Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

"But then again, do we need to continue with the science questions? If we can just take a holiday, I'll be quite happy to accept it. That way, we still have plenty of time left."

I originally thought that I could escape the disaster because my level had improved to the same level as Himeno's, but my proposal was rejected by Himeno without hesitation.

"No. Even if I knew the answers in advance, I have been preparing for these questions for a long time. Do you want to waste my hard work?"

"You can't say it's a waste. It's totally fine to use them as review for the final exam. In essence, they are all for the exam............"

However, my explanation still failed to gain the other party's understanding, which was similar to that of the teacher.

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Because of the continuous improvement in learning level, it became easier to deal with Ji Ye's tutoring. The rest time was quickly caught up, and then the break was completed neatly. When I walked out of the coffee shop, the students around me were studying in an orderly manner, and Ayanokouji was not finished either. This time I finished the learning task ahead of schedule, and my body was unexpectedly relaxed.

Since we lived in the same dormitory, we had to travel together on the return trip.

It was also sunset, and Ji Ye gradually became listless. To what extent had the lollipop in her mouth melted? Without chewing it and stirring it, it was inevitable that her tongue would stir it.

It's probably almost over...I started thinking about similar boring topics.

The issue of Himeno is about to be dealt with. In this situation, the longer it takes, the more it will fall into a negative cycle that is difficult to extricate. Originally, I wanted to choose a student between Himeno and Okabe to use as a [disposable consumable]. Although it is difficult to balance the value of the left and right interests, considering the potential, Okabe is obviously the [priority].

I personally also want to know the negative impact that [a student dropping out of the class] will have on the class. Class D, which was originally the most likely to have problems, will probably become difficult with Ayanokouji's help. This information is also difficult to obtain from the seniors. If other classes are unlikely to have problems, I can only look for opportunities in my own class............

However, this is difficult to achieve now. There was nothing wrong with the plan from the beginning, including Sakayanagi's move, which I could have used. It was just that my mind changed along the way, and I chose another approach in order to pursue an answer that I had long given up expecting.

In this way, Okabe's existence becomes meaningless, while Himeno needs to be taken seriously. The distance between the two must be clear to the parties involved, and the ambiguity of outsiders must also be present. I will deflect the result in the direction of the answer, and I don't care about any other losses. Regardless of light or darkness, I will use everything I can to the fullest.

Whether it is worthwhile to exchange a [disposable consumable] for a [long-term tool] has already been given value and meaning by my actions, and the answer has also been placed on my own bet.

"At this point... why don't we just have dinner together? Although there are still some ingredients left in the dormitory refrigerator, it will be a lot of trouble to prepare them by myself."

Before I could say anything, Himeno turned around and suggested to me from the fork in the Y-shaped street.

"I have no problem, so I'll just follow Ji Ye's arrangements. But...are girls really born with the potential to be good at cooking? So far, I've only heard it verbally, but most of the girls I know seem to be able to cook."

"Well, anyone can do it if they learn it... Ichinose-san seems to be very good at it, and so does Asako."

I see, the reason why I feel this way is because there are too few examples that I can give among boys. It's the same when I'm with Shiratori and the others, and we often rely on cup noodles for support, and sometimes Kanzaki and I will help...

Among the boys, it seems that Kanzaki is the only one he knows?

With a confused mind, I passed by a poster.

"Movies............?"

I suggested this.

Chapter 218 Today is just a continuation of yesterday

Although I established a group relationship with Shiratori and his group at the beginning of the school year, and also joined the group chat on the communication device, I still stayed alone in the room doing nothing. The most active time for group chat is at the beginning. When everyone is not together, they will chat in the group without restraint. Because there are no entertainment activities and the understanding of this school is not deep, the opportunities will increase inadvertently. Then, as the side classification is carried out, such topics will continue to decrease, and the group will gradually lose enthusiasm............

Suddenly thinking back, maybe I miss the good old days. Staying in the room won't be boring because of the boring time. Just staring at the group chat screen can keep your attention distracted and think about this and that youth topic............

