What's wrong with me?

What's wrong with me? Author: Canglan de Canglan

Summary:

Note: All the heroines in this book have no blood relationship with the hero.

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Qi Xia slapped something on the table and asked gloomily:

"who?"

It was a brand new hatchet.

Jiang Xinyao was startled and said timidly: "Xiao Xia, you know me well. If I feel bad, I will only hurt myself. How could I do such a thing to Xiao Xia?"

Tang Wanxia was also stunned for a moment, but then she replied: "Xiaoxia, you know your aunt. Although your aunt wants to dye Xiaoxia with her own colors, I will never do such a thing to Xiaoxia."

Qi Xia looked at Su Yueran again, only to see his girlfriend wink at him and smile coquettishly: "Xiao Xia, you know me well. I would not bother to use such things. I will only let everyone leave Xiao Xia and let Xiao Xia rely on me alone."

Qi Xia frowned deeply and sighed

"I heard it, you all have special skills, you are all yanderes and you all want to kill me, right? What's so good about me that makes you so obsessed with me?

[Yandere warning]

Chapter 1: Chronic Illness

"I'm sorry, let's just live separately for a while... let's both calm down."

It was snowing outside the door. This was the first snow since the beginning of winter. Qi Xia, who was standing at the door with a suitcase, blew on his hands gently and spoke hesitantly to the girl in front of him.

The snowflakes fell on the girl's black hair and slowly melted. The biting cold wind blew in through the corridor, making her delicate body shiver in this cold winter day.

The girl lowered her head, her tall figure wrapped in heavy winter clothes, and her long bangs blocked her face, making Qi Xia unable to see her expression at the moment.

Finally, she stretched out her palm to catch a snowflake, watching it slowly melt into pure water droplets in her palm. Then she nodded gently to Qi Xia who was hesitant and didn't know what to say.

"Well, I understand. If this is what you think, then let's... just calm down for a while."

Qi Xia didn't say anything else and left with his suitcase. The last thing that caught his eye was the girl's delicate and beautiful face, her beautiful smile that made people intoxicated, and her deep eyes that were slightly worried.

They separated just like that. After dating for several years, this was the first time that Qi Xia was separated from her for such a long time, on the day of the first snow that many people had longed for.

She is a very good girl, well-behaved, cute and beautiful. She is such an excellent girl that anyone would say she would be a good wife and a good partner.

Her excellence needs no words. She is so outstanding that she is always admired by the opposite sex. She is so outstanding that the certificates and trophies she has won almost fill up the huge cupboard in the living room. She is so outstanding that even though she has only graduated for two years, she has already become a project manager in the multinational company where she works. She is so outstanding that Qi Xia feels inferior when she is around her.

He had known her since his freshman year in college. He still remembered that he was the one who took the initiative to pursue her. After several unexpected encounters, her excellence and beauty attracted him all the time.

He likes her.

But the girl has never lacked suitors, and he is just a small and insignificant one among them.

But after all kinds of entanglements and hardships, he and she finally succeeded in being together. Even a few months ago, he and she successfully got engaged, and the wedding date was set for a month later.

He was undoubtedly lucky, because he defeated thousands of troops and successfully walked with her. However, he was also undoubtedly unfortunate, because compared with his ordinariness and mediocreness, she was too outstanding, like a fairy descended from the sky, releasing her radiance all the time.

Although he and she both attended the same university, the destination that he had worked so hard to reach seemed like just an insignificant step for the girl, which she could easily step over - the gap between him and her was so huge.

Some people are born with brilliant talents. He worked hard to graduate from school, and then just worked as an unknown clerk in a small company. Compared with the setbacks he encountered at work after graduation, she climbed to a position that he could only look up to within just two years.

Her salary was so generous that it was more than enough to support two people and the family, and she even had some money left over to buy the high-end apartment in the city center where they had been living. Her colleagues in the company also took great care of her - the gap between them was beyond words.

But she still loved him deeply, even if there were still many things to be done in the company, when the time came, she would resolutely return home to help him prepare a sumptuous dinner after he had wasted the whole day outside, and then have a delicious dinner together, even if she had to go to work the next morning and she would be busy for a long time to finish the backlog of affairs.

