Longmen Memoirs

The patriots fell silent again.

If the infected have no obligation to face the price they should pay to change their destiny, then who will face it, and who will be the victim of this war.

Tallulah ruled out the infected's place in this war.

"Do you want the guerrillas to participate in this war?" the patriot asked: "Tallulah, do you want to wait for a war between Ursus and other countries where you can profit from it and find opportunities..."

"Or do you want to start this war yourself?"

Tallulah didn't answer.

She remained silent and did not refute.

"You don't want to answer." Patriot seemed to confirm her thoughts and reminded: "Don't expect a less tragic victory."

"Maybe so." Tallulah said, facing the patriot's gaze on her: "But I will not sacrifice others."

"Then you have to sacrifice yourself, Tallulah. There won't be the scene you imagined. Even if Ursus launches a war with other countries, depending on what you can gain from this war, you won't even have the slightest chance to intervene. The possibility of success is that even if Ursus is defeated as you expected, you will need to face another opponent who is stronger than Ursus and can defeat Ursus's opponent. For what reason do you think it will use I will hold you captive and let you defeat him."

The patriot's words seemed to hit Tallulah's heart one after another, making it difficult for her to find room to refute.

She looked confused, but never admitted it.

"Are you ready to take the great pain?"

"I was not prepared because we were bound to suffer."

"You expect everyone to be kind?"

"I just believe that selfishness and cruelty are not part of Ursus' nature."

"Maybe one day you'll encounter real evil."

"I think I've seen that."

The Patriot couldn't help but feel a little disappointed. He looked at this young man who had gained confidence from nowhere.

She can't even be called a leader, because she doesn't have the decisiveness and determination that any leader should have. She has beautiful ideas and is willing to work hard for it and bear the cost, but obviously she doesn't realize whether she has it or not. The ability to undertake these.

She wasn't ready yet.

But Patriot did not continue to refute, or force her to respond.

"I hope so."

Tallulah seemed to understand the meaning of Patriot's words. When the pressure of Patriot's inquiry was gone, she quietly breathed a sigh of relief. At the same time, she also made concessions or made her attitude clear to Patriot.

"If there is a soldier who has sworn allegiance to his team and his compatriots, but in the end betrays it for his own benefit, for such behavior, I will issue a punishment list myself."

"..."

Tallulah's answer was as foreign as a child's, which made people laugh.

You want a group of infected people to be loyal to you. Why do you want them to be loyal to you? Before they become loyal to you, you can tolerate and forgive the harm they do to your compatriots and soldiers. On the contrary, after they become loyal to you, But you have to punish them.

But Tallulah said this with such conviction, as if she really had this idea, this kind of naive and wrong kindness and fantasy that might kill many people.

But is this wrong?An upright person, she has an integrity that is not recognized by most people, her kindness and her unwillingness to join in the wrong ideals. She has drawn a bottom line for herself. Is this wrong?

No, she's not wrong, she's just too unrealistic.

"Tallulah!"

Patriots are rarely harsh.

Tallulah was forced to wake up from her beautiful fantasy.

"Uh...!" She was startled: "You said it."

"I have respected many people, most of them not because of their strength, but because of their integrity." The Patriot looked at the upright Drake in front of him.

he said slowly.

"I hope so."

"…Remember the teachings, sir."

"So... is this it, Captain?" Looking at Tallulah slowly leaving the valley with the snow monster to find the Frost Star, the shield guard couldn't help but ask.

It ended so easily. The city they had worked so hard to gain was handed over to Tallulah, and the people who betrayed them were not even punished. Those comrades who were injured and died died in vain?

But the shield guards will not have any objection to the decision made by the Patriots.

They firmly believe that the captain is right, just as no matter how powerful the enemy is or the battle situation is difficult, the captain can lead them to victory one after another.

"There are at least three local garrisons nearby. We have to defeat each of them before we can deliver the supplies." The patriot replied. "Judging from the results, she did the right thing. Even if we take the city, we can't garrison it. It's impossible to move the city forward, and they can attract the attention of the Ursus garrison for us."

The patriot's gaze returned to the retreating figure of the young Drake, who seemed to him to be innocent and bold.

Upright……

But the earth beneath our feet always leaves people with integrity bruised and bruised.

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The patriot's last words felt ambiguous.

Tallulah frowned. She thought about the meaning of Patriot's words and wanted to tell herself the meaning, but she still couldn't think of any reason. An upright person.

Tallulah likes this word, but she also knows that this word may not be suitable for the dilemma they need to face. The patriot did not condemn her fault, yes, fault. In fact, Tallulah was prepared for this in her heart. .

The guerrillas are guerrillas, but the guerrillas are not her guerrillas. He cannot distribute their results or make decisions for them on behalf of the guerrillas.

But the patriot's words still made Tallulah reflect on the behaviors and ideas she has always believed in.

