Life has dealt a heavy hand to a weak demigod like me.

"Based on your kindness to me, and our shared identity as people who do not belong to this era, I want to protect you when you lose your power."

"At the same time, when I think about how this great man who was once so unattainable that I could only care about silently in my heart has become like this, I also have a kind of evil desire to do something."

"So I tricked Melnadé into being my sister, and you did the same. I kind of want to know what your expressions will be like when you regain your strength and memory one day in the future."

"But after spending so much time together, my initial thoughts about you as just protectors have changed. Gradually, I've come to truly consider you my family. And since I'm easily moved, my relationship with Mernadette has slowly evolved into what it is now. I've also developed similar feelings towards you."

Ciel's honest words made Sif look indescribable.

I know Ciel's intentions are evil, but...if what he said is true, his actions are a bit too suicidal...

Isn't he afraid that once everything is exposed, he will be chased down and beaten because of his suicidal behavior?

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Chapter 382 Chapter 52 Seeking Death...Successfully?

"Rocks... Aren't you afraid of being beaten to death for doing this?" Sif's eyes turned into crescents in disgust. She meant what she said.

It wasn't that she decided to hunt down Charles after regaining her strength, but she simply got into the role of Charles, or herself.

She thought about it seriously. If her past was really that powerful, and Charles did something like taking advantage of someone in distress, she might really hunt down Charles.

"Of course I'm not afraid, because neither you now nor you in the past are that kind of people." Charles said with some nostalgia.

"Besides...even if you really want to hunt me down, I might not be able to defeat you, but I'm quite experienced in escaping." Charles said proudly.

Sif looked at Charles speechlessly, not knowing whether this guy was a coward or just being reckless.

Besides...what's there to be proud of about being experienced in escaping?

"I have no recollection of the past you're talking about. So I can't understand your feelings for me. But if I truly regain my memory and strength someday, given our current friendship, I can ask Mernadette for mercy if she comes after you," Sif joked. Ciel shook his head. "Compared to Mernadette, I'm still more worried about you. After all, Mernadette's personality remains the same, past and present. She probably won't be too angry with me then, and might even thank me."

Considering the character of the former Earth Mother, what Ciel said was not impossible.

Although he seemed to be taking advantage of her, Charles did protect her when she was weak, and some things were her own choices.

"You mean I'm stingy?" Sif asked unkindly.

Ciel felt a bead of sweat appear on his forehead.

Being stingy...I am a little bit stingy indeed.

After all, in the legend, the goddess of night once created the moon out of spite.

Moreover, within the Church of the Five Gods, although it was not stated explicitly, everyone had a unified attitude - never offend the Goddess of Night and the people she protected.

People generally describe her as protective.

But sometimes some people feel that the Goddess of Night is a little "stingy".

"I don't mean that. I just feel that compared to Mernadette, the you of the past might not accept me, but it is also possible that you will accept me happily." Although he is the high priest of the Church of the Earth, the Goddess of Night admires Charles very much.

After all, Charles' "creation" brought her a lot of pleasure.

Even some of the extraordinary characteristics of the Night Goddess Sect that Charles was able to exchange for were backdoors she opened for him - Charles was not aware of this before, but after his promotion, he could vaguely see many things about himself, even those related to the true gods.

"I really want to see how the other me would treat you." Looking at Charles who was thinking seriously about something at this moment, Sif's face showed some melancholy.

Are that me and the me now really the same person?

After Charles told everything, Sif's mood became a little complicated.

She learned the source of some of the abnormalities in herself and knew that "she" once seemed to be a great person.

but...

Is that self really yourself?

When the scene that Rocks expects appears, when my past self returns, will the present me still exist?

"No need to look, this should be your own decision." Charles vaguely sensed Sif's melancholy mood and quickly understood the source of her low mood.

"Perhaps you will think that everything about your past self will overwrite your present self, causing your memory or soul to be lost."

"But what I want to tell you is that you don't need to worry about this kind of thing at all."

"In my perception, the essence of your souls is the same. Whether you are now or in the past, you are essentially one person."

"It's just that you are missing some of your memories and powers now."

Sif shook her head. "I don't understand the concept of soul. In my opinion, a person's character, personality, or even their essence as a person is made up of countless memories."

“Because of those memories and experiences that are unique to me, I am who I am today.”

"And you told me that long, long ago, I had much richer experiences and more different memories."

"Compared to that vast memory, what are my memories of more than twenty years in this era?"

"Maybe in your eyes we are still one person, but in my opinion, when that day really comes, I will probably disappear."

Sif Leopold will disappear.

Instead, Rocks will be the person you want to see and protect.

For you... maybe it's a good thing.

"If it were in the past, I would probably be speechless right now." Charles reached out and tapped Sif's forehead, then laughed.

"Among countless years of memories, twenty years is but a fleeting moment. At the same time, this fragmented memory will probably be drowned out by those memories, causing the present you to 'disappear.'"

"But the premise is that the old you will come back."

Sif looked at Ciel strangely.

"A few months ago, I always thought that you, or you all, would return to this world."

"But some time ago, when Peroz was exploring, he encountered a deceased person with a similar situation to yours."

"He told me that he was destined to die. Although he could be resurrected, due to some insistence or restrictions, he only left behind his power and the trials he would have to go through to inherit it, but he chose to remain in silence forever."

