Life has dealt a heavy hand to a weak demigod like me.

"So if I ask you about your measurements now, will you tell me the truth?" Charles said in surprise.

Boom!

Two dark circles appeared on Charles's eyes.

"The more you change the subject, the more interested I am in what you are trying to hide."

"What exactly is the power you mentioned that is hidden in me and Mernade?" Sif asked, clenching her fists and trying to maintain emotional restraint.

"You're clearly just like Melnadette...why can't you be easily dismissed like her?" Charles sighed. "Being too obsessed with the truth will only scare away suitors."

"If the suitor you are talking about is you, I would feel much more relieved if he scared me away." Sif said calmly.

"But there are some things I can only tell my family." Ciel blinked. "Originally, as my sister, you could have known, but now... I can only tell you after you become my wife."

As for the reason...

Charles was afraid that his words would awaken her memory and then he would be hung up and beaten.

If the relationship had been established before this, and if they had taken advantage of it...

Even if he was hung up and beaten, Charles said he could totally accept it.

Being with a goddess... always involves taking some risks...

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Chapter 381 Chapter 51: Charles Who Likes to Seek Death

Facing Charles's cunning and treacherous look, Sif didn't know what to say.

"Rocks... your behavior right now is not at all gentlemanly, and certainly not like a legendary figure."

"Do you have any awareness of being a strong person?"

Ciel yawned and shook his head without any psychological burden. "Why should I make my life so tiring for such weird things?"

"I was wrong. I was really wrong." Sif rubbed her brow with her hand. "I originally thought that the conversation between you and Professor Endsworth and the way you presented yourself to others were just a disguise."

"Now it seems...that's the real you."

This is shameless and the behavior is shameless.

If Sif had not actually seen Charles like this, she really could not imagine that this guy in front of her would be a legendary figure who left countless traces in history.

"Maybe there are many people who care about how others see them, but I'm not that kind of person," Charles said with a smile.

"For ordinary people, life is only a hundred years short. Instead of wasting time trying to change yourself into someone worthy of respect or admiration in the eyes of others, it's better to ignore those strange looks and do something you enjoy."

"For extraordinary beings, life is infinitely stretched. In such a time, why should they care about the thoughts of those who can only occupy a tiny part of their memories?"

"If you carefully study my past, if you understand that period of history, you will find... I have only been pretending for about twenty years. After that, no matter who I was with, I always showed my true self."

For the first twenty years, he had no way to truly live the life he wanted, so he could only live the way others wanted him to be.

But later on, after he gained power and joined the church, he no longer needed to do that.

"That's not necessarily true." Sif narrowed her eyes and looked at Charles.

"You still have the potential to change, or rather, you still care about what some people think of you, and you will change yourself because of their opinions."

"For example, Mernadè..."

"You've changed for her more than once, even giving up your hobby of going to the City of Eternal Night."

"Also, this hobby was not given up because she asked you to do it. It was given up simply because you thought she wouldn't like it."

"You say you don't want to live the way others see you, but in reality you're willing to change yourself for the people you care about."

"It's quite contradictory."

Ciel touched his chin, smiled and shook his head, "There's still a difference."

"Not wanting to be who others see me doesn't mean my life and personality will remain unchanged. The reason I gave up my hobbies is exactly as you said. I thought Melnade and the others wouldn't like that kind of thing, so I stopped going there."

"But the reason I changed wasn't to make Mernade and the others happy, or to make them like me more."

"The fundamental reason I acted the way I did was because of the changes they made for me."

"They made changes for me, and I naturally feel their gratitude. Compared to this, hobbies like the City of Eternal Night are nothing."

"I was changed by their kindness, not because I wanted to gain something from them and acted like what they expected of me."

It was a bit awkward, but Sif understood the meaning of Ciel's words.

A strange smile appeared on her face. "You said before that your change was because of them, not just because of Melnadette alone?"

Charles nodded. "I did think about quitting because of Melnadette, but Melnadette persuaded me not to give up my hobby because of her."

"Then I confirmed my relationship with Melnadette, Theresa and the others."

"Now that I have someone I love, it's naturally not worth going to that kind of place."

Although sometimes Charles did miss that place, it was just a miss.

"Then...will you change for me?" Sif tied her hair and smiled charmingly.

Ciel smiled, "I don't know either."

"After all... I never thought I would be changed by them. As for you... you should have the same chance."

Sif nodded, then looked at the sky, "Locks, take me back."

"Aren't you going to ask anymore?" Charles asked curiously.

"I'm not going to give myself up so easily." Sif sighed. "Given your character, Rocks, I want to know those things, but you probably won't tell me just because I agreed to be your girlfriend."

"Sif, I think you have some misunderstandings about my character."

"I'm really not the kind of person you think." Charles said seriously.

Sif rolled her eyes, "Do you believe what you say?"

"Although I know that what you said before was just a joke to prevent me from getting to the bottom of it, it still sounds like you're trading our feelings, or even threatening us."

"Forget it. Since you think it's not appropriate for me to know those things now, I won't ask."

"If reality is a game, Rocks, you can already see the words "Favorability minus ten" appearing above my head."

