I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

"Hahahahaha, Xiao-Xiao Lixi...you are really so anxious."

Chitose tried to laugh as loudly as possible to reassure Shiina Riki.

"Let's go, I have a feeling we'll be able to travel together in a couple of days!"

Want to have some fun before returning to reality? Thank you, Shiina Tatsuki.

……

I was discharged from the hospital faster than I expected.

What impressed Shiina Riki the most was the golden pupils of the attending physician who agreed to discharge Chitose from the hospital.

There seems to be no emotion in it, like an artificial intelligence.

"What are you looking at, you little jerk Lixi?"

The beautiful girl with white hair and red eyes in a swimsuit suddenly jumped out and hugged Shiina Riki.

The tone of her voice was so soft, she was almost acting coquettishly.

The weather is very good today and the outdoor temperature doesn't make the girls feel uncomfortable at all.

"I was thinking about that performance. Xiaosui performed so well that it made me fall in love with her at first sight."

"Really? You're such a bad guy, Shiina Riki. You actually stole my lines. I'm going to take revenge on you!"

Qiansui dragged Lixi into the sea.

This beach was found with the help of Lixi's parents. Surprisingly, they did not object to their daughter's request to take a month off, but instead strongly supported it.

On the deserted beach, there were only two girls hugging each other in love.

The sea water flooded over his calves. Li Xi didn't know what Chitose was going to do but he still cooperated with all his strength.

"Hoohoo, look at me, I'm going to make you a drowned rat!"

Noshiro Chitose laughed and made a fuss, and fell into the sea with Riki.

Amidst the splashing water, Lixi felt the gentle sunlight soothing her anxiety.

"Huh...cough cough cough."

Lixi walked out of the sea holding Chitose. The idiot in his arms actually choked on the water. He was really as stupid as a pig.

"Xiao Sui, you used to be very smart, why are you becoming more and more stupid recently?"

"What do you know? I'm not stupid, I just..." Chitose's voice became smaller and smaller, and the last syllable was as quiet as the bite of a mosquito.

"what?"

Li Xi even moved closer in order to hear clearly.

Looking at the girl's cheek that was getting closer and closer to him, Qiansui pecked her without hesitation.

"I just want to be closer to Li Xi... I made your dream come true. You're a big star now, right? So, can Li Xi also make mine come true?"

"!!!"

Li Xi didn't have time to blush, and answered the girl intermittently:

"I, I will. What is Xiao Sui's dream?"

"My dream is for Lixi to always be by my side... Is that possible? After my parents passed away, Lixi is the only one who watched movies with me."

"..."

The weather is so nice, why is the air so heavy?

Li Xi placed Chitose's head on her lap, and she smoothed the white-haired girl's hair while speaking as gently as possible.

"Of course, I will always be with Xiao Sui. We have to go back to the hospital tomorrow to change the dressing. This is what the nurse specifically instructed."

"Ah, so that's it," Qiansui looked up at the sky, but half of her vision was obscured by Li Xi's human heart, so she couldn't see the entire cloud. "But it feels like we haven't been out for long... Are we going back?"

"Yeah, let's go back and observe for a few more days, then we can continue... Xiaosui? Are you listening? Eh? Are you asleep? Xiaosui! Xiaosui!"

Ch63. Finally, Shiina Riki escapes from the hospital

If only she and my future, which are spinning so gracefully, could stop and start over somewhere.

She and I, both victims, were spinning gracefully, and we were slowly moving forward somewhere again in this state.

……

That's how the lyrics go, right?

It's ridiculous that I clearly wrote it but I can't remember it clearly for a moment.

Li Xi stood in the hospital corridor, feeling a little overwhelmed for a moment.

Suddenly.

It was such a sudden critical illness, but when I think about it carefully, there were actually signs that Chitose was falling ill.

She just didn't notice it herself.

The coma was so sudden, but I also knew that Qiansui had not fully recovered.

But he really couldn't resist the soft look of Chitose who wanted to go out.

"It's all my own fault..."

"Ms. Shiina? Do you want to go in and talk to Ms. Noshiro? The surgery is about to begin."

The person who spoke was still the female doctor, her eyes still serious and calm.

But Shiina Riki didn't have time to care about these things.

