I changed green tea

I repeatedly rejected the school's request for me to give a speech, but my superiors just wouldn't let me. The counselor came to my dormitory every day, and the head teacher came to the classroom to find me every day, and insisted that I share my experience, of which I had no idea whatsoever.

I also went as a special guest during the club orientation session shortly after the new students entered the school.

The host insisted that people like me are the pride of the school. I am particularly humorous and have positive energy. I rely on my own efforts...

Of course, I can't say on stage that I am a two-timing person. Of course, I can't say how much struggle I had in between, how much pain I was in, and I won't say that I have an inextricable connection with Fengqiyun.

I smiled under the lights, faked a smile, gave polite congratulations, and said some chicken soup that seemed to make sense but was actually nonsense. I repeatedly emphasized that I am just an ordinary person, but I worked hard, so I have achieved the success I have now. I also said that the prospects for our professional development are still very good, and opportunities and challenges coexist...

There was thunderous applause from the audience. I was not quite clear-headed at that moment. I was holding the microphone and thinking about what position Jiang Fengqi would be in with his woman tonight.

My junior classmates asked me questions enthusiastically, and I pretended to answer them seriously, selectively using a few easy-to-understand terms.

But when I returned to the dormitory, Yan Mingyu and Lian Ying didn't talk to me much. Mingyu and Lian Ying were going to share a house outside in October. I didn't contact them much during the whole summer. I didn't choose them last time, and I was talking about business considerations, which sounded ridiculous. Sometimes I am too objective, and sometimes I am too subjective. I went wrong in many seemingly correct choices, and in the end I simply gave up on myself.

When everyone was busy, I was hiding in the dormitory alone. You say it was safe? ? There was nothing safe about it. When I was playing Dota, I always had a lot of things and thoughts in my mind. I said that I could no longer play a game purely, nor could I purely enjoy the passionate competition of Dota.

I don’t have many friends or lovers, and the number of people around me who I can really talk to is not just a handful, but zero.

Jiang Fengqi said he would take care of me and contact me, but since then, I didn't look for him, and he didn't look for me either. He even rarely updated his Moments, and when he occasionally said something, it was very bland.

Yuncun's conversations with me became increasingly simple. By the end of September, he no longer had any work matters to report, and he did not ask me questions about the script I had left for Baizhi.

When Mingyu and Lianying saw me in the dormitory, they greeted me in a very unfamiliar way, as if the summer vacation was a big river that separated us on two opposite banks.

They all have some degree of fear of strangers and deliberately keep their distance from me.

Although Mingyu still called me Sister Xue with a smile, I seemed to be in a different world from them now. Lian Ying half-jokingly asked me why I was still staying in the dormitory, "You are such a big shot~"

Although she was joking, she seemed to understand deep down that some things were irreversible.

I just smiled and responded, knowing full well that they would drift away from me eventually.

I originally wanted to do some superficial work, and I do have quite a bit of spare cash on hand. Yuncun and Fengqi kept stuffing money into my hands under various names.

I didn't return it with guilt, but accepted it all. I didn't buy any expensive clothes, nor did I change into any more outrageous sports cars. As long as Yuncun didn't say anything, I would hold the key to the SLC forever, and as long as Jiang Gou didn't jump, I would live in that house until he wanted to take it back.

I don’t know if this counts as losing them, but at least I want to enjoy the last bit of warmth they left for me. It seems that this way I can still feel the few cares they have for me. They will give me money, a place to live, and a car…

In fact, I could just casually say somewhere we should go for dinner and I would treat, but I didn't feel there was any need.

I no longer want to improve the so-called relationship, or even if the relationship is improved, it doesn't seem to make much sense?

When Mingyu and Lianying were discussing what to eat, they would never take me along, thinking that I would definitely not be interested and would definitely not be worldly-minded.

But I still walked into the greasy Sichuan restaurant alone, ate boiled fish alone, went to noodle shops, casserole shops, Shengzhou rice cakes...

But others think I am just experiencing life?

On the first day of the October holiday, I drove back to the company. This month passed quickly at school. There were trivial things to do almost every day. I slept cramped but soundly in the lower bunk of my narrow hardwood dormitory.

I sent a message to Yuncun, and Yuncun said okay, he was in the company and happened to be shooting a commercial today. He asked me if I had thought of a new script, and I said no, and he just replied with an "oh", and told me to talk about it when I got back to the company.

