I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

The closet smells of Chitose.

Although the closet space is small...it is full of Chitose's scent.

There's not only the smell of Chitose in it... but also the memories of Chitose and her.

Every time Su Shi wanted to die, he would scratch the wardrobe door with his nails. In the dim and lightless wardrobe, an endless thousand-year-old aura enveloped Su Shi.

Although... it made Su Shi feel relieved, it also made him more desperate.

Because these flavors and memories constantly remind Su Shi of one thing: her Qiansui is dead, and her Qiansui will never come back!

"She fell into the sea... she fell into the sea! Wuwuwu... I... If only I had paid more attention to Xiaosui during those few days, no no no... If only I had taken the responsibility to take care of her from the beginning!"

This way, Su Shi can watch Xiao Sui grow up...

Su Shi was curled up in the closet. It was so dark inside that she couldn't tell whether the liquid gathering on her chin was tears or blood.

She fantasized again, if she had taken responsibility from the beginning -

When she was one year old, Su Shi could hear Xiao Sui calling her "Mom", and she would respond with a sweet smile.

When she was two years old, she could see the little one crawling around the house chasing her. She would deliberately slow down in front and wait for her daughter to catch up, and her mother would clap happily on the side.

At the age of three, Xiaosui was already able to go to kindergarten. I would wear my best clothes to attend kindergarten ceremonies, make friends with teachers and other parents, and make my daughter's life more comfortable.

When she was four years old, she could still attend her daughter's school parent-child sports meeting. She would hold her daughter in her arms and participate in the small relay race. They would win the championship, and her mother would watch them from the audience.

Five, six, seven, eight years old...

"Ahhhh! What have I done?! Why did I send Xiaosui away in the first place?!"

"Why did I yell at her after I brought her home? Why did I... didn't take good care of her and left her aside for work?"

Regret, resentment, Su Shi couldn't explain his feelings clearly.

She banged on the cabinet frantically, her body twitching involuntarily.

Now it's ok...

Xiaosui passed away, and so did my mother.

His last [home] completely collapsed.

Ha ha…

Haha.

Haha!

Nagasaki Suyo! You really...deserved it!

"Too high and mighty, how could I be so high and mighty... I'm so derelict in my duty, I've never taken any responsibility in my life... Hahahahaha, all of this is my own fault..."

Want to end my life.

But Su Shi didn't dare to die.

Because she is the last person in the world who remembers Xiaosui's appearance and has memories of her past.

If I die, then Xiaosui's last trace in this world will be gone...

She is now given a new mission... She, Nagasaki Suyo, must live with all the painful memories.

Only by living can I continue to fantasize, and see Xiao Sui again and again in my dreams and in my trance...

Su Shi held a teddy bear in her arms, and she gently rocked the bear as if the doll in her arms was a baby.

"Don't be afraid, Xiao Sui. Mom is always here. Mom will always remember you..."

A complex and desperate smile appeared at the corner of Nagasaki Suyo's mouth.

The image of a white figure rose in her heart again.

Her image seemed blurry, yet terrifyingly clear.

Chitose Nagasaki...Chitose Nagasaki!

Haha… I’m done, I really messed everything up this time! Haha.

"Woo-"

When Su Shi thought of the countless negative impacts caused by her actions, she couldn't help but want to cry out loud, but she was embarrassed to cry in this place where her daughter once cried.

She remembered the times she'd come home and found her daughter hiding in the closet...did she feel lonely and want to cry during those times, but couldn't find her mother's embrace?

"what…"

Nagasaki Suyo's hand accidentally touched the place where she had just hit it hard, and suddenly found that there seemed to be traces left by the liner pen.

She pushed open a corner of the cabinet door to let the light from outside in. On the cabinet wall, she saw a childish graffiti of a little flower.

There was a line of words written under the graffiti, awkward and awkward. Su Shi narrowed his swollen eyes and read carefully:

[Don't cry! I love you the most! Chitose is now the happiest girl in the world!]

"Woooa ...

Volume 3: Sacred Mango Nectar

Ch162. The simulation ends. Wish you a sweet dream tonight.

[Keep living, my daughter. As your daughter, I will pray for you in the other world.]

……

For some reason, when the simulation ended, a tear fell from the corner of Noshiro Chitose's eye.

It quietly slid down the corners of Qiansui's eyes and finally dripped between her silver-white hair without causing any ripples.

Congratulations, host! You, a bad guy, have ruined another life! After gaining access to all sorts of intelligence, both big and small, about the special and ordinary events in Nagasaki Suye's life, the host decisively became a badass with a vast store of information, and she used the right tactics to keep Suye trapped in the host's clever traps.

Your understanding of evil and your methods of doing evil are constantly improving. I wish you to master new techniques and skills more quickly, and continue to destroy others with this host!

[Regret Index Calculating… Congratulations to the Host on achieving a lifespan of seven years.]

