Longmen Memoirs

Whether they take to the streets to unleash violence, or they hate ordinary people and are going to destroy their lives.

Just imagine, if a person who has never done anything evil suddenly one day suffers discrimination, persecution, suppression because of contracting a disease, and countless people even want his life, but he never Why do you get such treatment if you do evil?

I think if someone confuses them at this time, he will of course take up arms and vent his inner hatred and hatred in his remaining life, to those who have oppressed him without reason, and to those who hate him without reason. .

Of course, the infected have reason to seek revenge, to retaliate for what happened to themselves and what happened to them, because they are also human beings, they are not great or selfless, they are confused about what they have experienced, and they are indifferent to the coldness of this earth. Feeling resentful.

I think it is natural for them to do this even if the final result is their own death, because they ruined other people's lives and allowed ordinary people to experience the same emotions as them, because they killed other people's friends. , family members, because they do evil, because they commit violence, they bring it upon themselves.

Because the victims have also become perpetrators, because those who have harmed them, they regard themselves as victims, because a group of people who have nothing to do with them are talking shamelessly around, urging people to calm down and understand each other. , to persuade people to let go of their hatred and be generous.

This kind of people are the most abominable. People who harm others, but oppose revenge and advocate tolerance. Of course, you should stay away from these people, because when lightning strikes, they will be the first to be hit.

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It was three days before I saw Cannot again at the agreed location.

He did not come alone, of course he came with several vehicles and the latest situation in Mintsk.

In fact, what Chen Mo and Tallulah guessed was correct. The Ursus people failed to find any prisoners in the end. They found the remains of vehicles abandoned in the wilderness. Apart from the missing armaments, only the bodies of the transport team were left. .

Mintzsk claimed that they reminded and retained the officials of the transportation team, but the commander of the transportation team, Lieutenant Toyegli, refused to listen to the advice and insisted on leaving, so that the convoy was attacked in the wilderness.

Chen Mo was surprised to think that they did not destroy the vehicle when they left, but Chen Mo could probably guess who did it.

But Kannot's words were not over yet, and more dramatic changes were yet to come.

"There are a few prisoners, oh, I didn't know that you kept Ursus soldiers as prisoners. They escaped and the soldiers of the transport team have found them."

Cannot sat down in the tent, facing Tallulah and the captains of several other teams: "They claimed that the transport team originally blocked the attackers, but the Mintzsk City Defense Team betrayed them and attacked them with the attackers. .”

"Sounds like there are a lot of loopholes?" Tallulah raised an eyebrow.

If Mintzsk and the attackers were on the same side, of course it would be impossible to keep prisoners or let them leave the city.

"It's quite a lot, and the transport team is not stupid, but they still claim so, and the most important thing is that the transport team was attacked in the city." Kannot said: "I think you can understand what I mean. .”

"Understood, if the transport team is attacked in the wilderness, the responsibility for Mintzsk's warning lies entirely with the transport team. On the other hand, if the transport team is attacked in the city, it does not matter whether the city defense team has betrayed, at least the transport team The superiors and subordinates do not have to bear the main responsibility.”

"Miss Leader is right." Cannot's strange mask reflected the light of the fire: "The loss of armaments has become a fact. Now both sides are trying to get rid of the main responsibility. Holy Jun Castle will investigate this matter. Looking at it now, The attackers instead became secondary.”

"It's just dog eat dog." Tallulah replied, shaking her head.

"Let's talk about what's going on now, Mr. Cannot." Chen Mo looked at Cannot: [$-

Facing Chen Mo's gaze, Cannott remained silent for a moment.

"Ah, I knew you were going to ask about it, and I was just about to answer."

"Oh? So in fact we are just covering for you, right?"

Kannot did not refute, and Chen Mo did not continue to ask Kannot and the others about their true purpose under the cover of the infected warriors, because the matter was meaningless at this point, and under the premise of cooperating with this businessman, neither party suffered a loss. is the most important.

$$[}$ At least so far, the two parties are only cooperating under the premise of profit. When it comes to trust and alliance, they are far from that step. It is normal to hide something from each other. If Cannott really doesn’t If he drags out all his selfishness, Chen Mo and Tallulah will still doubt him.