Artist performances, idol shows, video game competitions, fun life experiences............So far, the first-year students have adapted to the life of this school and have found a variety of entertainment projects to enrich their extracurricular life. Perhaps this can enhance the friendship between students, but after experiencing so many things, even those who are in high spirits can't stand the mental exhaustion and want to seek stability, not to mention those who feel bored, especially during such a special period of time.

By the way, how long had I spent alone in the deserted dormitory room in the past month? I tried hard to recall my life experience after school these few days.

"The conclusion is that I fell asleep as soon as I returned to the dormitory............"

"What's the matter? Why did you suddenly stop and mutter to yourself here?"

Not far away, Ji Ye, who had already passed through the gate of the Keyaki Shopping Center, noticed my figure standing at the entrance and unable to keep up with me, so he turned back halfway.

"Hey, Ji Ye, you admitted in the study session just now that you have nothing to teach me, right? Whether it's in the humanities or in the sciences............"

"Yeah. I'm right. Science is probably just like that. I'm not really good at it. But compared to Luo, I'm still absolutely confident in the humanities."

Himeno, who thought he was issuing a "challenge", clenched his fists slightly and made guts poses. (Note: In Japanese English, the corresponding term is "fist pump". It is an action of clenching fists upwards with arms bent to express joy and excitement, usually accompanied by shouts of "victory". It is more common in various sports events. Here it is mainly used to express confidence.)

A variety of emotions can be seen in Ji Ye's eyes, which are obviously different from the first time they met.

"So, this means that our tutoring relationship has come to an end, right?"

"Eh, eh? That being said, but...it seems like that...the tutoring can be completely over..." After hearing my question clearly, Ji Ye's movements became noticeably stiffer, and his expression was slightly stunned.

"If we continue tutoring, the efficiency will probably be reduced. It will be better for the two of us to review on our own in the next period of time, and it will also be convenient for us to solve our own learning doubts."

"Yeah, yeah. I can cancel my review plans starting tomorrow... I thought this day would come eventually, but it still feels so sudden when I realize the result. It feels like my life will be back on track after today..."

"Is it my illusion? Ji Ye's words just now sounded quite melancholy."

"Ha. I wouldn't be sad or upset because of something like this. How could I be [melancholy]? Rather, the cancellation of the [tutoring course] should make me feel a lot more relaxed, and it should free up a lot of time... That's what I think."

Yeah. Seeing that Ji Ye is still so energetic, I feel relieved. I think the following speech will be easy to carry out, and the proposed plan will be as expected.

"After being together for so long, I should be able to treat Himeno as a [friend], right?"

"............Why are you talking about this topic all of a sudden?"

I see, Himeno has long regarded me as a [friend] in his heart and treated me as such, so my words would seem strange to him. However, this feeling is still hard for me to understand. It is clear that the relationship between Himeno and I is just a relationship of use maintained by [tutoring courses], but it has developed into the so-called [friendship], [friend]. Even such a bad behavior can be traded for the so-called precious [friendship] in the world............?

It's incredible.

"Because I am conflicted about certain things, I need to clarify this point before I can make a choice calmly. After all, I don't want others to see my embarrassing side."

“I see. May I ask what you mean by ‘certain aspects’?”

“I’m sorry. I can’t say [certain aspects] until Himeno tells me the answer to the question. In a sense, the key to the question depends on Himeno’s answer.”

"This topic sounds quite serious. It seems that I need to think carefully before answering it............" Ji Ye crossed his arms and smiled shyly, "If Luo Jun is willing, you can treat me as a friend. If possible............"

Although Ji Ye's behavior seemed to give people a cautious feeling and his tone was unexpectedly weak, that was probably just a change caused by the cold weather and his body being frozen.

But it was amazing that the other party was able to hand over the initiative to me. I originally thought that Ji Ye would arrogantly decide whether to [stay or leave], but it seems that I thought too badly of the other party.

"Since we are friends, can you accept my invitation to go to the movies together tomorrow?"