"So now... I don't know if you and Melnadette will recover your memories and become the people I remember them as."

"But he probably still has the power. He left behind the power and the test because he lost everything before and died, and you are still alive now."

"So, your future is what I thought it would be, slowly becoming that great figure again. Or, you might regain control of that power in your own name. Both scenarios are possible, and the latter is even more likely."

Charles was comforting Sif, but his mood was a little complicated.

"Rocks... Do you want Mernadé and I to remain as we are now or recover our previous memories?" Sif asked curiously.

Ciel shook his head. "I don't know, and I don't want to say."

Out of personal feelings, Charles must want Mernadette and Sif to remain as they are now, which is very beneficial to Charles both in terms of his feelings and attachment to him.

But for other reasons, Charles hopes that Diana, the goddess of the night, and Mernadè, the mother goddess of the earth, can return to this world.

They had protected this world for countless years, discarded their selfish desires, and created an era that, despite its filthiness, he still missed...

It shouldn't have ended like this...

The Eternal Blazing Sun and the Ocean Goddess are confirmed dead.

The God of War and Glory is most likely dead.

Only the Goddess of Night and Mother Earth were left.

If possible, Ciel hopes they won't be like the others...

"You... I don't know how you managed to coax Perozzi and Theresa."

"Even if you just tell me a lie at this moment, just to comfort me, tell me that you hope I'll be the last person alive. Maybe I'll be moved and fall in love with you."

Sif whispered, then leaned one side of her head against Ciel's.

Seeing her look a little sad at this moment, Charles hesitated and said nothing.

He actually couldn't understand the inner conflict that Sif was feeling right now.

In his opinion, as long as the past self and the present self are essentially the same, it doesn't matter which period of the self dominates everything.

Because they are all their true selves.

Memory may really change a person, but the memory that can change a person is never based on years or quantity.

"Girls are really complicated creatures..." After a moment, Sif left Charles' shoulder, then stood up and said with a complicated expression.

"Although I just thought in my heart that even if it's just a lie, I hope to hear you say something to keep me."

"But now I think it's really great that you didn't lie to me."

Charles scratched his head and wanted to say something, but Sif blocked his mouth with her index finger.

"Don't comfort me. Being able to learn so much from you and be able to prepare in advance is already a very good outcome for me."

"I hope that in the future, when the me of the past occupies everything of mine, Rocks, you can remember the me of today." As she spoke, Sif showed a relieved expression.

Ciel hesitated for a moment, then said seriously, "Um... I didn't mean to comfort you just now. I just wanted to correct a grammatical error."

"What?" Sif was stunned.

"Girls and stuff... it's too embarrassing to say that at your age."

"Sif...you're already 27 or 28, almost 30, and you'll be laughed at if you still call yourself a girl."

Many well-shaped characters appeared on Sif's forehead.

It's obviously a very sad time right now, but does the guy in front of me have any understanding at all?

Am I that old?

He is only eighteen years old and a few months old now!

Just as you men are allowed to remain young forever, can't we women remain girls forever?!

Sif forced herself to raise the corners of her mouth and revealed a terrifying smile.

She slowly raised her hands and placed them on Ciel's shoulders.

"Rocks... If the me of the past and the me of the present are the same person, and she can receive my memories and be influenced by them, I would strongly urge her to be more ruthless when she attacks you."

Charles blinked innocently, as if he didn't understand why Sif would say such a thing.

"Originally, I was thinking that before my past self replaced me, I would do some of the things I had always wanted to do."

"For example, having a passionate love affair with someone you like, doing things you've only read about in books before."

"But now... I might have to consider finding someone else to do these things."

In just a short moment, Charles really performed a face-changing stunt like Sif.

From the initial puzzled look of "I totally don't understand what you are saying", it turned into a flattering look that is unique to a bootlicker.

"Sif, I always feel that compared to the you of the past, you now have great advantages."

"For example, in terms of age, you are still a girl, and she is already an old aunt."

"Although I have some respect and admiration for her, the one I truly like, or should I say love, is still you."

Sif's eyebrows twitched.

Although I know that Charles is very shameless, but...

His behavior now is too shameless!

Looking at Sif who looked a little speechless, Charles's expression did not change at all. He held Sif's hand very naturally and looked at Sif with an affectionate gaze.

If it were any other time, facing this gaze, Sif would probably blush and feel a little embarrassed.

but now...

She only had one thought in mind: to swing her fist and leave some marks between Charles's eye sockets.

"Rocks... You said that I am essentially the same as I was in the past."

"Do you think it's appropriate to speak ill of my past self in front of my present self?"

"I probably won't have any thoughts about it now, but your comments about my past self will be felt after that past self accepts everything about me..."

"By then, I think your comments about my aunt and ancestors will be more likely to arouse my murderous intent than your delusion of becoming my brother and wanting to date me."

She didn't know what kind of person she was in the past, but for her now, compared to the fact that someone liked her and wanted to be her brother, she cared more about others making a fuss about her age.

Old aunt, old ancestor, etc...

After hearing these words, Sif felt that she, who was so weak as to not even tie a chicken, could perform a trick of uprooting a weeping willow for Ciel!