Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

It's just that this is different from what I saw.

Our class is just a group of people who don't want to see others get hurt more than they do themselves, and who can only say nice things like this.

How can such a person bring victory?

However, however, however,

Even with such a class, they were easily promoted to Class A. With just two special exams, they easily made up for the 400-point gap with the original Class A.

If you tell me that this is the result of 'unity', I will never believe it.

There must be some variable difference here.

just,

——That’s just a minority.

I decided not to think about it anymore, as long as our class can maintain its status as Class A until graduation. No matter how distorted the surrounding environment is, I just need to follow it calmly.

Before good or bad, it is more important for me to protect myself. So I will not be good friends with anyone, but I will not be on bad terms with anyone either. There are times when I am invited and times when I am not invited. It is this kind of feeling of being close yet distant, and I don't want to destroy this distance and atmosphere.

However, my disguise and my flattery were unexpectedly discovered by him.

In fact, I didn't think too much about it, because I knew that even if they knew, they wouldn't do anything to me. On the contrary, they might even use their incomprehensible healing power to make up for it and make up for it with appropriate excuses.

But that guy was different.

After he understood this, he had no intention of doing so at all.

Although I can understand the differences between men and women, and it may be a little rude, his behavior is too much anyway.

Even if he could clearly understand my feelings, even if he could understand that my current actions were to ensure my own humble survival in this group, even if he was in my shoes, but——

That guy is trying to destroy the balance I maintain. He is destroying all these things in my heart like a mad horse.

Ah, in the final analysis, it's just my own opinion.

I just don't understand him.

Being able to maintain calm, being gentle to others, speaking casually, etc., these are the labels I want to give him.

After knowing my true self, I can talk to him freely.

But he is not what he seems.

Finally, I asked a question.

then,

I got the reason why my class was able to stay in Class A.

What won was not class unity, nor was it the direction that Class Leader Ichinose desired.

But it is - his eccentricity.

I should have seen it long ago. That man was not as harmless as he looked. I should have understood this from his performance at the final relay race at the sports festival.

He is definitely not just an ordinary student.

No matter how many times it happened, there was always a gentle look in his eyes, but his actions were extremely cruel and brutal.

Although he is in the minority, he can completely control the majority.

This is a fact.

This man holds a heart in his hand.

And he was about to put this heart into his empty heart.

This is the fact that I can see clearly as an outsider.

"Changing classes or something! What on earth do you want to do? Aren't we in Class A right now? We are Class A! So what do we need to change?!"

For a moment, I couldn't stand his repeated words and chose to explode.

I was shocked by my own behavior and I didn't expect it to turn out like this.

Perhaps, just as he said, even though the time was not long, a considerable amount of pressure had accumulated in my heart.

So, I stopped thinking about what he wanted to do. If he wanted to use me, then he could use me. It didn't matter if he didn't let me realize it. As long as I could continue to have such an open-hearted conversation with him, it was fine.

Perhaps, I made the first person I could call a friend in this school.

Will there be more and more in the future?

I do not know.

What I do know is that it might not be bad to have him alone right now.

Chapter 177 Knee Pillow

The sports festival came to an end with the hard work of all our students.

Our Class A won the championship in this sports festival.

During this period, we discovered the unpleasant reality that there was a "traitor" in the class, but fortunately its existence did not affect the outcome of the competition. At the same time, Kanzaki, Shibata and others also grew in this battle.

Although the situation within the class has changed, the overall direction of development has not changed.

However, at least it met the minimum standards I expected.

Because all the students in our Class A were quite tired after the sports festival, we decided to postpone the celebration party to the next night.

This will be a grand event where all the students in Class A will gather together.

However, even at the celebration party, I still couldn't get excited.

Compared to celebrating, I feel that the tenderness I am enjoying at the moment makes me more intoxicated. The indescribable fragrance lingers around my nose all the time. At the same time, the touch of my hair is also very comfortable. The fabric of my clothes is also unexpectedly soft.

I wanted to just close my eyes and not wake up, but my consciousness became clearer and I realized the subtlety of the situation.

After understanding the situation clearly, I instinctively chose to escape from reality, and my main consciousness also chose to obey, so I decided to pretend to sleep for the rest of the time.

But the reality doesn't allow me to do that.

Ichinose's fingertips gently stroked the side of my cheek. She was not pursuing the beauty of the lines, but paying more attention to the gentleness of the movements and the itchiness she left on me.

