Bengtie, I have a Collapse simulator

But then he felt relieved and was most optimistic that he could live until Christmas, so that he could celebrate Xilin's birthday with her...

The process of being sick is also a process of gradually understanding contentment. Only when you have a fever do you realize how refreshing it is to be without a fever. Only when you have a cough do you realize how peaceful your throat is when you are not coughing.

The erosion was not serious in the beginning. The collapse energy oppressed his nerves little by little, and he could only lie crookedly for several days. But now, his nerves don’t seem to be as sensitive as before. Gu Che actually felt that the days when he was seriously ill were brighter.

Although Gu Che knew that every organ in his body must be wailing in pain, he really couldn't feel it. Without feeling that kind of severe pain, he could sleep more soundly at night.

Gu Che nodded: "Thank you for your hard work, sister-in-law."

Outside the ward, the purple-haired girl, who had not really left yet, leaned against the white wall of the hospital, her lips trembling.

The wall of the ward seemed like a stamp, a ship ticket and a grave. Such ordinary things separated Gu Che and Xilin. They were very close, yet seemed very far away.

The conversation in the ward seemed like flowers in the mirror and the moon in the water, making Xilin feel dizzy.

[How long to live], [Most optimistic], [Christmas]

But it's already October...

The conversation between Gu Che and Cecilia seemed to become a whisper, circling around Xilin's ears, constantly speaking incomprehensible and powerful words.

Brother, are you going to die?

Chapter 69: Happy Birthday, Xilin!

November 11th, sunny.

The sky is very bright today. It is as blue as a disease, a painful blue that is difficult to cure.

Gu Che was lying on the hospital bed, his face pale, revealing a hint of illness and fatigue, his breathing was weak and unstable, and every breath seemed difficult and laborious.

His figure was thinner than before, and his muscles seemed to be much looser. Feeling the condition of his body, Gu Che couldn't help but praise the professionalism of his attending physician in his heart.

"If I'm optimistic, I can celebrate Christmas again..." he murmured, his voice a little powerless and weak.

The prediction is very accurate. Don’t test it again next time.

However, today is Xilin's birthday, so we need to cheer up.

"Brother, good morning." Sure enough, Xilin came not long after Gu Che adjusted his state.

The door of the ward was quietly pushed open a crack, and a lovely face peeked out from it, with purple hair blown quietly by the wind. Seeing that Gu Che was still awake, Xilin walked in with her hands behind her back, and greeted Gu Che with her body tilted. She was smiling and seemed to be in a good mood.

But it was true, today was her birthday after all, and it was also the first birthday she spent with Gu Che.

Xilin seemed to have dressed up specially today. Two small and exquisite feather hair accessories decorated the top of her head. Over the white short dress was a purple long skirt with golden patterns on the hem. Below the hem was a pair of fair and slender legs wearing purple low-heeled shoes with pink edges.

"Good morning, Xilin," Gu Che smiled and praised generously, "Xilin looks very pretty today. I'm almost mesmerized by her."

Then, Gu Che stretched out his right hand, put his index finger and thumb together, and made a "fingertip universe" gesture:

"Just a little bit."

Reluctantly, Gu Che took his eyes off Xilin's white legs and turned to look at the flowers still blooming in front of the bedside table.

Flowers are alive, and although their lives are short, they live brilliantly. They will bud and bloom again next year, just like nature, full of vitality.

There are no flowers that bloom all year round, but there are flowers that bloom all year round. Whenever the vase of flowers in front of Gu Che's bed was about to wither, Xilin would always bring a bunch of fresh flowers to replace them, so that there would always be flowers blooming in Gu Che's ward. Most of the varieties of flowers were those that Gu Che had planted in his small courtyard in Berlin.

This made Gu Che sigh at Xilin's attentiveness.

Xilin is really a little angel... No, maybe she should be called an angel now. Gu Che looked at Xilin, who was already a big girl. At this time, Xilin had long shed her immaturity and was more pure and lively like a 16 or 17-year-old girl. Of course, Xilin's unique cuteness was indispensable!

Gu Che thought again of how he had just sneaked a glance at Xilin's thighs, and couldn't help but fall into self-condemnation.

Damn it...

"I just dressed up casually. It's not as pretty as my brother said," Xilin said this, but her heart was filled with joy. She seemed to be floating and couldn't hide the smile on her face.

As for the brother's inadvertent glance at her thighs...

