Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

Chapter 132: Strange Familiarity

The combustion of fuel, the emission of process waste gas, the reduction of environmental awareness among urban residents, the exhaust emission of transportation vehicles...

It is undeniable that the air pollution in cities has become more and more serious in recent years. I mention this because the stars outside the window are becoming increasingly scarce. The light emitted by those stars that are not bright enough is obscured by the dust in the atmosphere, and the starry sky loses their traces. However, even with many obstructions, a few of them can still shine in the dark night, shining brightly and magnificently.

Although I don't know the exact time now, I can be sure that it is past seven o'clock. There is still no electricity in the school building.

Originally, from the notice sent by the school this morning, I thought that the street lights on the corner downstairs would at least be able to light up during this time period, but it seems that what the school wanted to express was that the power in this area has been paralyzed.

The bright moon in the sky was obscured by the dark clouds again, and the bright light only flashed by intermittently. The situation now could basically be described as pitch black as "you can't see your hand in front of you when you stretch your hand out."

So in this case -

Thinking of this, I hesitated for a moment, but finally asked the question.

"...Ichinose likes dark environments?"

"Oh, well, I can't say I like it...but I won't reject it either."

"Aren't you afraid? But I remember that Ichinose is afraid of ghosts and the like."

"Being afraid of ghosts and hating the dark are two different things. Who says that ghosts that appear in the morning are harmless and won't be scary? Besides, doesn't the night have its beauty?"

"That's true, but according to past records, most of the time, vicious ghosts appear in the dark, right?"

"...If possible, I also prefer places with bright lights."

"Well... if that's the case, why do we use cell phone lights for lighting?"

"..."

I looked at the blurry shadow in the darkness and asked, and Ichinose's body seemed to stiffen.

"In fact, I had thought of this an hour ago, but..."

"Just what?"

"Well, haha, it seems that I played with my phone too much today. Anyway... it ran out of battery..."

Ichinose said embarrassedly in the darkness.

"I don't think this is such a shameful act, but... since Ichinose already thought of it, why didn't you tell me earlier?"

"I think Luo Jun doesn't seem to care much about this matter, so I want to go along with it..."

"I don't have a big problem with this, but if the dormitory building's power is not restored later, then the light source is something we have to consider... Anyway, we need to mention it..."

"Haha, that's right..."

"I don't have any flashlights or anything like that in my room... Anyway, I'll just use my phone for lighting for now."

"It's troublesome."

I took out my phone as I said, pressed the power button, and was about to look for the flashlight on the lit screen when it became dark again.

For a moment I saw the unusually bright red warning grid.

I understand that this is a warning that the battery is low.

"..."

"Could it be... that the phone is out of battery?"

"......I don't want to admit it, but it seems to be the case...On weekdays, I only have a few contacts, so I can save energy..."

"So you don't care about the battery level of your phone on weekdays?"

Ichinose took over my words and spoke to me in a helpless tone.

"After all, I stayed in my dorm this summer and didn't leave, right? If I want to recharge, I can do it anytime."

"This is a really bad habit..."

"I'm so sorry...but I do have a power bank in my desk drawer. I'll go get it."

"Be careful, don't get hit."

Although I knew that my actions in this situation could only be noticed by others for a moment, I still nodded secretly. I had no intention of responding, but the subconscious behavior between individuals seemed uncontrollable.

I walked quietly to the desk, took out the spare items from the drawer, then unplugged the charging cable from the wall and returned to the sofa seat.

"Hey, is it finished so soon?"

"After all, it's my own dormitory, and I spend most of my time figuring out how to live here, so I'm probably more familiar with it."

While I was explaining to Ichinose, I connected the devices in my hands together, and the screen of my phone lit up immediately. There was no boot animation, I simply triggered the built-in program and turned on the flashlight function of the phone.

The flashlight on my phone is quite limited, and I have to aim the flashlight at the desired range. I don't have a suitable substitute to help me hold the phone. If I want to illuminate both Ichinose and I at the same time, I need to spread the phone flat on the sofa, and the light from the phone is quite dazzling. I can't say it's uncomfortable, but it's true that there is something inevitable in my sight.

