridiculous for me to say this.

"No, Fengqi is doing well now and spends a lot of time with me."

"Yeah, silly Mingxue, you said I wouldn't even look for you, so how could I be interested in other mediocre women, rotten fish and shrimp? Haha, you have spoiled my vision, and Ye Zijin has spoiled my taste..."

Now I know that Jiang Fengqi is no longer a Jiang dog. He is even further away from me than Jiang Yuncun. His enthusiasm for me has long since ebbed. He can talk about these things in front of me calmly. Whether I am important or not is not a question for me anymore.

He won't linger on my makeup anymore, and I can't fool myself into having such fantasies anymore.

I finished the meal with a smile.

It’s not that Jiang Gou, whom I used to sneer at, has changed completely. I just knew from the beginning that no matter whether he is good or bad, he is at least sincere.

The reason he didn't touch me is probably because he likes Amy Yip, right?

After the meal, Jiang Fengqi didn't keep me, didn't say anything more, and didn't continue to reason with me. Ye Zijin didn't eat much.

"This restaurant has too many customers, and the taste is still too strong. Don't you like it? I'll go home and make you a bowl of light beef noodles, how about that?"

"Okay~" Ye Zijin lowered her head and looked at Jiang Fengqi. She didn't ask for anything, but she had everything. Standing in the dimly lit place, Jiang Fengqi still held his hand.

My thoughts are still on that restless, scorching summer, but the cool October evening breeze makes me realize that it is already autumn.

But I didn't feel too bitter. This meal was certainly not just about eating. What Jiang Fengqi wanted me to see was a normal family. It was his definition of happiness no matter he was an ordinary person or a rich man.

That is normal and equal love based on a certain material foundation.

Abnormal love is nothing but a flash in the pan. You lick me and I lick you. You think through me and I see through him. This kind of romance is ultimately just a ballad of youth.

We are still singing about the era of fluttering white clothes, and we are still singing about love. It is no different from the campus songs in the 1990s. I am still staying in some broken times, picking up those self-righteous old songs to listen to.

Only in the land fertilized with blood can golden ears of wheat and coachman's songs grow. This sentence in my high school textbook once again emerged in my mind. It is no wonder that only weeds grow on my fields, which are casually sown to the cheerful drumbeats.

I am not repeating the same mistakes or going around in circles; most of the problems a person encounters in life are a result of choices.

I waved at Jiang Fengqi and took out my cell phone. I haven't listened to music for a long time.

Play a song called "Yankee Diary".

……

I didn't quit my job, nor did I ridiculously withdraw from the circle. When Yuncun and Jiang Fengqi posted their wedding photos on their WeChat Moments, I had already shot countless videos. Yuncun gave me the SLC as a reward.

I don’t have many memories of my days at school. I had more and more clothes on and the days were getting colder.

Occasionally I would go to the subway without driving because there were posters of mine there.

Baizhi didn't have any fights with me anymore. She was very happy and busy around Yuncun. Of course, it wasn't work, but sending invitations, wedding planning, redecorating and shopping.

I don’t know if I have let it go, but I know that I slowly started to tease her and also said some bad things about Baizhi.

I play Dota occasionally, but I don’t really pay attention to the competition.

I also started to try live streaming. After get off work, I would communicate with those so-called fans and passers-by, occasionally smearing honey on my lips. It was very abstract. Jiang Fengqi was paving the way in front, and I didn't need to participate in the crazy fan festival card application and lottery. I just treated this as a side job, which was quite interesting.

In mid-December, Baizhi and Ye Zijin almost simultaneously asked me to go try on bridesmaid dresses. The hotel had been booked and the guests were confirmed.

Of course, without Qin Huan and Xu Yan, but with Wang Ru and Chen Cheng, our company has not expanded much. Yuncun still likes such a small workshop. More importantly, his focus is already on Baizhi.

Before the formal wedding, there is a big engagement ceremony, which is the night before, when bridesmaids and close relatives and friends are invited to come over.

I also met Mu Wan and Chu Zhaozhao who had disappeared for a long time, as well as Jiang Fengqi's entire family.

I saw Aunt Su Su Bingyao, Feng Qi's mother, Bai Suyi, Chu Zhaozhao's mother, Chu Zixin, and Mu Wan's mother... Mu Zhiqing. They had the same beauty as my mother.

Especially Mu Wan's mother, she and Aunt Su seemed to be talking about me and smiling at me.

Jiang Fengqi also introduced me to another auntie, Lin Simeng? Her daughter is not in Hangzhou.

Yan Gege, came here from Guangcheng.

Wang Yan...this person...seemed to have little sense of presence. She sat in the corner quite stiffly. She just greeted me gently and didn't say anything after that. She was very quiet. Her appearance, dress and temperament were slightly inferior to those other ladies who looked graceful and elegant.

