Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

"Ji Ye, I have something I want to ask you, is that okay?"

"Hmm? As long as it doesn't involve any critical issues and is beyond my ability, it should be fine, right? Anyway, we just had dinner."

I can probably understand the meaning of Ji Ye's last sentence. Due to physiological effects, most people will feel lazy after eating, which is equivalent to being weak and unable to move.

"What does Himeno think of Kanzaki?"

"Kanzaki-san............? I don't have a very good relationship with Kanzaki-san, and I don't know much about him. And I don't particularly like to get together with other people, let alone boys...Rather than asking me for answers to questions about Kanzaki-san, it's better for you to ask yourself. It seems that you two have a good relationship."

"Uh - I was just asking Himeno's opinion on Kanzaki, nothing else."

If the question I was thinking about really involved Kanzaki, I would never have the intention to ask others unless there was some kind of necessity. Among the students I know, Kanzaki is the one I know better. If the question was really like that, I wouldn't have worked so hard.

In fact, if there is a certain complicated interpersonal relationship between you and the other person, it will be difficult to speak, and you are also afraid.

The image of the dagger piercing ten centimeters deep into my abdomen is still crystal clear in my memory.

"You're asking this question, isn't there really something else going on?"

Although I don't know how to answer Jiye's question, at least I can't tell her the truth and my next plan. I was embarrassed about this, but fortunately Jiye didn't intend to pursue this aspect too much, and I was relieved at the same time. She said.

"Forget it, it doesn't matter what the situation is. But, is it my impression of Kanzaki-san...I thought he was handsome when I first saw him, giving people the feeling of a cool and smart handsome man. Maybe being an idol is unexpectedly suitable for him."

Himeno commented on Kanzaki based on her appearance, and most of it was true. But judging from her reaction, Himeno didn't seem to want to stop there. That was just what I thought.

"She has excellent grades. She's second only to Ichinose in small tests. Does she occasionally beat him? She seems to have good motor skills, too. Also, although she usually sounds calm and indifferent, she can also have a passionate side... I just heard this from another girl. I'm not sure if it's true, but this is the general impression I have."

"Hey~ Have the other girls in the class also talked about Kanzaki? This is the first time I've heard of it."

"That's for sure. Girls will talk about boys, and boys will definitely talk about girls... This is an eternal topic between boys and girls since elementary school."

That being said, it seemed that it was true. We also talked about girls' breasts at the beginning of the school year, and later we expressed our opinions to the girls in the class in private, and exchanged our fantasy romantic partners... In short, there was absolutely no contradiction within the class.

I unconsciously glanced at Ji Ye's chest. I see, her ability is only average among all the girls in the school, and coupled with her unmotivated look, it's no wonder that the boys rarely mentioned Ji Ye's name. I can be forgiven for not knowing her at first.

"I always feel like I'm thinking of something quite rude......"

"In fact, it would be easier to understand if we replace [disrespect] with [strength]."

I sincerely admitted my mistake, but Ji Ye didn't seem to understand what I meant.

"After all, Kanzaki-san is the deputy of Class Leader Ichinose, and his strength is quite obvious. But I don't know what he is good at and what he is not good at............"

"Hey, can I hear what the other girls in the class say about Kanzaki? It seems very interesting. Please don't mention her by name, or I'll be troubled."

"It's not impossible... Kanzaki-kun is unexpectedly popular among the girls in the class. I know that there are four or five girls who have a crush on him—"

"Wait. I was just asking other students about their opinions of Kanzaki. It shouldn't have escalated to the level of [love]. Anyway, is it really okay for me to know these almost secret things?"

At first, I felt a little strange about what Himeno said, and the following remarks made me sense a subtle atmosphere. If I let him continue to talk, I might know something incredible, and then I would have to decide whether to tell Kanzaki or not.

However, Ji Ye's response was totally unexpected. Maybe I knew it in my heart, but I just didn't want to accept it - there was a difference in my cognition with other students.

