I am the protagonist

As for whether a predestined marriage can be made, divination is not the most important thing; psychological counseling might be more crucial.

Some street fortune tellers may have mediocre skills, but their psychological counseling abilities are quite strong. These fortune tellers are often the most readily accepted and even more sought after than those with stronger abilities.

Ilya knew how those divination magic tricks worked, but now she couldn't understand what Shirou was talking about.

Chapter Twelve: Justice – What a maddening word!

“Shirou, generally only magicians who are troubled by money do fortune telling on the street. Any magician with ability would not be a fortune teller on the street. Just like Shirou, your understanding of fortune tellers is completely wrong.”

But this made Illya even more curious about how Shirou had managed to do it. If what Shirou said earlier was true, and he had indeed seen the future and the past, then Illya was absolutely certain that something very special had happened to Shirou.

"Can't we just skip that topic? Even if you want me to explain, I can't explain it to you."

"...Well, never mind."

Illya also knows that Shirou has lost his memory, and she doesn't even know why Shirou has mastered the materialization of his soul. It's not surprising that other things are happening now.

"Shirou, have there been any other changes in you?"

Does getting stronger count?

"This is perfectly normal."

As a member of the Einzbern family, Ilya understood the concept of soul materialization far better than other magicians. Soul materialization involves achieving immortality for one's soul, allowing it to materialize and replace the body that perishes with the world.

Ilya had seen some special records about the Einzberns' research on the materialization of the soul. Upon completing the materialization of the soul, the body would be strengthened to a certain extent due to the soul's transformation, making the body capable of containing an immortal and powerful soul.

"After the soul is materialized, the body will also be enhanced to a certain extent due to the completion of the soul materialization. This has already been stated in the research of the Einzbern family, so it is not surprising that Shirou's strength has increased."

"Ilya... is that a proper way to address her?"

Illya nodded, completely unconcerned about being addressed as Shirou's older sister.

"Ilya, can you tell me about some things from the past? About those two girls, and about some things about myself."

"Rin and Sakura? Shirou, can't you see them?"

"It's not appropriate to casually look into other people's past, especially the past of two girls. It wouldn't be good if we saw something we shouldn't have seen."

"Shirou is such a gentleman. Well, it's not that I can't tell Shirou, it's just some simple things."

After thinking for a moment, Ilya started by talking about that idiot Kiritsugu. Kiritsugu and Shirou were adoptive father and son. Before Kiritsugu passed away, he spent the most time with Shirou. Perhaps Kiritsugu's story could remind Shirou of some things.

“Let’s start with Kiritsugu. The first thing Shirou needs to know is that Kiritsugu is a complete idiot, he’s a total moron, and Shirou must never be like Kiritsugu.”

Is this the kind of person my adoptive father appears to his biological daughter?

"Then it's your turn, Saber."

"Me? I don't have a very good impression of Kiritsugu."

Saber's expression still wasn't good when she talked about Kiritsugu. She had been betrayed by him in the last Holy Grail War. She could have won the Holy Grail War, but it was Kiritsugu who destroyed it. She also despised Kiritsugu's methods. He was a man who would stop at nothing to win and had no honor whatsoever.

"Kiritsugu had a desire to save the entire world, and his initial reason for pursuing the Holy Grail was also to save the entire world, but I cannot agree with his methods."

"His fighting policy was to stop at nothing to win; he was a man who would do anything to achieve victory. He deceived me and Irisviel, simply because he wanted to win faster."

As Saber spoke, a memory of the last Holy Grail War flashed in her eyes. She still harbored resentment over Lancer's death before her eyes during the last Holy Grail War.

As a Heroic Spirit, Saber also desires final victory. However, Saber never wants to achieve final victory in a way that lacks dignity and honor.

"Emiya Kiritsugu, his wish may be similar to mine back then, but our methods are completely different. What that guy did is evil in my eyes!"

This was Saber's harshest tone; if she could, she wouldn't want to speak ill of Kiritsugu Emiya in front of Shirou like this. But Saber couldn't find words of praise for that man whenever she thought of him.

"It's a heretical path..."

From Saber's description, Shirou can easily confirm that his adoptive father is a realist, but not a selfish one. Unlike Saber's integrity, Shirou can see that his adoptive father is someone skilled at using underhanded methods.

If he had to say something, Shirou believed that his adoptive father might be the same kind of person as D.

They have their own principles, their own ambitions, and they are willing to do anything dirty to achieve their goals, even if it means being insulted or considered despicable and shameless.

Such people are hateful, but they are also pitiful.

"His goal is to save the world?"

"This is what I heard from Irisviel. Kiritsugu's wish is to save the world. I had also heard that his childhood goal was to become a 'hero of justice,' which is why I accepted Kiritsugu as my Master."

"[Justice]...is truly an incurable dreamer."

