Toyokawa Shoko doesn't want to become a witch

The one who's always been around me, whether I like it or not, the one who's always bothering me, isn't that you? I've had enough of you, I can't take it anymore.

You can go now.

We don't need to see each other anymore.

Xiangzi's brain inexplicably became active.

They even started speaking without thinking, saying whatever came to mind.

She had already seen the shocked look in Chu Hua's eyes.

The words that had just been in my mind were probably conveyed to Chu Hua without missing a single one.

Xiangzi's gaze towards Chuhua shifted from shock to anger, then to desolation and sorrow.

"I'm leaving now, Xiangzi."

Has the name changed back to Xiangzi?

"Well, since you don't want to..." Chu Hua shook her head with a wry smile, "Let's leave it at that."

That suits me perfectly.

Xiangzi thought again.

I will find a way to erase the witch's kiss from you, and I will repay the debt you owe every day.

That's it. You don't need to get involved in the rest. I can handle it all by myself. I haven't fallen to the point where I need help from others.

Chu Hua drifted further and further away in disappointment.

Xiangzi's excited mind gradually calmed down.

She was already beginning to regret the hurtful things she had said, but words spoken are like water spilled—they can't be taken back.

"That's good too." She ruffled her hair. "Chubi, you've been listening the whole time, haven't you?"

"Of course, I'm always here."

Qiu Bi jumped onto the bench and squatted in the deserted area between Xiangzi and Chu Hua.

Xiangzi paused for a moment, then explained his purpose in actively seeking out Qubi in the most calm tone.

"Can I still become a magical girl?"

“Theoretically, yes, you’re an ordinary person now,” Cupid said. “But this is the first time we’ve encountered this situation.”

"Please help me, I want to become a magical girl again," Xiangzi said.

"Oh?"

Cupid tilted his head, a hint of surprise in his voice that was rarely heard.

"I welcome it, but why? I can't understand your thinking."

"This is my own business."

"From your perspective, becoming an ordinary person again is a miraculous second chance."

"I need strength."

"Knowing full well that power will lead you to the abyss, you still repeat the same mistakes time and time again. The only lesson you humans have learned from history is that you have not learned anything. You are truly an incomprehensible species."

Qubi jumped onto Xiangzi's shoulder, slowly and leisurely, as if surveying his territory.

"However, understanding is not our task; we are only responsible for collecting the energy you generated when you fell into witches."

"Although our records don't document the memory you lost, we did receive a copy of the energy from the anti-entropy mechanism—without any source or record."

"As expected..." Xiangzi covered his head.

Just as she expected.

She has already been a witch once.

"Make a wish, Toyokawa Shoko, and once again become a witch's egg—a magical girl—for the continuation of the universe."

"I think... Qi Shi'er Shan d cage 4 is just like s?? Qun..."

Xiangzi opened his mouth...

The Tale of Nirvana: Keeping to Your True Self: Chapter 42 The Summer of Early Blossoms

"Xiao Xiang, no—!"

Whoosh!

A one-handed sword with a blade about sixty centimeters long pierced Kyubey's forehead, and Kyubey's body fell off the bench and landed in the grass.

When Xiangzi saw Chuhua reappear at the edge of his sight, he instinctively wanted to run away.

She jumped off the bench, not even bothering with her gun, and ran in the opposite direction from Chu Hua.

But she forgot that even if she were still a magical girl, she would be no match for Hatsuka.

He caught up with her in less than a second.

Xiangzi's balance was broken, and he fell uncontrollably to the ground.

However, she did not feel a violent impact. Chu Hua hugged her, turned around, and cushioned her with himself, absorbing most of the impact.

The two people rolled to the spot directly under the streetlight.

It was like being illuminated by a stage spotlight.

Then, before Xiangzi could react, they reversed their positions again, with Xiangzi on the bottom.

Xiangzi's hair tie fell to the ground during the rolling, and his hair spread out wildly.

Chu Hua's face was flushed, and she was breathing heavily, her hands supporting the sides of Xiangzi's head.

In short, Chu Hua was like a large dog, pressing down on Xiang Zi.

"Let me go!" Xiangzi said loudly to Chuhua, feigning a tough stance.

"No!" Chu Hua shouted back.

"you--!"

"Xiao Xiang, I almost thought you were serious about getting rid of me."

Chu Hua braced herself against the ground, looking down into Xiangzi's eyes.

“If you really want to get rid of me, I will leave immediately without looking back, because that’s Xiao Xiang’s idea.”

"If Xiao Xiang really hates me, I will never appear in front of Xiao Xiang again."

