Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

That is to say, what I have done now has not made Ichinose feel disgusted with me. If I kiss those tempting red lips at this moment, I'm sure Ichinose will accept it.

At first, she would symbolically show resistance to my kiss, then become a little shy, and then gradually accept it. If my movements were more comfortable, she might become dazed.

From the attitude shown so far, I have roughly confirmed Ichinose's feelings for me at this time, but I can't accept it so calmly, at least not now. If we both express our feelings to each other at this moment, then I am simply unable to suppress my desire for the flesh, and I will become a similar poor slave in the future.

The use of this relationship is not stable.

I need a turning point, a chance to make Ichinose completely lose her ability to survive. And I also need to completely control Ichinose's empty heart when that opportunity comes, and at the same time trigger her dependence.

I placed my lips at the base of Ichinose's ear and lowered them until my cheek and Ichinose's soft skin made a dreamlike contact.

Just when the skin on our faces really touched, Ichinose's body began to tremble violently, and with it an impulse that even I could not suppress.

After Ichinose slowly realized that it was only our faces pressed against each other, the feeling slowly dissipated, but the 'recoil' it brought could not be erased.

It may seem like nothing happened, but the general idea of ​​the visual illusion in the mind and the heavy, rough breathing are real evidence left behind.

"..."

Would that be the explanation?

I began to feel confused about my own choices.

Am I really rejecting it now in order to make better use of that emotion? Or is it because of some other irrational factors interfering with it?

If not, then where did my impulse to gently bite Shimonose's earlobe and caress her come from?

I don't understand and can't explain such strange thoughts.

Now I only know one thing.

If I continue like this, I will definitely be playing with fire and getting burned.

The time of death is either now or in the near future.

I will be very clear about 'death'.

Just as the fortune teller said, if I don't cut off contact with my current environment, then 'I' will completely lose contact with my current self.

At least at this stage I still want to make sure my action pattern is under control.

I took a deep breath, then quickly raised my head, adjusted my body posture to the right one, and then slowly exhaled the foul air I had been holding.

At this moment, Ichinose still has her eyes tightly closed, and her hands that are holding my collar in front of my chest are a little tighter than before.

Maybe it was because I raised my body and moved my heels, or maybe it was because my departure made the shadow in Ichinose's closed eyes regain light, anyway, Ichinose gradually realized that I was no longer "oppressing" her, so she opened her eyes and stared at me while panting.

"..."

"...Okay, enough joking."

After calming down a few times, I decided to explain the reason in a soft voice.

"..."

However, Ichinose did not respond to what I said. I watched the tears in the corners of her eyes grow bigger and bigger, and the blush on her face had not faded yet.

I didn't pay attention to the details of my emotions and squeezed my hand between Ichinose's back and the sofa, using a princess-like hug to help her sit up, but her body was still nestled in my arms.

"Does Ichinose still want to stick to his own ideas now?"

"Well......"

"You did...you did something so extreme...you actually called it a joke..."

"If I share a bed with Ichinose, I'll just do something even more outrageous. So Ichinose better not try to think that I'm incapable of anything. I'm a boy after all."

Originally, I thought that if I did this, Ichinose would give in to me and then rest on the bed as I requested. However, maybe my actions were a bit too bold and Ichinose was a little unconvinced.

He even made childish angry remarks to me.

"But actually, if that's all, there's no problem..."

"Really? Ichinose, do you know what kind of situation you are in now?"

"There's no problem at all...right...?" Ichinose replied guiltily.

"But what I see here is a blushing face. Do you want me to take a picture so that Ichinose can see it with his own eyes?"

As I said this, I reached out to touch the phone on the table, and Ichinose also reacted and put his hand on my outstretched hand. There was no force from above to stop me, and I consciously withdrew my hand without any need.

"No, no need..."

Ichinose hastily averted our eyes from each other.

"...But it has come to this point...The implementation is really poor..."

Ichinose blushed as she slapped my chest. Although her left hand looked like a clenched fist, it didn't have any real strength when it hit me. Instead, it was quite gentle. It was even softer than the massage at a professional massage parlor.

You are just acting like a spoiled child now.

"This matter is ultimately Ichinose's fault. Even if I don't mention the previous inducement, isn't the subsequent sting enforcement more excessive than what I did?"

"...fishing, fishing enforcement?"

“Isn’t that so? The reason why Ichinose didn’t resist just now was to test whether I was trustworthy or not. If I had done something a little bit beyond the limit at the end, I wouldn’t be able to sit here peacefully and calmly now.”

"..."

"Luckily, I've heard Okabe describe a similar situation before, or else I would have almost fallen for it... Um, what happened?"

After I said this, Ichinose frowned slightly.

"What happened to me?"

"...Looks a little angry...Is it because I just failed the test?"

"How could I be angry at this time... I was just thinking that it was Okabe-san who told Luo-kun about the test, right?"

