Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

"You answered very quickly this time. Since you didn't act stubbornly, I feel relieved. But Hikigaya, you must remember that you are not alone. There are people who are willing to do some things with you. Don't be shy when you feel troubled. Just boldly ask others for help."

Mr. Hiratsuka said as he picked up my empty cup and filled it with warm water for me.

"I know. I will ask others for help when necessary."

"It's like that again." Mr. Hiratsuka smiled bitterly: "Since you said that, doesn't it mean that you don't want to ask others for help?"

"Some things are more efficient to do by yourself, considering the time cost and interpersonal relationship..."

"Hachiman language is prohibited!" I was about to argue with Hiratsuka-sensei, but Hiratsuka-sensei made an "x" sign to me, so who can tell me what Hachiman language is? Is it really okay to use this joke so many times?

"I should have said this before. You have to understand that even if you are used to pain, there will still be people around you who feel heartbroken because of your injury. Although you understood this truth later, you seem to have reached a dead end now. You have to understand that even if you don't want to trouble others, others will take the initiative to help you when they see how hard you are working."

"How can there be such a person?" I reflexively refuted Teacher Hiratsuka, but she pressed my shoulders hard with both hands.

"Yes, whether we believe it or not; all kinds of people exist in this world. There are people who are kind to you, and there are also people who are malicious to you; there are people who hurt you, and there are also people who save you; you have people you care about, and there are also people who care about you.

The world is so simple. Since you are looking at the person in front of you, the person behind you is also looking at your back.

Hikigaya, you have been hurt by others before, and you have also hurt others. You have helped so many people before, so there will be people who want to help you around you. It's just that you are too strong, so strong that those who want to help you don't know when to help you.

They cannot get close to you. You are like the sun, and the people around you are like the stars around the sun. They enjoy the warmth you give them but cannot give anything back to you because you are the sun. How can the sun need others to give it sunshine?

So, Hikigaya, the sun is always lonely. Countless people yearn for the sun, but they cannot get too close to it, because the scorching temperature will burn everything they have. "

The hand that was originally pressing on my shoulder slowly moved up and stroked my cheek, like a gentle mother comforting a child who had made a mistake.

"Don't be so impatient. Calm down. Someone will be willing to help you. When you were working on the school magazine, Yuexia Lingna hoped that she could help you and become an editor with you, but I rejected her request for my own reasons..."

Rejected? Yet, he specially found two students to be my assistants? No wonder Yuexia hid aside and complained inexplicably after meeting them for the first time, saying why she was rejected when she went to Mr. Hiratsuka to explain her request. So it was because of this, "Why did you reject her? I think she is more suitable."

"For my own selfish reasons, of course."

"Why can you say such things so openly? The atmosphere before is gone."

"Don't worry, this is me. Well, I have other things to do, so that's all for today's special tutorial for you!"

"Got it." I nodded. Mr. Hiratsuka's words had a profound impact on me. I felt like I had quickly figured out things that I had been unable to understand in recent days.

"Hikigaya, remember that although the light from the sun is strong, it cannot drive away all darkness. The stars reflect their weak light all the time in the dark night, and that light can drive away all darkness."

As she was about to walk out the door, Teacher Hiratsuka turned to me and said, then she waved her hand and quickly left the health room.

Chapter 129 Strange People Always Appear at Strange Times and Places

The sun? As a Chinese teacher, I have always felt that Mr. Hiratsuka is not very good at using metaphors. This time is no exception. It is really stupid to compare me to the sun. I am just a firefly looking for light and warmth in the dark night. It's just that the light I emit illuminates others unconsciously.

The metaphor is not appropriate, and he said so many things to me in the manner of an elder. This person is still the same as before, and likes to act cool at special moments. It's really troublesome. I told you that if you always care about these weird things, you will never get married. Since you care so much about marriage, you should quickly become like a proper girl and cultivate your normal hobbies. Otherwise... what if I really marry you on impulse? Stupid teacher.

I always feel like I have some horrible thoughts coming to my mind again. What’s even more annoying is that I don’t even dislike such thoughts. On the contrary, I seem to be very happy. It’s really terrible!

