I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Xiangzi didn't cry when Qiansui died, and he didn't cry when Qiansui was taken away.

When she saw that the machine was still flashing red light, Toyokawa Shoko could no longer hold back her tears and burst into tears.

"Ah...Xiao Sui...Xiao Sui..."

……

The flowers in the forest have faded their spring redness, too quickly. Helpless is the cold rain in the morning and the wind in the evening.

Chitose Toyokawa has been gone for half a year.

Shoko Toyokawa returned to the Toyokawa residence. After watching the videotape left by Chitose that recorded that disastrous day, she never spoke to her father again.

That man also completely disappeared from her life.

The murderer...

After returning to Toyokawa's house, Xiangzi had not been to school for a long time. She wandered around the house alone, and every tree and blade of grass here carried her and her story.

There is no more innocent smile, and all that remains is loneliness that will last for a hundred years.

"..."

There were some white hairs mixed in Xiangzi's long blue hair. Since Qiansui left, she had never lived a comfortable day.

She developed the habit of sleeping with the lights on, the habit of hugging something to fall asleep, and when she walked on the street, she would subconsciously grab the air beside her...

“Chitose…”

In the movie room at home, Shoko Toyokawa watched over and over again the movie videotapes that Chitose gave her when she was a child.

That was the happiest day of her life.

"Do you like my movie?"

The lively and lovely Chitose dances on the screen, as if she were alive...

"I like you. I like you the most."

But you left.

I don't dare to die yet.

Because when I die, no one in this world will remember you forever.

“That’s it! It’s over fifty minutes long! It’ll probably take me ages to edit! But, I’m so happy!”

"Xiaoxiang, although you've always wanted to be my older sister, I've always considered you my younger sister..."

Her smile was bright and happy, and Xiangzi felt warm just by looking at her.

The white light from the curtain illuminated Xiangzi's face, and her tears were flowing quietly.

“I don’t know if I can still be with you when I go to school, grow up, and work, but I will always love you.”

“You’re such a bad boy! Sometimes when I take pictures of you you hide from me, so I can only take pictures of you secretly!”

Sorry.

Feel sorry…

"If you miss me, watch this movie! If I'm not by your side, watch this movie too! You don't have to rely on vague memories to miss me. As long as this movie I gave you is still here, I will still be by your side."

[“This is—your beloved Chitose! It took a whole year to shoot! This is a painstaking work!”]

“It’s a wonderful thing to be able to decide how to remember someone. This is Chitose. We’ll meet outside the movie. I’ll love you forever.”

Video, end.

Life is almost over.

"Being able to decide how to remember someone is actually a wonderful thing... Then when you decide to leave this world that day, how do you expect me to remember you?"

Sorry for not making you feel safe.

Outside the warehouse when I was a child, it was my powerlessness that caused your misery.

"And the suffering you experienced growing up was also because of me... If only I could have gotten home earlier that day... I should have known... I..."

I feel so regretful.

Ch476. The promise with you will be fulfilled in reality

it is finally over.

When the simulation ended, all Chitose Noshiro could feel was an indescribable tiredness.

There were bloodshot in her eyes, and her mental strength had obviously been overdrawn too much.

"Finally...I can rest."

I want it! No simulation for a whole month!

I'm going to take Xiao Deng to the beach for BBQ bibimbap, take Li Xi to the movies while I play the piano for her and cook her tonkatsu! I'm going to take Su Shi to drink ginseng chicken soup and then take Ain to Hokkaido!

"Ugh! I really want to rest!"

Qiansui walked out of the room, stood on the balcony and whispered to the rising sun.

[Congratulations to the host, for once again successfully completing a mission that will leave you with lifelong regrets.]

[In this simulation, the host quietly planned for decades, accompanying Toyokawa Shoko as her good sister, becoming highly integrated with her soul and life, and then instantly withdrawing.]

[Every design of the host is closely linked...]

Qiansui stopped listening after the system said this. She stared at the halo not far away in a daze, and the sky finally turned pale.

[Regret Index Calculating! Congratulations to the Host on Gaining a Longer Lifespan...]

"Stop it, don't say anymore."

Qiansui waved his hand, immediately interrupting the system's words.

[Gained a lifespan…huh? Years? What’s wrong with you?]

"I'm tired. It doesn't matter."

After a month of fighting, he traveled north and south, planning for his life every time.