"It's not that secret. I didn't mention any names. Although I don't like to get together with other people, I still have to continue. How can I disclose a girl's privacy casually? Besides, this is also a comment, isn't it?"

"Well, it's probably going to be something like this... I think I understand."

"You seem to know nothing about such things... Anyway, let me continue. Just now... By the way, even I know that there are four or five girls in the class who have a crush on Kanzaki-san, and they hope to develop a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. But from what they said, it seems that Kanzaki has difficulty in developing a crush on girls whose emotions are easily fluctuating... Is that the case?"

Ji Ye continued to speak, and at the same time tilted his head to express his doubts to me.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what type of girl Kanzaki likes. But Kanzaki is not dating anyone at this stage, and he may not have such plans... probably."

"I see. I was just about to ask Luo this question."

"Really? So Himeno likes Kanzaki too?"

Except in certain situations, Ji Ye can basically keep her emotions calm at other times. Facing my sudden question, she did not panic, which is somewhat rare.

"I can't say I like her. To be honest, I'm just attracted to her looks and have a slight crush on her. Falling in love with someone is not something you can decide after just one look. Otherwise, all the couples wouldn't have to go through so much trouble. Luo knows this, right?"

I did not answer the question that Ji Ye asked me at the end. Instead, I just walked aimlessly on the way back to the first-year dormitory. After all, my idea of ​​love was too immature.

[Rakuchi is Ichinose Honami's boyfriend, and they like each other.]

They deliberately create misunderstandings and inadvertently spread rumors.

Because Fanmi's beauty is the most outstanding in this school, this rumor has spread throughout the school regardless of the grade, and even among the teachers, and Himeno is convinced of this.

However, even at this point, I and Hoba still did not receive any punishment for violating the "exceeding the proper relationship between high school boys and girls". Although there was a factual guarantee between me and Hoba, it was hard to understand why even the most basic investigation was not conducted. Or was it just this extent?

If it is really as I imagined, then it is not too much to say that Fan Bo and I will be a couple. Looking back, probing is the most direct action to prove it.

I want to know what kind of feelings I have towards everyone and everything, and I also want to cry out when I feel pain. Although the [divinity] that the devout worship of God will be lost, it is no longer of any use to me. As early as when the fire got out of control and I left the order of [Dark Alley].

——Everything has lost its meaning of existence.

After a dull day, we passed a section of flowers and plants and the dormitory came into view. We were now on the fountain side close to our destination.

I decided to say hello and goodbye in advance so that I could avoid the embarrassment of other students bumping into us in the elevator.

"Well, see you tomorrow after school."

"Like Luo himself said, we will definitely see each other in the classroom."

"Well, that's the thing, but it's hard for the two of us to talk to each other in class."

"That's true, and we can only be considered as acquaintances after school. But in this case, why don't we continue with the tutoring course tomorrow?"

"I just managed to escape from the after-school questions. Please switch to the homework for the day. Although those can be completed during the break............"

"The final exam is coming up soon, and you can't go wrong if you work hard. Since it can be completed during the break, why not add one more lesson? Anyway, the movie is at 7:30 tomorrow night, which is a long time before school is over in the afternoon."

"I see............"

I said some things that didn't need to be mentioned.

I was regretting what I said when I heard someone calling my name. It was Ji Ye.

"Wait, wait... Although we have been talking about this just now, did we agree to watch a movie together tomorrow night?!"

"That's right...anything wrong?"

I don’t know what Ji Ye suddenly thought of, but the other party’s surprised expression made me pay attention.

"This, seems to be a bit problematic... Captain Ichinose, is there anyone else with us?"

"No. I would like to invite him, but Ichinose's study session will only last until nine o'clock in the evening. Although there are movies during that time, it will definitely end after eleven o'clock. He has classes the day after tomorrow, so I can't disturb him. It's better to invite him after the study session. He might fall asleep during the movie."

"But, but what about tomorrow?!"

