Longmen Memoirs

snake.

He couldn't hold on to anything. He tried to fight against his fate countless times. However, every fate beat him black and blue and told him that he could not escape, avoid, or hide. His fate was watching. he.

What's even more desperate is that he still refuses to give up. Even if he has no companions, even if he can't get any help, he can only choose to fight alone to avoid involving too many people.

Snake, maybe he is indeed a cold, cool person.

His coolness and cold-bloodedness come from the burning love and enthusiasm in his heart.

He has a pair of good parents, and most of the people he meets in his future life are people who treat him sincerely. He just happens to be burdened with a past that does not belong to him, and he is born into a life that he did not choose.

He tried to choose what kind of person he would be, but some things were already destined at birth.

What did he do wrong?

The only thing he did wrong was that just because he still had a trace of kindness and extravagant expectations left in him, he ended up in such a miserable end.

The dawn of Ursus came with a cry of feathered beasts, and the bonfire was extinguished in the middle of the night. There was no one in front of the extinguished fire, and the food in the cooking pot on the wooden rack had already cooled down.

The thin sunlight in the early morning shines through the gaps in the leaves onto the leaf-covered ground. The smell of dead leaves decaying in the sun rushes into the tip of the nose along with the unfamiliar breath.

Texas leaned against Chen Mo, her long dark blue hair draped over Chen Mo's shoulders. The coats that covered the two of them at some point last night, the girl's slight and gentle breathing, the thin red hair on her forehead. It becomes extremely conspicuous in the sunlight.

Chen Mo opened his eyes.

He was aware of Texas leaning against him, and he felt a hand grasping his palm tightly.

He was slightly surprised, but quickly calmed down.

He relaxed his guard last night, without feeling uneasy or worried. He slept deeply last night, lost his guard, and slept peacefully like an ordinary person.

But this is not a good thing. For Chen Mo, this is not a good thing.

Extravagant demands, no, it is far from the end, he should not have extravagant demands.

Chen Mo didn't move. He didn't wake up Texas until he felt that Texas' closed eyes still hadn't opened, but the hand holding him quietly loosened under his coat.

Chen Mo knew that Texas had woken up, but she didn't know how to face the scene after waking up.

Chen Mo closed his eyes.

Texas quietly opened her eyes. She raised her head slightly and saw the snake that had not yet woken up. She was inexplicably relieved in her heart. She carefully took off her coat and stood up from the snake.

Looking at the snake leaning against the tree and not yet waking up with complicated eyes, Texas seemed to be hesitating. In the end, Texas did not take back her coat.

Before returning to camp.

Texas stared blankly at the palm of his hand, the rusty nameplate in his hand.

Dog, Texas has a new code name.

Chen Mo started to call her that occasionally. He said it was because of convenience, but Texas didn't think so.

Texas doesn't like this title very much, not because it's too close, but because it feels strange and nondescript.

But Texas has always rarely mentioned her own opinions, including on this matter, she did not express her own opinions.

Maybe one day my past will catch up with me.

Maybe, I wasn't ready by then.

But I still have to face it, if I need to face it.

Chapter 36 w is a weird person

【May 7

I have done many wrong things in the first half of my life, so I have reason to believe that my downfall is the retribution I deserve, and sometimes I inevitably wonder why so many people in the world have made mistakes. It just so happened that I got this ending.

I can't find the answer, just like I can't tell whether I am a good person or a bad person from beginning to end.

If you look at it from ordinary people's perspective.

I have saved many people, I have given them hope, and even changed their suffering.

But equally, I have killed many people, destroyed everything for them, and become the devil and butcher they call me.

I've done a lot of both good and bad things.

I gradually discovered that no one in this world is absolutely good and no one is absolutely bad.

small tower.

Most people are kind at heart. When they came into this world knowing nothing, they were the cleanest beings. But later on, people will also change. Because they meet certain people and certain things, they will change. Through change, some become what we often call good people, and some become bad people.

A good person in the eyes of a bad person and a bad person in the eyes of a good person.

Nothing you do is thorough enough.

I think I may have gradually become this weird person. At some point in time that people don't understand, most people are good at interpreting the things they encounter with what they can see. 】

------

Germany [{-

Inside the slightly bumpy car, dust was rising outside the car, and the misty sky at the end was gloomy gray.

This was the first time Texas noticed the yellowed diary in Chen Mo's hand. The paper sandwiched in the diary showed that this thin diary was quite old.

"What are you writing about?" she looked away and asked.

"Diary." Chen Mo put the diary into the front compartment.

"Oh."

"Where are we?"

"We should be almost at the town the villagers mentioned." Texas replied. As her voice fell, after turning the corner, the outline of a moving town gradually appeared in the field of vision behind the slope.

The mobile city lies dormant in the valley below the mountains, blocked by the undulating terrain, like a huge beast. From a distance, the outlines of the city buildings on its back look like small models under the gray sky.

Stay away.

The town looks very small, so small that it can be held in one hand.

The wind from the hillside flows into the dusty and muddy car along with the winding road.

"Don't forget the entry permit." Chen Mo reminded as he looked at the distant towns.

"Are we going into town?"

"If you want to go in, if you keep running like this, even if the car can bear it, the people can't." Chen Mo replied. He looked at Texas, who was slightly thinner, and her tired face.

Texas, who has lived in the city most of his life, has never experienced this kind of life in exile in the wilderness, but for Chen Mo, this is just the most common part of his life.

"Usas people have never been very friendly towards outsiders, especially foreigners like us who appear suddenly. I heard that Ursus has also set up a special team in the frozen soil of the north and northwest to investigate illegal immigrants. personnel and the picket troops hiding infected persons in the territory." Chen Mo said, and then asked: "Do you still remember our identities?"

