Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

Well, the script is ready, and now it depends on how I can truly succeed.

"Boom." There was thunder in the distance, and then I felt something cold and wet dripping on my cheek.

It was terrible that it rained at such a time! I usually didn’t have the habit of bringing an umbrella when I went out, so I immediately became panicked.

There were still many people on the streets who were in a panic because of the rain. Most people probably didn't expect that it would rain in Chiba in such an autumn season, so almost everyone didn't bring an umbrella.

Some people quickly started running, while others found a place to shelter from the rain and waited for it to stop.

I was no exception. The place I wanted to go was very far away, so it was obviously unrealistic for me to run there. So I found a pavilion and took shelter from the rain.

There was no one else in the pavilion, which might be lucky for me. After all, I still don't like to get along with strangers.

Looking around, black and heavy cumulonimbus clouds were floating slowly in the sky, and bean-sized raindrops kept falling on the ground, making a "pattering" sound mixed with thunder. Although the two sounds mixed together were not very harsh, they were enough to make people feel scared.

Just like the power of nature, once humans face nature directly, they will unconsciously feel that their own power is very insignificant.

"Boom." There was another sound of thunder, and then a thick flash of lightning flashed across the distant sky, and the instantaneous light illuminated the entire earth.

I wanted to do something, but I couldn't do anything right now. I sat on the seat in the pavilion, and because the rain had soaked my clothes, I felt very uncomfortable, as if there was some wet creature clinging to me.

This feeling, if you take off all your clothes and run naked in the rain, you can indeed get the greatest release and make the headlines the next day.

It's already this late and I'm still thinking about such things. Ever since I started writing light novels, sometimes I feel that my delusions have become very perverted. Sure enough, being a light novel writer is not a very good career, being a househusband is the best!

I was bored, so I held up my chin with one hand and listened to the world outside the courtyard. Raindrops fell on the ground, splashing everywhere, looking very dynamic, as if someone was dancing waltz.

A vague black dot appeared in the distance. At first I was not sure what it was, but soon, the black dot turned into the figure of a running person.

The figure seemed to be in a hurry. She was running and looking around anxiously, probably looking for a place to shelter from the rain. Soon she found the pavilion and ran towards it.

After a while, the person ran into the pavilion. She kept tidying up her wet hair. After a while, she showed her face. After seeing her face, I was surprised to find that this was actually an acquaintance of mine?

"Teacher Hikigaya!" The person who came said happily, just like a daughter who hadn't seen her father for a long time.

"Tamasaka?" I asked uncertainly. Because of the rain, the surroundings looked very dark, so I was not sure that the person was Tamasaka.

"Yes, it's me!" Tamasaka spoke with great energy. Even in such a rainy day, she seemed to be full of energy. But meeting here might also be a part of fate.

"Mr. Hikigaya, why are you here?"

"Of course I'm here to avoid the rain."

"That's true, hehe." Tamasaka laughed happily.

"Why are you laughing?"

"Of course it's because I'm happy. It feels really good to meet Mr. Hikigaya today. I guess I'm blessed by the goddess of luck today. Hehe..." As she spoke, Tamasaka laughed again.

She is really optimistic. However, that is just Tamasaka's personality. She always laughs optimistically and cheerfully, which is really surprising.

"Tamasaka why are you here?"

"Ah, I was looking for inspiration, so I was painting in a nearby park. Then, suddenly, the rain started pouring down."

After hearing your description, I always feel that the rain we two experienced was not the same rain. Could it be that there was a subtle error between us?

"Is that so? You really work hard."

"Yeah." Tamasaka continued to speak happily, and then she sneezed again because of the cold.

I looked at Tamasaka, who carefully put her hidden drawing board aside. She was probably afraid that her drawing board would get wet, so she ran in the rain holding it. Normally, she should have used the drawing board to block the rain at this time, but Tamasaka was really stupid.

My eyes softened. Tamasaka didn't bring anything with her because she was painting outside, but in my bag, there was a handkerchief that I always carry with me. I was only caught in a little rain and didn't plan to use it, but Tamasaka was a girl and her body was a little weak, so she let me help her wipe it.

"Tamasaka, come here for a moment."

"OK."

After answering this, Tamasaka came over from the side. Because her clothes were still very wet, Tamasaka didn't get very close to me, but kept a certain distance from me.

I took out a handkerchief from my bag: "Can I help you wipe it?"

