What's wrong with me?

"So it was with Jiang Xinyao."

Tang Wanxia nodded, facing Xiaoxia in front of her, she was still smiling, but the graceful blush on her cheeks began to fade slowly, her eyes like deep pools narrowed into a long and narrow slit, and the smile winding in the corners of her eyes gradually had a hint of imperceptible coldness.

"No, but it's okay, auntie. Xinyao and I are also planning to go somewhere to play. In fact, I wanted to help Xinyao with her lessons in the morning. Uncle Jiang is so good to me, so I also want to help Xinyao to the best of my ability. In the afternoon, I want to go to the city to see the comic exhibition. Auntie, you know I'm quite interested in these things..."

Qi Xia was a little flustered. Although he could not see the subtle changes in his aunt's expression, nor could he guess what was in Tang Wanxia's mind, he immediately began to explain to Tang Wanxia in a panic, perhaps because he felt that the atmosphere around him seemed to become a little stiff.

The warm room became silent, and his aunt just kept looking at him silently. Just when Qi Xia thought that his aunt might not want him to go out with Xinyao, his aunt suddenly smiled, like a warm breeze suddenly blowing into the cherry blossom forest, bringing up large pieces of gorgeous and beautiful petals.

"Xiao Xia, why are you so nervous? Auntie didn't say you can't go. If you want to go, go ahead. But I'll tell you that even if you don't eat dinner at home, you must come back before going to bed, otherwise I'll be worried about you..."

…………

"Well, auntie, I'm going out."

"Well, be careful on the road, Xiaoxia."

Smiling and waving, she watched Xiao Xia walk out the door. As Xiao Xia's figure gradually disappeared around the corner of the stairs, the smile on Tang Wanxia's face, which she had been trying so hard to maintain, finally faded a little bit.

Her expression was as cold as winter, with a hint of hatred and ferocity that no one knew about. She tightly grasped the phone, as if she wanted to crush it like that bitch, until terrifying blue veins appeared on her snow-white hands.

But soon, she suppressed those emotions that absolutely must not be seen by Xiaoxia. She had known for a long time that the woman would never give up on taking Xiaoxia away from her. Now the only thing she needed to do was to get the report that could decide everything as soon as possible and completely turn Xiaoxia into a Xiaoxia that belonged to her alone.

Taking a look at the sample box of black hair in her hand, and then at Xiao Xia, who had just walked into the community garden and turned back to wave at her, Tang Wanxia's moist lips curved up slightly in a charming arc.

Chapter 164 Bright

The place where Qi Xia agreed to meet his childhood sweetheart was at the bus stop at the entrance of the community that they were both most familiar with. In the past, he and she would wait for the bus here together every day, chatting and laughing on the way to school. Although things are not as good as before now, Qi Xia is very confident that it won't be long before his relationship with his childhood sweetheart will be as good as before.

He had just walked out of the community gate and waved to his aunt who was still standing in the corridor watching him leave. The first thing Qi Xia saw was Qingmei on the platform, who was particularly conspicuous even in the early morning crowd.

The girl was standing under the maple tree next to the platform, wearing a plain white dress, which was her childhood sweetheart's favorite color in her memory. Qi Xia once told her that he liked to see her wearing white clothes, because white could make the girl in front of him look more beautiful and pure.

Perhaps to match the beautiful snow-white long skirt, the girl wore a pair of slightly sloping middle-heeled sandals. She did not wear stockings as usual, but her ten clean, spotless, pink toes like peach petals were exposed. In the bright and refreshing morning sunshine, they moved restlessly.

As if she was afraid that the wind would blow away the wide-brimmed sun hat with lace on her head, the girl carefully pressed down the brim of the hat, and because of this action, she happened to see Qi Xia who had just walked out of the community.

At the age of seventeen, Jiang Xinyao, who would soon be turning eighteen, had already become a charming and beautiful girl. She was graceful and elegant, and even if she did nothing but stood next to the platform, many boys would walk around her out of shame. But when she saw Qi Xia, the girl, who had been biting her lips and frowning for some reason, immediately broke into a bright smile on her pretty face.

"Xiao Xia, I'm here!"

