Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

It is very similar to what we often say about empty talk. Empty talk about theory cannot actually solve the problem. Or it is easier said than done.

In short, this type of question focuses on the pain that comes from being in the situation.

Humans are born with an instinct, or to be more precise, a defect.

That's the fear of the unknown.

And this kind of fear is the general public's understanding of darkness and loneliness.

This is something that all of us should not doubt, and we should not be ashamed of it. Instead, we should take comfort in our fear. At least you can still feel fear, and this is also the normal psychology that ordinary people should have.

In traditional cognition, we perceive the outside world through our eyes, ears, nose, tongue, body and other senses. This is the so-called personal experience. Among them, most people rely on their eyes to the greatest extent, which is why people always have a normal mind during the day, but they will unconsciously fantasize at night.

During the day, we can sense even the slightest movement with our eyes, but human night vision is relatively weak compared to other predators. In ancient times, predators that preyed on us frequently appeared at night, and the chance of dying was completely different from that in the daytime. Therefore, this also leads to the fact that the slightest movement we feel in the dark will cause nervous anxiety, and we will hesitate for a long time.

But in fact nothing happened.

There were no poisonous snakes, lizards, etc. in the room, only us. I discovered this only after entering. The touch sensation of the human body is different from that of other creatures, but the dark visual environment only amplifies the fear and makes it an indescribable general experience.

We, the group of people who survived the dark times, eventually also slowly became people with a dark tone.

This is why I am still able to stay awake at this moment.

I don't know when I started sleeping for more than an hour at a time. You can think of it as the 'Da Vinci Sleep Method'. It's just that Da Vinci worked for four hours and slept for fifteen minutes. I take naps more frequently, and my working hours also depend on the situation.

On the one hand, it is to ensure that one's mental abilities are sufficient, and on the other hand, it is to be prepared for emergencies throughout the day.

The leisurely time we spend now is simply "unbearable" compared to the past.

I scratched my hair and got up from the sofa. Just as I was about to pick up the TV remote control on the table, I suddenly remembered that Ichinose was still sleeping in the room, so I had to give up.

Maybe it’s because it’s summer and the air pressure is not stable.

"Rumble—"

Thunder rumbled from afar.

It didn’t feel gentle while responding to my state of mind.

There was a flash of silvery light outside the window, but because of the curtains I could only see a flash of bright light for a moment.

The sound was always unable to catch up with the pace of the lightning. After a while, it began to rain outside. The rain started sparsely, but then it became heavier and heavier. The sounds of hitting various objects came into my mind one after another. Among them, the sound of a badly played xylophone on the glass window was the most chaotic, and they were arguing about something.

Just a few months ago, I could still observe the city with the silhouettes of terrifying ghosts through the giant net woven by raindrops, but now I can only understand the outside world through sounds through double barriers in a single dormitory.

I didn't have the courage to open the curtains, because if Ichinose was woken up by accident, there would be no telling what might happen.

Ichinose was a light sleeper.

I'm not referring to the degree of sleep, but the snoring at the same time. It is quite difficult to determine the depth of a person's sleep in such a dark space, and it cannot be judged simply by the duration of breathing.

Anyway, I couldn't confirm whether Ichinose was asleep or not.

But since she turned over and lay on her back, she must have fallen asleep.

"..."

My sight shifted from Ichinose to the surroundings, that is, the entire bed. Although this was my room and all the views had been memorized hundreds of times in my mind, the clothes folded at the head of the bed still made me feel a little confused.

My first reaction was to think that it was a bulge caused by Ichinose's hand under the quilt, but later I slowly discovered that the folded area was separated from the quilt.

There's no way Ichinose tore my quilt apart while she was sleeping.

Gradually, I noticed that there was a thicker black shadow in the space after the folding, and then I was sure that the things placed next to the pillow were pants.

After all, that pair of pants will really irritate people's nerves when sleeping.

"Rumble—"

"Crash, la, la, la-"

The sound coming from the window once again woke up the silence in the room. I was already unable to sleep because of the presence of a second person in the room, so I became even more alert.

The noisy sounds cover up the vision, and the darkness blurs the vision.

From any perspective, it is the best time to act in secret.