In Mintsk's cooperation this time, without the intelligence and channels provided by Kannot, there would be no possibility for the infected to obtain these armaments from the Ursus transport team.

As for the conflicts and disputes that arose between Mintsk and the transport team, they have little to do with them now. In other words, if the prisoners had not been left behind before, the current situation might have been different.

Even the strongest cities in the world often begin to collapse from within.

Chapter 118: Oath in the Snow ([-])

Human nature is mostly greedy and selfish. People are accustomed to comparison. They often feel jealous and inferior to those who are better than them, while those who are worse than them are arrogant and contemptuous. Even if this is not their subjective idea, people still think so subconsciously.

Therefore, the reason why someone is noble and thinks he is noble does not mean that he is more than anyone else or smarter than ordinary people. It just means that he has a good background and lives in stability and prosperity. It does not mean that he has gained anything. It all depends on himself, and he has made no contribution to it.

He is just luckier, nothing else.

If you put the fox in Chen's perspective, he may not do worse than Chen. If you put Chen Mo in someone else, he may not do as well as him.

If a person who hates an infected person suddenly becomes an infected person, he may not really be able to commit suicide.

But if only if…

So the world is usually unfair. Fairness is a relative term. People and things in the world can never be said to be absolutely fair. It’s just that people need to fight for relative fairness, just because the word fairness doesn’t sound as relevant as justice. Practical yet aspirational.

Just like right and wrong in this world, right or wrong itself is not important, because the meaning of right and wrong is given by people, and different people often have different views on the same thing due to different positions and angles. , so right or wrong itself is not worthy of people's pursuit. What people pursue, mostly pursue gains and losses, the advantages and disadvantages this matter brings to them, not just whether this matter is really true from their respective perspectives. Right or wrong.

If so, it will never have a definite answer.

It is also for this reason that those who can objectively face up to right and wrong and harm their own interests are stupid and rare, so they will be ostracized and criticized.

Chen Mo hopes that Tallulah can become such a person. From the perspective of the infected, she should differentiate between right and wrong for the benefit of the infected. She should weigh the pros and cons, even if this matter is from the perspective of the Ursus people. From the perspective of someone other than the infected person, it is wrong.

People have to recognize themselves and then recognize the facts.

Tallulah has stood in this position. Her words and deeds can determine the life or death of the infected. She also has to bear the consequences of her own decisions, not just her own opinions.

Just like Chen Mo himself in the past, from the perspective of the Sakaz nobles and the eyes of the common people, he is undoubtedly a sinful villain. It is impossible and impossible for him to make everyone agree with what he does, because if he does one thing Under the circumstances, while bringing benefits and benefits to some people, it will inevitably harm the rights and interests of other people, so it is never possible for everyone to completely agree.

People who can do such things are saints, but even saints, even lofty gods and saints will attract opposition and disgust. Even gods and saints will have their own disgusting things and enemies.

How can a person become a saint? If a person becomes a saint, is that person considered a saint or a human being?

There is no way to tell the difference.

Most of the saints and gods that people think of are symbols of all the good thoughts in people's hearts. They attach their hopes and demands to some unspecific object to express their feelings that have no place in their hearts, and deceive themselves and others. Pray for understanding and forgiveness.

It was man himself who created this almost perfect creation, and even used various proposed terms and disciplines to maintain His legitimacy and authority. But if one day, the God they were counting on appeared in front of them, that God who appeared would , and is no longer the "God" they hope for in their hearts.

God should be unspecific and non-existent, something that can be shaped and rewritten by people, something that is constantly changing in line with everyone's inner thoughts and hopes at that time, rather than something concrete that appears in front of people and will be separated. Their rights, the noble species that truly dictates what they do.

So Chen Mo never believed in this kind of thing, so most people in power don't trust this kind of thing, but they still have to show an appearance of trust, because it can bring benefits to their rule, because from the perspective of the ruler That's not a bad thing.

