Lonely Rock for the Blind

“…I should be looking forward to it…but it seems like it’s also right not to be looking forward to it…”

Da Hei Yin took a deep breath and spoke to himself.

"family…"

"... "

Ichichi Xingge's brows furrowed more and more.

"what do you want to say in the end?"

"…I…"

Da Hei Yin has lowered his head.

"I just... don't want to be so lonely..."

"what?"

Ichichi Hoshige tilted her head.

"…sorry…"

Daikoku Otomi suddenly apologized.

"So if you don't explain clearly, I won't understand."

Ichichi Xingge became a little excited.

“…You can’t understand just by telling me.”

Daikokuyin shook his head.

"...never mind, whatever you want..."

Ichichi Xingge turned her head away.

"Wait a minute so nothing goes wrong while tuning."

"Don't worry, it won't happen..."

Daikokuyin nodded.

Her phone just received a message.

【I'm home now】

"... "

Da Hei Yin narrowed his eyes slightly.

...

……

.........

The journey home is always lonely and without hope.

It has always been like this. The excitement and cheers I see in the livehouse actually have nothing to do with me.

The reason for choosing this industry is nothing big, just like choosing between orange juice and peach juice, it is not a particularly important choice at all.

What your future will be like and what you want to do in the future.

To Daikoku Otomi, none of it matters.

She really seems to have no roots in this world.

I stay up late every night and don’t get out of bed until the next afternoon.

Chatted and joked with the store manager and his sister.

And so the day passed.

day after day.

I occasionally do yoga and occasionally go live streaming.

I vent a little bit of my anger in the game, which is actually not much.

It just passed slowly like this.

What will the future be like? Will it be bad, good, or just completely uncertain?

do not know.

Daikoku had never thought about this question.

She is such a boring and empty person.

It looked like a newly shed snake skin, a soft and moist empty shell.

So…it’s different now.

Since the boy arrived, from initially just to entertain us, we finally felt like we had become friends.

Even if they are not close friends, they are just ordinary friends.

But it did create some waves in his stagnant life.

But... I still don’t think about the future.

He is a friend, and just a friend.

Daikoku has always thought so.

Until the day he pushed his hand away.

Until that day I guessed that he was as lonely as I was.

Until I picked him up from that convenience store...

until…

Da Hei Yin has stopped in front of his own door.

She took a deep breath, then reached out and pushed the door open.

What I want to do...

crunch...

The door was pushed open, and the already turned-on heating rushed in the face, and Da Hei Yin's lower lip trembled.

next moment…

"Welcome home."

The young man's clear voice rang out.

"…I'm back…"

Daikoku felt that he might become a bad person.

However, this warmth and sense of belonging that seems to be able to remain...

Not enough...

Da Hei Yin took two steps forward, and the convenience store beer bag in his hand fell to the ground.

pat.

The door behind him was closed.

She punched the door switch.

Click!

Darkness descended upon the room.

The woman took two steps forward and hugged Nekoyashiki Haru.

“Pa?!”

Nekoyashiki Haru was startled.

"...Hold me for a while...I'm cold..."

"... "

Nekoyashiki Haru wanted to push Daikoku Otomi away.

But when she said she was cold, the hands changed from pushing to hugging.

“…Lately, there have been a lot of hugs.”

Nekoyashiki Haruichi.

"... "

Da Hei Yin didn't say anything, but just clenched his fists quietly.

She inhaled the boy's breath, spit out tongue, and wanted to wrap herself around him.

He didn't notice anything, just hugged her gently, lending his body temperature to the snake scales.

In just five minutes, Daikokuon had gently pushed Nekayashiki Haru away.

She picked up the bag and walked into the house with the cat, Haru Yashiki.

"Come on... drink with me."

"Ah good."

Nekayashiki Haru could sense the depression in his friend's heart.

Although he didn't know what the depression was about, it didn't stop him from taking care of her.

So, in the house, the boy and the woman sat at the table.

The beer can was gently opened.

It was like the first time the two of them met at the table a few days ago.

"Did you buy anything to eat?"

Nekoyashiki Haru asked.

"Nothing... only wine..."

Daikoku Otomi said this while looking at the wine jar and small box in the bag.

"... "

Nekoyashiki Haru nodded.

Then he touched the wine jar and opened it.

呲…

The smell of beer filled the room.

Dai Hei Yin picked up the beer can, took a big gulp, and then picked up the next can without saying a word, as if he wanted to get himself drunk.

Hearing the sound of Daikoku Otomi drinking, Nekayashiki Haru also picked up the beer can and took a sip.

The two drank quietly, and half an hour passed like this.

Nekoyashiki Haru put the wine down.

"I'm going back tomorrow."

"... "

Da Hei Yin lowered her head, the alcohol made her mind blurry.

"why?"

“…I think…I’ve found my direction.”

Nekoyashiki Haru raised his head.

"So, there's no need to hide from everyone anymore."

“…Have you chosen anyone?”

Daikokuone asked.