"............Is there any special day tomorrow? It's Tuesday, and Mr. Hoshinomiya didn't plan anything in advance."

I have a rough idea of ​​the months and dates of national holidays, but minor and international ones are a different story.

"............It seems that what Shiina-san said is right. When Luo thinks, he always thinks of some strange things. Since you didn't notice it, I don't need to care about it."

"What is this............"

He spoke inexplicably, then heaved a sigh of relief.

I would find it strange.

Although I didn't ask any further questions, I kept thinking about it from the moment I returned to the dormitory until I fell asleep.

——Is tomorrow special?

Chapter 220: The cracked traces pretend to walk gracefully

The sky in November was already dark even at 11pm. Many dark clouds were drifting feebly in the wind, blocking out the warm sunlight. It seemed that we could enjoy the sunset at pm.

It’s hard to understand the reason, and I feel that today’s class time was unexpectedly difficult.

Maybe it’s because I’m increasingly looking forward to the movie I’ve booked after school tonight.

Although Ji Ye was the only companion traveling with him, participating in an entertainment activity that he had never experienced before with friends for the first time still made his body feel excited from the inside out.

How should I put it? At the moment, my innocent, childlike state of mind doesn’t feel too bad.

As I was thinking this, I felt a heavy force on my right shoulder. It was Shiratori.

"I said, are you okay? Did anything happen to you?"

"Well, I feel pretty good about myself. I haven't encountered any bad things today. Also, probably because the final exams are approaching, the teachers of the main subjects haven't bothered me recently. I guess they don't want to add too heavy a burden on me. I have a lot of exciting things planned... Wait, why did Shiratori ask such a question?"

Just by going to the toilet together, the expression on Shiratori's face changed drastically. The previous sleepiness and the current worry, I think I was right.

"Why do you ask me such a question? Look at your own expression before you say such a thing. Don't you know how serious your expression is right now?!"

I see. That's why the other party became worried because I behaved differently than usual.

Was my expression really that serious? I had no clear idea of ​​this. Although there was a mirror outside the toilet, it was quite far away from me, and it was even closer to the classroom. It was too much to ask me to go back to the toilet.

I usually don't show my emotions and thoughts on my face, and I hope I can do this at will. However, occasional training in private cannot guarantee the standard of movement patterns. Even when I am chatting happily with friends, it may have a different effect.

The only way I could confirm this information was to touch and knead my cheeks, so I did so... The first feeling was softness, but other than that the muscles on my face were a little stiff and tense, but that was probably due to the cold weather. In other words, I was still the same as usual, and hadn't lost control or collapsed.

"It doesn't seem to matter... Was Shiratori kidding just now?"

"Does Luo think I'm the kind of person who's bored enough to make a joke like this? I'm definitely not!"

Shiratori pointed at himself firmly with his right index finger, frowning slightly, and it was obvious that he was not lying. So there was something wrong with his judgment, and this was the only reasonable explanation.

However, my silence seemed to be seen as a question by the other party, and then Shiratori's worry gradually turned into confusion, showing his willingness to make a deal. He crossed his arms and lightly pressed his chin, and the meaning of his contemplation was quite fascinating.

“…The result seems to be no different from before…? Ah, sorry, sorry, maybe I’ve been busy with my studies recently, so I’ve become a little sensitive.”

Shiratori, who was standing beside me, covered his forehead with his hands in pain and tried to calm himself down. Was he pretending to be so rude that I would give up on pursuing this issue? I didn't intend to do that.

"You should still pay attention to rest. If you answer so rashly during the exam, it will be bad. Maybe the difference in this competition will be just one or two points."

"The speculation about the final exam may turn out to be what Luo said... I should adjust my state of mind... How is Luo's situation? I remember Okabe mentioned to me that you were taken away by Himeno-san to do tutoring. Is that okay?"