I don't know how to evaluate people with such naive wishes. It seems that many people take world peace as their goal, but many people who aim to save the world end up becoming like demon kings.

The idea of ​​"saving the world" is tantamount to going against the tide.

The world does not need saving; the world cannot be saved. These are theorems for every world.

People who have the idea of ​​saving the world are actually quite crazy. If you have the idea of ​​saving the world, it would be more realistic to save the important people in your life.

"It seems my adoptive father must also be the kind of person who wants to deny the desires of everyone in the world and make their ideas completely the same, so that there will be no killing or desires in the world, and the world will naturally be at peace. This idea is crazy, and he should have considered that human desires are indivisible."

"If that part is separated, can a person still be considered a person?"

"Aren't people without desires just walking corpses?"

"Completely no direction to move forward, completely no motivation to strive... What a terrifying thought."

"Instead of wasting time on that, you'd be better off thinking about how to avoid regrets later."

"Saving the world is not as good as saving the important people in your life first."

"The world...what does it have to do with me?"

Chapter Thirteen: Just how twisted is Emiya Shirou?

"The world...what does it have to do with me?"

The four people who had just entered the entrance hall heard this. They were certain that it was Shirou's voice, but why would Shirou say such a thing?

"The world... what does it have to do with me? Is this something Shirou Emiya would say?"

Archer was the most shocked of all. He knew Shirou Emiya's character well, and he knew how stubborn this man was—once he made up his mind about something, he would never turn back. He had always wanted to correct Shirou Emiya's thinking, but he had never succeeded before. So what was going on now?

[Shirou Emiya, who has always aspired to be a champion of justice, actually said, "What does the world have to do with me?" This doesn't sound like something he would say.]

Archer was absolutely certain that these were not words spoken by someone named Shirou Emiya. If Shirou Emiya had been able to say such things, the Heroic Spirit Shirou Emiya would never have appeared. However, Archer's ears were perfectly fine; the voice was indeed Shirou Emiya's.

Could it be that smashing that guy's skull can actually correct his future?

【…】

Why didn't I just smash his skull open before? Wouldn't that have caused him amnesia and ended that cursed fate?

Archer had never before felt that his life was a joke, that everything about him could be changed, all he needed to do was find a man named Emiya Shirou and inflict a severe head injury that would cause him amnesia.

So what about all the things I did before?

Medusa, standing to the side, sighed and patted Archer on the shoulder in comfort. Shirou's mind had changed, which was probably what Archer most wanted to do. Shirou's mind was very difficult to change, but Medusa hadn't expected that Shirou's amnesia would completely alter it.

Everything happened in such a dramatic way.

Everything happened so abruptly.

"Hmm...Does Shirou have a cold?"

"..."

【Can't you believe me when I say something like this?】

Shirou silently removed Illya's hand from his head; this had always been his way of doing things. Treat your own people with the warmth of spring, but deal with enemies with absolute, deadly force, never giving them a chance to retaliate.

"What's so strange about it? Why bother about the life or death of people who are completely unrelated to us? All a person can do is what's within reach. Everyone's arms are only so long; it's enough to hold onto the people around them."

"As for the others, that's their personal business. Everyone should just mind their own business. Why get involved in other people's affairs? If you can't even take responsibility for your own life, then you deserve to die."

Illya almost cried with emotion at that moment. Shirou had grown up. Shirou had really grown up. Before, Illya had always worried that Shirou's impulsive personality would lead him to continue courting death, but now, with Shirou's amnesia, his personality had completely changed.

"Shirou! You, you've finally grown up!"

Hey! Don't cry over something like this!

Illya suddenly became emotional and burst into tears, which left Shirou speechless.

"Shirou, this is how a normal person should think!"

Even Saber, who once had the desire to save the country, knew very well how abnormal Shirou's wish was. Unexpectedly, this time, by taking advantage of the opportunity of amnesia, Shirou's distorted views were corrected.

"...Is it really that exaggerated? What abnormal thoughts did I have in the past?"

“This is very abnormal! Shirou, in the past you wanted to save everyone.”

"Huh? Me? Go save everyone? Am I crazy?"

Now Shirou understands why these two reacted so strongly to his change; it turns out he used to be such a "philanthropic" person. It's just that this philanthropy made Shirou feel incredibly uncomfortable.

Was the old Shirou Emiya out of his mind? He actually wanted to save everyone? There are so many people in this world who need saving; did he really think he could save the entire world by himself?

This twisted way of thinking will definitely cause huge problems in the future. I estimate that Shirou Emiya's future path will definitely be very abnormal, at least for an ordinary person, it will be an absolutely abnormal path.

After learning what kind of person Emiya Shirou really was, Shirou became certain that if he continued to follow Emiya Shirou's ideas, the road ahead would definitely be purgatory.

"I never thought I'd do something so crazy... Could you please stop crying?"

"Sister, sister is really happy."

