Longmen Memoirs

Those gray eyes looked over. There was a few seconds of silence in the carriage, mixed with the chatter of the soldiers outside the carriage, before Tallulah opened her mouth.

"I want to take the soldiers south first, but this trip south is different from before. This time we have to make progress in contacting the infected people in the southern cities."

Chen Mo didn't hesitate for long.

"...Then take Froststar and Snow Monster with you, and ask Aurora and Red to go south with you. The city clusters in the south of Ursus are not as good as those in the north. If something unexpected happens, you can have each other's support. Take care of me."

Tallulah's face showed a hint of surprise, but she was actually prepared in her heart.

"what happened?"

Her reaction was shown on her face, without any intention of hiding it.

"I thought you would refuse. No, if it were you, you would probably think that my idea was too eager."

"It's a little too eager. The camp has only been stable for a few days, and no one has thought about it yet [$-

Chen Mo did not refute.

"But the infected people will always go south, and our team cannot maintain the current size forever. Sooner or later, these problems will have to be faced in the future, but as for the infected people themselves, we actually don't have much time to spend waiting."

"I know very well that once people adapt to the current life, they will subconsciously want to stay where they are, because moving forward is uncertain. Uncertainty means risks and unknowns, but we can't. Ursus is always watching. Following us, they will not let go of any infected person who appears in their sight. In the eyes of the Ursus Empire, every infected person is a potential enemy."

Chen Mo turned his head and looked at Tallulah, facing the latter's slightly surprised gaze.

"Even if you don't mention it to me, I will mention it to you. In fact, I have been thinking about telling you this matter when."

"I used to think that we were too eager to go south because we were not stable enough and the infected were not ready yet, but it is different now. The soldiers have experienced a real battle and they understand what kind of opponents they have to face. We have a new camp, and the new camp can fully support the exploration, equipment, training, and supplies going south. Everything now shows that we have the initial ability to contact the infected south. Time is not on our side. , so I have no reason to stop you again."

Tallulah was stunned for a moment. She suddenly didn't know what to say. She suddenly felt that Chen Mo could see through her inner thoughts.

Tallulah doesn't hate this feeling. She doesn't hate the feeling that whenever she thinks of something she wants to do, she can always get a response from Chen Mo. Rather, it's because she may have gradually become familiar with Chen Mo being by her side. .

But she was still worried.

Someone needs to stay in the camp, and most of the fighters need to be taken away when going south, including some guerrillas and shield guards. Even patriots are their backbone when facing this unknown route south.

They will come back, but it will be later than expected.

"The camp needs someone to stay..."

Tallulah knew that she had to say something eventually, and she also knew that Chen Mo might be able to guess what she was thinking, but she still had to put it forward in person.

Patriot may be a good candidate. In terms of ability and prestige, he is enough to maintain the stability of the camp and the connection with Kazdaele after the infected leave.

Shuangxing might be fine, but with Shuangxing's character, he wouldn't be willing to stay. As for the others, Tallulah couldn't find a better candidate than Chen Mo for the time being.

They were still short of manpower, and they didn't have much time to wait.

"So I will stay. If it is just Kahn and Red, they may not be able to handle the affairs of the camp after you leave. Froststar is probably not willing to be idle. The Patriots and Shield Guards will stay in the camp with you. Going south will be more effective." Chen Mo said: "I think I am the most suitable candidate."

Tallulah hesitated for a moment. She didn't expect Chen Mo to say it so simply. She suddenly felt a little guilty in her heart, guilt for no reason.

"If possible, you would actually prefer to go south with us."

"True or false?"

"It will be all right."

"..."

"Of course I prefer to go south with you, because it is more dangerous, but I know what to do is the best way for us now. Maybe I can provide some help for you to go south, but in this regard You can do better than me, Tallulah, you are familiar with the cities and society in southern Ursus, and I am more suitable than you to deal with Kazdel." Chen Mo said: "There will always be this day, I have If Alina and Sasha are left alone, I will be a little worried."