The girl stood on tiptoe and waved at Qi Xia, as if she was afraid that Qi Xia didn't see her. How should I describe her smile? Oh yes, look at a young man about the same age as Qi Xia who happened to pass by. He couldn't help but look at the girl twice because of her smile, and accidentally tripped over the protruding sewer manhole cover on the road, and then stumbled and almost fell to the ground.

Looking at the smile of his childhood sweetheart, Qi Xia's heartbeat accelerated unconsciously, even though he had just been bombarded by his aunt's tenderness and charm.

Although the girl kept waving her hands, trying to get Qi Xia's attention immediately, in fact, even if she did nothing, Qi Xia would have been watching her from a distance. After all, a girl wearing a snow-white dress and so beautiful would be particularly conspicuous even in the crowd in the early morning.

Qi Xia smiled at her, waved his hand, indicating that he had seen her, and walked over. However, when he walked in, he found that Qingmei today seemed a little different from the Qingmei he had seen in the past.

To be precise, she seemed to have become a little more beautiful, because the girl's already sweet face was given some light makeup that particularly suited her temperament, and Qi Xia had reason to believe that she definitely could not have done it herself. After all, with her childhood sweetheart's clumsy hands, it was good enough that she could spread the foundation evenly, but she couldn't expect her to do such delicate makeup.

In addition to such beautiful makeup, the girl's hairstyle today has also been carefully modified. In addition to the long black straight hair draped behind her head which is particularly soft and pleasing to the eye, there are a few strands of hair braided into small braids and tied behind her head, with some very beautiful decorations hanging on them. Thanks to her childhood sweetheart's enviable hair quality and the amount of hair that can support this hairstyle, looking at her, those who don't know her would probably think that this is the daughter of a rich family.

"Sorry, I'm late. Didn't you wait long?"

Qi Xia came to the girl's side, and a scent of lavender came to her face. Seeing Qi Xia approaching her, the girl felt like a cosmos blown open by the wind, her whole body was filled with a joyful and sweet scent.

"No! I just got here too, hehe, Xiao Xia."

The girl raised her face and looked at Qi Xia, smiling sweetly. That sweet smile made people feel uneasy. Looking at the green plums in front of her, Qi Xia was really afraid that bees would come and mistake the green plums in her garden for flowers full of nectar and pick them for her.

"It's good that we didn't have to wait too long. But it's still a while before the appointment time. I thought I remembered the appointment time wrong and was late. By the way, did you bring everything?"

Qi Xia also smiled from the bottom of her heart. After hearing his words, the sweet girl immediately took out the cute handbag in her hand and shook it as if to invite credit. "Hehe, of course I brought everything. Then, Xiao Xia, where are we going this morning?"

The bag in the girl's hand contained nothing else but a few textbooks. The comic convention that he and Xinyao had agreed to go to would not be held until the afternoon, so he made an appointment in the morning to help his childhood sweetheart with her lessons during his free time.

"It's good that you brought it with you, but you can't be half-hearted this time. If you want to go to Nanshan University with me, you must study hard. Let's go to Chengnan Park later. The environment there is a little quieter. I remember that you wanted to go boating with me before, Xinyao. It just so happens that I remember that there are boats for rent for tourists in Litang Lake of Chengnan Park. When you get tired of studying, we can go boating together."

Listening to Qi Xia's words, the girl blinked her eyes. She seemed not to have expected that Xiao Xia actually still remembered the agreement they had made before breaking up in the first year of high school. The girl hummed twice, but did not say anything immediately. However, the charming charm in her eyes had already expressed what she wanted to say.

She really couldn't leave Xiao Xia, she couldn't leave her for the rest of her life! If someone wanted to separate her from Xiao Xia, if someone wanted her to leave her Xiao Xia, then she would definitely, definitely die!

Looking at the skin on Xiao Xia's neck, pinching her arm, and thinking about the feeling of happiness and ecstasy when she bit Xiao Xia's neck before, the girl unconsciously clamped her legs together - sure enough, when she saw Xiao Xia, those addictions that made her love and hate, like a leech, began to find her again as she expected.

"Xiaoxia..."