"No problem, I'm very happy, thank you, Mr. Hikigaya." After answering quickly, Tamasaka lowered her head.

I first carefully untied Tamasaka's bun, and the hair, no longer bound, soon fell naturally on Tamasaka's shoulders. Although the light was dim, I could still clearly see Tamasaka's bright collarbone.

Since Tamasaka went to paint after school today, she was still wearing her school uniform, but she put on a pink warm coat over the uniform. Because she was wet, when Tamasaka came in, she took off the coat and put it aside. From the angle I am looking at from above, I can indeed observe Tamasaka's collarbone very well.

By the way, the material of our school uniform is relatively thin, and from this angle... ahem, now is not the time to think about these things. I, Hikigaya Hachiman, am not that kind of person. Last time when I went out with Hayama and ran into Miura, I also ran away quickly. When I saw Kawasaki on the rooftop, I also left very calmly. Well, I am a person with a very strong willpower, huh!

Putting aside my random thoughts, I carefully dried Tamasaka's hair with a handkerchief.

"hey-hey."

"What are you laughing at all of a sudden?"

"Nothing, I just feel very happy." Tamasaka said as she tilted her head slightly. I don't know if it was because she had just been washed by the rain, but I could see that Tamasaka's moist lips were shining, and her slender eyelashes were fluttering in her big, watery eyes.

This is really a criminal level temptation...

"I'm happy because I can meet Mr. Hikigaya! I feel very happy as long as I stay with Mr. Hikigaya."

“Is it that exaggerated?” I couldn’t help but blush when someone said this to me. It felt like the love confession between the protagonists in a romantic TV drama.

"Yeah, that's it. I'll be happy as long as I stay by Hikigaya-sensei's side."

“It feels a bit strange to say that!”

"Not surprising at all." Tamasaka rarely showed a sly smile that did not belong to her: "Xiaozou feels the same way, but Xiaozou is not good at expressing herself, so she probably won't say that. But I don't care about those things, I usually say whatever I think. At the beginning, it was indeed just a normal admiration for Mr. Hikigaya."

At this point, Yuzaka paused, and she turned her head to look at the drizzling rain outside the window. The pavilion was surrounded by countless plants, and the branches and leaves of the plants made a "rustling" sound under the wash of rain, which mixed with the other sounds of the rain, feeling like a symphony.

"Mr. Hikigaya, at first, I was just moved by your words. Painters are people who observe carefully, and they are people who look for beauty and touching things in everything in life. But because of this, if a painter sees too much, it is difficult for him to be moved by life. But that day, when I read the poems written by Mr. Hikigaya on the recommendation of my classmates, my heart was touched for the first time in a long time. At that time, what you wrote deeply moved me.

I kept thinking, why did that person discover something that I didn't? Why could that person feel something that I didn't, and then, when he wrote it down, it moved me too? I kept thinking about this, thinking about it, just like studying and modifying a delicate painting. I thought that such a person must be very special, like the sun in the daytime and the moon in the night. If I and such a person were in the same scene, looking at the same scenery, would we think about the same things? "

Chapter 198: Yuuki Tamasaka narrates in the rain

"Because I kept thinking about it, I began to care about you unconsciously. Maybe you don't even know it, Mr. Hikigaya, but I sometimes secretly go to observe you. You like to run to the vending machine by yourself at noon to buy a can of MAX coffee and spend your time leisurely; you will run to the library after finishing your homework to pick up a novel and read it carefully; you will also wander around the courtyard by yourself in your free time, and I don't know what you are thinking about."

"I became more and more curious about what kind of person you are. Then I heard that there was an opportunity to be the editor of the school magazine. I quickly dragged Xiaozou to find Mr. Hiratsuka. Later in life, I gradually realized that Mr. Hikigaya was really a very special person."

Tamasaka spoke very calmly, her gentle voice intertwined with the sound of rain, flowing gently into my ears.

"Mr. Hikigaya actually disliked us at the beginning, right? Although I don't know why Mr. Hikigaya disliked us, I was still very happy because I could get in touch with the person I always wanted to get in touch with. But Xiaozou's words were completely different. Xiaozou came to accompany me, so she probably sensed Mr. Hikigaya's hostility, which is why she said such words to Mr. Hikigaya at the beginning."