"Oh, I always think you are lying."

"But I can make you feel better by saying this, and we both know that even if I go south with you, we can still do the same thing. It won't be smoother because of me, and it won't be smoother because of me without you. Just can’t deal with it.”

Chen Mo looked at her, and she stretched out her hand to smooth down Drake's messy silver hair.

"It's just a period of time. No matter how long it is, it will pass. I don't care about these few months."

"It's just that time flies so fast. In the blink of an eye, we have grown up so much. But that being said, we still have to discuss the details and plans of going south when we return to the camp, and we still have to wait for Red and Froststar returns from Kazdare, and the winter of Ursus is coming. The frequency of Ursus patrols will be reduced. This is the best time to go south. This winter, both the infected people in the south and the north will be affected. It’s very difficult, maybe your arrival can just help them.”

Tallulah watched Chen Mo take back his hand. He always had a habit of considering more details that everyone subconsciously ignored.

"I haven't thought about you that much."

"But you always have to give others a chance. If you think everything through alone, wouldn't other people seem too useless?"

Tallulah felt that what Chen Mo said was not good or bad, but she couldn't find any words to refute it.

She also knew that one person could not consider everything clearly, because there would always be many unknowns in the future, and none of them could be sure of what would happen tomorrow.

June 1093, 12, Crystalline Era

Time always flies by in a hurry.

A group of infected and Sarkaz are moving north through the wilderness of Ursus, avoiding routes and villages patrolled by pickets along the way.

They do not interact with any of the civilians of this country.

"How long until we arrive?"

The person who asked this question was a white-haired Sakaz. She had two strands of red hair between her forehead. Her personality was relatively frivolous and a little casual and mean. This was not the first time she had asked Reid this along the way.

In fact, as the leader of Sakaz's team this time, when he and Frost Star met for the first time, the atmosphere between the two parties was not very friendly. Fortunately, they realized that they were not enemies, and they did not make a move after all. Come.

Even in Kazdaele, her reputation is not that great. She is picky and has a somewhat bad personality. She always uses a sarcastic tone from time to time, and Reid even feels that when he sees Froststar with a cold attitude, he seems to have a negative attitude. It aroused the interest of this Sakaz, if interest refers to deliberately finding trouble with Froststar from time to time to make the snow monster share the same hatred.

There was undisguised contempt in her eyes for this group of Ursus-infected people, and this contempt made it difficult for people to have any good impression of her, especially when she had a smile on her lips, and that bright smile made people laugh. It feels eerie and dangerous.

In line with the external evaluation of most Sakaz people, this woman is not an easy character to deal with, even if she does not seem to be an enemy of the infected, even if she has not made any dangerous move so far. , except for deliberately provoking Frost Star and Snow Monster, w is still honest.

Of course, this kind of honesty does not include the slightly sickly madness exuding from her whole body when she heard about the return of Frost Star and Snow Monster and met the man who came to pick them up. She narrowed her eyes and pressed the trigger with her finger.

Chen Mo was so surprised by W's arrival that when he saw the Sakaz who had traveled a long distance to Ursus from a distance, Chen Mo was briefly in a trance.

Then he saw W raising his hand, like a friend he hadn't seen for a long time, and the corner of his mouth raised an attractive arc to say hello to him in a playful way.

Her smile was hardly friendly.

"Yo……"

Surprised? Unexpected?

There was a cold and complicated chill in those narrowed bright eyes.

After all, she is an awkward person, with an awkward character disguised as madness. Logically speaking, no matter what the contract between the infected and Kazdel, she should not be the person in charge, but she just appeared, in an impossible way. The way he appeared in Ursus, across thousands of mountains and rivers, appeared in front of Chen Mo again.

If it were her, it wouldn't be surprising even if she did something unexpected.