"No, no? As expected, I... Hey, wait, what did Luo just say?"

Ji Ye's reaction didn't seem to be exaggerated, but at this time, he still had to slow down and never let the other party notice his anticipation for the movie. This was the first time in his life. Although the relationship as [friends] had already increased the success rate, he still had to prepare a legitimate reason.

From past experience, I know that Ji Ye doesn't like this kind of invitation activity, and it is estimated that it is difficult for me to show occasional obedience. If there is no suitable reason............

"Well, Himeno, think about it. Haven't we been studying for a month straight? Even though the final exam is approaching, we need to maintain a certain level of tension, but if we overexert ourselves, there will be problems. So I want to take this opportunity to watch a movie to change my mood a little bit... Is that not okay?"

Before he finished speaking, Ji Ye's expression gradually became subtle. Perhaps it was mostly confusion, and the rest of the emotion was hard to interpret. In short, the atmosphere became a little awkward.

"The [certain aspects] that Luo Jun just mentioned... couldn't that be what he was talking about? If the [friendship] relationship is recognized, he would invite me to go to the movies together; otherwise, because he doesn't want to be rejected, he won't mention the so-called [certain aspects]. Is that right?"

As Himeno spoke, he glanced at the movie poster hanging at the entrance.

"That should be it............"

Although his superficial intentions were seen through, fortunately the deeper reasons were not revealed.

However, Ji Ye seemed quite angry and even stamped his feet.

"Are you an idiot? If you just want to invite someone to go to the movies, why not just say it directly? Don't use such misleading words. You made me worry for a while."

"Sorry, I thought confirming the relationship was a must."

"That's true. You can't possibly suggest going to the movies with a stranger, right? And what I'm talking about now is Luo Jun's ambiguous expression."

"I will try to express myself more directly from now on, at least so as not to cause misunderstanding."

Although I don't know what kind of misunderstanding my previous statement will cause the other party to worry, I will first satisfy Ji Ye's inner needs and admit my mistake.

"Really............Is the movie Luojun was talking about the one that's about to be released?"

"That's right. Although tomorrow is the first day of the movie's release at the cinema, it's exam time now, so I think it will be easier to reserve a seat. The time after that may not be as suitable as tomorrow."

Our eyes turned to the latest movie information posters displayed at the entrance. The earliest show was at 8:30 in the morning, lasting nearly two hours, and running all day.

"There is nothing wrong with this proposal, but... is it really possible?"

I was confused by Ji Ye's sudden questioning, but she seemed to be quite concerned about this.

"Is it really okay to be friends with someone like me?"

"............Could it be that Ji Ye will bring bad luck to his friends? If so, please tell me as soon as possible, and I will leave you immediately."

"No, no, no, I'm talking about my personality. I might be annoying."

"I don't think that's a big deal. If that time really comes, just sit back and do nothing."

"............Although I don't want to see what Luo Jun just said, it seems to be the right answer without a doubt............Will it be troublesome for you to get along with me?"

"It's impossible to understand them together. Trouble and voluntary behavior are two clearly separate things. Come to think of it, why on earth would Himeno ask such a question......?"

"That's a lot of nonsense. I'm just wondering why Luo Jun didn't invite Shiratori and the others."

"I want to do that, but none of the three of them seem to be interested in movies. I tried to propose it, but was rejected mercilessly. It feels a bit strange to go to the movies alone. Ichinose has to host a study session tomorrow, and Kanzaki wants to help. So the only candidate left is Himeno."

"............Luo Jun seems to be very sure that my schedule is not arranged."

"Isn't that right? If the scheduled tutoring classes are cancelled, I'll be left with nothing to do."

"Didn't we agree to review separately?"

"That's something that happened later. It's a transition so I changed my mood, right?"

I tried my best to complicate Ji Ye's thoughts with all the twisted logic I could think of. Under the influence of an unknown force, Ji Ye did give me feedback after being troubled.