At the beginning, I thought you two wouldn't be able to help me. In short, I treated you two as a burden... I thought I hid it well, but did those two feel it? So this is why Sea Star spoke harshly to me in the beginning.

"Tamasaka..." I opened my mouth to explain something, but Tamasaka quickly interrupted me and continued talking.

"Later, the composition written by Kozou was criticized by Mr. Hikigaya, right? At that time, although Kozou acted very strong, she was still very sad and angry in her heart, because Kozou had experienced much more than you think, Mr. Hikigaya. I guess Kozou was thinking in her heart that she was acting like a preacher even though she knew nothing. Kozou was very stubborn. Even if you, Mr. Hikigaya, said so, she actually had no intention of rewriting her composition at all."

"Later, Hiratsuka-sensei took Kanade away. Hikigaya-sensei, do you really think that Hiratsuka-sensei was just talking about some things about Hikigaya-sensei in the past? Kanade also told me later that Hiratsuka-sensei told her that if there is nothing in this world that is worth believing in for her, then the people in the room who were the same age as you and had the same experience should be able to trust each other. How about just treat it as a teacher's request and try to believe Hikigaya-sensei?"

Mr. Hiratsuka, did you say something like this when you pulled the sea star out that day?

"Kanade was very stubborn, so she didn't respond to Hiratsuka-sensei at the time. Afterwards, she probably wanted to change, so she tried to trust Hikigaya-sensei and worked hard."

As she narrated this, the corners of Tamasaka's mouth slightly curled up, revealing a warm smile.

"Xiaozou, she really changed a lot after that. Although she looks the same as before, Xiaoyou is definitely different from before."

"Didn't I go with Mr. Hikigaya to collect information for the investigation afterwards? At that time, I was really sad when I fainted in the middle of the process. I was afraid that Mr. Hikigaya would show the same expression as everyone else. A lot of people are like this. They say they don't care, but when it really happens, they get very scared. Mr. Hikigaya, do you understand? It's like some people say they're not afraid of lions and tigers before visiting a zoo, but when they get to the zoo, they can't help but tremble when they see them roaring. A lot of people are like this. They say they don't care about my physique, but when I suddenly faint, they become very, very scared. They either leave me or stay with me, but with deep vigilance in their eyes."

As Tamasaka said this, she gently stroked the rain-soaked exterior of the pavilion. The rain gently hit her fingers, splashing beautiful water.

"When I fainted, I was still thinking, if I didn't force myself, I wouldn't have fainted, and Hikigaya-sensei would still treat me the same way as before, although very cold, but full of enthusiasm and care. As a result, when I woke up, Hikigaya-sensei's eyes were different from the previous ones. There was no boredom or fear, only self-blame. Yes, it was a strong sense of self-blame." Tamasaka laughed softly.

"At that time, I knew that Mr. Hikigaya was special. If something like that happened to someone else, they would undoubtedly put the blame on me, or they would be afraid of taking responsibility and gradually alienate me. I still understand such things. Although I am not that smart, if I have experienced a lot, even I will understand. At that time, I finally understood the specialness of Mr. Hikigaya. Mr. Hikigaya is very gentle, especially gentle. Even if he has a stern face, he is always very gentle to the world. At that time, I understood the specialness of Mr. Hikigaya. What a gentle person looks at is naturally a gentle place, and what he writes is naturally gentle. Such things can naturally move me."

"After that, Mr. Hikigaya was busy because of Kanade's illness. After that, he kept working hard for Kanade's affairs, and also worked hard for the things between us. He would stop me when I forced myself to run to school. When I told Mr. Hikigaya that I have always been concerned about my physical condition, Mr. Hikigaya would keep comforting me, saying, Mr. Hikigaya, you are really special! I changed myself unconsciously, and my thoughts gradually changed. I felt that it was not bad to be like this. I can become like this thanks to Mr. Hikigaya! Mr. Hikigaya is really special. He can change others unconsciously like this."

Tamasaka's words made me slightly absent-minded. I still remember that when I was in high school, Hayama also said the same thing to me. That was when Isshiki confessed to her and was rejected by her, and Hayama said the same thing to me in such a relaxed tone.

"You are really amazing! You can change the people around you without even realizing it."

Because it left such a deep impression on me, I still remember this sentence until now. Change was not what I should have expected.

"Hikigaya-sensei, keep up the good work! If it's Hikigaya-sensei, I should trust him. If it's Hikigaya-sensei, he might be able to save me. The only person who can help me get over my past is you, Hikigaya-sensei."