As expected, I should find someone to take in that troublesome older female teacher as soon as possible. By the way, I remember that last time I went to Mr. Fujiwa's house, Mr. Fujiwa's son seemed to be interested in Mr. Hiratsuka. Judging from their conversation, they must have known each other for a long time. Maybe I can try to bring them together?

She is my teacher, but she wants me to worry about her life. In many ways, I feel that Mr. Hiratsuka is finished. I will have to find time to test Fujiwa Shikaku's attitude later.

It shouldn't be so easy to solve. According to what they said, they should have known each other for a long time. If there was any affection between them, they should have been together a long time ago. There are only two possibilities for this explanation. Either there is nothing between the two of them at all; I think this possibility is very small. Judging from Shikaku's reaction at that time, something must have happened between the two of them before.

If this possibility is ruled out, then the reason why the two still maintain such a relationship must be that there is some major reason that prevents them from being together.

The atmosphere was thick with gossip. When did I become like Yuigahama? It was terrible to be influenced by what you see and hear.

I let out a long sigh. I feel that I have become more and more gossipy recently, which is not a good thing. Although as a light novel writer, I have to observe my surroundings at all times and look for usable materials. However, if I just become gossipy, then my personality in every sense will collapse.

The feeling of fatigue comes again. It seems that it is better to have a good rest and think about these things after my brain is fully clear.

When I woke up again, it was already noon. I opened my eyes and looked around, but I found that there was no one there. Tamasaka was not in her bed either. She must have left on her own after getting up.

"Are you awake? It's so early! I thought you would sleep for a while." Hearing the sound of me getting up, a strange voice came from the other side of the health room.

"What a hassle! I thought you would get up late, so I didn't prepare lunch for you. Now I have to run all over again, right?"

Complain right away? I know without even thinking that this kind of person is not compatible with me.

"I said, I said so many things, why can't you respond to me? Or is your high fever still not gone, and has affected your throat? Or is your throat too dry and you can't speak? In any case, I have to re-diagnose you, it's really troublesome."

How should I respond to this? This situation is like a horseman complaining that the horse he trained is disobedient and causes him trouble, but it is your job to train the horse to be obedient, right? If the horse is obedient, then why do you need to do it?

"Is it okay for the teacher in the health room to talk like that? I will file a complaint against you."

"Oh no, this is terrible. If I get complained about, won't there be a lot of trouble? The principal will come to investigate, and the students will find fault with me in various ways. Just thinking about it is troublesome. Why do I have to deal with so many troubles..."

The health teacher in front of me was covering his head with his hands, thinking about this question seriously. It was so stupid. You are the most troublesome person in this health room, right?

"I understand. I won't complain." He held his forehead with his hand with a headache. Why do I always encounter such weirdos around me?

"Oh, really? That's great, thank you so much." The male teacher in front of me ran to me very quickly and shook my hand vigorously. It felt like a devout believer meeting the God he worships.

It's so disgusting... to be held by a man like this.

The health teacher in front of him had nothing to do with the mature and mature teacher that one fantasizes about in light novels. He was just a middle-aged man with no special features.

He wore a pair of nondescript black-rimmed glasses, had a sparse and messy beard, and hair that looked like a pile of weeds. With such a teacher in the health room, I believe no one would want to stay here for a while. No wonder there are so few people coming to the health room. I have been here for so long and have never met any students who find excuses to come here to sleep and be lazy.

"Please let go of your hand first." The more I looked at his grateful expression, the more disgusting I became. I pulled my hand back in disgust.

"What a cold reaction. Is this how you treat the people who are watching over you?"

"I don't remember being looked after by you."

"Oh, that's right. I had to go out because I had something urgent to do. It was mainly because it was too troublesome to take care of the patient."

Can you please just tell me the real reason? You are definitely looking down on my intelligence, right?

"Well, even if I didn't take care of you, I was the one who rescued you. You're really something. You were sleep deprived and overworked, but you still managed to finish the class. I don't know whether I should admire your perseverance or praise your stupidity for not taking your own body seriously..."