She had never spent a night out, and apart from him, she had never had any close friends of the opposite sex in her social circle.

She is gentle and considerate. Since we got together, she has taken care of me meticulously. When I encounter setbacks, no matter how busy she is, she will comfort me attentively and considerately, even this time...

Sitting in a dark and small rental house, Qi Xia silently held his mobile phone and looked at the phone screen, which was the only source of light in the dark room.

He and she had been separated for almost a month. Since that day, he seemed to be escaping from something and fled to this small rental house far away from her and her high-end apartment.

Displayed on the phone were chat messages between him and her. Even though they had separated, she was still worried about him these days, perhaps worried about whether he could take care of himself after leaving her. She also transferred several sums of money to him, each of which was much higher than his salary.

Qi Xia staggered to his feet from the foot of the bed, holding the empty bottle of wine. He had a poor drinking habit and rarely drank alcohol under normal circumstances, but now, only sufficient alcohol could numb his nerves.

His head ached slightly, and he looked up through the narrow window of the rental house at the sky outside where heavy snow was falling.

Just half an hour ago, he sent her that message, the message that was enough to completely end their relationship. His head hurt so much that he almost fainted in the next second.

How did all this happen? And why? Qi Xia couldn't explain it clearly. Maybe it was because of the pressure of life, maybe it was because of the gap between him and her, or maybe it was because he and she were drifting apart. He couldn't explain it clearly, because it seemed to be all of these reasons.

Of course he loved her, just as she loved him, but over the past few years, the love between them had become more and more like a burden, pressing on him and making him breathless.

She was a project manager for a large company, and he had the opportunity to visit the company where she worked.

It is a very strong and wealthy company. The lady at the front desk told me that their company was listed on the Fortune 100 list a long time ago.

This was indeed the case. Not to mention the workplace which was much more luxurious and cleaner than where he worked, even the meals in their company cafeteria were so sumptuous that he had rarely seen them before.

On her birthday, many people would give her gifts. Compared to the cheap little gadgets that he had to buy for her by racking his brains to scrape out a little salary, the gifts her colleagues gave her were luxury items that he had never heard of or seen before, and the prices were so high that he couldn't even imagine.

Even though she always treasured the things he gave her as if they were treasures, Qi Xia knew that he and she were getting further and further apart, so far that they seemed like people from two different worlds.

He didn't understand the daily life and life she was exposed to. After returning home, they had less and less things to talk about. He and she were like two parallel lines that did not overlap. No matter how close they were, they would never intersect.

Although their life was still harmonious, compared to the immaturity and shyness she had experienced in school, she was even more gentle and virtuous than before.

However, all these barriers have not disappeared. As life goes on, all the deep-seated problems are accumulated there, waiting to erupt one day...

Chapter 2 End

No matter how carefully two people cherish their relationship, the growing hidden disease in the relationship will eventually erupt.

The trigger for all this was that one day a few months ago, he received a message from his mother, in which his mother told him that his aunt had passed away.

Qi Xia still remembers that he was working in the company at that time. He was stunned when he received the news, because for Qi Xia, apart from his mother and girlfriend, his aunt was the closest person to him in the world.

He has lived with his aunt since he was a child, because his aunt lives in the city where he grew up, which is closer to the school he attends. So he has lived in his aunt's house from elementary school until he graduated from high school, and his aunt has taken care of him for so many years.

If you ask Qi Xia who his favorite person in the world is, Qi Xia will definitely answer without hesitation that apart from his mother, the person closest to him in the world is his aunt, and even his current girlfriend has to come second.

My aunt is only six years older than Qi Xia. When Qi Xia was still in junior high school, my aunt was already famous in the neighborhood. Not only because my aunt is a well-known beauty, but also because she is smart and lively. In Qi Xia's words, my aunt is one of the most beautiful women he has ever seen in his life, like Yue Ran, second only to my mother, because my mother is outside.

His aunt has loved him since he was a child. Whenever there is something delicious or fun, the first person she thinks of is Qi Xia. He still remembers that when he just entered high school, one night, he and his classmates played outside all night and forgot to tell his aunt.

I later learned that my aunt had been looking for me outside all night and was so anxious that she almost cried. When I got home and saw my aunt who had dark circles under her eyes after staying up all night, the first thing she did was not to scold me, but to anxiously ask me if I had encountered any problems outside and whether I should catch up on some sleep.

