Who says those who retire at the speed of light are not heroes?

"Don't cry?" Xia Ning's voice trembled.

"You didn't listen to what I said to you last time..."

"It's easy to say, no one would say such light words, but what about when you do it?"

"It's because you are doubting." Lin Cheng finally pulled his hand away, his fingertips touched her cheek, and wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes. "You are doubting and waiting, hoping that one day someone will be able to take you away from this dark world, but in fact there will never be such a person, and there will never be such a person. Hope is something that you will have if you believe in it, and will not exist if you don't believe in it."

"You're talking nonsense like that again." Xia Ning's voice choked with sobs.

"So what do you want?"

After wiping away her tears, Lin Cheng reached out and pinched her face. Her face felt soft and elastic, and still very hot. But this scene was too weird. The girl in a suspender nightgown with her clothes half-undressed was standing in front of him, crying. The two of them were discussing hopes and needs here. Oh my God.

This is definitely more cliché than any third-rate romance novel.

Lin Cheng waited patiently for Xia Ning's answer, but when Xia Ning thought about this question seriously, she suddenly realized that she didn't have such an answer.

"Look, if there is pain, there must be a source. If pain is caused by unsatisfied desires, then you must want something, right? What do you want? If all your past pain and hatred came from the new king, would you be happy if he died?"

“Does it make sense to give such an example?”

"You want me to kill him for you if you say you'd be happy."

"You go."

"Sure, as long as you nod."

Xia Ning looked at Lin Cheng's serious expression, and she suddenly felt inexplicably uneasy. After a few seconds, she shook her head and said, "I don't have such desire."

"Well, so what do you want?"

"If you want Jiang Lingxue, just give her to me."

"Okay, as long as you tell me why you want Jiang Lingxue."

"The reason is...I want to be like her."

"Can't you become one?"

“It can’t be.”

"why?"

"I do not know."

“Because you think you can’t be.”

"Don't use this kind of brainwashing rhetoric to deceive me..."

Lin Cheng was amused. "Does what I said sound like MLM rhetoric?"

"What else? You can change it as long as you want. How can it be that simple? They are all subjective and idealistic theories. You are the only one who is complacent and thinks it is absolutely correct, right?"

"If my theory can be easily overturned, then answer me first, what is the source of your sadness?"

But Xia Ning just couldn't answer.

"As long as you tell me the source of your sadness, I can do anything for you. If you solve the source of your sadness, then you won't be sad anymore, right? But you can't tell me. Do you know why?"

"You say." Xia Ning took a deep breath and gave him three minutes.

"Because people don't have any needs. The acquired needs come from others having them, but you don't, so you have a sense of loss. Because you didn't get much love when you were a child, you will always feel lost when you grow up, and you want to find something to fill it. Maybe becoming an idol is part of the reason? But becoming an idol and bringing hope to others can't fill yourself. It's like you want to be close to Jiang Lingxue, you also want to fill that loss... But that loss can't be filled by others, you can only rely on yourself."

“Although people don’t need to experience pain to grow, pain is indeed a part of growth. If you feel pain, please trace the root cause of the pain and then solve it. Isn’t this a very reasonable logic? If you always feel unhappy and sad, you have to think about whether you have always trapped yourself in a small corner in the past, making yourself trapped... secretly envious of others being loved in the dark corner, because only the love of family is the most seemingly unconditional love... This is the pain of seeking but not getting.”

"Jiang Lingxue recently taught me a truth. Once you realize that you are loved, you will gradually begin to love yourself."

"How about I lend you some love?"

In fact, Xia Ning didn't hear a word Lin Cheng said. Lin Cheng knew from her eyes that she didn't hear a word, but it didn't matter anyway. Xia Ning sneered, "What do you mean by lend me some love?"

"Do you want a kiss?" Lin Cheng winked at her.

Xia Ning raised her hand, "Guess what the probability is that I'll slap you right now?"

"hundred percent."

"you guessed right."

Lin Cheng closed his eyes and waited quietly. He didn't care if he would be slapped next. Such things were never important. He never felt that many things were important, but there were not many interesting things in life.

The girl's lips are so pink and soft, Lin Cheng thought, and gently hugged Xia Ning in his arms.

Then just simply kiss her until she can't breathe.

210 Rain

"You... crazy person!"

After their lips parted, Xia Ning wiped the water stains from her lips and cursed him viciously.

"Have it?"

"Middle-aged greasy uncle!"

"I'm twenty-one years old, don't talk nonsense."

Lin Cheng gently grabbed Xia Ning's arm and pulled her into his arms to sit down. He reached out and put her suspenders on, then gently hugged her waist, "You can't just kiss me and then deny it and start scolding me."

"You were obviously taking advantage of me...and this was my first time kissing."

"Why do you have to give kissing such a sacred meaning? Kissing is just one of the ways humans express love."

"Do you love me? Haha."