"...Why do I feel like it's even more eerie and scary..." Ichinose said as he leaned back subconsciously.

"…Is there anything weird about it?"

"For example, Luo's face is covered with shadows... It looks a bit strange, but everything else is fine..."

"If you want to avoid darkness, there's nothing you can do about it... Since the atmosphere is a little off, why not play a song to cover it up?"

"Wouldn't it be those songs that are scary and dark and highlight the horror atmosphere...?"

"Although the music I included is all instrumental music, there is a high possibility that this kind of music will be dark and scary, but I personally don't think I will include that type of song... How about it, do you want to try it? Or does Ichinose have any songs you want to listen to?"

"I don't have any particular music I want to listen to... Luo should just pick a song from his playlist. If it's pure music, it will make you feel more relaxed."

"I hope so..."

There is only one music-related app on my phone, and I don’t use it often. I personally don’t like music because it can cause associative thinking to a large extent, which can cause millisecond-level interference when thinking about a certain aspect.

So even when I listen, I will only choose pure music with my own understanding and melody, and my personality tends to be quiet. Heavy metal and other rock music sound more like noise to my ears.

After Ichinose's brief reply, I randomly clicked on a song. After seeing the name of the pure music, I felt that this song would be a little sad.

After hearing the beginning, this is indeed the case.

It was like a puppet whose strings had been cut off, and instead of being freed, it was thrown into the ruins immediately. The memories were mixed with sadness and joy, and I didn't just indulge in the past, but the impact I had was not so easy to get over.

When you listen to this song on a sultry summer night, the temperature of your body will gradually cool down under the influence of your soul.

"Lonely..."

At this moment, Ichinose lowered his head and muttered something softly.

"......What?"

"...I mean this song sounds pretty lonely..."

"...Does it feel like this? I feel it's quite peaceful."

"Why do I feel so peaceful when I hear a song like this... Do you remember what made Luo Jun put this song in the playlist?"

"…Why do you ask this question?"

"Because I heard that whether to collect a song is based on the current state of the listener... Anyway, there is nothing else to do now, so I wanted to guess what Luo Jun's mood was at that time..."

"I see... If Ichinose really wants to know, I can't remember such things... But I should know the reason for including this instrumental. In short, it's quiet."

"Quiet again?"

"Well...if the songs I included were the same as the information I marked, then these songs would seem peaceful compared to other music...that's why I just had that feeling."

"Rather than making people feel quiet, I think this piece of music should be listened to alone in quiet time... What is the name of this instrumental music?"

"Please wait for me to see the name..."

“Desolation… that’s the name of the track.”

Desolation, translated into English, means ruins, and also means sadness and loneliness. So Ichinose is quite sensitive to the feelings of listening to instrumental music.

"Doesn't that mean loneliness?"

"It's amazing... I listened to the song for a long time but couldn't hear the feeling of loneliness. I didn't expect Ichinose to understand it after listening to it for the first time... It turns out that I am not suitable for developing in the field of music."

In other words, I have no talent in music, so I was lucky enough not to be harmed by Bai Niao and the others in the KTV.

"I don't think Luo didn't hear it because of these reasons..."

"I know that I am much worse at this, so Ichinose, please don't bother to continue to undermine my self-confidence. I didn't intend to think deeply about the problem..."

After all, humans who are plagued by laziness cannot achieve the so-called success. I will either merge with illness and become the synonym of the seven deadly sins, or I will accomplish nothing and waste my life in silence.

No matter which of these two aspects is put into the society, they will be labeled as "lower class scum". In the final analysis, the people who are respected in this society are either those who are in high positions or those who have dreams and goals.

"I don't mean to criticize Luo Jun, but I don't know whether Luo Jun didn't notice it or was just playing dumb. The problem is obvious... It's not right to say that he doesn't have talent or doesn't work hard... If you just think it simply, Luo Jun may have such a bad perception because he was in the situation himself."