[Remaining lifespan: 22 years, 4 months, and 27 days]

【Overall evaluation: above average】

[P.S. I hope you can perform better next time. By the way, being a mother first and then a daughter? Interesting... As expected of you, Chitose. Even with such a huge difference, can you still handle it with ease? Hakitoshi... you...]

Qiansui didn't want to listen to the noisy system at all. She just selectively listened to some key words.

The system says, twenty-two years and four months, right?

Ha→ha↓ha↑ha↓

Now even living to 38 is not a problem, and it will be almost 30 years before I can get my sister's eyes treated.

I've gained so much from just one simulation, my lovely daughter Sushi! Your daughter Qiansui loves you so much!

The joy of knowing that my life span had been extended only lasted a few seconds.

Chitose jumped off the bed and stood there in a daze.

Her hands were still raised in celebration, the corners of her mouth were still raised, and with her back to the moonlight, she was the goddess of victory in her own world at this moment.

But after the brief excitement, her little heart was filled with an inexplicable feeling of emptiness.

[Another life has ended... a chapter of life. ]

The years I've spent in simulation and reality combined... probably about twenty or thirty years.

Actually...it's quite strange.

It was like her life was cut into countless small segments, and there was someone to accompany her through each segment.

But, it’s just companionship.

At some unknown moment, this companionship will disappear, and Chitose will be thrown into the next fragment.

Countless people will leave her, such as Mini Lamp, Alcohol Lamp, Idiot Filth Lixi, daughter Su Shi, mother Su Shi...

Countless people will also come to her world, such as the real-life Deng Takamatsu, Tatsuki Shiina... and her beloved sister.

[In just a moment, I've come this far. ]

In fact, I was still staring at the critical illness notice last week.

"Ugh…"

Chitose Noshiro stood barefoot on the cold floor. In the end, she actually didn't know what expression to use to greet the gaze of the world.

She walked alone to the small balcony next to the living room, half of her body leaning on the railing, admiring the unchanging moon.

"Actually..." Qiansui muttered softly, "Thank you very much. I'm really grateful to Mother Sushi for giving me this last memory of my mother."

Including the simulation, it has been more than ten or twenty years since the death of his biological mother, Ms. Haizuka.

Everything about her mother became blurry... just like how Suye's memories of Ms. Nagasaki became incomplete in the simulation.

It is precisely because Qiansui knows what things will make him uncomfortable that Qiansui uses those tricks on Su Shi.

"Ugh."

Second sigh of the night.

Noshiro Chitose pinched her little face, but because there was not enough flesh on her cheeks, she pinched only a lonely one.

"I used to hate it when my mom used her phone to film me. I hated it when she was always recording me in videos. Every time I would yell at her to stop filming me."

Every time, my mother would smile awkwardly and ask, "What's wrong with taking a picture?"

It wasn't until now that Chitose Noshiro realized that her mother was the only one who would hold up her phone to record her.

Well... there are not many photos of me and my mother in my phone now.

Most of the few photos... were taken when Chitose was a child using the first mobile phone her mother bought for her.

My mother's cell phone is actually still at home. It is kept as a relic in the bedside table in my parents' room.

Chitose knew that there were many memories of her parents in it, but she was a coward and didn't dare to go through it at all.

"Xiao Sushi, wu, you must hold on... You've taken away seven years of my lifespan... Sigh, it looks like you must be feeling bad."

Seven years is longer than any previous simulation.

I really don’t know how the child lived later.

Ask the system?

Forget it, the system is a jerk, what can it understand?

"elder sister?"

Kyomoto called softly from behind, and Chitose turned his head in surprise.

"Xiao Jing? Are you awake? Did I wake you up?"

"Mmm, no, I just wanted to go to the bathroom, but I found my sister missing... Is my sister really not worried? She's been acting weird lately..."

"Aha! How could you be worried? Sister would never hide anything from Xiaojing... Go to the bathroom quickly. I'm just too hot and came out to get some fresh air... I'll be back to sleep with you soon."

"Okay! Better hurry up, or it'll get chilly under the covers again."

Because he is very familiar with the home environment, Jingben can complete most activities at home just by holding on to the wall.

In the darkness, Kyomoto was more familiar with this house than Chitose.

"Hey, it's great! My sister is happy, and I can get to know everyone in real life and save their lives, which are filled with misfortune and regret... Everything is worth it."

An expression of "Isn't this good?" appeared on his face, and Chitose sighed deeply.

She likes to be serious about things, so if they really want to be friends for life in real life, she will do everything a friend should do.

Help your friends solve their problems, support each other through the confusion of adolescence! Chitose Noshiro! You are a badass who has been tempered in simulations...

"So I should be nicer to everyone in real life, just to ease my conscience a little."

Waving at the moon, Qiansui stretched lazily and walked towards the bedroom.

[Deng, Lixi, Sushi, you must be fast asleep.]

I hope you have sweet dreams.