Anyway, from a long, long time ago, Qi Xia regarded his aunt as the closest person to him in the world, just like his mother. Since then, he has developed the habit of never going out at night and not letting his aunt worry about him.

Not only is my aunt very beautiful, she is the most beautiful person of the opposite sex Qi Xia has ever seen, and her heart is also very beautiful.

My aunt graduated with excellent grades when she was in college. It is said that she received an offer from a large company at that time. They also promised that she would become a department manager if she worked for a few years.

But later on, for some unknown reason, my aunt did not go. Instead, she opened an ancient dance studio near her home and taught others how to dance on weekdays. Although she could make a living there, it was undoubtedly much worse than the previous options.

There is also my aunt's cooking skills. In Qi Xia's memory, my aunt's dexterous hands seemed to have magic. Even the most ordinary ingredients would become delicious dishes with good color, aroma and taste in my aunt's hands.

Even after graduation, her cooking skills were still not bad, but what Qi Xia missed most was the "taste of her aunt" made by her aunt.

If there was anything that would bother Qi Xia about living in her aunt's house, it would probably be that there were always some distant relatives who would appear out of nowhere and ask her aunt to introduce her to someone.

From these words, we can tell that my aunt has never found a boyfriend. Although the men who have pursued her can fill a train, including many outstanding and wealthy men, my aunt has never found anyone she likes.

Of course, these aunts and uncles who come to visit whenever they have nothing to do are often brushed off by the aunt's clever rhetoric, but to Qi Xia they are very annoying.

Of course, he didn't want his aunt to be single forever, but... he couldn't help but wonder, if his aunt really had a boyfriend one day, would she still love him as much as before.

He also asked his aunt indirectly why she didn't find a boyfriend, but every time she answered, she looked at him, blinked, and said to him with a smile, "With a little burden like you, how can I have the energy to find a boyfriend? Wait until you graduate successfully, find a job, and become a successful person."

However, he never had the chance to see such a day.

The death of the aunt was undoubtedly a bolt from the blue for Qi Xia. My mother said that the aunt did not want to be molested and jumped to her death. The perpetrator was the owner of a pancake shop near the aunt's home. He found out that the aunt lived alone, so he became malicious and then...

Qi Xia was almost mad with rage at that time. After knowing the truth, he picked up a knife and wanted to settle the score with that bastard. Unfortunately, that bastard was one step faster and was caught first, so he escaped.

But the death of his aunt was undoubtedly a huge blow to Qi Xia. He had been in a daze since that day on. Because he always made mistakes at work, it wasn't long before he was fired from the company he previously worked for. Not to mention, after that, he met his girlfriend's best friend from high school and college while he was frustrated.

"If I were you, I would leave her because you are just wasting her time by staying with her."

Qi Xia clearly remembered what she had said to him in the coffee shop that day, and what was even more terrifying was that he surprisingly agreed with what she said.

Compared to his girlfriend, he was indeed a loser. He had tried his best but was just a small clerk who was ignored by everyone. In the end, he even lost his job and became an unemployed vagrant.

All his classmates in college were very successful, but he was the only one who was still in a daze. He clearly wanted to maintain a good social environment, but he became alone unknowingly. Not only did he basically stop interacting with his college classmates, but even when he was in the company before, he was somewhat excluded by others.

He was a loser, and he used to hate his best friend, but now he was very grateful to her because she scolded him in time and prevented him from continuing to delay her life.

He had wanted to stay with her till the end, to see all the beautiful sights and prosperity in this world, but unfortunately he gave up this pledge with his own hands. He understood that he was not worthy of her.

Thinking about his miserable second half of life, and her beautiful and lovely smile, he separated from her on that day a month ago. Now, a month later, he understood even more clearly that it was not him who had been chasing after her, but she who had been accommodating him, whether in terms of love or life.

If you really love someone, give her the best.

Qi Xia also wanted to give her the best, but he couldn't do it. Instead of continuing to waste her life which should have been much better, he might as well stay away from her, just like his useless identity, hiding in a dark corner and watching her silently.

He touched his increasingly painful forehead and put down his phone. The feeling of a hangover was really uncomfortable.

