Longmen Memoirs

"That's why you shouldn't let them down. Maybe I'm not qualified to say this, but you know very well why they chose this way."

Chen Mo's words were very tactful, but he knew that Theresa could understand what he meant.

"You and Kelsey said the same thing, and she said the same thing." Theresia smiled, but did not mention what Kelsey said again. The smile looked helpless and far-fetched.

She understands it all, and she can understand it.

But there are many things that are called helpless and regretful, not because they don’t understand, but because they are powerless and helpless.

Her ideals and her career are being eroded bit by bit by illness and the Origin Stone, but she still has to act like I'm fine and I'm not worried or anxious in order to appease others and prevent them from falling into hesitation. and confusion.

Theresia's smile made Chen Mo suddenly realize that he was talking nonsense again.

Everyone knows the truth, everyone knows what should be done and what should not be done, but the crimes in the world and the number of prisoners in prisons will never decrease because of this, and the police profession will never be useless.

Chen Mo hesitated for a few seconds and looked at the heavy knife by the wall.

"I'm sorry for your country and for what I did, Your Highness."

Maybe Chen Mo didn't want to do this, but in any case, he came to this land as a mercenary, and the target he protected was also one of the culprits that plunged this land into chaos and strife. They divided the country, The people who support themselves by absorbing the dividends brought by the war have become one of the murderers' accomplices.

Colombia, a country that has harbored ambitions since its secession from Victoria.

If Theresia killed him back then, Chen Mo shouldn't have any complaints, but that didn't mean that he would surrender and be killed. He never denied that he was not an innocent person, nor did he deny that he deserved to die, but he didn't. People asked him if he was willing, but when he turned around, he could no longer look back.

In many things, it is impossible to distinguish right from wrong at the beginning. People pursue right and wrong throughout their lives, but they repeat different or the same mistakes throughout their lives.

"You are already making up for it, aren't you?" Theresa's smile was still gentle: "I still remember you told me that you had two friends when you were young. I think they must be very important to you, Mr. Chen Mo, I am actually A despicable person, maybe you have made mistakes before, but you also have your reasons, and I believe that if you could avoid it, you would not make this choice."

Theresia's words were spoken so softly, but the smile on her face made Chen Mo feel dazzled. The smile seemed to be mocking Chen Mo's ups and downs in these short sixteen or seventeen years, and it also seemed to be laughing at that silly guy. The little brat ended up in his current situation because of his despicable thoughts.

In a war-torn Kazsdale in a foreign country, Chen Mo could no longer say anything because of Theresia's words.Perhaps, subconsciously, Theresa's almost exculpatory and understanding words made him not want to refute, but wanted to deceive himself and others into believing it.

The soldier put down his sword. He suddenly realized what mistake he had made, but the mistake had been made and could no longer be undone.

He can't die yet, and he doesn't have the courage to die for his own mistakes. He is a selfish person and will not give up his life because of the crimes he has committed against others. But he is still a human being and will feel guilty and uncomfortable. Because when 052 pulled him out of the black wall of hell, he didn't want him to become the cold-blooded 013.

Maybe those who say that the infected and Sakaz are guilty of all kinds of evil and heinous crimes are actually running away from their own inner fear and self-blame. If they are a group of damned people, then they must be able to feel at ease.

Chen Mo, who was thinking this way, remained calm on his face, not showing any weakness. He just looked at the steaming metal cup in front of His Highness, and from the corner of his eye, he slightly glanced at his palms wrapped in dirty bandages, and quietly He hid his hands under the table.

"I don't know if I can make up for it, Your Highness." Chen Mo said: "Maybe like you said, I have my reasons, but I have already done this, and I may do more in the future. People say I can correct my mistakes, but I know I'm not that kind of person."

I wonder if Theresia will still recall Chen Mo’s original words many years later. Just like what he said at the beginning, he knew that he was not a person who could correct his mistakes after he acknowledged them, and later on, he had already made it difficult to recover.

"Then do you want to go and see for yourself?" Theresia suddenly asked.

"Look at what?"

"I hope you can go and see my speech, as my guard." Theresia said: "You are a warrior. We don't know what will happen in the future. We just sit here and think about it. We have nothing to do. No, even though I say that, just as you think, I haven’t given up my plan to win over you yet.”

She winked half playfully, her behavior surprising.

