Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

I exhaled heavily. I was just wiping my mouth, but it felt like the boundary between heaven and hell. I am such a sinful man.

I fixed my eyes on the handkerchief, which was stained with her saliva.

What should I do with this handkerchief? Should I keep it, or smell it?

No, this is not something a normal man should do. And what if Ichinose suddenly wakes up at this time? He will definitely die!

After a series of thoughts, I gave up the idea and cleared my mind.

I had already wiped the stains from the corners of my mouth, but how could I explain the wet marks on my clothes? I looked at the dull burgundy area.

I should be able to kill it before reaching the destination, if there is no follow-up...

I closed my eyes quietly.

About twenty minutes later we arrived at our destination. Just as I expected, the wet marks had dried up because the car was slightly dry and warm.

I woke up Ichinose.

"Well, are we there yet?" Ichinose asked confusedly, rubbing his eyes.

"Yes, we should get off the bus."

From the looks of it, she didn't seem to know that she fell asleep on my shoulder, which was just as well.

"Sorry to bother you to wake me up."

"That's what I should do. After all, you asked me to remind you before you went to bed. But it seems that you didn't sleep well last night."

"Well, even now I still want to sleep for a while."

As we talked, Ichinose and I followed the high school students in front of us and got off the bus.

Waiting for me there was a door made of natural rocks.

"Hmm~ I feel like I haven't had such a comfortable sleep in a long time." Ichinose stretched, exposing her figure, and I quickly looked away.

"Is Luo's shoulder okay?"

"Well, why do you ask?" I asked, pretending to be confused.

"Because I think I fell asleep leaning on Luo's shoulder." She said embarrassedly.

"Oh, you knew it." Was he discovered?

"Well, I realized this when I woke up. Sorry."

"I don't care too much, my shoulder is fine." I said, moving my left shoulder. This statement might be seen as a man showing off, but I really don't feel any pain.

"Sorry." She said with a smile.

I think anyone who sees this expression will forgive her.

"Then let's go."

I silently followed her vigorous pace. Although my steps were not fast, I felt mentally exhausted.

"Come to think of it, Luo smells really good."

"Does it smell good? This is the first time I've heard such an evaluation." I replied with some surprise.

"Is not it?"

"No, in fact, I had the opportunity to take the bus a few times before, and I remember it very clearly because I was criticized very badly. Once, a mother-in-law said to me, 'Why do you smell like shoe polish?' There were other comments that were not very good in short." I denied it.

This is not the only example. Anyone who smells my scent will feel disgusted, except for that insane doctor.

"The smell of shoe polish? That's too much. It's a scent of grass and trees, and it feels soothing... Did you use some kind of essential oil?"

"I took a shower before I went out."

"That's the problem with the bath gel."

"Maybe." I nodded without answering the question directly.

In fact, the smell on my body has nothing to do with the shower gel. Maybe there is a little connection, but it is more due to the medicinal bath. The long-term medicinal bath has made my body full of the smell of plants and trees, and over time it has formed a characteristic that remains on my body. Even with the passage of time, this smell has not weakened at all, which makes me very distressed.

This is not a characteristic possessed by an ordinary person at all.

Ichinose and I walked through the gate side by side, and a person who was checking personal belongings appeared in front of us with an electronic detector in his hand.

As expected, there will still be a prohibited items inspection process.

I held my arms open for the scan, then opened my messenger bag to show another inspector. I had taped two tiny objects under the zipper, so I wasn't worried about him finding anything.

After finishing, I took the first step in campus life. The surrounding greenery was well done, and the air was full of freshness. I closed my eyes and opened my mouth to take a deep breath. In an instant, I felt my whole body filled with vitality.

It’s still spring, the temperature is just right, and my body is radiating vitality from the inside out.

So, next,

Where is the classroom?

I took a macro view of the huge college.

Chapter 4: The Power of Acceptance

There are not many secrets in this world that cannot be told, even for those who have repeatedly tried to commit suicide.

They just despair of life.

Despair in life is a very common manifestation, which can be explained through the story of Sisyphus. Most people should have heard of his legend, but considering that people cannot be generalized, I intend to explain it here.

Sisyphus is a figure in Greek mythology, the founder and king of Corinth. He even kidnapped the god of death at one point, making death disappear in the world. But his actions offended the gods, so he was asked to push a huge rock to the top of a mountain. However, each time, the rock kept rolling back to the bottom of the mountain due to its own gravity. No matter how many times Sisyphus repeated this, he could not meet the gods' requirements.

In the end, even the resourceful Sisyphus was helpless and eventually consumed his life in day-to-day depression and entanglement.

The most terrible thing is that you try your best but end up failing. You end up with nothing. The ineffective and disappointing work lasts for years and months, and there is no end. You are busy and rush through life, and when you look back, you suddenly find that you are like Sisyphus, with nothing.

So there is despair of life and the path to death.

I think this approach is absolutely correct. If I have to say something regrettable, it is that I didn’t think of this in advance. Well, at least that’s what I think now.

As I just said, this is just an appearance, so we will wonder what the essence is?

To put it in one word - 'acceptance'.

To put it in one sentence, it means - 'allow everything to happen'.

This is similar to "everything is false, everything is permitted". The reason why people today are desperate is because they are not accepted.

When Sisyphus pushed the stone to the top of the mountain, the stone was not accepted by nature, and his behavior was not recognized, so he failed.

[When we watch the sunset, we don’t force it to appear according to our own wishes. ]

This sentence talks about the definition of the word "acceptance".