Day after day, month after month, year after year.

Simulation after simulation, slowly the sense of achievement disappeared, and the tiredness and shame after each simulation surrounded her heart.

She lay listlessly on the guardrail, glancing over to look at Xiangzi's house.

"It won't be short. I can roughly estimate it's several years... I'm always satisfied with my harvest... So, to make life easier, I don't want to look at the specific number this time."

I've gotten used to it. Such things have become the norm. Toyokawa...Chitose Noshiro has already known them by heart.

[Is that so? Well, thank you for your efforts. As an excellent user of the simulator, this system will transfer all the income from this simulation to the host.]

"You're not going to take the share? After all, you've done a lot, right?"

[No need, the performance target has already been met.]

It's rare that the system's voice sounds a bit more playful.

【Next, please have a good rest. 】

"Well, you should have a good rest too, my good Tong."

The system did not reply, and Qiansui's farewell fell on deaf ears.

But she didn't care about that anymore, she just felt relaxed.

Everything will pass, the wind continues to blow, and people still have a long way to go. Life is not short, and suffering will eventually go away.

"Good morning, world."

I want to apologize to you for not saying good morning to you this morning.

The silver-white hair was pushed behind the ears, and the corners of Qiansui's lips naturally curled up.

Live another day.

……

Live another day.

"Xiao Sui! Xiao Sui!"

Shoko Toyokawa jumped up from the tatami in shock, her hands scratching at the air wildly, as if she wanted to tear the air in front of her into pieces.

"How old am I... How old am I? Where am I..." Countless images turned into photons and drifted away in the wind in front of Toyokawa Shoko.

She couldn't see clearly anymore, she couldn't see anything anymore, she...

All she could see was a dim bedroom, a bedroom with no nightlight at all.

Yes... there is no Chitose's bedroom.

"Am I back? Where am I? Ah... I'm Toyokawa Shoko, I... I seem to..."

Xiangzi was worried, so she supported herself on the floor with her hands, crawled on the ground, and finally stood up with difficulty.

"I don't seem to have a sister at all. Could it be that all this was just a dream?"

So, what are those sufferings?

Is it the conscience deep inside that is torturing me for all the mistakes I have made over the years?

"Xiao Sui... I'm sorry! I'm sorry... Wuwuwu..."

Toyokawa Shoko cried while hugging her pillow, and her throat felt like it was on fire.

That's because her heart is burning and her blood is boiling!

Today, Toyokawa Shoko didn't have the energy to write down the good lines she had thought of. She just lay there like a poor creature trapped in her own cocoon.

Chitose Toyokawa is fake... This is the real world, and there is no sister who is constantly hurt because of her mistakes.

But Shoko Toyokawa dared to assert that Chitose Toyokawa absolutely, absolutely, absolutely existed. That feeling could not be faked, and the feeling of heartbeat resonance could not be faked either.

It’s just that she, Toyokawa Shoko…lost Chitose.

"Woooooooo..."

【It's all retribution.】

God sent me this nightmare to punish me...Alas.

Now that Shoko Toyokawa has calmed down and looks back on the past, she suddenly realizes that many of the wrong things she did in reality were reflected in her dreams.

"Years, lights...Sushi, Mu...Lixi...everyone...I, I...I..."

I was wrong. I'm sorry. I really, I really... I...

Xiangzi had been crying so hard that she could only make stammering sounds. She moved her body twitching like a caterpillar and hid in the corner as if she had become autistic.

"If I had known earlier, I would have..."

Xiangzi suddenly realized something, and when she looked around she remembered this room.

This was a place where she lived for her father, but in the end, her sister's departure was closely related to her father.

"Woo...I want to leave here, I don't want to stay here anymore!"

Today, I will take Xiangzi and Kyomoto back to live in the Toyokawa residence!

No one can stop her from saying that! Not even the current head of the Toyokawa family can do that!

"I swear that the promise you made to me to spend your life together will come true."

After going to the bathroom, Shoko Toyokawa quickly finished washing and dressing.

After she dressed herself, she immediately went out and stood quietly at the door of Noshiro Chitose's house waiting for her to wake up.

It's only five o'clock now, and she still needs to wait for two hours.

but…

"It's okay, as long as you're fine, that's all."

Where will the wind blow today? No one knows.

The key factor that determines our lives and yours, and your image in my eyes, is my one-sided memory of you.