She might just have a temporary idea, and it was indeed a temporary idea, but she said it as if she attached great importance to it, which inevitably made people feel cordial and touching.

Chen Mo looked at her extended hand.

"Can I say no?"

"Unfortunately, we can't." Theresa shook her head.

"Ms. Kelsey may not agree and may even cause trouble for me." Chen Mo sighed.

"Kelsey, she is indeed." Theresa thought for a while: "It would be better if she doesn't know."

"Do you think it's possible?"

"Well……"

"Isn't it because you would find it interesting doing this?" Chen Mo asked suddenly.

Theresia was stunned and smiled.

"Mr. Chen Mo, you are right to say that. Yes, it is very interesting."

"..."

Chapter 86 Cause and Effect

The clothes Theresia found didn't fit that well, and Kelsey's slightly paused gaze made Chen Mo realize that maybe this wasn't a good idea.

His vision was a bit narrow, because Chen Mo himself was not used to wearing a helmet. The cold-faced Sakaz woman standing behind Theresia looked like a very difficult type to mess with. Later, Chen Mo found out that her name was Askaron. , the captain of Theresia's escort team. His Highness said that she is a very reliable person. Chen Mo has never doubted this, because Askaron will always be His Highness's most loyal guard. Once what Chen Mo does and Theresa's actions in the future Thea disagrees, and Ascalon will be the knife-wielding executioner.

She was taciturn, rarely expressing her opinions and views, and rarely showing unnecessary emotions, but almost everyone knew that Askaron would never betray Theresia.

Her eyes were vaguely on Chen Mo. As the captain of the guard, it was impossible for Askaron not to know about Chen Mo's existence. Even for Theresia's safety, Askaron would not allow an unknown person to appear. A group of people infiltrated Theresa's side, but she did not take any action. She just acquiesced to Chen Mo's existence. The coldness in her eyes made Chen Mo stand far away from Theresa.

Theresia was talking to the doctor and Kelsey. When her eyes fell on Chen Mo, she smiled softly. The snickering was like a child who had done something secretly behind the elders' back, with a bit of complacency and also With a bit of schadenfreude, she occasionally shows such a willful side, which makes people feel that she is no longer so out of reach.

This was the first time that Chen Mo had come into contact with the Doctor at such a close distance. In Chen Mo's mind, he had no name, and everyone who knew him called him Doctor.

From the appearance, there is no difference between this man who is not tall. Standing next to Kelsey, he is not even much taller than Kelsey. However, the impression he gives people is mysterious under the hood. very normal.

But these people usually cannot deny the subtle avoidance of Sarkaz in the camp when talking about him, as well as the encounters of Scout and his team, especially among the soldiers, who never deny their awe and slight fear of the doctor.

The face hidden under his hood made it difficult for people to tell what he was thinking, but there was no doubt that while the hood blocked people's sight, it also aroused people's suspicions about him and the consequences of his actions. He was so alienated that his presence seemed so obvious, yet he seemed so out of tune with his surroundings.

When Chen Mo noticed the doctor, the doctor was also looking in his direction, as if they were tacitly aware of each other's existence.

Chen Mo suddenly thought that maybe everyone knew about his existence, but everyone tacitly chose to turn a blind eye and fulfill Theresia's little willfulness. But while thinking this, he couldn't help but feel, Kelsey didn't seem to be such an understanding and gentle woman.

It was in the morning when we arrived in the city. The local lord seemed to have already known everyone's intention. He personally received His Highness who arrived with a respectful and humble expression.

Theresia is the legitimate crown prince of Kazdaele. Her status means that whether she is willing or not, a considerable number of people who seek to gain benefits in this civil war will choose her faction. Compared with the ambitious Tresia, Sith, Theresia is undoubtedly gentler and kinder.

This is her strength, or it may become her weakness. The difference between the two depends on whether Theresia can ensure that she will not decline significantly during this civil strife, otherwise her kindness will be the best thing for her to be betrayed. price tag.

Theresia finally politely and tactfully declined the lord's invitation to leave everyone to rest for a while. Askaron also refused the local lord's guards to participate in the work of ensuring Theresia's safety, but only allowed them to maintain Order in the square.