"So... what... are you... doing right now...?"

Xiangzi grabbed Chuhua's hands, which were supporting her on the ground, and tried to pry them apart, but Chuhua's hands were as firm as shackles. No matter how hard she tried, Chuhua's hands did not budge.

"Because I remembered, Xiao Xiang, you're a patient," Chu Hua said with a wry smile.

Xiangzi's gaze froze instantly.

"Bipolar disorder, is that right? It has the characteristics of both mania and depression, with the two episodes alternating. Do you remember the first time you went to see a doctor, I accompanied you? I have a good friend who is your attending physician, and I asked him about your situation."

"He said you've been doing much better lately, but the onset of bipolar disorder is very unpredictable. Not to mention the patient, even the doctor can't control it well."

"Even if medication is prescribed, it cannot be medication that suppresses only one aspect of the emotion. If it is an antidepressant, it may actually exacerbate the manic condition, and vice versa. We can only treat all emotions equally and prescribe medications that can suppress both."

"But no matter what, the effect of a single-phase drug will never be as good as that of a single-phase drug... Moreover... no matter what kind of drug it is, taking too much of it will lead to a certain degree of dependence."

Chu Hua's face held a sadness that Xiangzi had never seen before.

What is she grieving over?

"Xiao Xiang, you've been taking a lot of medication lately, haven't you? Does your mood become more unstable after the medication wears off? Did you lie to the doctor during your follow-up appointment?"

Are there many?

Xiangzi thought for a moment.

I ate once this morning, once after our meeting at noon, once more on the way to get the gun in the evening because I found Toyokawa Shoko annoying, once more before entering the barrier to keep my emotions calm, and once more before leaving.

......

This is the fifth time.

She has no recollection of eating it so many times.

When I go for a follow-up visit, I will of course say that I am fine.

Because the medication hasn't been finished, the doctor won't notice that her dosage is too high before the next prescription.

"I was right, wasn't I?"

Chu Hua lowered her head and pressed her forehead against Xiangzi's.

The two women are quite different in height, by nearly ten centimeters.

Perhaps more than that.

"You're too tired, Xiao Xiang."

"Chuhua... let me go..." Xiangzi said in a hoarse voice.

"I'm very tired too."

Chu Hua's breath brushed against Xiangzi's face.

A warm breeze swept across the fine hairs on his face, down his chin, and down to his collarbone, sending a tingling sensation through him and raising goosebumps all over his body.

"Being a celebrity is tiring, singing is tiring, shooting commercials is tiring, and going to school is tiring. Maybe only hunting witches is a little easier."

"I'm tired too, Xiao Xiang."

"But whenever I'm tired, I open the messages you send me and read them every day, and then I don't feel so tired anymore."

"I still have Xiao Xiang, but who does Xiao Xiang have? If it weren't for me, who would Xiao Xiang be able to rely on?"

"I've already said I don't need—"

"I'm right next to Xiao Xiang, why does he never even glance at me?!" Chu Hua shouted back, her voice even louder than before.

Tick, tick.

Xiangzi's face was wet.

Chu Hua's tears fell on her face.

"...Chu Hua...you cried?"

"If you need strength, you can rely on me. You've already invited me once, haven't you? Once there's a first time, there will definitely be a second and a third."

"I don't care, Xiao Xiang. I don't care if you repay my favor. I only care if you care about me."

"I want you to care about me, to use me, to make me wholeheartedly help you, even... to live for you, to die for you."

"I'm quite useful, Xiao Xiang."

Chu Hua exhaled a trembling breath.

"I am very strong. I trained in Shenbin for two years and made a name for myself in the Reed Plains."

"I'm very strong. I got the Somebody rating in less than a week after I arrived in Reed Plains. I might be as strong as the Protagonists now."

"I am very strong, much stronger than you can imagine, Xiao Xiang."

“I am still a professional artist. I have fans, connections, and resources. As long as Xiao Xiang wants to, I can help him debut just like Mr. Fengchuan helped me.”

“I can help Xiangzi, and I want to help Xiangzi.”

Chu Hua's voice grew softer and softer until she finally released Xiangzi, sat down beside him, covered her face, and whispered.

Why does Xiaoxiang keep rejecting me?

Softly, as if begging.

"..."

Xiangzi fell silent. She propped herself up and moved closer to Chuhua, wanting to say something to comfort her, but she didn't know what to say.

She had no choice but to sit down next to Chu Hua and gently lean on her shoulder.

"Yuki only gave me two weeks. If I don't have enough evidence to prove I'm not a witch within two weeks, she will kill me. If you get too involved, you might be implicated."