This behavior lasted for a minute or two. When she saw that I didn't react, Ichinose laughed softly, and I could tell that she was in a good mood at the moment.

She slowly leaned over, and then I blew a breath of hot air into my ear. This action made me feel an unprecedented numbness all over my body. The slight resistance I made afterwards was noticed by Ichinose.

At this point I knew I couldn't pretend to be asleep any longer.

"Get up~"

The tone of the wake-up call was quite gentle, and the hot air blowing into my ears made my body and mind a little agitated, but this was not the most 'painful' thing for me.

Ichinose's action of speaking in my ear made me vaguely feel the intimate contact between her lips and my skin, and I desired something more and more.

It’s hard for me to explain what this feeling is, but I know that my patience is about to reach its limit, or that my change has reached a bottleneck.

I also clearly realized that I had lost the opportunity to fight back, but I would never give up the opportunity to fight back before I died.

With such a chaotic thought, I turned around.

When I opened my eyes, I saw Ichinose's beautiful face.

"are you awake?"

Ichinose reached out and pinched both sides of my cheeks again.

"......Why is Ichinose in my room?"

In order to calm myself, I decided to advance the topic slowly.

"There's a celebration party tonight, and I wanted to go with Luo, so I came to see if you'd left. After I opened the room with the spare key, I found you sleeping soundly on the sofa alone."

Since Ichinose often came to my dormitory room to help, I copied an extra key card to facilitate Ichinose's movements.

But I never imagined that I would not notice the sound of her opening the door.

I am very sensitive to the external environment. Even when I am asleep, I will wake up at the slightest disturbance.

However, nowadays, after my limbs are touched, I am unable to wake up immediately, and even when I wake up, I still wake up slowly.

This may be because my body was more tired than I imagined, or it may be because the object was Ichinose..........

In short, I find it hard to understand.

"So...why a knee pillow?"

"N-Don't you like it?"

Ichinose didn't respond to me right away, but asked back a question with a little nervousness.

"I find it hard to imagine anyone refusing Ichinose's lap pillow."

"This sentence means love, right?"

".............Well, I'm glad I can be treated like this."

Although it feels a bit embarrassing to say it directly, if I refuse to answer, or answer that I don’t like it, I probably will never be able to enjoy this kind of intoxicating tenderness again in my life.

"Really? Luo likes it very much. That's great."

"........."

Although Ichinose seemed to exaggerate the extent of my liking for you, it didn't seem to have any effect, so I just accepted the correctness of this statement.

The head patting continues, and I don’t expect it to stop any time soon.

"So why the lap pillow?"

This time, Ichinose answered me directly.

"I heard that a girl's lap pillow can help a boy satisfy his romantic feelings and restore his spirit at the same time... Luo Jun, who fell asleep at this time, must be very tired."

"........Let's not talk about where Ichinose heard this from, but it's just a coincidence that I fell asleep at this time."

It just so happened that Ichinose arrived during my sleep time.

"This is very suspicious. Could it be that Luo Jun was pretending to be asleep just now, so that he could enjoy the lap pillow?"

Has it been discovered?

No, there is no reason to doubt it.

"........I don't think I would do that."

I said something that even I doubted, but Ichinose agreed with it.

"So, no matter how I teased Luo Jun just now, he didn't wake up at all."

"Even if that's the case, it doesn't mean that my body is tired. Maybe Ichinose's movements were too gentle?"

"Will not."

Ichinose said as she patted my cheek gently.

"I used all my strength without mercy. Although it was aimed at Luo... But, anyway, lack of energy is lack of energy."

Then my cheek was gently touched again.

"........."

"There is still some time before the celebration banquet. Until you have to leave, Luo Jun should just enjoy himself."

"is that so.........."

“That’s it.”

I decided to obey Ichinose's gentle request and turned around to continue enjoying Ichinose's lap.

"Although I'm a little embarrassed, can I ask what Luo thinks?"

"Are you talking about feelings?"

"Yeah. Is that okay?"

Feelings...

How to describe it in words?

Looking up, there are mountains; looking down, there is a deep valley; and if you smell a faint fragrance, you can smell it.

Ichinose was wearing a short skirt, which was a school uniform. The fabric was very thin, so I could easily feel the softness of her thighs. Even if I couldn't erase the difference in my heart, I could easily get rid of the barrier of the short skirt by just leaning forward a little bit.