She could find Chen Mo's traces in Leitania quietly beyond Hedley and Kazdaele, and chase him all the way. Then it would no longer be incomprehensible for her to run to Ursus after getting some news.

After all, Chen Mo knew that she wanted to kill herself. If she didn't kill herself with her own hands, she might not be able to be stable in this life. She had to find a purpose for herself, otherwise her life would be very boring, especially after the war, she was expected to restrain herself. It is simply impossible to think of her as a well-behaved and good girl.

Sooner or later she will kill Chen Mo, just like Chen Mo will die one day sooner or later, she will die one day sooner or later. Sooner or later she will take Chen Mo's life with her own hands, just like she killed Hedley just because she wanted to become famous. , it’s just sooner or later.

But Chen Mo couldn't explain how she felt when she saw W again in Ursus. She felt that the arrival of this crazy Sakaz woman would cause some changes that were beyond his control. After all, W was a person who no one could say For those who are right, it is not surprising that she will do anything when she goes crazy.

But Chen Mo didn't feel the slightest dislike for her arrival because of this, so that the unscrupulous malice in her eyes and the wild smile on the corner of her mouth made Chen Mo feel a sense of long-lost familiarity.

He raised his hand and smiled like W.

"Yo……"

The lingering smile on Sakaz's face was visible to the naked eye, and then quickly darkened at a visible speed.

Chen Mo felt a little funny for no reason, so he just laughed.

W swore that she had never wanted to kill someone so much. She should immediately raise the grenade in her hand and shoot that man's hateful smile so that he would never be able to smile again.

After all, she was not as crazy as before, but her finger was still on the trigger, and the smile disappeared from the corner of her mouth, looking at his gray hair and his face that was more haggard and thinner than before.

W finally lowered his finger on the trigger.

The Sarkazis brought the engineering equipment that Gell-Man needed. It is not yet known whether this batch of equipment can completely repair the power supply system of the Black Wall. Lao Gai is quite confident in this, especially when he knows that there are several engineers accompanying him. After that, he couldn't wait to pull them into the engineering team he had put together.

Chen Mo felt that he could probably count on this old guy. At least he was really capable.

W followed him into the black wall without much politeness. This made Shuangxing, who reported the trip to Chen Mo, very unhappy, because those eyes were staring straight at the backs of her and Chen Mo. Shuangxing would rather She was not willing to accept the gaze of the opponent's eyes when fighting against this Sarkaz, which she was not very good at dealing with.

"Never mind, she's just like that."

Chapter 1 Crazy Woman and Stupid Man

What Tallulah is after is actually very simple.

Fairness...that's all she wants. The infected should get what they have given. Ursus has killed the wealth they created, stolen the achievements of the infected, oppressed, exploited...

If people think so, then this thinking should be changed. If Ursus thinks so, then Ursus should be changed.

What Tallulah wants is only what should belong to the infected, and what should be their rights, whether it is the right to live, or the right to give and gain.

In fact, she is not naive. She also knows that everything does not necessarily lead to rewards, but the infected should at least not be reduced to the current situation. All aspects of this society and the world are built on the sacrifices made by the infected. They should not There is no reason to be devastated by fate and the world. Even if you don't get the gratitude you deserve, at least people shouldn't retaliate for kindness.

The truth is always so absurd, it hurts innocent people and makes evildoers proud.

Objectively, people are equal, but subjectively, people are not equal. Equality should not mean equality. The premise of equality is fairness, and the premise of fairness is equivalence. Pay and return should be of equal value. Even if the pay is greater than the return, at least it should not be Gain nothing.

What she wants should be a matter of course, but this world is very abnormal, so those things that should be normal end up with a ridiculous end.

Therefore, people who pursue justice often make people feel stupid and ridiculous.

As people grow up and learn about the world little by little, they will find that the beautiful words they learned as children become even more beautiful when they grow up.

