The socially anxious girl doesn't want to stick to me!

If you die, you will sleep forever and will no longer live in the eyes of others, just like the original body did - after the passionate rose withers and dies, all people can do is slowly forget it. The scenes in the memory are no longer clear and will always be completely forgotten.

Hug your knees and bury your head in them.

Even his eyes were a little red.

Completely closed off.

Hell, formed by negative emotions, is full of devastation, wounds, and despair. Igarashi Sakuraba is truly living in hell, burned by flames, filled with regrets and never at peace. She begins to understand why her original self chose to commit suicide. If she were to choose now, she might... choose to commit suicide as well. She is such a coward.

I have missed too many opportunities to end my studies at Tresen Academy and my career as a horse girl.

Thinking.

He looked around the entire training field; it was empty because it was still late at night, half past three, and there couldn't be anyone else. Only Igarashi Sakuraba was training silently, getting stronger, and mastering his running skills more skillfully.

Do I want to end my career now? No, I just think that this serious training has no good feedback.

Only eighth...

What a one.

It’s not a passing result... I clenched my fists tightly, gritted my teeth, and even my mouth was slowly filled with the taste of rust.

This is the taste of blood and unwillingness, which makes her lips bitten. Even though the pain has already come, Igarashi Sakuraba has not let herself go. If letting herself go is useful, she would have let herself go long ago. She has never been able to reach a reconciliation with herself, but has been dealing with herself for a long time.

Correct.

There is also unwillingness.

At the same time... a little bit of unwillingness was born in my heart and began to sprout.

——It would be better if I could become a little stronger.

Yes.

If only I could win the game...

An emotion called "reluctance" was born in his heart. After enjoying the thrill of victory, Igarashi Sakuraba's mentality began to change slightly as he raced on the track.

Only now did she realize how arrogant she was before. She only looked like she was working hard. Was she really working hard? No, who would her opponent be? She didn't know. She hadn't seen it yet. How would she win the game? She didn't know either. Anyway, she was arrogant because she thought that she could just run.

Do you look down on your opponents too much, thinking that they are all bots? Even if you have won against Aimu Orihime and Narita Road, it was just a narrow victory, right?

They all had a casual and nonchalant attitude towards the upcoming Gaoyue Award, and a cynical attitude. They completely lacked the determination to die that they had when participating in the previous competition. The desire to win the competition had already been extinguished and was no longer burning.

And this kind of self...

How can I face and win over someone who has a burning desire for the championship?

……disappointment.

A feeling of disappointment.

Negative emotions were intertwined, and even the eye sockets were a little red.

Igarashi Sakuraba wanted to keep winning, and after tasting defeat, she knew for the first time how painful it was to lose a game and how painful it was to have expectations failed to come true.

Really! If it were in the past, then, without the help and comfort of others, it would take more than three days for this autism to come out. Only she could lead Igarashi Sakuraba out of the haze and difficulties, to a sunny place, to dance under the sun.

And now...

perhaps.

Gradually, she began to understand what she was pursuing. Igarashi Sakuraba's sadness was being eroded by reluctance. She had never accomplished certain things before, but for the first time, she realized the meaning of her life - running and winning the game.

If I still need others to comfort me, then I am living a pathetic and cowardly life! ! Have I not grown at all? Then I should just go home to my mother next time I lose the game! My mother will hold me in her arms and comfort me, saying that she is the best, but don’t you think it’s ridiculous?

After my eyes flickered, I began to be firm, and as for my own meaning, I began to feel it in my heart.

Because of this, he began to actively participate in the Gaoyue Award, trained seriously, and even the last bit of worry in his heart began to disappear.

——A completely forced debut match, a half-and-half Youth Cup, and a completely voluntary participation in the Gaoyue Sho.

If losing a game means disappointing others, then why not just keep winning? No matter which game it is, keep winning... keep winning...

Win them all!!!!

At this moment.

A little arc of light begins to be born...

This failure may be a good thing, an opportunity to be reborn from the ashes - just like the "Phoenix" described in mythology.

In mythology, the phoenix is ​​the messenger of happiness in the world. Every five hundred years, it carries all the unhappiness, hatred and grudges accumulated in the world, throws itself into the raging fire and burns itself, exchanging the end of its life for the beauty of an end, and for peace and happiness in the world. Similarly, only after the flesh has experienced great pain and reincarnation can it be reborn with a better body.

This story.

In Buddhist scriptures, it is called "Nirvana".

Having experienced countless transcendence and rebirth of life, it describes the meaning of tenacity and self-improvement.

Although Igarashi Sakuraba was only heartbroken, he had not experienced great physical pain and had not yet achieved true nirvana and rebirth.

only...

happy.

He turned his gaze to the training field, wiped off his little pearls, put on his spiked shoes, and then, like a warrior who was determined to walk on a road to certain death, he walked alone while saying...it's almost there.

……

The heart began to beat bit by bit, revive, and burn.

Chapter 83: The Ultimate Opera

6:00 AM.

When the scheduled alarm sounds.

Igarashi Sakuraba finished her training and immediately turned off the alarm clock with an expressionless face. Even though the sweat on her back soaked her clothes and the sweat on her forehead dripped onto the grass, she still had an expressionless face, lowered her eyelids, said nothing, and prepared to go back to the dormitory to take a shower.

and...