"…Is there a problem with me?"

"Yes, it is like that."

Many people have expressed similar things to what Ichinose said just now. But they always explained the concepts in a vague way, and never let me touch the hidden core truth. Even if I went to look for it alone, it would be useless.

I didn't understand the meaning of Ichinose's words at the first sight, but as long as I understood it, I felt that I would undergo a certain "transformation" tonight. That's why I made up my mind to continue listening to Ichinose's explanation.

However, just as Ichinose was about to speak, the air conditioner installed above the windowsill suddenly made a shrill "beep" sound, interrupting our conversation and disturbing the atmosphere.

Soon after, the set temperature preset value flashed on the air conditioner, and the sound of the air conditioner outdoor unit working could be heard outside the window sill.

At this time, I also began to feel like retreating.

"...It seems the phone is ringing... I'll go turn on the light and check the electrical appliances. Ichinose, please stay where you are and wait for a while."

I relaxed my 'self' at the first opportunity.

I stopped the music on my phone, stood up and turned on all the lights in the dormitory.

The moment the light illuminated the room, the familiar feeling of last night appeared before my eyes again. Except for a few extra pieces of Ichinose's clothes that made the room suddenly seem a little crowded, everything around me was quite familiar, but also a little strange.

While I was checking the kitchen appliances, Ichinose stood up, closed the window, and checked his clothes.

"...How is it, two hours have passed. Is it done?"

"Well, not yet... it's all because there's no hair dryer in Luojun's room."

Perhaps it was because of this incident, Ichinose looked at me with a hint of resentment.

"...I'm so sorry that there's no hair dryer in the dormitory room."

After checking the electrical appliances, I opened my closet and handed over a short-sleeved shirt and shorts and disposable underwear I bought yesterday to Ichinose. To be honest, I didn't expect that the items I randomly picked would come in handy at this time. There were still twelve small bags in one bag.

"Since the call has come, Ichinose should go to the bathroom and take a shower, just like yesterday."

"......I see."

After preparing the necessary items, Ichinose walked into the bathroom without hesitation. I was outside dealing with the remaining garbage and washing the dishes.

After finishing all the cleanup work, I sat back in the single seat.

"...Luo, I've already washed it."

When I came to my senses, Ichinose came out of the bath before my eyes.

My short-sleeved shirt looked a little loose on Ichinose.

The upper body was like wearing an off-shoulder shirt, and the shirt barely hung on Ichinose's body. Thanks to this, a large area of ​​pure white skin was left on Ichinose's chest, which was more attractive than an unbuttoned shirt. Her wet hair fell to her waist.

Before, at least the collar could cover the collarbone, but now the outline is clear, and there is even a slight soft valley. The shorts may be a little long, but they can't cover the lower body's calves, and the elastic skin touch seems to be easily felt...

Ichinose's posture was quite shocking to me. I was stunned for a moment, and finally, with a strange sense of familiarity, I quickly moved myself to the bathroom.

Chapter 133: A Kiss That Decides Fate

Because the bathroom had just been used by Ichinose, the temperature inside the room was still relatively high, and there were drops of water hanging on the walls, so using cold water at this time was not strange or inappropriate.

Adjust the thermostatic water valve to the rightmost position. In just a moment, the water flowing out of the shower head turns into a cool stream that stimulates the human body's nerves. While feeling the same way, my mind also calms down at this moment.

Drops of water kept dripping from my hair and then flowing through my whole body.

——What do I want?

This is a question that I have been thinking about since I entered this school. I am not very clear about this concept, or confused, but I don't have a real sense of it and cannot empathize with it.

In order to better analyze this question, I will divide it into two aspects: 'material' and 'spiritual' to answer.

Let’s talk about the material aspect first.

Judging from my behavior in the months after I was liberated, I don’t know if it’s because of the aftereffects of my past experiences or because of my current life of having no worries about food and clothing, but my material requirements are very low. At best, I just want to maintain this kind of life of being well-fed and well-fed, and safe and sound.