[The fact that someone so short calls themselves my older sister is what makes me feel really awkward; calling me my younger sister would be more appropriate. I wish I had an adorable younger sister like that, but unfortunately, the concept of "normal" doesn't exist in this world.]

However, Shirou couldn't refuse Illya's concern; it was the kind of care a real older sister would have for her younger brother. Shirou couldn't resist familial love, after all, it was the responsibility that came with taking over this identity, and it was the only thing Shirou would absolutely not shirk.

The affection between family members is different from personal feelings.

Shirou separates different emotions and treats them in different areas.

After all, you can't treat your lover the same way you treat your family, otherwise the relationship will become even more complicated.

Shirou held Illya, who was crying with emotion in his arms. It has to be said that the past [Emiya Shirou] definitely received a lot of care from many people. Even his older sister, who had a certain physical disability, took care of [Emiya Shirou].

"Are you alright now? You don't need to get so emotional that you burst into tears, do you?"

“It was necessary! I thought Shirou was going to become a twisted person, but I didn’t expect that the amnesia Rin and Saber caused you would actually cure your twistedness. It’s really not easy.”

Illya no longer wants to investigate what Rin and Saber did to Shirou. Perhaps it caused Shirou's amnesia, but it also made him normal. In the past, Illya was very worried that Shirou would become like Kiritsugu. Thinking of Kiritsugu's tragic end, she was very worried about Shirou's future.

[It seems my symptoms were really severe in the past, enough to scare so many people. It's just a slight change, yet I didn't expect it to make me so emotional that I cried.]

Shirou couldn't fathom how twisted the past [Emiya Shirou] had become to cause such worry for those around him. However, this did bring a degree of calm to Shirou who had taken over the identity of [Emiya Shirou]. Perhaps it was for the best that he had seized this person's identity; at least those around him wouldn't have to worry so much.

Chapter Fourteen: Unveiling Archer's True Feelings

"excuse me."

Rin and Sakura, who happened to overhear the conversation in the entryway, pulled their luggage into the living room. They had stumbled upon some good news; for them, hearing about Shirou's change was the best news possible. The two sisters knew Shirou quite well, and it was precisely because of this understanding that they knew things would definitely get very bad if he continued like this.

Now things are fine. Shirou has lost his past memories and, incidentally, changed his distorted views. Rin and Sakura are absolutely certain that the way Shirou described is the normal way of thinking: what do other people's business have to do with me? I can only protect the people around me.

However, the Shirou of the past was completely unable to understand such ideas and instead had very unrealistic ideals. Rin and Sakura both knew that Shirou's ideals would ultimately kill him, because Archer was, in fact, a product of Shirou's unrealistic fantasies.

"Shirou, Sakura and I are here."

"Rin... I'm sorry, I haven't tidied up your rooms yet."

"It's okay, Sakura and I will take care of the room ourselves later."

Rin could already guess that after she and Sakura left, Illya and Saber were chatting with Shirou, and Shirou probably wanted to know some things about her past. She had overheard Shirou say something quite important in the entryway earlier, something far more important than tidying her room.

Rin walked straight up to Shirou, and looking at him, she truly understood the completely different change in him. This made her wonder if Shirou's amnesia was a good thing, both for Shirou and for everyone else.

"Shirou, it seems I don't have to worry about you turning into that kind of person."

Shirou remembered this was the third time today; Saber and Illya had happened before, and now there was another one. Shirou really wanted to pull out his past self and properly deal with his past misguided thoughts. One really shouldn't let oneself down too much.

"The third time."

"Pfft~ Who told you to have that kind of personality in the past? Now that you've lost your memory, those twisted thoughts from the past have become normal, so of course we have to congratulate you."

"...Honestly, these congratulations make me realize how much of a failure I was in the past."

Rin burst out laughing. The old Shirou really was that kind of person. It wasn't that his personality was bad, but that kind of selfless dedication to others was really unlike a normal person. Rin still thought the current Shirou was much more agreeable than before; the current Shirou seemed more like a normal person.

"Shirou, it's not that you were a failure as a person in the past, it's just that you were instilled with very wrong ideas. You should know that in the past you put helping others before yourself, and that kind of thinking is really dangerous."

Shirou, suffering from a headache, clutched his head, feeling waves of pain. The personality of the old Shirou Emiya had caused him countless headaches; even Shirou himself hadn't imagined that such an eccentric person existed in the world.

[The world is full of wonders, but how did I end up running into a character with this kind of setup?]

Although the character with the special ability is truly ruthless, and their associated skills practically defy the rules, their past personality is genuinely problematic. This problem is giving me a real headache.

Shirou's head throbbed even more at the thought of what might happen next. He just hoped that the characters he chose for his destiny wouldn't have such bizarre setups in the future. Honestly, Shirou really didn't want to be stuck with such strange characters.