Thinking of this, I decided to go to the bathroom to wash my face and clear my mind. Although my consciousness was calm enough at this time, perhaps I also wanted to experience the pleasure of applying cold water.

I quietly stood up from the sofa, put my hand on the bathroom light switch and hesitated, but finally decided not to turn it on. I tried to pay attention to the noisy sound of running water, so I first scooped a few handfuls of cold water and threw it on my face, then took a towel from the alcove in the bathroom, soaked it thoroughly and covered my face with it.

The thunder and rain outside can be clearly heard even in the bathroom.

thunderstorm.

In order to make sure that my thinking was still within the normal range, I began to search for knowledge.

In the hot summer weather, the air in some local areas often experiences strong convection, causing a large amount of hot and humid air to rise rapidly, and then forming cumulonimbus clouds and thunderstorms.

Since the strong thermal convection that produces cumulonimbus clouds is only likely to occur in summer, thunderstorms are also a special feature of summer.

I wasn't fooling around with this for no reason, I was planning for extra contingencies.

Just then I heard some rustling noises and the sound of footsteps on the floor. I easily thought that the upstairs guests were getting up to go to the bathroom.

But then, unexpected footsteps sounded outside the door, not from the bathroom ceiling, nor from the corridor outside the dormitory, but from the bathroom door. I half-opened the cold towel on my face, exposed half of my eyes and looked at the door frame on the right.

The bathroom door handle is a single-action door handle, which means that when you hold the handle from the outside, there will be a corresponding feedback from the inside. As the footsteps sounded, the door handle twisted as expected. I slowly moved a few steps to the left to leave enough space for the bathroom door to open.

Slowly, Ichinose's figure appeared before my eyes.

She was looking down, rubbing her eyes with her right hand, and walking in a daze. I thought Ichinose would be surprised that I was in the bathroom, but she didn't notice me at all, and turned on the light in the bathroom. Then, because of the sudden strong light, Ichinose squinted her eyes uncomfortably, stood there in a daze, waiting for the shock to her visual nerves to ease.

During this period, I did not make any movement or sound to break the awkward situation that I was facing alone.

I tried to imagine walking out of the bathroom without Ichinose noticing, and then falling on the sofa pretending to be unaware, but because her position completely blocked the exit of the bathroom, I probably couldn't do it.

The bathroom was quite narrow, and once Ichinose got used to the bright lights, she would definitely open her eyes. This meant that it was quite difficult to stand in the bathroom and wait for Ichinose to finish her actions without being noticed.

So I can only face it head-on.

"..."

What should I do?

Should I just interrupt her at this time? I'm afraid it would scare her.

Touch her body? I might get slapped.

All that's left is to wait for Ichinose to open his eyes and notice my existence.

But to be honest, every declaration of existence will cause fear, not because of how scary I am, but because I know that Ichinose is just like that, easily frightened like a rabbit.

What exactly is the reasonable thing to do?

While I was still struggling with this question, Ichinose in front of me rubbed his eyes and opened them. At this moment, the one eye I exposed met Ichinose's gaze.

"..."

"..."

Do I need to say anything at this time?

For example, "Good evening, are you getting up to sleep too?", or should I tell Ichinose that I'm still enjoying it and ask her to wait outside the door...?

Ichinose didn't say anything for a moment, and then I realized that the situation was not what I thought. Because the blood color on Ichinose's face was fading rapidly, and even under the warm light of the bathroom, he looked quite pale. His right hand was at a loss in front of his chest, and his eyes were full of fear and terror.

Oh no, I guess you are treating me as a ghost again.

I wanted to explain everything before Ichinose misunderstood me, but a series of accidents happened afterwards and I didn't have any time to explain.

“Ah…Ah…”

Ichinose stepped back while making a trembling sound.

Finally, I don't know if it was because of the uneven steps caused by the door line, or the damp floor in the bathroom that had just been washed not long ago, but Ichinose bumped into something. His whole body was about to fall backwards, and at this time, Ichinose's hands were still on his chest. If he fell down like this, the back of his head would be hit quite hard.

So at the moment the unexpected situation occurred, I made a choice of action. I took three steps at a time and reached out to hold Ichinose in my arms. At the same time, my right hand helped support her back to prevent her from falling further.