Chen Mo watched Theresia walk up to the high platform. He knew very well that Theresia was not just here for this speech. Behind the speech was the relationship between her and the local lord after she explained her ideals and future to the people. exchange of benefits and agreements.

None of this should be known to the common people, but the people who push the direction of this city are often not the numerous Sakaz people standing in the audience. In the eyes of the lords and senior officials, the common people are just another person. It’s just a pitiful number, but in Theresia’s eyes, maybe she doesn’t think so.

Because she showed so solemnity, as if she was stepping onto a battlefield, a battlefield that belonged to her. Even though she had repeated the same behavior countless times, she would not get tired of it. She would work hard for tomorrow's speech. Prepare carefully and meet for a while [@#

Her eyes hide the common people, her responsibilities and the people's expectations of her. Not only the nobles and lords, this may be the reason why so many people choose to follow her.

Chen Mo was not sure, but he finally understood what kind of weight Theresa was and what she represented in the eyes of the people.

Her speech was actually very calm. While she explained her ideals, it also made people like Chen Mo feel unrealistic. Perhaps many Sakaz people no longer believe in their king's promises and imagination to them. They just Trust the man on the high platform.

When her figure appeared on the high platform, the people fell silent. Her voice may not have been loud, but the people were unwilling to give up every word she said.

It’s shocking, and it should be heavy.

Because you can't believe that when countless pairs of eyes reflect the same figure, when the longing and expectations of countless people in the misery of war spread below, those expectations include but are not limited to children. , the old man, the lord's guard, perhaps the lord himself.

When Chen Mo looked at the Sakaz noble, there was only pure longing in his eyes when he looked at Theresia. He might have other thoughts, but at this moment he forgot those dark thoughts. rights and interests.

She was so beloved by the people, and she was so desirable.

How many people have grown up listening to her story. In the eyes of the Sakaz people, she is more respected than Tracy and all the previous kings, because she really exists and her kindness is indistinguishable from Sakaz. The nobles and slaves here.

Chen Mo's black pupils reflected Theresia on the high platform. A few white clouds were floating in the sky of Kazdale, and the warm sunlight poured down, illuminating the different faces of the Sakaz people one after another.

[Then do you want to go and see it? 】

Theresia told Chen Mo so a day ago.

look at what?

Chen Mo seemed to understand Theresia's words, because none of us can see the future, and we who just sit down and think can't do anything. But Theresia is moving forward, even though she may not be able to Knowing where to go, even though she herself felt unrealistic and illusory because of her ideal, she still didn't stop.

Because of the expectations of the Sakaz people below, because Chen Mo finally understood that those Sakaz people are alive, they have their own lives, they have their own careers, and they also have their own expectations for the future, even if this future It's actually quite far from Sakaz.

They are not dispensable people. They are living people who bleed, cry, think, and fear. They are not a series of cold and emotionless numbers on paper. They are not people who can fight for war. Sacrificial chips.

She never thought about escaping from the war. She also wanted to try to save more people. She has been doing this, describing the heavy word war in such a light manner, even with some upright longing for Chen Mo and what he said. Most of Theresia's people understood how ridiculous Chen Mo was.

Everyone knows it, but it is precisely because everyone knows it that they try to avoid it that it can be called great.

Chen Mo actually didn't listen carefully to what Theresia told her people. Just like the former Sarkaz, most of them couldn't understand the meaning of Theresia's words, but they They didn't care, because they knew Theresa was right, and that was enough.

In the eyes of the Sakaz people, she is the hope of this country. People believe in her so deeply, and they believe in her so deeply that Theresia is unwilling to drag them into the war, but she is also unwilling to drag the people into the war. It was Thearesia that made many Sarkarz people willing to fight and even sacrifice their lives for her.

No country on this earth can replicate Theresia and her Kazdaele again, because she was first the hope and monarch in the hearts of the Sakaz people, and then she set her sights on the infected and this earth.

Probably from this moment on, Chen Mo realized this.

Chapter 87 Fast food, tobacco and alcohol at four in the morning

I'm here to kill you, Tracys.

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In the process of fighting against the regent, the lords and nobles who chose Theresia formed a joint parliament with Theresia as the speaker of the parliament. The parliament was different from the Tower of Babel. Betta is a force that belongs only to Theresia and her followers, and the Parliament is the key to supporting this civil war.