With misty eyes, she wanted to inadvertently hold Xiao Xia's fingers that could always give her warmth and peace of mind. However, when these little desires that could be tolerated by her were about to be satisfied, Qi Xia in front of her actually frowned.

"Xinyao, why are your eyes so red? Are you crying?"

Chapter 165 Nightmare

Qi Xia frowned slightly, not noticing his childhood sweetheart's heart-warming actions. Xinyao was still facing him with that bright smile, and her rosy cheeks and watery eyes were filled with her undisguised dependence and trust in him.

However, looking at the girl's pretty face, Qi Xia still noticed that her childhood sweetheart's eyes were slightly red, hidden by the delicate makeup.

He reached out his hand and touched the girl's delicate eye sockets, causing a gorgeous peach blossom to bloom unconsciously on the girl's pretty cheek. She seemed to have not expected Xiao Xia to suddenly make such an intimate gesture towards her. Her body trembled slightly, and the girl's smile could not help but show a little shyness and a hint of desire that no one could see.

The girl blinked her eyes, her long and thin eyelashes fluttering, and joy sparkled in her clear and bright pupils. But when she heard Qi Xia's somewhat doubtful voice, the girl was slightly startled, and pushed away the hand that she was reluctant to let go. Like a frightened rabbit, she immediately took a step back and kept some distance from Qi Xia.

"what happened?"

Qi Xia was a little surprised by Qingmei's action. He thought he had done something to make Xinyao unhappy. But before he could ask, he saw the girl in front of him shaking her head in panic and said, "No, nothing, Xiaoxia, I was just startled."

The girl was a little flustered. She didn't want to do this, but when Xiao Xia discovered the hidden marks on her face, she didn't want Xiao Xia to see her ugly appearance at the moment, so she instinctively kept a distance from Xiao Xia.

"What exactly is going on?"

Although the girl turned her head away, trying to hide something, but when Qi Xia noticed the red eyes of his childhood sweetheart, he naturally discovered that his childhood sweetheart's eyelids were also a little red and swollen. It was obvious that she had cried, leaving these traces. In fact, they did not affect the appearance very much. Instead, they made the girl look a little more pitiful and lovable.

But who would have thought that the girl's actions and answers, which were intended to cover up the truth, caused Qi Xia to misunderstand. Although he felt that he had changed Qingmei's future, he couldn't help but think of Jiang Xinyao who had separated from him because of "depression". Qi Xia was worried that something had happened to the girl, so he grabbed the girl's arm, leaving the girl in front of him with no way to escape.

The girl was a little flustered. No girl would want to expose her ugly parts in front of the opposite sex, not to mention that the person in front of the girl was Xiao Xia, the person she desired the most and was obsessed with.

But Xiao Xia held her arm so tightly that she felt a little pain, but somewhere in her heart she felt excited. Looking at Xiao Xia's face that seemed to be worried about her, the girl pouted, and the grievance that she had been enduring finally burst out.

Qi Xia's guess was correct. The girl did cry before she came, and she cried very hard. However, it was not because she encountered something unhappy as Qi Xia thought. Instead, the girl had a dream last night, a dream that was completely a nightmare within a nightmare for the girl. Even when she recalled it now, it was still a terrible dream that made the girl feel scared.

Of course, that dream was also related to her and her Xiao Xia, and the content of the dream was so real and so organized that when the girl woke up, she even felt more than once that those were not dreams, but things that should have happened between her and Xiao Xia...

In that dream, she did not reconcile with Xiaoxia as easily as she does now. Xiaoxia in the dream still rejected her and treated her coldly. Because Xiaoxia kept rejecting her again and again, she finally suffered from severe depression because of losing Xiaoxia.

For the girl, Xiaoxia is everything to her and this statement is definitely not just a joke. Xiaoxia is her water, and she is the fish that must live in the water called Xiaoxia. When the fish leaves the water, it is natural that she will be in thirst and despair, heading towards the foreseeable destruction she can foresee.

She and Xiao Xia had been separated for two years, and when she mustered up the courage to contact Xiao Xia again, she was constantly rejected. When she knew that Xiao Xia in her dream really didn't want to reconcile with her, she had already begun to walk step by step towards the abyss of destruction.