As Tamasaka spoke, he clasped his hands together and placed them in front of his chest, as if he was praying.

"Tamasaka, are you really smart?"

There were many things I wanted to say, including things about Tamasaka and Uminehoshi, but in the end, all I could say were questions that I didn't even understand.

"I guess so, if you use the common definition."

Tamasaka did not deny it, but responded to me cheerfully. That's right, otherwise her grades wouldn't have been so stable in the top 50 of the grade. After all, Sobu High School is a key school. If you don't work hard or have some ability in some aspects, you won't be believed.

"Yusaka, I heard that you will encounter water ghosts in the pavilion when it rains. Just now it seemed like you were behind me..."

"Eh!"

Tamasaka hid behind me in panic, looking around frantically.

It's true that she's smart, but she's still like a fool when it comes to common sense.

The two don't seem to be contradictory. A high IQ doesn't mean that the person is excellent in other aspects. In addition, Tamasaka was in the hospital for many years due to physical reasons. If he had no contact with this world, it would be normal for him to lack knowledge.

"Don't be afraid of Tamasaka, the water ghost just left."

"Is it true?"

Of course not, but of course I can't say such words out loud.

Heavy rain is always accompanied by strong winds. A strong wind blew, and the sound of the wind roaring and objects swaying in the wind could be heard all around.

"Wait, my drawing board." I only heard a "clang" sound, and then Tamasaka exclaimed.

The wind was so strong that it blew away the drawing board that Tamasaka had placed on the pavilion? I looked over and saw that the drawing board had been blown far away from the pavilion.

"Wait, Tamasaka, where are you going?" I saw Tamasaka wanted to run back into the rain and quickly stopped her.

"That's my work. Even if it's a failure, I can't let it be blown away by the wind!" Tamasaka said firmly.

"Then you wait here, I'll go!"

After saying that, I didn't wait for Tamasaka to answer me and ran quickly into the rain.

I don't know how to describe it. It was so uncomfortable. The impact of the rain was so strong that I could feel the pain! The ground was still so wet. Although the drawing board was not blown very far because of the wet ground, I couldn't move very quickly because of the wetness.

I slipped and came into close contact with the ground. Wow, it hurts so much. My mouth seems to be filled with mud. Is this what the earth tastes like? It's really boring...

Although it was slow, I was still moving forward. After getting the drawing board, I covered it and walked back. I didn't feel anything before because I had a tailwind, but when I was going back, I really felt the power of the strong wind. It would be impossible to move forward without using all my strength.

"Okay, here's your drawing board." I returned to the pavilion, looked at Tamasaka who was standing there in a daze, and handed her the drawing board.

"Ah, thank you." It took a long time for Tamasaka to come back to his senses, took the drawing board from my hand and said thank you to me.

"It doesn't matter."

I sat down on the pavilion panting, feeling like I had lost half my life. Tamasaka was already weak, and if I ran outside to get the drawing board and she fainted again, things would be even more troublesome.

"I thought of it!"

Tamasaka spoke loudly, shouting excitedly like a biologist who had discovered a new species.

"What's wrong?" What's wrong with this child? Why did he suddenly become like this? Is he crazy? I thought with a worried look on my face.

Chapter 199 Niwa Feng Appears in an Unexpected Place

"I finally found the inspiration and know how to draw. Thank you, Mr. Hikigaya!"

Tamasaka happily ran to my side, took my hand and spoke. Her enthusiasm was so enthusiastic that I almost couldn't resist.

"Okay, okay, I get it. First, check the painting to see if there is any damage."

I reminded Tamasaka, and she finally reacted and opened the protective cloth of the drawing board to check.

"I found inspiration. Thank you so much, Mr. Hikigaya! I know how to draw now!"

"I know, so calm down!"

Tamasaka is as excited as a jumping rabbit. Although there is nothing wrong with being happy, please pay more attention.

"Check your paintings quickly."

The excited Tamasaka completely ignored the drawing board that I had worked so hard to find. Only after I reminded her did she open the cloth bag that wrapped the drawing board as if she remembered.

"It's a little wet, but it shouldn't be a big deal."

Although the cloth bag has a certain waterproof function, some water still seeped in and wet the painting. Fortunately, it was only a part of the painting, and the main part of the painting was still well preserved.