You are Toyokawa Shoko, then who am I?

Congratulations to Toyokawa Shoko for reaching the national championship, making history and achieving the Triple Crown!

Then, several small firecrackers were quickly set off the moment someone pushed the door in. The colorful strips inside swayed in the air, like gentle whispers, like falling feathers, falling on Toyokawa Shoko, like the most beautiful blessings and wishes.

And Toyokawa Sho stood silently outside the door without coming in. Looking at her being surrounded by people, she looked happy and cheerful, and the corners of his mouth slowly rose with a hint of relief.

Over the past ten years, he helped Toyokawa Shoko drive away the debt collectors and find a good job. He then wrote songs, filmed works, and gradually accumulated popularity. By the time he graduated from high school, he had forged Crychic into a galactic battleship and made their commercial debut together.

A year later, he began to compose music for the popular anime at that time. With the accumulation of time, he made a breakthrough and appeared on the Red and White Song Festival two years later. The following year, he started a national tour plan and began to target the film and television industry. Following his template of that year, he moved towards success little by little. In the end, he won the triple crown like him and defeated the Toyokawa family.

Although the final ending is the same, Shoko Toyokawa did not live a hard life like Sho Toyokawa did.

She was not hurt by her past band, was not crushed by the pressure of debt collection, was not unable to find a place to stand on campus, and did not have to go to the convenience store to buy the cheapest bread to fill her stomach every day.

I have fulfilled my wish and can go back to the past and be with myself ten years ago.

Be her father, be her psychological mentor, be her support, be her sky, erase the suffering and sorrow from her life, and leave her with only the main theme of hard work and persistence.

Ten years ago.

I can't explain why I came to this world.

Ten years later.

Looking at the happy Toyokawa Shoko in front of me.

Toyokawa Sho felt that he had found the answer.

Perhaps, I came to this world just to meet you.

When I first came to this world, I felt only fear and confusion, but after sharing my heart with you under the moonlight, I felt that everything became fulfilling and meaningful.

If, I came to this world to accompany you, to complete your twisted and incomplete life, and to bring more smiles and less vicissitudes to your face, I came to this world.

Then I think all of this is meaningful and valuable.

Even if this requires me to go through another difficult and tortuous road, even if this requires me to face the painful growth again, even if I don’t know when I can go back, or even if I may never be able to go back in my lifetime and can only stay in this world.

I don't regret staying by your side.

I am still willing to bend down and fill your life with flowers and shooting stars.

Those things that once made me feel scared, helpless, and difficult to accept have slowly been blunted during the days I've been with you, until they no longer have the edge to hurt my heart.

Looking at Toyokawa Shoko turning around and looking at him with a beautiful smile, and extending her hand to invite him to continue the journey of life with her, Toyokawa Sho sighed helplessly.

then.

Take a step forward happily.

But the moment he stepped into the room.

Wake up from the dream and fall off.

He opened his eyes, and the fantasy quickly collapsed before his eyes.

A huge feeling of weightlessness engulfed him in an instant.

It was as if there was a huge fire burning in the sky, burning down the sky, burning away the illusions, and re-implanting reality and life into the lenses of the eyes.

Where are the beautiful smiles, where is the long companionship of mutual understanding, where is the community of shared destiny spanning two worlds?

Only the shocking scar from last night lay in his heart.

Just a glance at it makes me feel stinging, uncomfortable, suffocated, and confused.

Recalling the memories of last night.

He straightened up, curled up tightly, and buried his head in his thighs.

It was only six or seven in the morning. The light coming in from the window was weak and cold, and it looked bleak when it fell on him. It pulled out the loneliness that he had been hiding under the surface of socializing, and exposed it mercilessly under the sun. He trembled slightly as if his soul was burned by the light.

The weak parts of my heart once again emerged from the ground like weeds, blown by the bad news and reality.

As for Shoko Toyokawa, Shoko Toyokawa truly regards her as himself ten years ago.

Just as he said himself, when he took the ribbon from Toyokawa Shoko's hand, he had already accepted Toyokawa Shoko in his heart.

So he agreed to meet Nagasaki Motoyo in order to pave the way for the reconciliation between Toyokawa Shoko and Crychic. So when he noticed that Toyokawa Shoko was developing an inferiority complex, he would immediately take her out to see the moon.

He was even willing to give all his salary to Toyokawa Shoko for living expenses, just hoping that her life could become easier and warmer with his help.

But when Toyokawa Sho realized that his experiences and Toyokawa Shoko's were not exactly the same, and that they were two completely different destinies, the relationship between them changed from unified peers to just similar strangers.

The loneliness and confusion that surged from his heart almost swallowed him up in an instant.

He doesn't care whether Shoko Toyokawa lives better than him. Instead, he will work harder so that Shoko Toyokawa can live a happy life. He regards this as the meaning of his life in this world, and he will persist, face it, and strive for it.

Because he regarded Toyokawa Shoko as another self, as the self he felt great pity for and wanted to save, so it was natural for him to pursue the happiness that belonged to him and Toyokawa Shoko.

But those few unintentional words that came out of Toyokawa Shoko's mouth yesterday destroyed Toyokawa Sho's thoughts.

The girl in front of him had a different fate from his.

How can people with different destinies be considered the same person?

And if it doesn't even count as the same person.

So what is the relationship between him and Shoko Toyokawa?

If even the basic relationship of being the same person collapses.

Everything he considered and did for Toyokawa Shoko, and everything he wanted to work on for her in the future, would be meaningless, wouldn't it?

Toyokawa Sho felt like he was back to the state he was in a few days ago when he just came into this world.

lonely.

confused.