Because I used to feel that he was so close, as if I could reach it at my fingertips. Because I didn’t understand anything at that time, I felt that everything should be like that. But as I gradually matured, I couldn’t think so much and could only see everything in front of me. It suddenly and naturally turned into a strange yet familiar appearance, and I looked forward to those beautiful things even more.

I can't tell what its original appearance is, or maybe I was just too stupid and naive when I was a child.

Chen Mo always has to believe in something good. At least in his opinion, Tallulah itself is one of the beauties he can see.

But w doesn’t think so.

There is such a person in w's memory.

If w has a fairly clear understanding of himself and knows that he is a mentally ill and extreme lunatic, then compared with this person, w feels that she should be a very normal person, and can even be said to be very well-behaved. Be obedient and kind.

"When I first found this place, you don't know how surprised I was that there was such a hidden research facility hidden in the Ursus Wasteland. For the infected, this place is a perfect hiding place."

Chen Mo has always been able to tell lies with his eyes open. How far has his ability to lie reached? His ability to lie has reached the level where it has become as instinctive as eating and drinking. Lying is as important to Chen Mo as Something so normal that he could even believe the lie he told himself if he wanted to.

W couldn't see his expression. Miss Sakaz followed him, her face gloomy and expressionless. This was an extremely rare thing for her. After all, there were not many situations where she could calm down.

They walked to the square, where soldiers were training in the middle, and the lights were on.

"The soldiers are training here, we have opened a farm outside, and the indoor farm is also being built. However, the equipment has only arrived not long ago. There are not many engineers and manpower who understand this technology. It may take a long time to make it truly effective. It will take some time, but I think when the indoor farm can be used normally and production is gradually expanded, the food source of the camp will be guaranteed."

"I also plan to try to open workshops in other areas in the future and try to produce some simple equipment independently."

"Then beyond is the education area. The children have classes here. We have some teachers. Later, the infected people and the soldiers who have finished their training will also come to study. They can't read many words, so it is a bit difficult to learn, but this is good. Yes, it is always a good thing to learn more knowledge. Some soldiers like to complain to me. I know what they think in their hearts. They feel that they can’t live long anyway, so what’s the point of learning all this effort? But that being said, if a person is alive , you have to find something to do, have a goal, and having a purpose is not a bad thing.”

He knows a lot of people here and is very popular, so he can see infected people saying hello to him along the way. Whether they are soldiers or ordinary people, he will respond to most of them. Those people are not afraid of him, and he will even smile. , that smile made W feel a little dazzling.

She didn't like that gentle smile.

"Go this way. There is the living area ahead. We will not go there. The place where the soldiers live is separate from everyone. Behind the living area is the warehouse where the supplies are stored. I live with the soldiers. Meeting It usually opens over there, where we are closer to the exit."

"There was insufficient power supply some time ago, so we didn't have time to explore and develop many places. However, we just moved here not long ago. We just fought a battle with the Ursus a few months ago, and the original gathering place was abandoned. ”

"I was also thinking that maybe Kazdale didn't receive the news, so I asked Red to contact you. The new camp also needs some projects and parts to repair the original power supply equipment. These things are not available to the Ursus people. It’s easy to make, but we can’t make it, so I thought of you.”

"To be honest, I'm quite surprised. I didn't expect you to go there in person. What happened to Hedley? Wasn't he always in charge?"

"He was unlucky enough to die."

W frowned tightly. She really didn't want to listen to this guy talking about this. She felt irritated for no reason and couldn't explain it.

Chen Mo didn't pay attention to her impatient tone.

"So you're taking over now?"

"If you don't like it, I'm really sorry to ask someone like me to take over."

He answered a little angrily, and his face didn't look very good.

"fall【

"How did you become so verbose?"

W was very unhappy, her unhappy expression was almost written on her face.

But why she was unhappy, W herself couldn't explain, she was just unhappy, unhappy to see this man talking to her about these things with a dull look on his face.

Unhappy, he introduced his current life to himself like a treasure.