He doesn't care about what happened to me in the past month, how I feel now, or anything else, and there is really no reason for him to care.

As soon as I entered the company, I saw Bai Zhi chatting and laughing with Wang Ru. She was now dressing more and more boldly. Yuncun's clothes were also starting to become less formal, and were becoming more and more casual and trendy.

Bai Zhi is now full of confidence. "Mingxue, you're finally back. We've all missed you this month. Coincidentally, I've also written a script like you. Would you like to take a look?"

She held Yuncun's hand so naturally and stood beside me with him. I looked at the script and said it was good.

Yuncun smiled and said that Baizhi wrote all of them under his guidance.

"Hate it, why are you exposing my shortcomings? Really? Besides, it was clearly the result of the two of us having a heated discussion all night long, so how can it be your sole credit?" Bai Zhi was not being pretentious at this time, but was acting coquettishly naturally.

A heated discussion all night? They already live together?

"Haha, I didn't say it was just my fault. Under my guidance, I also touched upon your subjective initiative."

"Go away... you're just talking nonsense. Let's go to work. Mingxue is back. You should be serious and talk about work~"

When I was leaving in the afternoon, Jiang Yuncun said to me, "Mingxue, let me tell you in advance that Baizhi and I are planning to get married at the end of the year. We are still preparing the invitations. No matter what happens, you must come to attend. I have set up two tables in our company."

"So fast?" I blurted out the words. They haven't known each other for a long time. Shouldn't Yuncun, a traditional person, have further contact?

"Hurry up! If you don't hurry up, you'll be eaten up by this big-tailed wolf." Bai Zhi's originally clear eyes now showed a lot of charm. Her smile was no longer innocent, but was tinged with more charm. She covered her mouth and chuckled. She could even make such a joke. This was not a deliberate show-off, but Yuncun was really in love with her.

"Why am I a big shot? I am a gentleman after all..."

"Tsk tsk, you claim to be a gentleman, but you're actually a bad guy~ Okay, okay, I'll give you face as long as you're still working." She rolled her eyes at Yuncun and looked at him with a somewhat amorous expression.

"What happened to Mr. Jiang?" Wang Ru also came over and laughed.

"Then... it's not something that can be told to outsiders~"

"I mean, Mr. Jiang, ahem, is very bad at home?"

"Hehehe, that's what you said~"

Yuncun coughed and said, "Okay, stop talking about nonsense. Let's get back to work!" He also clapped his hands with a half smile and did not deny it.

I feel like I should have let it go, knowing that Jiang Yuncun would become the soda bottle cap in my youthful memories, serving as hard currency in the ruins of love to exchange for the comfort that once filled my heart.

I can't say anything now, and I'm half asleep and half awake. I won't say that this place doesn't need me and I'll just leave. I can only bite the bullet and tell Yuncun, "Yuncun, you have Baizhi, and I won't do the show anymore."

I still want to make money. I don’t want my life to stop anymore, because once I stop, I will start thinking about my existence again.

Some immature ideas have emerged in my mind, for example, I want to take back Yuncun now, is it possible?

There are many things that only become precious, valuable, and particularly brilliant in the hands of other people, such as Jiang Yuncun who is with Bai Zhi.

As I walked to my car without saying a word, Baizhi followed me unconsciously.

She looked at me, "Mingxue, I really thank you~ Now I am with Yuncun, which was just a dream for me before~ If you hadn't given me the opportunity, how could Yuncun have set a wedding date with me now~ Hehehe.

I think you and I can be each other's colleagues and Yuncun and I can be husband and wife in the future. This kind of life is really good.

It’s just that I see that you seem a little unhappy? I really didn’t show off in front of you... nor did I want to snatch you away... It’s just that I really like Yuncun, and I like him more and more. "

"Well, then you just live a good life with him. You don't have to tell me this again. It makes a single woman like me envious." I pretended to be indifferent and smiled jokingly.

"Yes... We will try to be more restrained in the future. Yuncun said that we still have to listen to you at work. You are the backbone of the company's growth to this point~ But Mingxue, I really want to be friends with you. In fact, if you think about it carefully, you still have many advantages and talents~"

"Sure, we can be friends. I admire you a lot, haha." I glanced at Bai Zhi. Although her current high spirits were not based on my pain, they made me feel a little lost, uncomfortable, jealous, and a little crazy.