At first it was just a mild depression. She didn't want to go to school or contact the outside world. She just locked herself in the room every day, holding the raccoon doll that Xiaoxia gave her, and huddled in the room staring at the empty sky outside the window.

Her parents were very worried and took her to see many psychologists, but what could the psychologists do? Could they save her when she had lost everything she cherished most, and even lost all the meaning of living?

Of course not. No matter how many medicines she took or how many psychological counseling and counseling sessions she received, it was completely ineffective. After all, the moment Xiao Xia left her, everything was irreversible.

As time went by, her condition became more and more serious. Even now, she still clearly remembered how devastated and desperate she was in her dream. She began to continue to self-harm without restraint, watching the blood gushing out of the skin cut by the knife, staining the floor red, and feeling the pain, which allowed her to briefly forget all the sadness.

At first, those extremely ugly scars were only concentrated on her arms and legs, and she was reluctant to attack her cheeks. But as time went by, she no longer cared. Without Xiao Xia, what was the point of having such a beautiful body?

Ugly scars gradually spread all over her body. Even though her parents collected and threw away all the sharp objects, and even trimmed her nails to the point where she would never hurt herself again, she still found a way to make herself bleed.

If she couldn't hurt herself, she would go on a hunger strike. Her father and mother had collapsed more than once because of what she did, but she had already become a hollow shell and no longer cared about it.

Her weight continued to drop, and soon she was so thin that she was unrecognizable. However, she continued to torture herself and her family. The lack of nutrition, coupled with the increasing number of medications and treatments, meant that in just half a year, her long hair, which had been so smooth and beautiful and that she had kept for Xiao Xia, was no longer there. She had to wear a wig to hide her ugliness.

But this nightmare is far from over...

Chapter 166 Poor

That day was also the most vivid chapter in that terrible dream. Even now, the girl still clearly remembers the palpitations and despair she felt when she woke up.

Long-term depression has made the girl lose the beauty she once had, and her father and mother seem to have belatedly realized why she has become a walking corpse who is alive but already empty. But unfortunately, all this seems to have come too late.

That day, Xiao Xia came to her home. It was Xiao Xia who came on her own initiative. He said that he hadn't seen her for a long time and was very worried about her situation. He also said that he might be able to persuade her. After all, she and he were childhood sweethearts.

When she knew that Xiao Xia had come to her home, she did feel a little more energetic. After all, that was Xiao Xia, her beloved Xiao Xia, the only water and hope that could bring this thirsty and dying fish back to life.

When her parents gently persuaded her outside the door, saying that Xiao Xia wanted to see her, no matter how afraid she was that Xiao Xia would see her in such an ugly state, she was driven by the desire to see Xiao Xia. With her body wrapped in bandages and her cheeks so dry and pale, she finally opened the door hesitantly.

She saw Xiao Xia, the girl she had been dreaming about for a long time. However, facing the Xiao Xia who was still so tempting, she could not utter a word. Due to long-term self-torture, her throat had become so hoarse that she could not make a sound. And facing the Xiao Xia who was becoming more and more beautiful and more and more fascinating, she was so ugly. She was so ashamed of herself that she really didn't know what to say.

Xiao Xia was obviously frightened when she saw herself like that. She could guess that he certainly didn't expect that he would become such a terrible and uncomfortable appearance.

But Xiao Xia is Xiao Xia. Although the incident in their freshman year of high school had created a gap between him and her, when he saw her like this, he softened his heart. His beautiful eyes were filled with heartache, worry, and... pity for her.

That day, Xiao Xia sat in his home for a long time and talked to her a lot, from the interesting things that happened recently to the various memorable memories between him and her. Although he was the one talking all the time, she just listened silently.

But despite this, she already felt happy enough, perhaps because she saw that she was getting better. It was very late at night, until she couldn't hold on any longer, so Xiao Xia had to take a nap on the sofa in the living room.