"............I am a little concerned about this movie. I wanted to wait and see if Ma Zi would take any action............Anyway, can you leave the reservation to Luo? I will transfer the required personal points to your account later."

"Please don't worry. It seems that the operation can be completed on the phone... Is the 7:30 show okay? I think that time is better."

I counted the number of scenes, using it as a time to complete the action. There was no introduction on the movie poster, but from the picture, it was a movie suitable for watching at night. It shouldn't be a horror movie, otherwise Ji Ye wouldn't have agreed so decisively.

"It's around nine after the end... It seems like a good choice."

"That's decided then."

"Rather than that, shouldn't we find a store and sit down to talk slowly? It's very cold outside."

"Sorry, I was so attracted by the movie poster that I didn't realize it."

At this point, the topic of the movie came to an end. During the ordering process at the restaurant, I handed over the ownership to Jiye. Although her expression was a little embarrassed, she couldn't complain after seeing that the screen of my phone had switched to [Online Seat Reservation].

I feel like my life is gradually moving in the direction of [real life].

As things stand now, how will people in society feel about this?

No, what’s more important is how to explain your current mood.

Do I have any expectations for my first time in a movie theater? Is it true that my only regret is that there are not many people?

You act for your own purpose.

and so--

I don't care at all.

Chapter 219: Still Alone as Always

There are all kinds of stores in the Keyaki shopping center. Most of them are stores for daily use like supermarkets, but there are also many stores that you only go to occasionally. The more representative ones are professional stores that solve sewer blockages and parts problems, and home delivery services that deliver food from convenience stores to dormitories. As for the rest, there are restaurants and entertainment venues with a large flow of people, such as the fast food chain where Himeno and I are now, KTV, movie theaters, arcades, etc., which play an important role in relaxing tense minds.

Even during this period when the special exams are coming up, or should be considered as such a special period, people's desire for a change of mood is unbearable. The final exams are next week, and if you want to relax, this is the only time to do so.

These things that are engraved in my past life seem to be different, but in the eyes of others they are a normal part of life, just like the closing time of all the shops on campus at 8 o'clock in the evening.

In fact, the most ideal way for one to be alone is that one is not aware of this, and the information obtained is only used to ensure one's own safety, and the fate of others and the direction of the class can be preserved as long as there is still value for use. Therefore, no one will agree, and naturally there will be no opposition.

However, the appearance of Ichinose made him change his mind. The other party's already [morbid] trust might be the only chance for him to get the answer. The price of peeping too much into fate is knowing nothing about the future self, and then the only thing he can perceive is himself.

No one would be able to easily accept their current identity, but I have been living in it since I was born, that is, I am the one who walked out of the [Dark Alley].

"............Although I wouldn't think of doing it when I'm alone in the dormitory, but it's a bit weird to order fried potatoes in a fast food chain, right............?"

By the time I had reserved my seat for the movie, Jiye had finished his meal. However, the fried potatoes that were first placed on the table made me stunned. Generally speaking, this should be a snack bar after dinner time, or a food used to fill hunger in a KTV box.

"You're so long-winded. It's true that I don't know how to order. I've already mentioned this to Luo Jun before. So, if you want to complain, just complain about why you handed the menu to me."

Ji Ye was scrolling through his phone without even looking up, while holding the drink that was delivered to him.

Although this is the truth, I don't intend to challenge Himeno in this regard. After all, I also don't know how to order, and usually I let Ichinose decide. If I get serious, my performance will only be worse than Himeno. No, to exaggerate, I might be entangled for dozens of minutes.

The reason is very simple. I have always been content with what I eat and drink. I don't pursue anything excessively. Even if this meal consists of junk food and carbonated drinks, I don't care.

Although I only thought so myself, I quietly and efficiently finished a meal to celebrate becoming friends, and the bill ended up being paid equally between the two of us.

Ji Ye has her own ideas, and as long as the situation is not a clear winner, she can speak out naturally. Of course, this also requires a certain amount of courage, and it also has a certain relationship with the person you are talking to. I think the actual situation is almost mature, so I decided to try to raise a certain question.