"I don't want either of them. I don't want to be inexplicably given all kinds of weird emotions by a middle-aged uncle."

"You are a very cold person just like Koden, Hikigaya-sensei."

"How do you know my name?" I frowned at the man in front of me. After all, this was the first time we met. I felt uneasy that this man who exuded a suspicious aura knew my name.

"After all, you are the editor-in-chief of our school magazine. No matter what, your reputation in the school will be remembered by everyone in the school, okay? Although it is troublesome to remember other people's names, I will still remember the names that are often mentioned by students who come to see me. More importantly, when I am too bored to move, the school magazines that students bring and forget to take back are my only entertainment."

"Entertainment?" My eyebrows jumped up instantly. The school magazine was carefully edited by Uminohoshi, Tamasaka and I, and this guy actually called it entertainment?

"Don't be angry. Isn't it okay if I was wrong? As long as you don't complain about me, everything will be fine." Seeing that I was very angry, the man in front of me became humble again.

This kind of behavior makes people feel angry.

"Forget it." I sighed. Not everyone will cherish books. I already knew that. There is no need to argue with them one by one. "I don't know your name yet. Would you mind telling me now?"

I spoke politely to the man in the health room. I have been in society for a few years now, so I unconsciously used social terms. There was no need to ask this guy such a formal question.

"Eh? Do I have to formally introduce myself all of a sudden? It's really troublesome if you become so serious!" The man in front of her didn't appreciate it at all and just scratched his head.

Calm down, calm down, Hikigaya Hachiman. Think carefully about how your teacher taught you to calm down quickly when you are angry. Well, it seems like a punch, right?

I really wanted to punch that asking-for-a-punch face, but based on my calculations, I knew I couldn't beat the man in front of me, so I chose to back off for the time being.

"My name is Qian Liugui. Remember not to call me by my name when we meet in the future. It will be very troublesome for me to respond."

You are the most troublesome one, okay?

“I can’t take up this topic.”

"It doesn't matter if you don't answer. You know, it will be very troublesome for me to respond to you."

I think communicating with you is the real trouble. It's enough to feel choked back after just saying two or three sentences.

"Go lie down over there. I'll check if you're okay. If you're okay, I'll start a nice nap somewhere else."

"The reason for work is really weird!" Although I complained like this, after having a general understanding of his personality and communicating with him, I could roughly predict his behavior patterns.

Qianliu put his hand on my forehead. After a while, he moved his hand away and nodded to me.

"The fever has gone away, and basically there's no problem. From now on, you just need to rest well. You can have another sleep."

"I think my illness was cured by sleeping."

"Overwork and late nights, why can't they be cured by sleeping? If you can't sleep, there are sleeping pills. You can get up and take two pills yourself."

"Why did I get up by myself?"

"Of course it's because it would be troublesome for me to go, and it's time for my nap. If you have any problems later, you can solve them by yourself if you can. If you really can't solve them by yourself, please try to talk to me without troubling me." Qianliu said as he walked to the window seat.

"That's it? Aren't you afraid that I will complain to you for your service attitude?"

"Nothing in this world is more important than my nap." Qianliu rejected me righteously. How could you say such a boring reason so openly?

"Well, good afternoon." As soon as he finished speaking, he quickly pulled down the curtain between the beds in the health room.

This guy actually took a nap like this. What about my lunch?

After that, I still have to complain about this useless teacher in the health room! It would be best if I could also file a complaint with those students who have been to the health room and were helpless with his personality. You just tremble in front of the ironclad evidence!

Chapter 130: Benchugui will not always be so domineering

Just as I was imagining Qian Liugui being entangled in all kinds of troubles and feeling overwhelmed, someone pushed open the door of the health room.

"Why do you give me the opportunity to refresh my understanding of human beings every time I see you? Before, it was so cold in autumn and you were lying alone on the cold floor. At that time, I thought that this person was really amazing. He despised the power of nature and bravely fought against the cold. But is it really okay to see that he is so frail and doesn't take good care of his body?" After complaining about me harshly, the visitor sighed softly.