At this time, the cold towel on my face flew out due to inertia, lightly brushed against Ichinose's face and fell on the bathroom floor.

I originally thought that the incident would end here, and Ichinose would clearly realize that it was me at this time, so he relaxed his vigilance after saving Ichinose.

Yet the facts stand out.

Ichinose put his arm around the back of my neck and leaned forward. I thought it was a move to hide her expression, but I didn't expect that the next moment I felt a sharp pain at the junction of my neck and shoulder.

At this moment, I could feel my flesh breaking and the blood gushing out. With more than ten years of sensing scars, I acted instinctively, but when I pinched the back of Ichinose's neck, I controlled my movements.

Then, he endured the pain and slowly led Ichinose out of the bathroom.

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"...I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that."

"...Does Ichinose know that iodine causes pain when applied to wounds?"

"Um......"

"You apologized, but at the same time you did something that hurt me. Just from this point of view, I didn't feel that Ichinose was apologizing sincerely at all."

"But disinfection is necessary...will it hurt?"

Ichinose sat beside me and spoke with concern, her tone sounding a bit distressed. At this moment, she was applying iodine to my wound with a cotton swab from the first aid kit she had just found in the corner of the room.

"It's still within the tolerable range, but compared to the damage Ichinose inflicted on me, this can be completely ignored."

"I'm really... I'm sorry... I really didn't mean it..."

"I don't mean to blame Ichinose either."

Just after I rescued Ichinose, she attacked me with all her might out of fear and terror, biting hard at the junction of my shoulder and neck. The force was so strong that it not only left a tooth mark, but also caused blood to flow.

Ichinose couldn't be blamed for this. For a long time after I carried Ichinose out of the bathroom, she didn't let go and couldn't get over the shock. After she confirmed that it was me standing in front of Ichinose, there were still big tears in her eyes, and she even sobbed a little.

I consoled Ichinose for a long time because of this.

According to the person involved, first of all, Ichinose thought he was still in his dormitory room after waking up, and didn't pay attention to my movements. Secondly, the bathroom was pitch black, so he was sure that there was no one inside. Finally, when he turned on the light, he saw that half of my face was covered by a towel, and he didn't recognize me at first. The appearance he showed was also quite strange, so he was mistaken for a demon.

Ichinose was very afraid of these things, not to mention it was at night, so she could not help but back away. From Ichinose's perspective, the last rescue was taken away by the white towel that was not taken away in time. Ichinose thought it was a monster evolved from the towel and was about to eat her.

So Ichinose gave him a taste of his own medicine, leaving clear teeth marks, no, blood marks on my neck.

At first I ignored the wound, but after wiping Ichinose's tears several times, she noticed that blood had seeped out from the collar of my bathrobe, and she hurried to check.

"What a disgrace..."

"But then again, Ichinose's teeth are really good."

"Please don't tease me about this... I really didn't mean it... I'm already reflecting on it..."

"I don't have such a bad heart. I just sighed a little."

"And Luo, even if you get up to wash your face at night, you should at least turn on the bathroom light... Otherwise, I wouldn't have behaved so rudely."

"I didn't do that because I thought Ichinose would be affected by the lights..."

"Yes, I'm sorry... I will make it up to Luo..."

"So how does Ichinose want to make up for it?"

"..."

It was obvious that Ichinose had not yet completely recovered her clear thinking about the interests involved. The joke I casually raised was taken into the scope of serious thinking by her, and she didn't know how to answer me for a moment.

The wound was completely covered with iodine. After Ichinose put away the first aid kit, she was still thinking about this problem. There was a slight uneasiness on her face.

Ichinose sat next to me and hesitated for a long time, then finally opened the collar of his shirt a little.

"How about...biting it back...?"

"..."

"...Do you think I can do that?"

"Hmm...eh, that's not right."

Finally, Ichinose realized what he was saying, slapped his cheeks, and gave me a dissatisfied look.

"Luo is making fun of me. I'm afraid of ghosts, so he wants to play a good trick on me at this time..."

"All the suggestions just now were made by Ichinose himself. The most I did was just compliment you on your good teeth."

"..."

I could read anger on Ichinose's pretty face.

"I didn't ask Ichinose to compensate me or anything. In fact, I don't care about this matter at all."