But is this really right? Use a false thing to fool everyone, use a man-made lie to deceive everyone. Of course, deception is wrong, but if everyone needs it, if most people agree, then it is undoubtedly correct.

Therefore, the boundaries between right and wrong have always been blurred, so what depends on right and wrong are gains and losses, and considerations after weighing the pros and cons. If the king opposes people's beliefs, then the king is wrong, even if he is for Let his subjects wake up, but on the other hand, if the king is also consistent with them, or even knows that it is a lie and vigorously promotes it, then the king is a holy master and a wise man.

Similar things have long been commonplace.

Great people and【%-

Right, wrong and justice are things that only children pursue. Just like dreams and heroes, people always need a different color in their lives, and they also need a kind of sustenance.

But facts have proven that what ultimately determines a person's achievements is not his right, wrong and justice, but whether he can label himself as right and just, and shape himself into the kind of person people want him to be. From people's perspective, right, wrong and justice are used as weapons and high-sounding tools.

Chen Mo never mentioned this matter to Tallulah.

He often had conflicts. He was pleased with Tallulah's integrity, but also worried about her integrity. He hoped that Tallulah could become a pure person, but since he was determined to lead the infected to resist Ursus, This path can never be said to be pure, at least from Tallulah's personal point of view, it is probably impossible.

People need to experience hardships in the world in order to grow, but hardships mostly mean loss, and the more ambitious you are, the heavier the costs and consequences you have to bear are relatively.

Happiness is something that ordinary people are qualified to pursue, because in the world of ordinary people, all they have to consider is their own life, and even so, there are too many dissatisfaction and ups and downs.

If a person wants to be truly at peace, he can only leave the mortal world and not be stained by worldly affairs. If there are too many fetters and worries, it will never be possible for him to go as he wishes.

Life is always full of twists and turns, dull, boring, or bumpy and wandering. Life makes everyone's life be dyed with various colors, and life is mostly dull. The long life is always filled with various emotions, which is neither exciting nor boring. Excessive despair never makes people happy forever.

Just living is mostly a compromise.

June 1093, 12, Crystalline Era

The infected warriors bid farewell to Kannot and his caravan. They had left the camp for almost half a month. This time the returning warriors brought with them the shield guard equipment belonging to the Ursus army sequence and the equipment to maintain the planting inside the camp. Hydroponic farm facilities, the latter technology mostly comes from Casimir.

After Cannot's concealment was discovered, he had to pay an extra [-]% of the remaining military supplies, except for the shield guard equipment, to maintain the weak but real trust between them. As a result, the [-]% of the remaining military supplies were infected again. The investors returned it to Cannott as farm technology and the reward for Cannott's previous rescue of infected people, and even paid [-]% more armaments for this.

In other words, in addition to the dozens of sets of shield guard equipment agreed upon in this cooperation and Cannott's concealed actions, Cannott got [-]% of the other equipment and materials obtained. They paid for intelligence, channels and transportation, while Cannott got [-]%. The infected bear responsibility for the action and subsequent guilt.

When dealing with businessmen, the most important thing is always profit and price. Both parties have done well in this regard. From the perspective of cooperation, Cannot's clear price tags and businessman's integrity are very popular.

He even offered to loan their armaments to the camp, but Tallulah rejected the proposal. Not to mention Kazdare's agreement, the camp would not need them for the time being. As for the weapons of Ursus, which will eventually flow to Which organization, that's a question Cannott needs to consider.

Casimir’s scholars and engineers have always been experts in agriculture. After the emergence and popularization of mobile cities, Casimir was the first country to implement recyclable farms and concepts and move them to mobile cities. Later, other countries followed suit. Introducing the prototype of Casimir's technology and continuously improving it.

As the largest exporter of crops on the entire land, Casimir has more than just knights and competitions. Perhaps because of this, Ursus and Casimir have always had many conflicts. In more than ten conflicts with Casimir, The Ursans have always wanted to occupy Casimir's vast and fertile land to make up for Ursus' fatal weakness of lack of agriculture, but the Silver Spear Pegasus blocked the Ursus' attack. So for decades, Casimir and Casimir Relations between Ursus' neighbors have never been harmonious.