I wear this for my brother to see, so why not? My brother can be more open and aboveboard, so that my Xilin's charm can be highlighted!

However, my brother seems to like legs, so I'll keep this in mind...

Xilin once saw such a sentence in a book:

If a woman does not make other women jealous, does a man think she is a little flawed?

Then she thought, if a woman cannot make other men feel moved, then isn't she a little flawed?

Of course, Gu Che naturally had no idea what Xilin was thinking. His only focus now was on condemning himself.

Damn it, damn it.

"Brother, guess what kind of flower this is?" Xilin took out a bouquet of flowers hidden behind her, waved it in front of Gu Che, and asked happily.

"It's lily of the valley." Gu Che was surprised. This was a gift he gave to Xilin when they first met. He didn't expect to meet her here.

"Hehe (≧ ? ≦)." Xilin smiled happily and warmly. The sunlight came through the window, scattered and sprinkled on Xilin's face, making the smile even more beautiful. Gu Che just felt that he was healed.

"Xilin now knows the language of the flower, so Xilin wants to give it to her brother. I hope he can get better soon!" Xilin walked up to Gu Che and put the lily of the valley she had just brought into the vase. Then she turned around and leaned down to get closer to Gu Che.

Gu Che stared at Xilin's face getting closer and closer, and suddenly he was a little flustered. He didn't dare to look directly into Xilin's golden eyes, and subconsciously looked away...

Then Xilin held his face with her hands. Xilin pressed her forehead against Gu Che's forehead, just like Gu Che had done before, and said seriously: "Brother, you must get better."

Gu Che's heart trembled violently. He didn't know why it trembled, but Gu Che felt like he was hit by something.

The mind is sharp, not broad; it is fixated on every point, yet inactive.

Gu Che knew that at this moment he should hold Xilin's face in his hands, and follow Xilin's wishes to tell her the answer she wanted to hear - "Brother will live, and live well."

But Gu Che didn't say anything in the end, he remained silent.

"..."

He didn't want to lie to Xilin anymore, nor did he want to lie to himself anymore. Of all the lies, self-deception is the most serious.

He was indeed dying.

This is the side effect brought about by [Heaven's Jealousy], which cannot be cured by any medicine.

Gu Che stared at the girl in front of him. Xilin's eyes had turned red at some point, and he saw the deep sadness hidden in her trembling golden pupils, and for a moment he didn't want to die.

but...

A dried-up riverbed never thanks or rebukes its past.

After all, it was because of [Heaven’s Jealousy] that he could see such a beautiful little angel...

Xilin didn't get the answer she wanted from Gu Che. Her eyes dimmed a little. She slowly withdrew her body and sat next to Gu Che again, suppressing her heart that was trembling because of her bold action just now.

"Doesn't Xilin have to go to school? I always feel like she's very idle every day."

It was not surprising that Gu Che asked this. Since obtaining permission from Cecilia and the others, Xilin had maintained a frequency of visiting him once a day, and she would stay for a long time, sometimes even staying in the ward with him for the whole day.

When I asked her last time, Xilin just said that the teacher asked for leave, but it was impossible for the school to be paralyzed because of this. Xilin has been taking care of him for a long time.

"There are many new teachers in the school, all sent by my uncle, so it's okay for Xilin to skip classes, and mom won't know." Xilin explained, her eyes a little evasive, like a child who had done something wrong, and then she stared into Gu Che's eyes and added, "Xilin is very worried about her brother..."

Gu Che smiled and said, "Okay, okay, I don't mean to blame Xilin. Thank you Xilin for coming to accompany me, and..."

"Happy birthday."

Xilin suddenly became shy again, a little embarrassed, lowered her head and smiled quietly. Obviously, she has grown up a lot compared to before, but she has never gotten rid of her shyness.

A hand fell on Xilin's head, caressing her with the movements she was most familiar with. Xilin closed her eyes in enjoyment, and then she heard Gu Che say:

"Xilin, is there anything you want?"

Xilin was stunned for a moment, raised her head and looked directly into Gu Che's blue eyes. After thinking for a long time, she slowly spoke:

"I want..."

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For Xilin, her seventeenth birthday is the most important birthday in her life.

Because... this might be her first birthday with her brother, or perhaps the last.

Xilin stayed in her room, sitting in front of the mirror, sorting out her emotions... She showed the cutest smile, smiled at herself in the mirror, and found that something was missing. She reached out her hand and wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes.

This is not about dirtying the tears of sadness, but about washing away the tears of sadness.

