Longmen Memoirs

While walking around the streets of this city, Chen Mo would suddenly think that after being taken away by Cosich, Tallulah came here. Until the Duke was assassinated, she experienced all her long life in this city. Time to grow up.

When he was a child, Chen Mo thought that he and Talulah could live together in Longmen until they grew up, but now it seems that things often backfired for both him and Xiaota.

After he was ten years old, he and Tallulah came to the same land by accident, but by the same mistake, they both lived a life they had never imagined, and even embarked on different paths. .

Chen Mo was finally close to finding Tallulah's whereabouts, even though he was almost 13 years late.

From Texas' point of view, after arriving in this city, the snake that often went out suddenly became quiet in the past few days. Sometimes Texas would see him looking at him from the hotel window in despair after returning. The city outside the window.

Texas could see the longing in his eyes, but Texas couldn't be sure. It was more of a feeling of sadness than of missing him. This was the first time Texas had seen him reveal his face. This kind of look.

"Still haven't found any clues today?"

Nearly a week has passed since they arrived at this Sheva Pagoda.

Although the southern border of Ursus is known as a warm and fertile land, the summer here is short and the winter is long. In early August, Ursus seems to be ready for winter.

The leaves of the birch trees on the street have quietly begun to turn yellow and fall.

Chen Mo came to his senses.

"Come on, I'm asking someone to investigate how the Duke was assassinated. The upper echelons of power here have been thoroughly purged and replaced after the turmoil. It's very difficult to find the whereabouts of the insiders in the Duke's mansion. Even if there are, they will be afraid of being implicated. And choose to remain anonymous.”

Texas, who was standing next to him, was dressed a little warmer than usual, with black cold-proof stockings wrapped around his legs, and there was a circle of white wool behind the turned-up collar and brim of his jacket.

She is quitting smoking, so the box of pocky in her hand is a good alternative method that Chen Mo taught her.

"Will there be any results?" Texas asked.

Noticing Chen Mo's gaze, she handed over the thing in her hand.

Chen Mo shook his head and took out the cigarette. Texas took back his hand and watched him lower his head slightly and light it.

"I don't know, the past few days have made me feel like someone in Texas is deliberately covering up the traces of the assassination." Chen Mo said: "Even if the Duke was assassinated, as the only heir, She shouldn't have disappeared without any news, unless... no, it's nothing..."

He ultimately didn't say what he suspected.

Texas didn’t press the issue.

But Texas could feel that he didn't seem to want to see what he said unless.

Unless the person who assassinated the Duke was herself, unless she voluntarily gave up her rights and left here, unless there was a force more powerful than Cosiche involved, and after they killed the Duke, they erased the traces and took him away for some reason. Got her.

If he couldn't find any clues here, Chen Mo thought, it was really time for him to go back to Longmen to meet an old guy who might not want to see him.

Chapter 40 You will eventually become the person you are becoming.

June 1092, 8, Crystalline Era

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Simple houses cannot shield from the cold in the snowfields, even in August, which is more summery, but in the north of Ursus, the cold wave is coming quietly.

Occasionally, Tallulah misses the warmth of the south. In the snowfield, they have no way out. The snowfield with scarce supplies cannot support too many people, and the self-reliant struggle in the snowfield cannot affect the huge Ursus Empire, which makes her A change of heart allowed her to hear the voice of the infected.

They want to go south and unite more people in the city.

Only in this way can they grow stronger and let more people hear their voices.

"So it is."

The light of the candle burned quietly, and Alina sat in front of Tallulah. The weak candlelight was the only light in the night, reflecting the thin shadows of the two of them on the wooden wall behind them.

The cold night wind whistled outside the house, and the snow on the snowfield never gave people any warmth.

Tallulah shared her experiences outside with Alina. Alina has always been her listener. She likes to talk to Alina about these things. The white-haired deer's answers and companionship always make her find hope after fighting. To a safe haven.

They talked about the battle in the mine some time ago. It was the first time that the Patriots responded directly to Tallulah's idea and naturally rejected it. However, Tallulah later found Ino and Sasha near the mine. The two children were pointing at her with simple wooden bows, wary and uneasy.

The weapons in their hands cannot hurt them, but for some reason, their presence is the only small comfort Tallulah feels after being clearly denied by the Patriots.

Even if it’s just two kids, it’ll be worth it.

"That's how you found Sasha and Ino... They have been unwilling to tell others what happened before."

"If we hadn't discovered them, they definitely wouldn't have survived." Tallulah said, sighing softly: "Maybe after the patriots denied me, this is the only good thing."

"So what's going on today?" Alina's eyes fell on Tallulah's legs, who was holding a needle and thread, clumsy but unable to start.

"...During training, my spell accidentally affected Shuangxing's cloak hanging next to her. She wants to fight me desperately."

Tallulah explained.

"You just promised her that you would sew it up for her?"

"Actually, Alina..."

"Forget it, give it to me, I'm afraid you don't know anything about needlework." Alina said helplessly. She stretched out her hand, and Tallulah handed the cloak and needlework to her.

Watching the needle and thread skillfully mending the cloak under Alina's hands, Tallulah suddenly suggested: "Don't you want to join our team? Maybe with your sharp tongue, I will be more likely to convince the patriots."

Alina raised her head slightly.