I didn't know that when you first met me, you had so many non-stop exclamations. Although it sounds strange, it seems to make sense when you think about it carefully. Tsk, has your way of speaking been infected by her?

"What are you doing here?"

"You'll know after you take a look." Ben Chugui said, shaking the lunch box in her hand. "I'm here to bring you lunch. You can't understand something so obvious. Is your brain really confused? You're so stupid..." Her voice got stuck in such a strange place, and her body paused in sync with her voice. After a long time, she shook her head in annoyance and took a step back.

"Sorry, that's not what I meant, Mr. Hikigaya." She smiled at me again as she did this morning. It was a bright smile, but I couldn't feel a trace of warmth.

This morning was the same. I felt a strong sense of disharmony when I was with Ben Chugui. This was the state I had been expecting to be with Ben Chugui, but for some reason, I couldn't be happy at all.

I have experienced this kind of scene before. It was after Yukinoshita and I had a cold war for a while and then reconciled. Once, Yukinoshita complained to me, and when I was about to refute her, she suddenly apologized to me.

Our habits of getting along have always been like this, but after the Cold War, a rift has appeared between us that can affect many things. As I said before, the rift cannot be completely filled, it can only be whitewashed. Under the whitewashed appearance, we deceive ourselves.

This is the case between Ben Chugui and me now. She must still be feeling upset about the previous quarrel, so Ben Chugui gets along with me in the way she does now. This is the disharmony between us.

If you deliberately remain indifferent or keep your distance, not only will the other person be hurt, but you will also suffer greatly.

"You didn't have to do this." I said with a wry smile, my voice as dry as that of an old man on his last legs.

"What? Mr. Hikigaya?" Motochū Kei responded to me, pretending she knew nothing.

"No, nothing." Since she didn't want to say it, there was no need for me to continue asking her. Forcing her to continue would only make our current situation even more embarrassing.

Ben Chugui walked to my bed, opened the lunch box, put it on the bedside table, and looked around.

"What are you looking for?"

"Um, is there something like a small table for bed use? It's not convenient for you to eat like this, right?"

It was good that they took my condition into consideration. Although I had recovered somewhat, I still had little strength and felt dizzy from time to time. If I wasn't careful, I could actually spill my food on the bed.

"I've never been to the health room before, and I don't know if there's anything like what you're talking about here."

"Is that so? I'll look for it again."

After Ben Chugui finished speaking, she stood up and began to look around. Maybe because she was in the health room, her movements were very gentle and only made slight noises.

I looked at the opened lunch box. The exquisite food was arranged in an orderly manner. It looked very delicious and was still steaming. In order to take care of the students, the school installed a microwave oven in the cafeteria. The fact that it was still steaming meant that the lunch box had just been heated in the microwave.

Because there are so few microwave ovens, there is always a long queue at noon for students to use the microwave oven. I never thought that she has the ability to endure the long queue.

Ben Chugui is actually a good girl. Even though she has used all kinds of verbal violence against me before, I still think she is a good girl.

As the student union president, she is steady, resolute, and pursues efficiency. After realizing her mistakes, she can frankly admit them to others. Now, she has shown her delicate and gentle side as a girl. Although I did not teach such a student, I still feel very happy.

I don’t know if what I said yesterday was too harsh. Although I reprimanded both of them at the same time, which allowed them to calm down and control their behavior, anyone with a discerning eye could see that I deliberately hit back at Ben Chugui, one-sidedly.

"No, I can't find it anywhere!" After searching the health room, Motoki said disappointedly, "Teacher Hikigaya, can you eat by yourself?"

I tried to raise my hand. Although I could feel it, it was still very weak and empty. There should be no problem touching my head, but it felt a bit difficult to carry the lunch box to eat.

"My hands are weak and I probably can't lift them up." I told Ben Chugui truthfully.

Ben Chugui said: "Are you hungry now?"

“I should be able to hold on…” Before I could finish my sentence, my stomach made a rumbling sound, and then my old face quickly turned red.

Ben Chugui held her chin with both hands and looked at me: "What are you insisting on?"

This guy definitely did it on purpose. It's really not easy to change a bad character.

"You did this on purpose, right?"