Ever since she overheard outside the hospital that day that her brother did not have much time left, she had been in a dilemma, at a loss, like an ant on hot pot or a person drowned. She wanted to see her brother but did not dare to face him, or rather, did not dare to face the fact that Gu Che was about to die.

But Xilin finally figured it out. If she didn't go to see her brother now, when would she go?

Xilin didn't want to leave any regrets, so, as usual, she used a happy face to hide the sadness in her heart and spent the limited time with her brother.

In the blink of an eye, a month had passed. Xilin had never felt that time passed so quickly.

Today's weather is exceptionally clear. Even though it's already night, there are few clouds in the sky. The moon shines brightly without any pressure, and the whole land has a layer of dreamy color. The moonlight is even, and the mirror reflects Xilin's face, making her look even more beautiful.

Xilin finally calmed down, walked out of her room, said hello to her mother, and left on the pretext of a class reunion.

When Xilin returned to Gu Che's ward again, she took a deep breath and pushed the door open...

"Boom, bang, bang."

The sound of three cannon salutes startled her. Her body trembled and her heart seemed to be about to jump out.

"Happy birthday!" Each of the three members of Kiana's family held a salute that had just been used and smiled and wished Xilin a happy birthday.

Xilin opened her eyes wide, a little bit unbelieving, and was at a loss for a moment. She subconsciously turned her gaze to the person closest to her...

At this moment, Gu Che was looking at her with a smile on his face, and said softly, "Xilin, happy birthday!"

Gu Che's voice was gentle, as gentle as a spring breeze, but it blew away the haze that was wrapped in Xilin's heart.

Somehow, Xilin's eyes started to turn red again. Unable to control herself, she ran directly to Gu Che, buried her head in his arms, and sobbed softly.

Gu Che smiled gently and patted Xilin's back.

It was unknown how long it took for Xilin to gradually calm down from that emotion. She reluctantly took her head away from Gu Che's arms, and found that there was a tear stain on that place, and she felt a little embarrassed.

"Brother..." Xilin looked at Gu Che, with thousands of words in her heart, but in the end it only turned into this call.

"Yes," Gu Che smiled, "Are you feeling better?"

Xilin nodded, her eyes flickering, as if she was telling a story, or as if she was crying. She just stared at Gu Che, and after hesitating for a long time, she hugged him.

She pressed her body against Gu Che's, hugged Gu Che like that, closed her eyes and felt the warmth of her brother.

"That's it, it will be fine in a moment..." Xilin closed her eyes and said softly, "Xilin, don't be greedy..."

The thin quilt could not block anything, and the girl's softness and warmth were transmitted to Gu Che through the quilt. He froze all over, as if he had not expected this situation, and dared not move.

For a 14-year-old girl, three years is not just a matter of growing in age and height.

Gu Che felt the squeezing sensation coming through the quilt and was a little overwhelmed. He had lived two lives and was equipped with a simulator. What had he not experienced?

He has never experienced this...

He could only reach out his hand stiffly and stroke Xilin's head, reciting the prime number table in his mind.

'1, 2,3,5,7, , , ...'

1 is not a prime number, asshole! Try again.

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Xilin finally calmed down. She sat up straight again, a little shy and embarrassed, and said, "Brother, thank you. Xilin is much better now."

Aunt Cecilia and the others were there, but I just... Xilin looked around unconsciously and was stunned.

At this time, Kiana's family had long disappeared, and even Gu Che didn't know when they left.

"When will Aunt Cecilia and the others..." Xilin muttered to herself, looking at Gu Che, wanting to find an answer, but then she became confused, "Brother, why are you adjusting the height of the bed?"

Gu Che smiled awkwardly: "I'm tired, sit for a while."

"Then let Xilin help my brother." Xilin suggested, and stood up and walked to Gu Che. She was about to extend her hand to help, but was sternly rejected by Gu Che.

"No need, brother can do it." Gu Che said so, and then he changed the subject, "Xilin, come here."

"Oh oh." Although Xilin didn't know what her brother was going to do, she still leaned forward obediently, and then her eyes were blindfolded.

At this time, Cecilia opened the door, and Siegfried walked up with a cake with 17 candles on it, smiling. Kiana also smiled and followed behind Siegfried and Cecilia.

Seeing this, Gu Che also smiled slightly and said in Xilin's ear:

"Xilin, come and count with me, 3,2, ..."

"3,2,1, , ." Xilin nodded ignorantly and followed her brother to count.