Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

Just like before, I will be eager to meet Luo Jun as I am now.

But why?

This feeling is very painful, and the surface emotion makes people want to kill the impulse of this relationship, and even understand themselves.

I know I can't do this.

The feeling of love prompted me to possess Luo Jun.

"I want that, too......"

Able to be alone with Luo Jun at will.

With such determination

——I backed off.

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After waking up, the thoughts from the dream still lingered in my mind and took a long time to go away.

After a good sleep, I am still intoxicated in this real world.

The mind feels abnormally dizzy.

This is the first thing I realized after waking up. Maybe I am too tired because of my busy studies recently............

I poured the boiled water into the cup and mixed it with the mineral water I bought from the convenience store in a daze.

My throat is also a little dry and sore.

Maybe I have a cold...

I opened the cupboard that served as a medicine cabinet and found that some time ago, because I was afraid that Luo Jun's health would change due to the cold weather, I sent some pills just in case, and the cold medicine was among them.

"......"

Luo Jun is probably still taking tutoring classes with Xiao Xue now, so we can’t disturb her.

I took deep, deep breaths, as if that would relieve the effects of my condition. I thought it would be better, but my body was carrying several heavy and delayed pressures.

I try to ignore these [heavy objects].

I also don’t want to admit the fact that I’m feeling uncomfortable.

I am tied up, I am not that kind of creature.

The feeling of being bound by chains was pulling at me, and I wanted to get rid of the turmoil in my heart as soon as possible.

"I am still very strange... Next, should I go to the pharmacy? Or should I just hold on for today..."

If it were more convenient, he could actually go to Luo Jun's room and get some back. But those should be left for Luo Jun, and such an action might even spread the disease.

It can’t affect everyone.

"Ding-ding-"

The daily reminder set on my phone rang, and before I knew it, it was time.

I quickly pressed the [Stop Alarm] button while confirming the date.

November 11nd is only six days away from Luo Jun’s birthday.

The birthday present has not been decided yet, and the [Attack] test questions have not been completed yet............

The weight was compounded by the fatigue that was entangled in my body, and I became troubled.

I felt like I had almost reached my limit of continuing to wait in the room.

It's no longer possible to keep my emotions bottled up in my heart.

Just when I was about to lose my composure and decide to go out, Xiao Mazi brought me some cold medicine and antipyretic medicine.

Although this matter was very strange, my restless mood inexplicably calmed down.

I can move forward again, maybe.

1

This was obviously the last study session, so I should be more serious than ever before. However, the reality was that I was restless and made several slips of the tongue during the lecture.

After a [painful] effort, it was 7pm and we decided to go to the Beech Shopping Centre to have dinner and take a rest.

The delay in dinner was all due to my own mistake.

Then, we slowly walked towards the Beech Shopping Center amidst the crowded crowd.

............

As expected, I am still upset about Luo Jun going to the movies with Ji Ye.

I am Luo Jun's friend, a friend, a friend, I shouldn't have some strange thoughts.

They just wanted to relax a little.

So, I have no problem with that. I have no problem with that.

Believing this, I picked up the birthday gift I was going to give to Luo Jun tonight.

This is a return gift and also a token of my appreciation.

Luo Jun doesn't seem to want to celebrate, but I have to at least send him my blessings.

If it's a surprise, will Luo Jun be happy?

Looking back, I haven't seen Luo Jun smile from the heart since the start of the school year, but I still like him very much even if he has a poker face.

The little pockmarked boy ran happily in front, and everyone followed him happily, feeling a little more relaxed.

Then, my mental state changed.

"Xiaoxue! Luojun!"

Xiao Mazi suddenly called out loudly, and he couldn't calm down.

Due to Xiao Mazi's interference, my mind was filled with the thought of hiding, but I subconsciously walked out of the corner and could no longer hide my body.

My eyes met Luo Jun's. In panic, I put the gift box behind me and waved my hands around.

"Ah. Luo, Luo Jun is not as lazy as Xiao Mazi imagined. Luo Jun is still very reliable when help is needed, although he is sometimes a little............"

Abnormal sweating of palms and rapid heartbeat.

I became uncomfortable again.