Ciel was stunned for a moment, then narrowed his eyes and asked Sif, "Game? What game?"

In this era, computers and the Internet have been invented, but they have not yet been promoted. There are only a few users in the Truth Society and the Kingdom of York.

Chat rooms, browsing pages and the like appeared, but the emergence of online games or stand-alone games was still a long way off.

Other areas of technology can also be inherited from the Black Fire Era.

Although the Internet and computers already had their prototypes in the Black Fire Era, they were developed according to these prototypes and in this era were only used for work at most.

Even with Ciel's request, Reiner's contribution to computer games within the Truth Society was probably just the creation of a new folder...

In this day and age, even if Ciel had a computer at home, and Sif often visited him, she probably wouldn't have had the opportunity to play computer games...

"It's the kind you like, Rocks..." Sif was originally preparing to talk about the game in her mind.

But when the words came to her lips, the same confusion as Charles's arose in her mind.

She understands the word "favorability".

She also understood the word "game".

But when the favorability was reduced by ten and the game was put together, she was a little confused.

It was obvious that she had never come across these two words combined together, but just now she was able to say these two words as if it were a matter of course.

At the same time, what Sif found most difficult to understand was that she should have no impression of these things, but when she felt strange and wanted to explore her memory to find related things.

Things about games suddenly popped up.

The more you think about it, the clearer the related memories become.

She could vaguely see herself sitting in front of a computer that was more advanced than the one in Rocks' home, playing games.

Next to her were some strange black liquid drinks and some snacks like potato chips.

Sif was certain she had never eaten or drunk those things, but when the memory came back, she felt that she could taste that flavor in her mouth.

It’s as if there is another me who has experienced everything.

This feeling is very strange.

It was as if she was born with a natural knowledge of various written languages.

She can understand and even speak fluently any language and text that has appeared, has not appeared, or is currently appearing, as long as they fall into her eyes and ears.

When she was little, she used to be afraid of her uniqueness, but as she grew up, the fear disappeared.

After all... who would be afraid of their own power?

But now, or rather, during Charles's visit before, the strangely disappeared body and the almost omnipotent but uncontrollable power that emerged at that time made her feel fear again.

She could clearly feel that the power belonged to her and had no intention of hurting her. She could even feel that the power itself belonged to her.

But some thoughts still can't help but emerge.

After all, she was quite concerned about the figure that appeared strangely and then merged into her body.

So after Charles mentioned some things, she wanted to ask Charles.

But Charles' attitude made her feel a little embarrassed and annoyed.

Just like what she just said, although she knew that the other party was joking, the content of the words always gave her a feeling of being threatened.

At the same time, although she has feelings for Charles, she will never be with him just for some secrets she wants to know.

Although she has been in society for several years, as a woman who likes to read knight novels, Sif still has some beautiful expectations for love.

If she agreed to Charles out of curiosity or for some other reason, it would not be love as she understood it, but more like a transaction.

"You probably haven't come into contact with those things." Charles looked at Sif, who was thinking but didn't know where to start, with a subtle look in his eyes.

"It's true that I haven't come into contact with it, but I have related memories in my mind." Sif sighed, and then briefly described the memories that just came to her mind.

"These things are like experiences I've had, like my natural ability to understand language, something I'm born with but can't fathom."

Charles nodded in understanding.

As for the decoration style of Moon Room, Diana, the Goddess of Night, had already crossed time to play the game tens of thousands of years ago. In a certain timeline, we can even see the Goddess of Night changing her nationality to Zaun.

Now she has just regained that memory, or seen the future again.

"You look troubled." Charles placed his hand on Sif's shoulder. In a flash, they were back in Charles' room at Rocks Manor from the Taoist priest outside Nason Castle.

"It must be troublesome for you to have such a thing happen to you." Sif walked to the sofa and sat down, then picked up the snacks on the coffee table beside her and started eating.

"I have seen you and Mernadette in the distant past."

"At that time, I was still an ordinary person, or an ordinary extraordinary person, but you were already standing at the top of the world." Charles suddenly said.

"Huh?" Sif was stunned.

"Some things can only be told to each other after becoming family."

"But now you can barely be considered my family. After all, in your heart and in mine, our views on each other have long been more than friends." Charles showed a gentle smile.

"Before I became the legend you think I was, I had my fair share of trouble."

"You have unintentionally helped me solve a lot of troubles." The Goddess of Night likes people with literary talent the most, and likes the poetic stories created by those people.

Therefore, the more works he "created" as a wandering poet, even if he had no power, few people would use authority and strength to oppress him.

"Mernadette led me to the light before I fell into darkness."

"So to me, you are special."

"Of course, based on this impression, Mernadè's initial position in my heart is higher than yours."

"So after meeting you and confirming your identities, my attitude towards you will change like that."

"You must be curious about why I would want Melnadette and you to be my sisters."

Sif nodded. Even after learning so much, Mernadette still hadn't thought about this, but she was very curious.

"My initial thoughts were actually very simple. After arriving in this era, I felt lonely again. Your appearance helped me find companions and made me realize that I am not alone."

"At the same time, you are the ones who once helped me, but now you have lost your power. This gives me a unique feeling of identity reversal."