"I told you, Tallulah... I told you, my spells are useless against guerrillas." She did not look at Tallulah: "I can get blood on it, but I don't want to take the initiative to hurt people. , you will not only face infected people and pickets in the future."

"Then I dragged you away... maybe it was too difficult for you."

There was some hesitation in Tallulah's words, and she put her hands on her legs together.

"Ah, you said that on purpose, didn't you?"

Alina looked at her with a little surprise.

"No, I..." Tallulah hurriedly retorted.

"Don't forget, I am going to follow you." Alina corrected: "There is only one reason for this... Tallulah, I think you may forget."

"Forgot what?"

"Forget what you're going to do."

Tallulah was slightly stunned.

She didn't think she would tell Alina, but she wouldn't directly deny Alina either.

"I have been working hard for the future of those infected."

Tallulah found a relatively tactful way of saying it.

"That's not what you said in the first place."

"..."

Tallulah fell silent.

At the beginning, what did she say at the beginning, was it to survive or to fight against Ursus? She may not have mentioned the future of the infected at the beginning, nor did she think so far away.

Looking at Tallulah who was silent.

Alina spoke softly.

"Tallulah, we know people change."

"If we throw away all the things we hold on to little by little, or replace them with new things, then at some point, will we actually have nothing to hold on to anymore?"

Alina asked.

Tallulah shook her head

"In the constant battles and changes in these things, we will definitely have to change our approach. Rigid thinking will make us vulnerable."

"But where is the stubborn part of you?"

"..."

"Do you want to prove that infected people are the same as ordinary people, or do you want to prove that ordinary people are the same as infected people?"

"What's the difference?" Tallulah asked, looking at Alina.

Even though she might know the answer in her heart, she wanted to hear Alina's answer.

"If there are only infected people, who are the ordinary people? Do we want everyone to be infected with oriosis, or do we want to isolate us from ordinary people?"

"And if there are only ordinary people and no infected people...the infected are ordinary people who are infected with ore disease, and those who are not infected are also ordinary people. The people of the gods are ordinary people, the ancestors are ordinary people, and farmers like fellow villagers are ordinary people. , the people living in the city should also be ordinary people."

"Tallulah, do you want to return to your family?" Alina suddenly asked.

"My family is you."

Tallulah didn't even think.

"Oh, no, if the ore disease is removed from our bodies...can we go home?"

"I'm the same as you, Alina, I don't think it can be." Tallulah shook her head and said, she looked at Alina's hand, the cloak in her hand: "The tundra and our lives have completely changed us, infection They can no longer return to their old lives."

"Tallulah, are you still proud of being an infected person now?"

"Why do you ask?"

"Because you can cast spells without a staff? Because our lives are so short? Because even if we encounter so many difficulties, we will still persist in living?" Alina said slowly, and then asked: "Tallulah, it's you , which reason would you choose?"

"I don't have to choose, Alina."

Whether it's spells, short life, or persistence in living, Tallulah doesn't have to choose, because all three refer to the same fact.

"As an infected person, I am proud because no one in this land can kill me." Tallulah raised her head slightly and said: "By the way, we don't need any reason to pursue fairness, because we are inherently It’s time to pursue fairness, and if the land doesn’t give, then we’ll take it back from it.”

This was the only thing she said with absolute certainty.

"Then you are really brave." Alina replied calmly.

Tallulah stared at Alina's face in surprise.

She is not sure.

"You're not laughing at me, are you?"

"No, how come."

"Well, then..." Tallulah paused: "I think everyone who is willing to fight against this fate imposed on us is very brave."

"It must feel like...well."

Alina paused as she was distracted by her conversation with Tallulah and accidentally pricked her finger.

"What do you think?"

"Our fate is terrible." Alina quietly covered the pricked finger with her cloak, so Tallulah didn't notice it.

"of course."

"But I don't think so, Talu[}{

"...You are talking sarcastically again, Alina."

"No...I mean, I can sit here, chat with you, and know that our soldiers are waiting outside the settlement. Fate has treated me very well."

"Don't say that, fate is jealous. If you say that, he might take away everything you said." Tallulah threatened with a smile.

"But I don't believe in fate, Tallulah."

"Because you can change it?"

"Because I can't see it." Alina replied in a matter-of-fact tone. She lowered her gaze: "Tallulah, only things that are visible and tangible are reliable. I can see the cloak in my hand. I can see it. By candlelight, I can see the needle and thread in my hand.”

Her eyes fell on Tallulah's face.

"I can also see the smiling faces of the children, the white heat wafting from the fragrant roasted vegetables, the snowflakes, and the brisk dance of the two moons in the night sky, and some people can even see these. not see."

"It's easy for people to ignore these common things around them. Tallulah, if we all leave you one day, can you still fight?"

The face of the deer in front of him was plain, but the words she spoke were like a sharp needle, piercing into Draco's heart.

"What are these words?" Tallulah subconsciously wanted to refute.

"It will always happen. At that time, will you still think that the so-called fate is worth fighting for?" Alina asked softly: "Do you think, this is too bad, there is nothing I can do. ?”

"..."

Tallulah was silent again, just for a moment.

She spoke again.

"If the Patriots have taught me anything, it's one thing that I feel I've learned, and learned a long time ago."