Looking at the sleeping Xiaoxia, she really wanted to touch his cheek, but she couldn't because her hands were too rough and covered with ugly scars. She was afraid that if she touched Xiaoxia, he would feel uncomfortable. Moreover, she felt very sorry for Xiaoxia. Xiaoxia tried so hard to make her happy and was willing to reconcile with her, but she couldn't make herself happy at all.

For the girl, perhaps being pitied by Xiao Xia was more unacceptable than being alienated by Xiao Xia. Xiao Xia came to visit her not because he forgave her, nor because he liked her, but simply because he and she were childhood sweethearts and he heard about her experience and felt sorry for her, a girl who had lost everything. This was also what made her feel the most desperate.

What did she have left now? With her appearance becoming so ugly, what qualifications did she have to win back her Xiao Xia? After sending Xiao Xia away that day, she closed her heart even more. Even though Xiao Xia came to her house every day to see her, she never opened the door for him to see her ugly appearance.

Later, she was admitted to the ICU several times because of her excessive physical weakness. Her originally warm and loving family was torn to pieces just because of her stupidity and hopelessness.

Until one day, she heard that Xiao Xia had scored good marks in the college entrance examination and could go to Annan University. That was the only good news she had heard in such a long time. She has not died yet, perhaps because she is still worried about Xiao Xia, even though she will never see him again.

At the end of the dream, her parents finally followed the doctor's advice and sent her to a mental hospital. She didn't think there was anything wrong with that. Instead of continuing to torture them, it would be better for her to end it alone.

She didn't want to continue torturing herself like this, but before ending her life, she had one thing she had to do. Her ending could be said to be her own fault. If she hadn't been so high-profile in the beginning, perhaps the situation would not have turned out like this. But all this had a prerequisite. If it hadn't been for that old witch who kept trying to separate her and him, then none of these things would have happened.

She hated her, hated her so much that one day, she slipped out of the hospital when the nurse who was taking care of her was not paying attention. She knew where the old witch lived, so she went directly to her house. Although the old witch was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer at that time and had not much time left like her, she still wanted to strangle to death with her own hands this vicious woman who had deprived her of all meaning of life.

She did so. After all, the old witch had no ability to resist. When she had done all this and returned to the hospital, before everything was discovered, she resolutely jumped from the fifth floor of the ward. At this point, the terrible dream ended with the girl waking up in a cold sweat.

The girl pouted and looked at Xiaoxia in front of her with grievance. When she was awakened, she cried for a long time, because she was so pitiful in the dream. Not only did she not reconcile with Xiaoxia, but she also became so ugly that even Xiaoxia's favorite long hair became bald.

Because she felt sorry for herself in the dream, her eyes were swollen from crying, so she had to ask her mother to help her put on makeup to cover up her red eyes before she dared to come out to see her Xiaoxia.

"I had a terrible nightmare last night. In the dream, I didn't reconcile with Xiao Xia, and I got depressed. In the end, I died miserably. Xiao Xia, we won't become like that, right?"

Looking at the girl in front of him with an expression that became a little sad and aggrieved, she grabbed his sleeve, and Qi Xia somehow felt a little guilty and distressed. He touched her face, and couldn't help but stroke the girl's still red eyes.

"You scared me. I thought it was something else. It turned out to be just a nightmare. Don't worry, reality and dreams are opposites. Look, haven't we reconciled now?..."

Chapter 167 Touch

"Xiaoxia..."

When Qi Xia's fingers touched the girl's soft skin, the girl's eyes were immediately filled with a beautiful watery color. Although she felt sad, it was obvious that after hearing Xiao Xia's words, the sadness and sorrow brought by the dream were instantly swept away. After all, Xiao Xia was by her side now, the real Xiao Xia, the Xiao Xia who had reconciled with her.

"Okay, don't be sad. We still have a lot of things to do today. Cheer up and get ready to go. There are already a lot of people around looking at us. Looking at your pitiful appearance, someone who doesn't know would think we had a quarrel."

Qi Xia smoothed the girl's hair. The extremely soft and smooth hair passed through his fingers, and there seemed to be a trace of the girl's warm and soft body fragrance lingering on it.

