I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Su Shi had read related books before, one afternoon a year after he picked up Qiansui.

That day, she had just sent off a client and went to the Four Boxes of Rain Bookstore by the seaside to buy a parenting guide.

Honestly, she was terrified.

The book describes the entire process of raising a child in detail, and explains that if there is a problem in any step, the child may be raised in a wrong way.

This really hurt Su Shi's heart, but now it seems that this daughter who she had never cared for much...doesn't seem to have grown up as a bad person.

After bringing Qiansui back home, Su Shi this time chose to spend more time on this child.

"Can you play here by yourself? Mommy's going upstairs to work. I allow you to walk around the house freely, go to the garden or the terrace, but you can't disturb Mommy's work!"

Is it okay to say that? Her tone was kind and her attitude was gentle. She really was a qualified and good mother.

But the wording... still doesn't seem to be good enough. But Xiaosui, please forgive your human-machine mother. Her brain has just started up, so it is inevitable that it will be stiff and rigid.

"Hmm!" Chitose blinked and began to think about the next plan.

The characteristics I chose are very useful. A fever has made the relationship between them better.

But this stupid daughter is so stupid that she is just a small fry. If she is any more stupid, she will be on par with small fry like Li Xi.

Chitose tilted his head, having barely gotten used to being a child.

Being a child is even more advantageous than being an adult or a teenager to some extent. After all, children can say a lot of things without worrying about it and can do a lot of things that would be inappropriate at other ages.

For example——

Chitose stood motionless beside Su Shi's desk, holding her teddy bear. She just stood there, staring at Su Shi.

"..."

"I can't work if you look at me like that."

What a fiery look! What is this little guy trying to do?

But Qiansui said nothing and just stared at Su Shi.

stare--

"Alas, I surrender. How can I get you to stop staring at me?"

"Mom, the little bear is dirty. It's vegetable juice."

Holding the teddy bear and approaching Su Shi, Qian Sui tried her best to suppress her voice, but she felt that she still could not surpass Su Shi.

While imitating the sound of a clip, he encountered a talented old woman who was as powerful as an ancient monster. He tried his best but failed to defeat her. In the end, he was defeated and became as humble as an ant.

"Send the dirty ones to the laundry room on the second floor... Oh, I forgot there's one in this house. Send them to the washing machine on the terrace on the third floor. I'll help you wash them later."

"Uh-huh!"

All I could hear was the sound of footsteps spreading from near to far, and then the cute little child went upstairs and the footsteps stopped.

But soon the peace of the world was broken again.

The sound of footsteps approached quickly. Qiansui, who was no longer holding the teddy bear in his arms, returned to Su Shi and continued to stare at Su Shi with his wine-red eyes wide open.

After finishing a small part of the work, Su Shi felt helpless, but she was not angry.

I have been so negligent in my child's education and care, but she doesn't hate me at all... This little angel is actually my daughter.

Lucky and unlucky.

"what happened again?"

"I can open the washing machine myself!"

"alright, I got it."

"Eh?"

Qiansui's expression was very surprised, as if he didn't expect Su Shi to say that.

"Huh? What's wrong? I can operate the washing machine too. This is normal."

"Oh…"

Su Shi didn't understand why the child suddenly felt lost, but the next moment she suddenly realized that the child was asking for praise.

what.

She was like this when she was a child.

Her mother would praise her to make her happy, but later she never had the opportunity to ask for praise and compliments again, and Su Shi had even forgotten that memory.

Putting down the work at hand, Nagasaki Suyo rubbed Chitose's little head with her hand. She spoke in a deep voice, frantically organizing words in her brain.

"Well... great, keep it up."

What a terrible compliment. She hasn't praised anyone for a long time and no one has praised her... Such stiff, cold and perfunctory encouragement will probably not be liked.

You deserve to be hated.

"Hey! Hehe, I like mommy!" Xiao Qiansui held the hand on his head, squinted his eyes and responded to Su Shi with a bright smile.

"..."

[Don't be so nice to me... I've been hurting you all along... This will only make me feel even more ashamed. ]

The more I look at this child, the more he looks like myself when I was little.

Nagasaki Suyo tried hard to restrain herself from looking at Chitose again. Chitose also sat obediently on the sofa in the study and looked out the window at the scenery.

I tried hard to work, but I just couldn't get into the mood. Maybe it was just like what Secretary Haizuka said a few days ago, I needed to take a good rest for a while.

Don't push yourself too hard. Even the strongest bowstring will break after being stretched too much, let alone Su Shi who has always been in poor condition.