When we watch the sunset, we will not force or command the sunset scene, and after seeing the sunset, we will think, "Ah, so the sunset is like this." At this time, the rationality of the existence of the sunset is forcibly "accepted" by us, and the sunset exists.

But such a simple thing is extremely difficult in our human society. It's not because of anything else, but because - 'others are hell'.

However, the example I gave is different from Sartre's "Hell is Others". What I am talking about is the existence of a worldview. When you build your own world, there are only three results if you mistakenly enter the world of others.

One is that your world and his world become compatible in a certain way and merge into one world that can coexist; the other is that your world completely defeats his world, leading to his destruction; the last one is your own defeat.

It doesn’t matter whether you can achieve nirvana from your fall or not. You will undoubtedly become an outcast in this or that world, that is, not accepted.

People are born alone, but have to rely on groups.

This is a rather contradictory point.

But in the end, no matter how much you think about this problem, there are no surprises (of course, if you are particularly enthusiastic about this world, please don't take what I say into account), because from a philosophical point of view, the universe has no meaning, it's just that some things happened. Human beings are just an objective existence in the world, and this existence is no different from other things. And the so-called meaning we talk about is actually given by ourselves.

So it’s better to have a grand liberation.

Well, that's about the idea.

I shook my head, throwing all those complicated thoughts into space and letting the scorching sun burn them to my heart's content.

"Hmm, what's wrong?" Ichinose asked worriedly, noticing my strange behavior.

"I just felt a little bored."

Ichinose nodded in understanding, "It's true that the bus is stuffy."

I just wanted to think about how to integrate into a class, why did I have to think about so many things? After all, isn't it easy to build interpersonal relationships? Why do I have to think about these issues?

I followed Ichinose into the classroom. The classroom was very empty, with only three or four people scattered around. There were a total of 40 desks, each with a nameplate. I looked around and sat down on the seat with my nameplate.

The last row is by the window, which is a good position. The sun shines in obliquely, which makes me feel lazy. This made me firm my heart, which was originally wavering between escapism and energy conservation.

It's just laziness, no, it's energy conservation.

After I strengthened my resolve and put down my messenger bag, Ichinose came into my sight.

"What a coincidence! I didn't expect it to be the front and back tables."

"Ah, yes."

What a nasty coincidence! Energy conservation will be greatly restricted.

I sat in my seat carelessly. Because there were too few people, most students sat in their seats, looking at school materials or daydreaming. I didn't seem to bring anything with me. What should I do during this time? As for my philosophy, I should sleep or daydream.

Just as I was thinking about my next move, Ichinose packed up his things and spoke to me.

"Aren't you going to get to know the other students?"

"Don't worry, there are so few people around."

"That's right. Let's go and say hello when there are more people around."

Temporarily escaped a disaster...

But do I really need to take the initiative? Although it might be easier to make friends under Ichinose's leadership, it turns out that being quiet is more suitable for me.

When I was in a state of distress, contemplation and boredom, I decided to escape by sleeping.

Although it is often said that 'escape is shameful', it is understandable that it can be passed down as a method.

And so – Ichinose called me without even noticing.

All the students in the classroom have arrived, and a beautiful woman in light pink casual clothes is standing on the podium.

"........Can you tell me what's going on now?"

While everyone was returning to their seats, I asked Ichinose.

"I'm sorry, I saw that you were asleep, so I didn't have the heart to wake you up and didn't let you meet the other people in the class."

I fell asleep accidentally.

"I don't care about that." I shook my head.

"Anyway, it should be a teacher. Let's go back to our seats and announce something."

Just after Ichinose finished speaking, the teacher on the stage continued.

"Hello~ freshmen, I am the homeroom teacher of Class B. My name is Hoshinomiya Chie. I am usually responsible for teaching mathematics. This school does not change classes every academic year. Therefore, in the three years before graduation, I will be your homeroom teacher and study with you. Thank you for your guidance." Teacher Hoshinomiya showed a vibrant smile, which was mixed with a faint smell of alcohol.

"The entrance ceremony will be held in the gymnasium in an hour. Before that, I will send you information about the special rules of this school. Although this was also given to you during the previous admissions orientation."

Orientation... Did I miss a step? Damn, he didn't even mention it.

I quietly watched as the information was passed down from the students in front of me. Then I also got a "magazine" with a concept map of the entire school on the cover.

Tokyo Metropolitan Koukou Ikusei High School

99% are able to work in their desired jobs and have the latest equipment.

From the overall appearance, it is more appropriate to call it an artificial island city than a school. In addition to the school, this institution also includes facilities such as karaoke, cinemas, cafes, clothing stores, etc. It is not an exaggeration to call it a small commercial district. As for the land, according to the introduction, it is at least 600,000 square meters.

In addition, this school has another special feature, which is the introduction of the S system.

The function of the S system is still unclear, but it ends with a simple statement of "competition mechanism evaluation system". This is very meaningful.

"What we are issuing to each of you is your student ID card, which is also your mobile phone. I don't need to explain the functions of the student ID card. You can use the student ID card to socialize, go shopping, consume entertainment facilities, etc."

"Each person only has one copy. If you lose it, you will spend extra points to get a replacement."

"Did everyone get it?" Teacher Hoshinomiya looked around the class and continued speaking after confirming that everything was correct.

"In this school, your daily living expenses are all covered by the school. However, this does not mean that you can take anything you want in the school. It means that the school will transfer money to your account every month."

"Now, please check your accounts. Each of you should have been fairly allocated 100,000 points. If the numbers don't match, please tell the teacher immediately."