"Himeno is a very good learner, and his teaching ability is surprisingly good. Also, I'm almost done here, and today is the last day. Let's agree to spend the rest of the time on self-review, and stick to it until the final exam so that we can relax a little."

"You're also finishing today, Okabe... so keep working hard. I hope the questions from Class B aren't as difficult as you thought, otherwise it'll be very troublesome."

"The level of our questions isn't bad, right? The combination of Ichinose and Kanzaki is the most reliable team I can imagine, not to mention Beppu who has excellent question-setting experience."

............It seems that there is another person who sets the questions, but I am not clear about his characteristics.

"That being said, you should never underestimate Sakayanagi from Class B."

I have fallen into the other party's trap before, so I can deeply understand what this sentence means... At least today I can't waste my good mood on such things.

The sound of my shoes slowly moving forward was mixed with the clear chirping of unknown birds and the rustling of branches and leaves in the wind. The pink flowers on the inner side of the evergreen bushes were not clear. The temperature today still did not stop its pace of decline.

Soon after returning to my seat, the bell rang, and all the students in our class A entered into intense study again. It was the same for both Ichinose and Kanzaki.

Ordinary people would not be able to understand the purpose of such actions, but they have their own goals to achieve.

That's right.

——After all, I have no reason not to take advantage of the deadline to change my mood.

........................

The bright school bell rang, and if you listened carefully, it sounded like the crackling of wood after a fire. After a short period of low and rippled noise, the teacher announced the end of school, and then the whole teaching floor was shaken by a vibration that was difficult to calm down for a while.

I quickly packed my things as usual, zipped up my cross-body bag, and was about to say goodbye and leave, but my eyes were involuntarily attracted by a beautiful scenery... No, it would be more appropriate to say that I was stopped by someone.

Although I really want to use the Mandarin expression "beyond the scope of humanity" to praise Honoki's beauty, she is still human in nature, and the use of words might only end up as an insult like "Ichinose is not human", which would then make me feel uncontrollably disappointed in myself.

Fan Bo tied her hair up, exposing her neck. Now she looked like a tired secretary of a company president. Her pink hair was as smooth as if it was combed with silk threads. Now if the window was opened and the wind blew, the pink hair fluttering in the wind exuded a mysterious beauty. (Note: "幽" means reserved, introverted, subtle, vague, and full of seductive charm.)

I saw the soft hair and the fingers that parted it and put it behind my ear, and it felt like something was about to break. Unconsciously, everything came into my sight. I couldn't help but feel a surge in my heart. I thought that if we met again, it would not be the same feeling.

"Are you going to attend Xiaoxue's study session today as well?"

Fan Bo looked at my luggage, and then looked me in the eyes, as if there was some kind of feeling that was transmitted through his eyes, but with my child-like ability, it was difficult for me to understand such a distance between heaven and man. The more I tolerate and protect him, the more gentle and careful he will become. Now I am still at this stage, so I can only watch time pass by blankly............

"Well, after today's end, the relevant courses will graduate."

I exchanged glances with Fan Bo, and everything was so ordinary, which was not enough to explain the confusion in my heart. However, it would be great if I could say it so easily, but now I can't even figure out what the so-called problem is.

With my intuition, I can occasionally see through false lies and hidden truths, but it is only a vague feeling, not as clear and obvious as understanding.

"Around seven o'clock in the evening, Luo Jun will probably return to his dormitory room... I have something I want to hand over to Luo Jun, is that convenient?"

Ichinose is asking for my opinion. Generally speaking, handing the key card to someone means you are promising that they can disturb you at any time, but even so she is still hesitant... This explanation is hard to make her believe, so Honoki wants to know my location.

"............If it was before, I would stay in the dormitory room. However, tonight is a little special. After all, it is the last tutoring session, so it may be a little late."

"Today is different... Can I ask what time Luo-jun will be back in the dormitory?"

"I'm not too sure. If nothing goes wrong and I return to the dormitory right after the end, I'll probably be a little later than Ichinose, around 9:30 pm."