The state of mind that had finally been able to set sail and face life with dignity seemed to have turned into a barren desert again, with only the constantly rising sandstorms stirring up dust on the sand.

It took him a long time to calm down, tidy up the bed on the floor, and tiptoe to the bathroom, trying not to make any noise to disturb the two people who were still sleeping.

He turned on the faucet and picked up the toothbrush. Perhaps because he was too tired, he felt that the mirror in front of him seemed to have several cracks, but when he rubbed his eyes, the cracks disappeared, as if they were just the illusion of the trauma in his heart projected into reality.

He shook his head, not allowing himself to think about it anymore. While brushing his teeth with the toothbrush, he somehow irritated his throat and suddenly had the urge to vomit. After suppressing it without taking it seriously, the urge became stronger and stronger, forcing him to put down the cup and toothbrush and hold the toilet and dry heave for a few times.

"Ha ha……"

He wiped the saliva from the corner of his mouth, but couldn't spit out anything. He returned to the mirror and saw that his eyes were red and swollen, bloodshot, and his face was pale and weak, like a sick patient.

Toyokawa Sho didn't say anything, just washed his face, then supported himself with his hands at his sides and looked at the strange yet familiar face in the mirror.

Watch and watch.

My teeth are a little itchy.

The tip of my nose feels slightly sour.

He sniffed, then tilted his head back and closed his eyes several times. It took him a long time to relax the fatigue between his brows and he skillfully swallowed back the weak sobs.

I was telling myself not to think about yesterday, but the memories kept repeating in my mind, especially the words "no debt" and "return to Toyokawa's house".

The more I think about it, the more I feel that Shoko Toyokawa is drifting away from me.

Her face, which was bathed in moonlight yesterday, began to be gradually shrouded in shadows and darkness, and her sparkling amber eyes were marked with a huge black bar.

There was only a short sentence written on the black bar.

who are you?

Toyokawa Sho opened his mouth slightly.

Three words popped up unconsciously in my mind.

...a fake.

Snapped.

Toyokawa Sho slapped himself hard on the face.

The burning pain on his cheek brought his consciousness back to normal, and he realized how extreme his previous thought was.

It is normal for me to feel confused about Toyokawa Shoko now, but it is another matter to have any extreme and undesirable thoughts because of this, which must be eliminated at the first opportunity.

Sure enough, I felt much better after the slap, as if I had temporarily gotten rid of the shackles and fetters.

But he still sighed, because he knew that he might fall into the same situation again in the future... The only way to fight against this situation at the moment was to recall some good memories to recharge himself.

He thought about it.

If I were to say, this is the only memory in this world that can make him feel a little powerful.

It turned out to be all the little things he had experienced with Lixi over the past two days, as well as the scene of him and Lixi sitting on the grass slope watching the fireworks before going home.

"..."

I want to see Lixi.

Such thoughts emerged in Toyokawa Sho's heart.

He didn't deny it, but walked out of the bathroom and looked at the clock on the wall.

It's not even seven o'clock now.

RiNG only opens at 10 o'clock.

Even if he went there now, he wouldn't be able to see Li Xi, so he thought of doing something to kill the time. He remembered that there seemed to be a few eggs in the refrigerator, so he decided to make breakfast.

The sound insulation of the kitchen is pretty good. Although it is narrow, as long as the door is closed, you can basically not hear any loud noises.

Toyokawa Sho rolled up his sleeves, made a simple fried egg, put it on a plate, and poured some soy sauce on it. A delicious and fresh breakfast was ready.

He picked up the chopsticks, picked up the golden and crispy fried egg whites, took a bite and nodded with satisfaction. Not bad, much better than what Lixi made. Then he ate a few more bites and his mood began to improve a lot.

When he thought about Toyokawa Shoko again at this time, his thoughts became a little brighter.

Actually, if you think about it carefully, it’s not a big deal.

There is no debt owed by the dark history, and there is a way to retreat back to the family. Isn't this situation much better than my own?

As long as I help her for a few years, or even less, she will be able to return to her previous life in glory.

He could return to the Toyokawa family with dignity without relying on the power of his heart.

Maybe in a few years I can inherit the position of head of the family, and my future life will be bright.

Toyokawa Sho nodded in satisfaction and put the last bit of fried egg into his mouth. He slowly chewed the egg white dipped in soy sauce, but a bitter aftertaste was left. The melody of a certain song began to ring in his ears without paying attention to the atmosphere:

Cause I Really Wanna Stay At YourHouse.

(Because I really want to stay at your house)

And I Hope This Works Out.

(I wish I could stay here forever)

But You Know How Much You Broke MeApart——

(But you know how much you tear me apart inside.)

Toyokawa Sho was caught off guard by the sudden melody. Before he could suppress his emotions, hot tears burst out of his eyes, uncontrollably flowed down his cheeks and dripped onto the table.

I really want to stay in this house.

But how should I view you now?

He held his head up and buried it in his arms.

The weak murmur echoed in the lonely living room.

"...Why can't you start work at 7 o'clock today?"

34

Chapter 34: I encountered the Donut Lady, who was as powerful as a monster, and I tried my best to defeat her.

After leaving the rental house.

Toyokawa Sho, carrying his guitar on his back, rode on the Jueying bike parked downstairs and wanted to go to the convenience store to buy a pack of cigarettes.

However, when he rode to the entrance of 7-11, he came to his senses. He looked only fifteen years old, and Neon did not allow minors to buy cigarettes and alcohol.

He touched his face. With his current appearance and height, he would probably be noticed by the clerk the first time he walked in.

I remember watching a funny video of a woman in her 40s or 50s going to buy cigarettes and alcohol, and the convenience store clerk kept asking her if she was over 20...