He finally sent the message he had been editing for a long time, and this also marked the end of this relationship that had lasted for several years.

What is she doing now? Will she be better off without him? How will she respond to him? Will she angrily scold him or just accept it calmly? He guessed and couldn't help laughing.

I waited for a long time, but there was still no reply on my phone which was running low on battery.

Chapter 3 Goodbye

The heavy snow outside the window turned into sleet at some point. Qi Xia sat dejectedly on the edge of the bed, silently waiting for her reply.

But one minute passed, two minutes passed, and one hour passed, but Qi Xia still didn't hear the special ringtone he set for her.

He wondered if she was at work and didn't notice the message he sent her, or if she understood the gap between them and didn't intend to pay attention to him anymore, but Qi Xia was indeed relieved.

He knew what kind of person she was. Although she looked weak, she was more stubborn and determined than anyone else in her heart.

Once she has made up her mind about something, she will not give up even if she hits her head against a wall and gets broken and bloody. He is really afraid that the message he sends her will hurt her, even though he has tried his best to express it in the most tactful way.

He had previously wondered if she would angrily question him after receiving the text message, or cry and ask him the reason...

He was really afraid to see her expression like that, because seeing her like that, he might become soft-hearted, and the determination he had made with great difficulty would disappear into thin air.

Fortunately, this did not happen. Usually, when he sent her a message, she would reply within a few seconds no matter how busy she was. And now that he hadn't sent her a message for such a long time, maybe she had figured it out. Staying with him would only delay her life, which should have been better.

Qi Xia rubbed his eyebrows and sighed deeply. He felt that his body no longer belonged to him, as if his soul had left his body. The only thing that kept reminding him was the pain in his mind and the exhaustion from not sleeping for a night that kept reminding him that his miserable life was still going on.

He had severed the relationship he cherished with his own hands. It would be a lie to say that he didn't feel sad. He had waited for so long without any reply from the other party. It was impossible for him to say that he didn't feel entangled. He picked up the half-finished can of beer on the table and took another big gulp. Feeling the cold liquid sliding from his esophagus into his stomach, Qi Xia threw the phone, which once again reminded him that the battery was low, onto the quilt.

The cold and dry air made Qi Xia's eyes a little dry. In a trance, he thought of the last time he saw his aunt.

That night, he told his aunt that he was engaged to her. Unlike her usual gentleness, his aunt said nothing to him that night. She just stared at him blankly until he left.

He didn't know why his aunt acted like that. With her love for him, and knowing that he was going to marry the woman she loved, she should have been happy to bless him. However, her meaningful and somewhat lonely look made him panic until he ran away in panic.

Unexpectedly, that was the last time he met his aunt.

If my aunt were still here, she would definitely hold his head and comfort him softly, and would also cook a table of delicious food and wait until he felt better to replenish his energy...

It would have been fine if he hadn't thought about it, but when he thought of his aunt, Qi Xia's chest felt like it was being stabbed by a knife. He stood up shakily and wanted to sober up with cold water, but the doorbell of the rental house where he lived suddenly rang.

"dong dong"

There was a knock on the door, and Qi Xia thought it was the landlord asking him to pay the rent.

He had been out of work for a long time, and the little money he had left was almost all spent on drinking. He didn't use the money she gave him, so he even owed the rent and still hasn't paid it.

"Landlord? Let me delay the rent for another day. I'll have money tomorrow."

Qi Xia walked towards the door, past the pile of empty beer cans that almost filled the living room.

He still had some money on his card and had planned to withdraw it to pay the rent today, but today... he really didn't want to go out.

And after today, he should cheer up and face a new life. After being depressed for so long, he doesn't want to make his family worry. What's more, his aunt certainly doesn't want to see him continue like this.

There was no voice of the landlord coming from outside the door, which made Qi Xia a little confused. Until he opened the door and saw the familiar figure with snowflakes floating on his shoulders at the door, Qi Xia's voice was choked.

She looked like she hadn't slept for days, her hair was messy, and the bloodshot in her eyes made her look not as quiet and elegant as before.

She looked at him calmly, and her eyes, which were so beautiful that they seemed to be able to speak, lost their luster. Qi Xia couldn't help but feel a chill on his back because of her oppressive gaze.