Her face had originally turned red because of Xiao Xia's touch, and there was nothing else in her watery pupils except Xiao Xia, who filled all the girl's sight and thoughts. Hearing Qi Xia's reminder, the girl, who felt that she almost exposed those dirty desires in front of Xiao Xia again, immediately looked around.

Qi Xia was right. Many people around had already turned their eyes to the two of them. After all, apart from Qi Xia, the girl in front of them was really beautiful like a flower. Especially at this moment, the girl had such a pitiful expression, as if she was about to cry. How could she possibly attract the attention of passers-by?

After realizing this, the girl's remaining sanity made her blush immediately. She no longer thought about the nightmare that was so real. She grabbed Xiaoxia's hand and hid half of her body behind Xiaoxia.

"Well, let's go quickly. I don't want them to misunderstand. Our relationship is so good that we won't quarrel!"

Qi Xia smiled, thinking that we had just had a fight for nearly a year and a half, and had just reconciled a few days ago. He shook his head, and Qi Xia waited for the bus with Jiang Xinyao. When the bus came, they got on the bus together.

The South City Park that the two were going to was not big, and there was nothing special to see, so even during the National Day holiday, there were not many people in the park. But this was exactly the reason why Qi Xia brought Qingmei here. Neither he nor the girl actually liked crowded places.

On the way, the girl told Qi Xia about the nightmare she had last night. Although she only gave a brief account of what happened and omitted many parts, Qi Xia still had a strong sense of déjà vu when listening to the story told by his childhood sweetheart, because the dream the girl had was so similar to what he had experienced before.

This made Qi Xia nervous for a while, and he thought that it was because of his rebirth that the girl also remembered the past things. But seeing that the girl was talking and laughing with him, she didn't take it seriously and just thought that he had a terrible dream. Qi Xia was slightly relieved. He thought that he was probably overthinking it, and Xinyao might have just had a dream that was very similar to his memory.

In the South City Park, Qi Xia and the girl found a very quiet place, and started giving Qingmei extra lessons on a stone table as planned. Perhaps because she really wanted to go to the same university with Qi Xia, the girl listened very carefully. Although she blushed from time to time because of Qi Xia's contact, she was able to calm down quickly and devote herself to studying.

However, for Qi Xia, she would not have known this until she started tutoring her childhood sweetheart. Qi Xia finally realized how much her childhood sweetheart had fallen behind in her studies. But there was really nothing she could do. Needless to say, the period in her freshman year was of course not to be mentioned. The second half of her freshman year and the entire sophomore year were almost in a daze during this year and a half because of her breakup with Xiao Xia. It would be a miracle if she could listen to what was taught in class.

Qi Xia cram school knowledge for the girl, but fortunately he also knew the effect of combining work and rest, so after two hours of study, Qi Xia asked the girl to stop and said he wanted to take her to go boating.

“What a beautiful lake!”

After packing up my things, I walked into the park for a while, passed a crowded place, and saw a large lake. There were sporadic boats floating on the lake, and there were staff members renting boats at the pavilion by the lake. It can be seen that most of the people who come here to row boats are couples. After all, couples like places with fewer people.

The girl next to him screamed in surprise when she saw the lake. She glanced at the couples rowing on the lake, and then secretly glanced at Xiao Xia next to her. It had been a long time since she had played with Xiao Xia like this, so the girl couldn't help but move closer to Qi Xia and put her palm in Qi Xia's hand.

Qi Xia and Qingmei rented a boat together. Before renting it, Qingmei, the rich lady in the family, bought a big bag of snacks from a store on the shore and said they could eat them on the boat.

Because he used to hang out with Yue Ran often and they often went boating together, Qi Xia did not rent a simple pedal boat, but a small boat that required oars. He put thick life jackets on the girl and himself, and Qi Xia and the girl sat on it together.

Because the boat was not big, it was a little shaky when sitting on it, which made the girl nervous, but Qi Xia didn't feel anything, because he used to have a perfect girlfriend who often took him out to travel and relax. Qi Xia even knew a little about motorboat and diving, so he was naturally not afraid of rowing.

Seeing Qi Xia's quiet appearance, the girl soon calmed down. After saying this to Qi Xia, and watching the boat drifting towards the center of the lake, the girl opened the snacks and started eating.