"Businessman?" Texas asked.

"Change, now we are a traveling couple. You are my wife. The purpose of our coming to Ursus from Letania is to visit the tribesmen who immigrated here in the early years and bring greetings from the elders in the family."

Texas' calm eyes flickered slightly.

"remember."

"Hide your weapons."

"Ah."

The town looked very close, but it was already dark when they entered it.

Texas clearly saw Snake handing a few banknotes inside the entry permit to the official responsible for checking the city's entry gate, and then their car passed the gate smoothly without being like a few local vehicles blocking the door. Being investigated one by one.

"The customs officials in these remote towns have little to gain, so whenever outsiders or caravans enter the city, they will use their right to conduct investigations to make things difficult for them. This is almost the same in similar cities in every country. They It doesn’t take much, it usually depends on the size of the people entering the city, it can save everyone a lot of trouble.”

Meeting Texas' gaze, Snake opened his mouth to explain.

"You don't need to explain to me."

"I know you are very smart, Texas." Chen Mo said: "You can understand these truths, but for some small businessmen and civilians, they would rather be made things difficult than pay the money, just like what we just saw That's what you have to do, so you have to learn to get used to it and get used to how to behave in whatever role you are."

"Are you teaching me?"

"It's just a suggestion, not teaching. At most, we can learn from each other. I hope you can know how to deal with it when you encounter similar things in the future." Chen Mo said: "As we just said, can you think of You understand what I’m saying, but when you encounter it for the first time, you don’t necessarily know what to do.”

Texas was quiet for a moment.

She did not refute, because she knew that what the snake said was right, and she could understand the truth of what the snake said, but if she faced this situation, maybe she would be as stupid as those who were blocked at the door. He was investigated when both parties found it troublesome.

"You seem to know a lot about this?" Texas asked.

"It's just some fragmentary ways of doing things that I learned in life. It's exaggerated to say that they understand. When you experience it in the future, you will suffer losses and be fooled, you will gradually understand."

　【

What Snake said made sense, but Texas always felt that he was laughing at him, and Texas himself couldn't tell what he was laughing at.

Snake seems to understand this very well. No, in other words, he seems to live in two different worlds from himself. He is young, but he has an old attitude that Texas is not used to. This kind of oldness Texas state had only been seen in older family members before.

They have experienced a lot and have deep experience, so their movements reveal this calm and sullen temperament.

But Snake was different. Although he liked to change the subject with deliberately frivolous words, Texas could still detect the depth hidden under his seemingly young appearance.

He is like an old man wearing the skin of a young man. Even though he hides himself as normal, his true appearance will occasionally be revealed.

It makes people feel depressed, but at the same time, it also gradually makes people feel reliable and creates some kind of dependence on him.

What Texas didn't know was that the person he evaluated in his heart had carried regrets for most of his life, countless regrets. He had a lot of past that he couldn't hold in his hands. He had a lot, and he had Unwilling to give up, there are many things that he cannot grasp.

As a result, he slowly developed his current character. Now it makes people feel deep, but in fact it is just a character of fear. He is afraid of missing something again, afraid of neglecting it and losing it again.

That's not prudent, that's just the caution that too many people are used to.

They found a hotel.

After settling in, it was completely dark.

We made a reservation at the hotel for dinner, a dish of leba which was unfamiliar to Texas, Ursus buckwheat bread, and dried milk made from tumor milk.

while eating.

Snake told Texas that he was going out to a garage to get his car serviced so it wouldn't break down on their way.

Of course, Texas would wonder if he was trying to hide something from him. Texas had reason to think so, because it was not the first time.

Her eyes clearly made her opinion known.

"If you feel uneasy, we can go out together." Snake said, and Texas gradually gave up the idea.

She didn't agree, but she didn't object either.

She just looked at the man sitting opposite her, in the small room, opposite the small table.

"No." She shook her head and asked, "When will you come back?"

"I can't tell. I don't know where the car repair shop is here or how long it will take. It might be a good thing for me if you go with me."

"I'm a little tired."

"Then stay and have a good rest. You don't have to wait for me. I'll call you before departure."

"it is good."

The snake went out. Texas stood at the window and watched him walk into the car below. He lit a cigarette and stretched his hand out of the car window. He seemed to see Texas by the window in the rearview mirror. .

He waved his hand towards the window.

There was no response on Texas' cold face. She watched the car drive away and disappear into the streets of the town. In the dark sky above her head, the lights of the street lights were dim and dim. In the night, there were occasional sounds that Texas could not understand. language.

She didn't know what they were talking about.

A strange country, a strange land, strange people, only snakes were familiar to her.

Texas felt that she could adapt to this, and the loneliness that people said was not difficult for her, but then she realized that she was not as easy-going as she thought.

She should have gone out with the snake.

The dusty and muddy car drove into Old Torif's garage. The driver was a young man whom Old Torif had never seen before. He could confirm that the other person was not from Ursus because his unfamiliar tongue The Ursus language is simply more standard than the Ursus people themselves.

But Old Torif still understood what he meant after he switched to common language.

He said that he was a Victorian who came to Ursus to travel. It was rare to see people who still cared about traveling these days. Looking at his vehicle, Old Tolliff could guess that his journey must not be easy. .

This young man looks young and very easy-going. There is a car repair shop in the town that is bigger than Old Torif's shop. Old Torif has gone to take a look. Although he does not admit that the other party's skills are better than his own. Strong, but the other party's equipment and operation methods were something that Old Torif had never seen before.