We exchanged pleasantries and laughed, and both she and I probably knew that we were just playing around.

Baizhi just saw the unhappiness in my eyes and came to comfort me, and tactfully reminded me not to make trouble. They were getting married, and I was not the bride. We could be friends, but being friends meant that I had to reach a consensus with her on this point.

When our conversation ended and I got back in the car, I wasn't in a hurry to start it.

Three roads vaguely appeared in front of me.

It's like a branch of the game, determining why I'm alive, or what my ending will be.

Chapter 173: Goodbye! (1 words)

Should I admit that Bai Zhi and Jiang Yuncun are together? Should I give up all these meaningless thoughts and struggles? Should I stay and accept it, or should I accept the reality and leave?

If I stayed to counterattack, that would be interesting. If I stayed to make money, then at most, no matter how shameless I am, I can only make enough money until Jiang Yuncun gets married.

Some things cannot be endured in a few words. I looked at the steering wheel, thinking that the car was not mine and the house was just rented. I said that all the superiority only came from their tolerance towards me now. After getting married, Bai Zhi will have complete control of the situation. The way she talked to me just now, saying that we were becoming friends, did not seem to be very domineering, but at least, she was confident of victory.

She felt that I would not resist, that I was tired of going around in circles like this, and that someone like Yuncun already had her in his eyes.

After all, it was me who abandoned Yuncun…

Let Yuncun go, and let myself go, too? Haven’t I always wanted to leave? Leave the colorful world of fame and fortune, leave the distant place and dream city that belonged to my original fantasy.

I leaned on the steering wheel and slowly convinced myself.

I feel like I have entered autumn. Other people's farmlands are full of fruits and golden wheat ears, but my farmland is covered with weeds. I planted beans at the foot of the southern mountain, but the grass is thick and the bean sprouts are sparse.

I was starving, but I had to drive home eventually. Oh, yes, that was not my home, it was the roof that Jiang Gou gave me.

Life is certainly not a fog to me. I still have many stories and resources in my hands. As long as I want, I have plenty of ways to make Jiang Yuncun inseparable from me. I just want to be more shameless. I have done many wrong things. The worst plan is nothing more than to make Bai Zhi hate me again? ~

Forget it, forget it, I kept reminding myself that after doing so many ridiculous mistakes and getting so emotionally involved, Yuncun really couldn’t stand my torture.

I'm not really sure whether I should leave.

I need help from others. Many times people say to live for yourself, but I still want to hear his opinions. After all, I can't live simply for myself.

I lay in bed motionless for a long time, and finally I wanted to call Jiang Gou.

"Hey, Jiang Fengqi, have you eaten?"

"I was just about to take her out for dinner. What happened? She didn't call me for so long. Today, she suddenly..."

"Yuncun and Baizhi are doing very well... They are getting married at the end of the year. It's already October, so no matter how you calculate it, there are still two months left."

"Almost... She and I are planning to get married at the end of the year. I'll tell you in two days. We'll just get together and do it. The guests invited by my parents will be similar. After all, some things can't withstand too much waiting. I don't want my love to be exhausted. It's reasonable to tie myself down with marriage. The woman is already pregnant. It will be exactly three months by the end of the year." Jiang Gou's voice was quite gentle. I could hear his breathing. The girl was leaning in his arms now, listening to our phone call quietly and obediently, right?

"Are you going to get married? This arrangement... is pretty good, haha. Then should I move out? Jiang Fengqi, and Yuncun's job... should I not continue doing it?" I asked with a little lack of confidence.

"I know what you are struggling with. But, it is true that I don't care about these things. For Jiang Yuncun, once he makes a choice, there will not be much room for turning back. They are already married, and he is still loyal to love.

You can live in my house as long as you want. I can transfer it to you. You should also have a place to stay in Hangzhou. Of course, it depends on you. I know you are very conflicted now because I turned around and left, and Yuncun couldn't be with you.

We are not stingy when it comes to material things, but emotionally... you can only find another way out.

But my suggestion is that you stay, Yuncun will always need you.

Of course, there are other compromises. For example, you can learn to shoot vlogs and short videos by yourself in the future, and find a city you like, it can be Hangzhou or your home, and start a live broadcast. With the popularity you have accumulated now, I will set up a guild for you to make some money, and you don’t have to please any rich people. I will also have movie auditions here. If you like, I can give you these opportunities.