The entire person was surrounded by the purest beast spirit - with the gloom and coldness of late winter, as if the determination to die had taken shape and condensed into chains, imprisoning the horse girl around Igarashi Sakuraba, thus turning her into an evil spirit, or perhaps a god.

Umamusume is inherently animalistic.

This point does not need to be explained... because there is the behavior of [realization]. Of course, it is not a bad word, it does not mean that the beast's will is the beastly nature of eating raw meat and drinking blood, but the free-running wind allows the body's functions to climb to another peak again - in simple terms, the progress of realization has begun to accelerate.

Igarashi Sakuraba Nakata for the meaning of "growth".

……

of course.

Let’s not go that far and get back to the original scene.

Just when Igarashi Sakuraba was about to return to the Ritto dormitory to rest... at the end of the path, another horse girl she was quite familiar with appeared... the horse girl with purple eyes that was as mysterious as the stars in the sky.

——Adores Orihime.

Also the number one enemy of Gaoyue Shang is the shining Beipo San.

Just expressing slight surprise.

The heat and sweat flowing from her body... He also knew that she was the type who would train all night or get up early. Igarashi Sakuraba suddenly felt a little fortunate and no longer felt puzzled by the Japanese derby in his consciousness space. He was just grateful that it could wake him up earlier.

Make yourself aware...

There's still time for all this.

If I maintain the same lax attitude as before, how can I defeat my current enemies?

Think so.

only...

The scene where Aimo Orihime appears and then passes by her has no value. The most crucial part is the horse girl who follows Aimo Orihime step by step, and whose words and actions can even be described as exaggerated - she also wears an exaggerated golden and purple crown on her head.

“…Ahahahahaha.”

The outrageous laughter made Igarashi Sakuraba feel a little puzzled.

What the hell?

Like a gentleman from the classical era, the horse racing girl took off her hat for no apparent reason, leaned forward slightly, and performed gentlemanly etiquette. Then, she said with an intoxicated and moved look on her face: "You are worthy of being my opponent... When I got up to train, you had already finished your training and were ready to go back to rest?"

"Well - of course it's because this is the only way to catch up with me!"

"That's perfect. How about I allow you to advance three levels from a fan to become my rival? How about it? You are the only one who can be my rival! Orihime, the love that overwhelms the whole country——!"

Said so.

"I'm not particularly beautiful." Orihime, who was not good at expressing her admiration, just replied in a daze.

Igarashi Sakuraba's confusion suddenly turned into a bad premonition.

or..

Is it too late for me to take another path now?

What the hell is going on with this guy!

……

Seeing Igarashi Sakuraba not far away, Aimo Orihime was like seeing a savior, even his eyes lit up, the light of the stars returned again, pointing directly at her and shouting: "She also wants to participate in the Gaoyue Sho, and she has defeated me. As your opponent... that horse girl is more suitable!"

——? ? ?

Li Zaigan gods and demons.

Bring the fire...to Igarashi Sakuraba?

Impressed!

That bad premonition came true again... Although Igarashi Sakuraba has been reborn and started to pursue the meaning of becoming a horse girl, her social anxiety has not improved much in essence! Although she has recovered a lot, facing this horse girl - Igarashi Sakuraba really can't think of how she should deal with it.

A distant star who is not good at speaking, a timid mushroom who is socially anxious and autistic.

The two of them together are not enough to beat [Good Opera] one.

——Good opera.

She is the third horse girl standing here now, the sixth most popular contestant in the Gaoyue Award, and a surprisingly rare handsome horse girl... except for her shortcoming of talking too much.

Simply perfect!

"Oh?" Good Opera sighed meaningfully, then looked over and said, "Is that you?"

Asked like this.

But——! His eyes also lit up, as if he had seen the light!

"For some reason, I suddenly felt the connection with you! So... I want to compete with you!" The next moment, the passion in his heart suddenly came over him! Good Opera took a step forward and headed directly towards Igarashi Sakuraba.

——And everyone in Igarashi Sakuraba was stunned.

It's so sudden!

So what was going on now? If she had known, she should have continued practicing for another hour... Now, she felt dizzy and could hardly figure out what was going on.

Aimo Orihime could only show an embarrassed expression.

——Honestly speaking, she was also exhausted by this guy. It was not what Orihime wanted that the war spread to Igarashi Sakuraba's body, but she really couldn't bear it anymore... Wait, should she buy Igarashi something to eat as an apology?

Thinking.

I just didn't expect to love Orihime.

The other party is a super social phobia patient who is even more serious than himself!

Igarashi Sakuraba now just opened his mouth: “Ah…ah.”

He can only utter meaningless monosyllables and cannot speak a single word.

“Hahahaha!” Good Opera was still wild and even happier after seeing this performance: “Could it be that you are so happy to be chosen by me as my opponent that you can’t even speak? Because this is already a great honor, it doesn’t matter!”

Igarashi Sakuraba thought about it.

In the end, I can only say six words.

——Pu Xinnu, really humble.

Who wants to be your opponent, you bastard! Don't act like we know each other so well!

Family members, who understands? On the way back from training today, I met an invincible horse racing girl.