This was not caused by any sudden illness, but was caused by two distinct things.

The birthday present thing, and Himeno-san’s presence…

"Really? It's not good to pamper someone too much. It will be terrible if you can't change it in the future."

"Ahaha, it shouldn't matter. After all, Luo Jun will also act for what he wants, so, it should be fine. I trust him too."

With thoughts like these, words become incomprehensible and my legs begin to feel heavy.

Although I don't know what I'm thinking, Ji Ye-san and Luo Jun get along quite well.

This fact can be confirmed.

It should be a good thing that my friend has become friends with another friend of his, but for some reason, I feel restless and even unable to calm down deep down.

At the end of November, which was so unbearable, the street scenery was arranged in an orderly manner as usual.

I suddenly lack the power to think calmly, the power to care for others, and the power to use others' shoulders to help share some of the pain.

In fact, I don’t have such power.

Those past memories pierce my heart like thorns. Whenever I think of the past, my heart feels like it is being stabbed by needles.

I don't know if I'm avoiding it or I'm nervous, but I can't think about anything else besides this.

"Well, we should set off now!"

I twisted the little pockmarked boy's arm and could only laugh off the blame afterwards.

2

[First-year class A, the possibility that Ichinose Honami sometimes uses unfair means to collect points - Ryuen Sho]

The copy paper was folded into quarters and placed in the mailboxes of all first-year students.

"Ichinose, can you prove it?"

Because of the commotion, I was forced to leave Luojun's dormitory, and Longyuan asked while holding the letter.

"No matter what I say here, I guess Ryuuen-kun won't believe it, right?"

I was surprisingly calm, but I knew I was feeling more nervous and exhausted.

"Yes. After all, it is up to the school to judge whether it is improper or not."

"That's true. Everyone, I'm sorry, I seem to have received strange suspicions. But don't worry, I will report to the teacher tomorrow and prove that these are all misunderstandings of Ryuuen-kun."

"Ichinose, how are you going to prove it to me?"

"Tell the school the details. How many points I have and how to earn them. Are you satisfied?"

"Report it to the school? Before that, can't we explain it here?"

"If I just explain it here, will you believe me, Ryuuen-kun?"

"I don't think you'll believe it. For me, opening my mouth and talking nonsense is as easy as exhaling air."

"So. If we report it to the school as a witness, there will be no room for impropriety."

"Haha. I see. That makes sense."

"But yeah. So-called humans are liars and dirty creatures. You're probably going to come up with a plan to hide it now, right?"

Even so, Ryuen-san still argued with me stiffly.

I don't know what he wants to do.

How did Ryuen get the unexpected news about the points?

............In short, it definitely won’t be Luo Jun.

"What do I have to do to make you believe it?"

"First, disclose the points you have here. Then explain how you obtained them. Then report the same explanation to the school tomorrow. This way, the students who are skeptical of you will be able to accept it."

"I cannot agree to this, Ryuuen-kun."

"So you admit that you used unfair means?"

"No. It's precisely because I didn't use any unfair means to gain points that I can't reveal my hand. After all, how many personal points you have will greatly affect future strategies."

"If I explain this to the school tomorrow, I will probably be investigated. If it is proven that I used unfair means, then everything will be made public regardless of whether I want to hide it or not, right?"

"There's no guarantee that you'll report to the school tomorrow, right?"

"Then you can ask Ryuuen-kun to tell him. Just like what is written in this letter."

"Really? Haha, it seems you are quite confident."

"Then I'll look forward to tomorrow."

Ryuen-san walked into the elevator with his usual fearless smile and left the lobby.

Why?

I couldn't help but say this in my mind.

However, I couldn't explain why.

Before I knew it, dark clouds were rolling in the night sky, and lightning flashed from time to time. When I looked over, the dark clouds had spread out, covering the stars and even swallowing up the moon.

After comforting everyone, I returned to my dormitory.

However, until eleven o'clock in the evening, there was no news from Luo Jun.

Although I love to sleep, I have no desire to sleep tonight.

That night, I couldn't fall asleep like that.

I couldn't sleep at all.

Even if I close my eyes, Luo Jun's figure will continue to appear.