"Well, that's not it. What I meant just now was that I didn't know that Ichinose wanted to test me before, but I heard about the story of women testing boys' moral bottom line from Okabe. Setting a test to see if a man can withstand temptation, if not, he will be punished, and if he passes, he can be a friend without worry. It's not that Okabe said that Ichinose would prepare a test for me..."

"Anyway, it was Okabe-san who told me about the test, right?"

"Okabe didn't know that Ichinose wanted to test me..."

"But it was Okabe-san who told Raku-kun about the test."

"...It may sound a bit strange, but if Ichinose is simply referring to the test, then that's the truth..."

"Well, I'll keep this in mind..."

"...May I ask you a question?"

".....What's wrong?"

"Why should Ichinose remember this?"

"Because if Okabe-san hadn't been harassing me, I wouldn't have been able to do it just now..."

Before he could finish his words, Ichinose quickly shut his mouth and turned his face away. His fair skin, which had just recovered a lot, turned bright red again.

"...What?"

"...No, nothing...I was saying that thanks to Okabe-san's reminder, I would have almost failed this test, so I want to thank Okabe-san later."

"...Why do I sound dangerous..."

"How, how is that possible? I was talking to you nicely, right?... um..."

The tone sounded a little unconfident, but since such a statement had been made, it meant that he had no intention of speaking properly, which meant that Okabe was in trouble...

I reached out and stroked Ichinose's hot cheek, then used a little force so that she could look me straight in the eye.

"Luo...what do you want to do again...?"

"So... could that not be a test from Ichinose?"

"..."

"Haha, what is Luo Jun talking about?"

Ichinose subconsciously wanted to turn his head away, but now I had it firmly under my control.

"Isn't that what Ichinose meant by what she said just now? She deliberately didn't resist when I teased Ichinose, and she wouldn't feel disgusted even if I continued to do it."

"How could it be that you meant that? Just now...just now it was just a test. Don't think too much..."

"But Ichinose's face is really red."

"That's just because we're hugging each other like this and it's a little hot. I'll be back to normal once we let go."

"If that's the case, then Ichinose won't object to me holding you in my arms?"

"...It shouldn't matter... Luo has hugged me more than once or twice..."

"......"

"......"

".....Why did you suddenly stop talking?"

"I was wondering... wouldn't Ichinose want to do something more outrageous with me than what he did just now?"

As I spoke, I moved closer to Ichinose's face. I could clearly see my reflection in Ichinose's pupils.

poker face.

It’s hard to believe that Ichinose would have a favorable impression of someone like me who always wears a mask-like face, and it’s also hard to imagine what kind of experience others would get from my visual language.

Covering up is ridiculous.

The impulsive pleasure of the experience surged into my head again. I coughed lightly to return my mentality to normal, but Ichinose's sudden action almost wavered my heart.

Or rather, it wavered for a moment.

As we looked at each other with affection in the eyes of outsiders, Ichinose suddenly stretched out her hands and stroked my cheeks. At this moment, she did not hide anything, and her whole mind was completely exposed to my sight. I could fully sense the feelings she had for me at that moment, and this had nothing to do with the outside world.

Maybe I shouldn't have made such a joke just now, but Ichinose's behavior at this moment really surprised me.

Those jade-like hands kept warming my cold face, and the ambiguous gesture made it not feel awkward even if Ichinose took the initiative to kiss me.

I tried to move my neck back, but when I really tried, I was surprised to find that my body couldn't move at all. It wasn't so much that I couldn't move, but rather that all the subconscious thoughts in my brain were leaning forward.

I felt at a loss for a moment. The conflict between reason and emotion is probably the stalemate I am facing now.

At this critical moment, Ichinose softly moved my head to another direction, and I could no longer see Ichinose.

Then, I heard Ichinose mutter softly.

"No, rude person..."

It was clearly an insult, but maybe because Ichinose's voice was too soft, the feeling of shame dominated my ears.

"Since Luo gave me the bed, then, I accept it... Anyway, I'm going to rest."

After saying this, Ichinose hurriedly ran away from my arms. After Ichinose released her restraint on me, I followed her back. She quickly got into the bed, covered herself, and turned sideways with her back facing the "living room".

.......Will it really not be uncomfortable to sleep like this?

"..."

Well, people’s feelings cannot be called unified, so I can’t say much more on this aspect.

After seeing Ichinose resting, I also stood up, adjusted my body, and then walked to the light switch of the dormitory.

"I'll turn off the lights now, Ichinose, close your eyes."

"Um......"

After getting a definite reply, the lights in the dormitory dimmed instantly. I didn't wait until my vision in the dark recovered. I returned to the sofa along the route I remembered, thinking about everything that had just happened.

"..."

It's really scary.

Chapter 124 Tooth Marks

Fear of darkness.

The sudden change in brightness of my vision brought back memories of my first experience in that room.

Although we had prepared in advance and knew what kind of mysterious creature existed in the room, when darkness really fell, the whole room was filled with the screams of children.

After that test, most of us developed a fear of the dark.

It is not terrible to know the unknown in the light, and it is not terrible to know it in the dark. The real horror is facing the unknown.