Casimir is also bordered by Letania and Victoria. During the period of Ursus' massive conquests during the emperor's era, these two countries provided Casimir with a lot of assistance, causing Ursus to suffer numerous hidden losses.

After the death of the previous emperor, the reformist policies pursued by the current emperor and parliament intended to ease relations with Casimir. At least this could alleviate the potential conflicts within Ursus caused by the heavy agricultural taxes that brought a burden to the empire and the people.

Casimir has not responded yet, but since the emperor ascended the throne, there have been several large-scale agricultural commodity trades between Casimir and Ursus, and the two sides on the border are no longer as tense as in the past.

Any clues indicate that the glorious era of Ursus is gone forever, and the huge empire is beginning to show decline. Although some people and old nobles who are unwilling to admit this fact regard it as a symbol of the cowardice and incompetence of the new parliament. It was difficult for the emperor to hold a big position, and Fyodor was inevitably compared with his father Vladimir by those who wanted to do so. Therefore, with the help of the fuel, there were also many Ursus people who were dissatisfied with the new emperor and the parliament.

There are many more potential social conflicts in Ursus than imagined. Not only are the disputes between the people between the new emperor and Parliament Speaker Witte, but also the discord between the nobles and the military. The Ursus military has always been at odds with each other. The factions formed by the nobility, the new nobility and the military's young upstart officers' yearning for military glory and war rights also showed that they were not consistent with the demands of the emperor and parliament.

Even among the internal guards who were loyal to the emperor, there were subtle differences within them due to different attitudes.

A war, an untimely war, an uncontrollable war is not what the emperor and parliament want. This will inevitably lead to the possibility of the resurgence of the old military powers that were finally suppressed. The rights of the emperor and parliament will be challenged, but now Ursa Everyone in Sri Lanka seems to be pursuing a war to restore the glory of the late emperor, so that Witte and the parliament can only struggle to suppress the radical militant faction represented by the parliament and the old nobles and young officers in the army.

But clues from all aspects of Ursus indicate that Ursus is now strong on the outside and weak on the inside. After the failure of the Blood Peak Battle with the Eastern Kingdom and the large-scale purge of high-ranking generals in the army and the opportunity to implement reforms, Ursus is no longer the person it was during the late emperor's time. As a powerful country united under one will, the new emperor Fyodor will not be able to take on the important role. The war pursued by the Ussans may be a precursor to the disintegration of this country.

Power-hungry nobles, ambitious young officers, the Ursus Empire, which is strong on the outside and incompetent on the inside, generals who are at odds with the parliament due to the aftermath of the Great Purge, ignorant and conformist people, war is an unpredictable quagmire, and the huge empire will fall under their control. Cheering and feasting, and the death wails of countless Ursus people, they were completely torn apart.

Ursus is not the first country to face this kind of challenge. The throne of Victoria has been vacant for more than 20 years. The new young monarch of Victoria has a seemingly incompatible attitude with the various grand dukes. She ascended the throne of Letania through unfair means. The twin princesses, Kazdaele who had just ended the war, and Casimir who was replaced by business and capital, the East has always focused on the country of Yan further north, which seems to be indifferent to the world, secretly controlling Bolivar and carrying out large-scale Colombia opened up the wilderness, the golden Iberians lost their glory, and Sargon and the great princes and chiefs were divided and fought.

The new giants are accumulating nutrients for their rise, but the overlords of the old era are constantly facing various severe domestic challenges. The order of the new era is about to be rewritten, and in this unprecedented change, some will take advantage of the situation. , some will be eliminated in the era, just like the once powerful and destroyed Gauls, just like their capital Dulingon was destroyed in the shadow of the Four Emperors' War.

This is the best of times, and it is also the worst of times. This is the long dark age before the dawn, and it is also the heroic age that is about to usher in the dawn.