She didn’t understand why the patriots were always reluctant to identify with her. Is it because of their differences on the southern border issue? Both sides’ considerations on these issues had legitimacy and reasons. The patriots agreed with Tallulah’s rhetoric, and Tallulah also I understand the concerns of the Patriots.

But Tallulah felt that the patriot's attitude toward her did not entirely come from her plans, or rather, from her own ideas. She had felt this way for a long time, but she had no way to change it, or Said she couldn't convince herself to be the kind of person the Patriots thought she should be.

To a certain extent, Tallulah has her own persistence. From the beginning of her bet with Cosich, Tallulah has always believed in her own ideas. She may have to make certain changes, but she must not and will not If you cross your own bottom line, you will not become the Kosiche in the mouth of the black snake.

"Ah, Sister Tallulah!"

Tallulah, who was deep in thought, failed to notice the child walking in front of her until he called out her name.

Tallulah suddenly came back to her senses.

"Are you in a bad mood, Sister Tallulah?" The white-haired child looked up at her with concern.

Tallulah shook her head.

"No."

She remembered the names of the two children in front of her.

"Eno, Sasha, do you still want to be called by your original names?"

"Why do you ask?" Sasha asked subconsciously.

"When we are walking outside, it is better to have a name to protect ourselves." Tallulah explained warmly: "Sometimes, if you don't choose a name, you will have to be called by the name that others chose."

And they will often call you according to their own opinions, using various vicious or prejudiced words as pronouns for you.

Tallulah didn't say that. She didn't want to say such explicit statements to her children. Maybe they didn't understand, but they could avoid it or they could choose.

"But you haven't changed your name."

"Because I don't want to."

"Why?" Sasha looked at her doubtfully: "This is different from what you just said."

"Because...because I want to be a consistent person."

"So what you are thinking and what you are doing are not the same thing." Sasha said subconsciously.

Tallulah was stunned.

Ino anxiously pulled Sasha's hand.

"Ino."

Tallulah came back to her senses. He looked at the boy who said this and Ino who was anxious to remind him. She seemed to remember that she had seen the same scene there a long time ago.

At that time...they seemed to be only this old at that time.

But at that time, they were by each other's side like this.

Time flies so fast.

"Probably, yes," Tallulah said.

"So I want to stick to this name, but to everyone, this name is meaningless, because who I am is not important to everyone, this name is only important to me."

"Then what should I call you? If you say so, I don't know what I should call you."

Compared to Enoch, Sasha is a more introverted child, but perhaps it is precisely because of his introversion that he can speak these direct words better than Enoch.

Tallulah thought for a moment.

She squatted down to be level with the two children in front of her.

"Sasha, let me tell you this."

"I'm just a rebel, just an ordinary person, at least I think so. Name? It's not important. No one should remember my name. This name shouldn't become a symbol or have any other power. It's just My name. It’s just a name.”

Tallulah said with a smile.

"If you want, you can just call me Tallulah now. Calling this name can make me look back, but that's about it."

That's it.

I will only look back because of this name, but never because of what this name represents.

Look into the eyes of Tallulah in front of you.

Sasha hesitated and called her name.

"Tallulah."

Tallulah nodded and looked at Wei [+$

"Ino can also be called that. Some things may be too early for you...but I still want to tell you, Sasha."

"You say it."

"I hope you call me Tallulah because you regard me as a friend, as a like-minded friend. Even if I die, you will remember this name, but not because of what I have done in my life."

Tallulah said it seriously.

"I just want you to remember the times I spent with you, and I want you to remember Tallulah as a friend."

She is not a symbol, nor is she a hero recorded in books. She is just an ordinary person, an ordinary person who is the same as everyone else. She also... will not die.

"But you're killing bad guys, and you're fighting them?" Sasha asked confused.

"The person who is fighting I don't want her to have any name because every one of us fights, all of us are fighters."

Tallulah shook her head slightly and said.

"Don't put your head down and follow in the footsteps of the fighters, Sasha, don't ever do that."

"Not everyone is a patriot. We all make mistakes. You have to raise your head and see where he is going, not what title he has that makes you follow him with your eyes closed."

Tallulah gently straightened the messy hair on the forehead of the boy in front of her.

She said: "What you should remember is the name of your friend, the name of the person you spent time with, the frost star who fed you particularly spicy candy and smiled through gritted teeth, the teacher who cooked you strange vegetable chowder, He is a patriot who will never give up training you.”

"Each of them is special to you, each of them is different, they are not a symbol or something that can be summed up in a simple word, they should stay in your heart."

"They are friends, not fighters, Sasha, and they are not tools."

Tallulah stood up.

“All men are fighters, but a fighter is only one of them, and all of us fighters have no names.”

The boy looked at Tallulah who said these words in confusion.

He spoke naturally.

"Sister Tallulah, I don't understand."

"Well... I hope that being your friend will make you trust me, not that you trust me because of my identity." Tallulah explained, slowly adding: "Just like all my friends."