Because after all, Tresis is not the king of Sakaz in the orthodox sense, he can never hide this identity, and his behavior of seeking power and usurping the throne is destined that his rule will not be recognized by all Sakaz people, unless Sakaz There is only one successor left for him, otherwise the benefits and rights brought by the struggle for power will surely drive the nobles and lords to compete for bets. The change of royal power will drag Kazdaele into one chaotic whirlpool after another. In conspiracy.

The night of April 1086, 10 in the Crystal Age

As a member of the ordinary guards, Chen Mo was not qualified to participate in the subsequent talks between Theresia and her senior officials and the local lords. Like most of the guards, he was assigned to replace the original guards at the lord's mansion. Fortunately, this security procedure Work is no stranger to Black Steel operators.

The speech during the day still echoed in Chen Mo's heart, but after calming down, there was no longer much shock. He just sighed and sighed at Theresia's extraordinary status in the hearts of the people of Kazdaele.

22:32 minutes

After the meeting ended, Chen Mo looked at the door of the mansion hall, where Theresia and Kelsey appeared. They were accompanied by the local city lord, a middle-aged Sakaz man who was not tall but looked strong. He followed Thearesia half a step behind, with Ascalon beside him.

Theresia stood at the front, her words of farewell were short and ordinary. The city lord tried to persuade him to stay, but Theresia seemed to refuse, so the city showed a slightly regretful expression.

At this time, Chen Mo finally realized clearly how noble Theresa was, who looked gentle and kind, in fact, at least in Kazdaele.

Chen Mo has never had any good impressions of lords and nobles. Rather, it is because the lords and nobles are too far away from him and in his original impression, most of these people are not good people, so he does not have any obvious feelings. Subconsciously I don’t agree with them.

There are not many nobles and lords in Colombia, and through Black Steel International's training and Chen Mo's experience growing up, he has never had close contact with this group of people.

The convoy drove all the way out of the town and into the wilderness.

The pale car lights pierced the rich darkness, and the car bumped and vibrated on the rugged road from time to time. The roar of the engine was the only sound that could really be heard at night.

The journey was peaceful until they returned to the Sakaz camp where the lights had not been extinguished and got off the car again. Chen Mo was unable to say a word to Theresia.

Accompanied by Kelsey and the doctor, she walked up the steps. When she turned around, her eyes looked in the direction of the escort convoy, as if looking for something, and finally rested on Chen Mo. Chen Mo thought this was the case, so he clicked nodded.

Theresia walked through the door.

It seemed like what she said, she just wanted Chen Mo to go and have a look, and now Chen Mo finally no longer had the extra thoughts he had when he was a child.

He took off the heavy knife and quietly walked into the darkness without attracting the attention of any guard, returning to the small dormitory belonging to him and Scout.

The lights in the room are turned on.

Scout was not in the room, maybe he was on another mission. He never talked about his mission with Chen Mo, probably because it was not important to him, and Chen Mo would not ask what exactly Scout was doing.

It's nothing more than killing, investigating, and patrolling. What can people like them do?

Ordinary life can only exist in tired dreams.

There is no crisis in the Sakaz camp, but the coveting eyes from outside the camp have never subsided.

Chen Mo took off the guard's uniform. Before he could figure out where to return it, the heavy knife was placed in the corner where it belonged. The dust and mud on the road made Chen Mo get into the bathroom after getting rid of today's fatigue. .

The cold water hit his face, and the water stains slid down his face. The staggered deep and shallow scars on his body made people feel terrible. Chen Mo remembered the origin of each scar, but he could not remember the owner of these scars.

The person reflected in the mirror suddenly felt a little strange. Chen Mo couldn't help but reach out and touch the stubble growing on his chin. The touch felt hard and dense.

He has grown up, even though he failed to live in the Longmen he expected, and even though he is still wandering now, it cannot be denied that he has indeed grown up and is no longer the immature child he used to be.

But many things cannot be changed, but many things have almost become vague memories.

The streets of Longmen, the orphanage, the swings under the oak trees, the ridiculous and childish days, the wooden houses in the resettlement camp, the starry sky, the roar and noise of the construction site, what the newly built city should look like.

He was never seen again.

He didn't even know when he would be able to return to that city again, and whether Tallulah would be like him, growing from that immature child to a beautiful girl.

She was very beautiful as a child.

Has she left the orphanage?