Your current conditions are very favorable. Don't always go from one extreme to another. Judging from your tone, you have been very depressed these days. How could Yuncun not notice it?

He has come to me several times and asked me whether he should go with Baizhi. My suggestion is still Baizhi, not you.

He still needs this kind of girl who is just making do with her life and is not that good. No matter how much you move people's hearts and do something else, it will be very tiring. After defeating Qin Huan, you will defeat Bai Zhi and take back Yuncun? This goal is meaningless to you. You can't always spend your life on others. More importantly, it was you who gave up Yuncun, right?

It's not that you will never regret a move, but sometimes you have to do so.

Now all of Yuncun’s friends and family know about it, Baizhi has already started picking out invitations, and we’re going to take wedding photos in a few days.”

The sound of the river wind was a little ethereal, like chess pieces in the distant desert, flying and dancing, and then sinking with the sun.

"I've been calling you Jiang Gou Jiang Gou, but I think I'm the one... I don't know what I'm doing now. I'm not happy no matter what I do. I'm not happy at all. I have a lot of things stuck in my heart. I want to be bad but I don't dare. I want to be good but I can't stand watching you and Yuncun just casually get married with other girls... Everyone around is happy, but I'm the only one standing still. I shattered Qin Huan's beautiful dream, but my own dream was also smashed to pieces on the ground. What should I do?"

"Silly Mingxue, can you do this? You sound like you can't live like this? Don't you still have DOTA and Steam? Don't you always like being alone?"

"All this is in the past. I'm not even happy playing DOTA anymore, understand? Jiang Fengqi, I have nowhere to hide now. The bed I sleep in was given by you. I'm going to be penniless soon. The seemingly glamorous days are just an empty shell. I'm not interested in anything. I'm so annoyed." I complained.

"You woman, really, you want too much. Isn't life like this good? How much money have I stuffed into your hands? I haven't touched a cent of the business bill money. How many people want this bright and beautiful empty shell? You are still complaining here. It's not that you should be content, but your current life is of no use at all.

You don't love Jiang Yuncun and don't want him to leave? What you miss in your heart is really Jiang Yuncun? Is it really the so-called feelings? Or is it the feeling that Jiang Yuncun devoted himself to you and revolved around you when Bai Zhi was not around?

To put it bluntly, what you want is a bootlicker and a spare tire, and what you want is a life that is glamorous on the surface and glamorous on the inside.

So many people like to read your works and leave messages on your various accounts every day. Isn’t that enough?

You don’t know how many men’s dream lover you are. You have such a comfortable life that others can’t even dream of. The discomfort you feel now is only temporary.

Are you the one who is really suffering?

You will soon be too old to do such boring petty bourgeois tricks. However, this does mean that you are now well fed and well-fed, so you have so much leisure to think about these things. Mingxue, it's time for you to return to your original appearance.

Aloof, normally lonely, with strong criticism and straightforward subjective justice.

Now you can live whatever you want. Think carefully about how high your starting point is. Hangzhou is no longer the city of your dreams, but the road you are on.

The biggest media company plays house with you, you have the best resources to use however you want, your clicks are high, many people want to invest in you, and even your school, people in your circle are amazed at your success and are singing praises for it.

No one knows that you are just a little woman who likes to throw tantrums like this.

Don't go backwards as you grow older, Mu Mingxue. You have countless good qualities. You are the embodiment of all kinds of noble qualities. Don't extinguish yourself little by little. We have made great efforts to prevent you from being lost in the dust.

How much patience and persistence did I use to be a good man in front of you and not touch you.

Don't think too much, just be yourself.

You are obviously freer than before, so why tie yourself up in knots?

Does it mean love only if she has to sleep with me or get entangled with this or that man?

Do you think this is life if you insist on me licking you all the time and keeping you trapped in the dreamy ivory tower?

Think carefully about what you are doing and why you are making these videos.

Work can be influenced by positive emotions. After all, this career is not just about the growth of Jiang Yuncun's company. Even if Bai Zhi and Jiang Yuncun have a second child, you will still be their pillar of support.

There are always people in this world who need your spiritual comfort. Your videos have both content and commercial value, and they embody many symbols of the entire golden age.

Don't be so self-deprecating.

Hamlet once said, "Even if I am in a nutshell, I still think I am a monarch with unlimited space." How come it's the other way around for you? You are standing in front of such a great opportunity, standing on the high steps we have built for you, but all you see is the sky in all directions?