Will Tallulah become a hero?

Chen Mo didn't know.

Chen Mo just watched the back of the silver-haired girl communicating with the soldiers from the car, unable to hear what they were talking about, and smiled when she seemed to notice her eyes looking back.

Chen Mo saw his own face in the rearview mirror of the vehicle, a young man with white hair.

Chen Mo thought, Tallulah didn't like the word hero. She didn't like hearing others compare her to a hero, and Chen Mo didn't like it either, but what she was doing was undoubtedly a job that only a fool hero would do.

Leading the infected to resist Ursus, tying their lives in the battle, their future is uncertain, life and death are left to their fate, either in a grand and intense way, or in a lonely death.

Chen Mo thought, in Tallulah's script, which ending did she expect more?

But no matter which ending is too bad for people like them, this is also a fact. Who can guarantee that they will successfully reach the end after embarking on this road? Or maybe, the one who finally reaches the end will This group of people is not the same group as before.

Ideal is such a beautiful word. It makes people try their best to risk their lives and fight one after another. But he didn't tell people that even if they did, they might not get any reward. It would be better to say that there is no reward at all.

It usually gives people a small and feeble hope, a hope that can sometimes be seen and sometimes cannot be seen, telling people to move forward and making it impossible to look back.

A smile broke out on Tallulah's face, and Chen Mo watched her walking towards him.

Step by step, the girl's appearance gradually became clearer. You could see the bright look in her eyes on her haggard face, and you could tell that she seemed to be in a good mood. She was tall and beautiful, with the black horns on top of Drake's head and the long tail swinging behind her as he walked.

She was once the girl in Chen Mo's dream. More than ten years ago, more than ten years later, maybe the dream is no longer the same, maybe time flies and it is no longer what it was before.

But Chen Mo still had her presence in his waking life.

Destiny is still very kind to Chen Mo. Maybe he still has a little bit of good luck. The good luck that Tallulah shared with him under the narrow sky of the orphanage has allowed him to have countless big dreams in the past ten years. It was hard to die, but he survived, and he met Chen in Londinium, which allowed him to realize his small and humble extravagance in another way.

Maybe the word "I love you" is too light for Chen Mo, but apart from love, it is difficult for him to find any words to describe it.

Chen Mo, Chen Mo... He is just an inconspicuous speck among all living beings. He has crashed into their lives across the long river of countless years. Maybe he has done countless things that can stir up waves in history, but after all, he is This land is too vast, and after all, he is so inconspicuous among the twinkling stars.

He never had much ability.

Chapter 119 Miss W’s ghost lingers

"What's wrong? Are you smiling so happily?"

Chen Mo opened the car door, and without any unfamiliarity, he took Tallulah's naturally extended hand and pulled her into the vehicle. He leaned towards the driver's seat, and Tallulah sat in the seat that originally belonged to him.

Her hands were not soft, and they did not even have the smooth and delicate touch of an ordinary girl. Perhaps due to the difficult life in the wilderness, her hands were far rougher than expected, especially the fingertips, which were caused by holding the sword for a long time. And leave a layer of shallow cocoon marks.

"good mood?"

"It's good."

"I just saw you talking to the soldiers?"

"We just talked about some future plans. I think the soldiers should at least know what our next plans are. Although the cooperation with Cannott this time went more smoothly than expected, and the camp also has new agricultural equipment. But after all, our focus from now on is still going south.”

"You mentioned before that you have a few trustworthy friends in Qicheng."

"It's not just Qicheng. My original idea was to bring the guerrillas close to Qicheng and settle down before making any plans. But now we can do more. I want to try to contact the infected people in other cities in the south. Let's start with Qicheng. Starting from the city, we made the infected people in the city believe in our intentions and established initial trust among each other. Is this also a signal? "

"What signal?"

"This is a signal to the infected people in other southern cities, telling them that we are on the same page as them."

"It shouldn't be that simple to do. Do you already have an idea?"

Chen Mo asked. She knew that Tallulah said this because she had considered it. She would not have said so definitely without considering it.