The computer screen went black due to being inactive for a long time. Su Shi just stared at the screen blankly, and it took him a while to come back to his senses.

She began to miss her mother a little.

Ugh.

"Xiao Sui, what are you looking at?"

The chair rotated as his body turned, and when Su Shi turned around, Qian Sui was staring at the bird's nest in the tree outside the window.

"Look at the bird."

"Little Bird? What does Xiaosui like to do at home?"

"Hmm?" As if he had encountered a difficult problem, Chitose tilted his head as he looked at Su Shi, "Watching the cars passing by on the road with grandma... woo..."

"..."

Oh no, I fell into the trap again.

Children's moods change so quickly. When Su Shi thought of her grandmother, she could visibly see that Chitose became depressed.

She quickly went forward and hugged the other person, unable to bear to see the child cry.

"Hug, hug, hug, I'm sorry. Mommy has been in a bad state recently and often says bad things...Xiao Sui, can you forgive Mommy?"

The more she communicated with children, the more Su Shi found herself becoming gentler.

It's a very strange process...

Like an iceberg collapsing in the spring warmth, like... the chicken in ginseng chicken soup being peeled off its skeleton and falling into the soup.

The child in her arms was warm, but this time it was a healthy warmth.

"I don't blame mommy...I like mommy's hug."

"Eh? You just like mommy's hug?"

Su Shi said this casually, but felt something was wrong after he said it.

But Qiansui's reaction stopped Su Shi's thoughts.

"I still love my mom!"

"!!!"

This child is so lovable.

so cute.

Ch139. That tattered teddy bear

We had fast food for dinner.

Su Shi thinks that children should all like to eat fast food.

She swapped the meat patties she didn't want to eat with the vegetables in Chitose's burger, thus satisfying the other party's desire to eat only meat and fulfilling her own desire to eat only vegetables, while also increasing her favorability.

Well, killing three birds with one stone, huge profit.

On the way home, Su Shi couldn't help laughing when she thought of Chitose taking small bites of the burger that was almost as big as her face.

So cute…

I really want to raise one.

What? This is my house?

That's fine.

"Are you happy or not? It's about food."

"happy!"

There were still some small sesame seeds stuck on Qiansui's face, and Su Shi pinched them away while waiting for the red light.

This allowed Su Shi to experience what it was like to be a mother...it was amazing.

After returning home, Su Shi subconsciously wanted to start working, but when she turned on the computer, she remembered that she had already distributed all the work.

She stared blankly at the emotionless computer screen, and suddenly a strange illusion emerged in her mind.

It was as if she was missing something in her life without her job... Who had made her like this? Was it herself, or was it the world?

Find something to do...

Besides working and drinking tea, what else do you do?

If it were the former Su Shi, she would still read girls' comics... That was at the beginning of high school. Su Shi was so bored staying at home for a while that she chose to read those girls' comics.

But now that I am an adult, isn’t it a bit too childish to compete with children for comics?

Xiao Qiansui has been following behind Su Shi, and now he is standing beside her and using the [Stare] skill without saying a word.

"Alright, alright, I surrender. Why are you looking at me?"

"Teddy Bear..."

"Oh, yeah, I'm going to wash it for you... Are you sure you want to wash it? If you wash it today, it won't be dry until tomorrow, right? Then you won't have anything to hold tonight."

Su Shi felt that this conversation was very familiar... When she asked her mother to help wash her teddy bear when she was a child, her mother seemed to ask her the same question.

It was a rainy day when my mother came home. The house smelled moldy in the heavy rain. My father had a social event until very late that day and did not come home. It was almost nine o'clock in the evening when my mother came home.

But my mother would still help me wash the teddy bear... Oh my god, the memories started coming back to me again.

"Uh-huh!"

He rubbed his daughter's little head again, and the warm touch made Su Shi's heart beat abnormally.

It really is, it's very similar, it's an exact replica of myself.

When going upstairs, Su Shi felt as if he was walking on a river with the water flowing backwards. The further he walked, the more he recalled the past with his mother.

Those memories that he thought he had forgotten long ago have never completely disappeared. They slowly emerged in Su Shi's mind.

"Alas... Do people like to reminisce about the past when they get old?"

She is only in her early thirties. Could it be that her vitality has been exhausted because she is too busy with work?

The entrance to the terrace on the third floor is right opposite the stairs. It seems only a few steps away, but Su Shi felt like she had walked for a long time.

My knees are old too.

"call…"

It's time to consider moving back to a larger flat where there are fewer stairs.