"Is Xiaosui awake?"

Can I go see Xiaosui again now?

"Go."

Before the female doctor finished speaking, Shiina Riki had already arrived at the bedside.

The girl in front of me still looked the same, but her white hair seemed to have become even drier, like a wild flower about to wither in winter.

His face was pale and bloodless, and his whole body revealed a pitiful haggardness.

The sheets and pillows in the ward were also white, and the walls were covered with ivory white tiles. In this sea of ​​white, Qiansui's eyes were startlingly red.

"Hey, hey, hey, what are you looking at? Where's the pineapple you promised me? Did you only bring apples again? Watch out or I'll bully you."

What a lively way of speaking. It would be better if... you could say it in a more powerful voice.

Li Xi didn't dare to get close to Qiansui. She was afraid that just getting close to Qiansui would hurt this girl who was like a candle in the wind.

"I…"

"Fool Li Xi, so stupid."

"Huh? I'm not... Ugh."

"Why are you sighing? You're not in front of my grave... Hey, now I remember, I said before that I wanted to be buried next to my parents, do you remember? I'm a little regretful now, I want..."

The dry and small lips trembled a few times, and Chitose continued in a soft voice:

"If I die, could you please scatter my ashes into the ocean where we played and frolicked that day... Then I'll be completely free, and the ocean will be able to hear your singing, right?"

"Stop talking, I...why are you thinking so many bad things! You just have a minor illness! The doctor said you'll recover with surgery! You won't die! Don't talk nonsense!"

The last sentence was almost like a roar, and Li Xi regretted it as soon as he said it.

How rude...why am I talking so loudly?

"Puchi... Are you crying? How interesting, my little Lixi... I remember now."

Qiansui didn't go to see Lixi again.

Her gaze was fixed on the ceiling.

"I remembered the lyrics you wrote... It's really hard to forget... I want to ask Xiao Lixi a few more questions, is that okay?"

"Yes, I will answer you as long as I know."

"First question... Which is more expensive, a mule or a piano?"

"piano."

"So which is more expensive, the piano or the poetry book?"

"It depends on the item. Even poetry collections can be expensive."

"So which is more expensive, the poetry collection or spring?"

"Spring, because seasons are luxury."

"So…"

"Which is more expensive, spring or love? Is that what you want to ask, Xiao Sui?"

"Yeah, yeah, that's what I wanted to ask."

"It's love, although few people compare the two things."

"Attention, my last question."

Qiansui was silent for a long time, as if trying to say more.

"At the same time... this is also the question I want to ask the most."

She recalled the day when she pressed Tatsuki Shiina on the podium.

"Which is more expensive, love or tears?"

"Tears, I always feel that tears are more expensive."

Such a tormenting question. Why do just a few small questions make me think of so many things?

Countless images flashed through Li Xi's mind, and finally stopped at the charming beauty of Chitose Noshiro in the classroom under the sunset.

The face in the memory gradually overlapped with the skinny and pale face in reality, and Shiina Riki saw it.

Noshiro Chitose was still smiling.

"Lixi, why are you crying... Are you trying to prove to me that your tears contain feelings stronger than love?"

"me…"

"Sorry to bother you, but surgery is about to begin. Please leave for a moment, Ms. Shiina."

The doctor with golden eyes blocked Li Xi, and she and another nurse pushed Qiansui away.

On the stretcher, Chitose Noshiro and the system disguised as a doctor exchanged glances.

Chitose whispered in a voice that only the system could hear:

[Get started, and don't forget nine years later.]

The system nodded slightly to indicate receipt.

They just stayed away from Shiina Riki like this.

When the bicycle pushed past Li Xi, Chitose and Li Xi looked at each other for the last time.

The eye contact lasted for a moment, yet seemed to be frozen in eternity.

Lixi walked into the corridor and looked at the flickering green light outside the operating room.

She had a bad feeling in her heart.

The operation, it began.

……

Lixi didn't dare to be distracted at all during the operation and didn't even look at her cell phone.

She kept saying to herself in her heart:

It's okay, it's just a minor illness.

After I'm discharged from the hospital, I'll probably write songs for at least another fifty years.

What delicious food should I bring to Xiao Sui tonight to help him replenish his energy?