Jiang Fengqi doesn’t have many friends, and Yuncun doesn’t have many either, just a very large number of Jiang family relatives, mostly women.

And Jiang Fengqi's father... I think his name is Jiang Yunheng, he looks quite young, and he actually chatted with me, which was quite funny. He opened his mouth and said that his name was Yunheng, Qinling Jiahezai, and what considerations he had when naming Fengqi and Yuncun.

The meal was very lively, and I got to know these important members in advance. When I went to the bathroom halfway, I happened to meet Mu Wan.

"Fengqi is married." She smiled and looked at me in the mirror.

"Well, you are dressed very beautifully today."

"You too, to be exact, we are always beautiful."

"Do you like Ye Zijin?"

"How could I like him? I'm just like you. We both like Jiang Fengqi, even though we always call him Jiang Gou." Mu Wan said this casually, which was enough to surprise people.

But I was prepared, there were many clues about her.

"Probably, I can more or less guess a little bit, just like Chu Zhaozhao also likes Yuncun."

They should also understand that this is not true love, but a kind of reminiscing about the happy days in the past when we were together, laughing today and next year, and playing pranks on me together.

"I thought I was here to stop you, but I didn't expect that a girl on a blind date, with the traditional matchmaker's advice of being well-matched, could actually win Feng Qi's heart." Mu Wan leaned against me, "Do you want to go find a place to drink tonight?"

"No, let's get drunk tomorrow. I have to go to the girl's house at 8 o'clock tomorrow to be a bridesmaid and put on makeup."

"Zhao Zhao and I are also bridesmaids. There is also Aunt Yan's woman, Yan Lingsha. She didn't attend the evening banquet. There are four bridesmaids. It's quite interesting. We are all bridesmaids."

"Isn't this great? Watching the man I've loved so much walk into the marriage hall."

"You let it go?"

"Almost? I guess I'll be almost drunk tomorrow."

“Is it really the same?”

"They should, we're bridesmaids, we're there to keep them company, eat and drink well, and play some games. They'll give us red envelopes, right?" I shrugged.

"Mingxue, I want to stay at your house tonight." Mu Wan looked in the mirror and touched up her makeup.

"I just live in Jiang Fengqi's house."

"I know, but it's you who's sleeping on that bed, right? We haven't had a private conversation for a long, long time, right?" Mu Wan chuckled. She no longer had the aloofness she had when I first met her. We hardly met or chatted during this period, but we seemed to be very familiar with each other's unchanging nature.

"What's the secret you want to talk about?"

"Yes, as long as you are willing to listen, just like I am willing to listen to your complaints~?"

"Well, do you want to call Chu Zhaozhao?"

"Don't take her with you. This woman is too troublesome." Mu Wan smiled mischievously.

"What are you talking about? Why are you talking so loudly in public? And why don't you take me with you?" Chu Zhaozhao frowned and pretended to be angry.

"This way we can be together tomorrow. I don't want to hear you guys talking about me behind my back."

"Tonight is about men, not you."

"That's great. I plan to discuss it with you as well."

"Well, let's go together. My bed is quite big." The three of us laughed as we looked at it.

We in the mirror are chatting and laughing, lively and not lonely at all.

We seem like old friends who have met again after a long separation, even though we were so strangers and couldn't communicate before?

Back at the table, the ladies were talking about their own topics. They were all concerned about Fengqi and Yuncun, but more importantly, the baby in Zijin's belly. It was three months old, and the baby was gradually visible. Zijin was sitting there, and Fengqi was picking up the dishes. His father was also very excited, saying that the family finally had the first inherited incense. He looked quite young, but at heart he was still the same as Jiang Fengqi, traditional?

It's 9012 and we're still using incense. Fortunately, these goddess-level ladies here don't have female boxers, otherwise I'd warn you.

Bai Zhi is not pregnant yet. She said she wanted to go out for a while. She rarely shows up in public anymore. Yuncun doesn't like his wife being criticized by others.

Fengqi complained about how unreliable his mother was in the past.

His father was also over there, laughing and saying, "Hehe, yes, Bai Suyi is really an idiot. When she was pregnant, she loved to eat a lot and couldn't control her mouth. After giving birth to you, she became so delicate. She wouldn't even walk around. I told her that she had gained weight, but she still refused to accept the reality. If your aunts hadn't come over and said that this wasn't okay, she would probably have just been lying in bed motionless. She has the figure she has now, all thanks to me... Aoaoao." Jiang Yunheng started shouting before he finished speaking.

Bai Suyi pretended to cough beside her.

"Tell me the truth, why did you step on me?" Jiang Fengqi's dad is indeed quite interesting and not very serious. No wonder Fengqi is like this.