"I think you're pretty cute." Lin Cheng rested his chin on her slender shoulder. "I used to think that children were difficult and annoying, but I didn't expect that there could be cute children too."

"So you think you are an adult?"

"I want to be a child, too." Lin Cheng's breath fell on Xia Ning's neck, "It's so fun to be a child."

"So you really are a bastard..." Xia Ning said softly.

"Why? Look, if we forget all the conversations just now, has my original purpose been achieved?"

"What?" Xia Ning was stunned.

"Hug, touch, kiss."

Xia Ning turned around and saw Lin Cheng's rogue expression.

"Go to hell! Die!" Xia Ning began to struggle in his arms, but was soon picked up and thrown onto the bed. Lin Cheng soon lay down beside her. He pulled the quilt over them both. "Okay, sleep for an hour and a half, then we'll climb the last bit to watch the sunrise."

"Should we call Xu Linglan?"

"Let her sleep, we'll go alone."

Xia Ning's body curled up slightly, and after a while she quietly raised her legs and clamped him, like a little crab. She had a pleasant lemon scent on her body. Lin Cheng lowered his head and sniffed her shoulders, then suddenly bit her shoulder gently.

"what are you doing?"

"I just suddenly wanted to bite it." Lin Cheng answered confidently.

"gross."

Xia Ning said faintly, closing her eyes and resting her forehead on his chest, "Then I'll sleep."

"Go to sleep, I'll call you later."

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Xia Ning was half asleep and was woken up by Lin Cheng. She rubbed her eyes, asked the time, then turned over and continued to sleep.

"Do you still want to watch the sunrise?"

"I'm so sleepy...I don't want to watch...unless you carry me..."

"Then you have to change your clothes first, right?"

The suspender nightgown she was wearing was obviously not very decent, but Xia Ning still closed her eyes and said dazedly, "Then help me put it on."

The clothes she had just taken off were placed aside. Lin Cheng grabbed Xia Ning's hand and asked her to sit up first, but her body still fell back habitually and fell into Lin Cheng's arms. Lin Cheng peeled off the straps on her shoulders and suddenly felt like he was peeling a crab shell. The crab meat under the shell was soft, tender and juicy.

It's pretty easy to take off the skirt.

Lin Cheng didn't take off her skirt directly, but pulled it to her waist first, and then put on her underwear. The whole process took him very short time because he often dressed Jiang Lingxue before.

After putting on the top, the girl was laid flat, and the hem of her skirt was taken off. Hey, the style of her panties was cute white lace. Lin Cheng put on her hot pants. Xia Ning opened her eyes in a daze. She was half asleep just now. When she woke up, she suddenly found that Lin Cheng was putting pants on her. So her white and tender feet almost subconsciously raised up and kicked Lin Cheng's chest, "What are you doing?"

Lin Cheng looked at the girl's white and tender calves and said, "I'll put clothes on you."

"I can do it myself..."

"Whatever you want." Lin Cheng returned to the window sill. The sky was still gray. After a while, Xia Ning put on her clothes and came to his side. She pressed her body against his, rubbing against him like an annoying kitten, "Carry me."

Lin Cheng really picked her up and said, "Let's go."

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When Lin Cheng and Xia Ning reached the top of the mountain, the sky was slightly brighter.

He and Xia Ning sat down in the pavilion on the top of the mountain. At this moment, no tourists came here. The world was silent. The sound of birds could be heard faintly in the valley. Xia Ning just felt a little cold, and Lin Cheng had already taken out his coat and put it on her.

"Huh..." Xia Ning was about to tease this guy for having a warm-hearted attitude, but suddenly she felt that such a joke would ruin the atmosphere at the moment. The world was so dark, the wind was so light, and they snuggled together in the darkness, and it felt like a small flame was burning in their hearts.

"Why do you suddenly want to climb the mountain to watch the sunrise?"

"Because I saw videos of people climbing mountains to watch the sunrise, and it seemed very romantic."

"This kind of romance is a man-made value. If you want, lying at home and looking at the ceiling can be romantic."

"What... conquering the mountains and witnessing the sunrise is not the same as lying at home?"

“The only difference is that you have reached the top of the mountain. The pain of climbing is beautified by the excuse of watching the sunrise. In fact, it is just a waste of energy and wear and tear on the knees. When you see the sunrise, of course you think it is beautiful. If it is not beautiful... then the pain of climbing the mountain before seems like a big complaint.

"Can you say less toxic chicken soup?"

"No, I was just expressing my feelings, and...it's obvious that we won't be able to see the sunrise today."

"why?"

"Don't you feel the strong wind and the layers of dark clouds above your head?" Lin Cheng turned to look at Xia Ning. The moment he finished saying this, a loud thunder was heard in the distance.

Xia Ning suddenly became mad, "It's all your fault!"

"You didn't check the weather forecast at all. Now we can't see the sunrise."

Xia Ning's eyes were already full of resentment, and soon raindrops began to pour down. The rain in early autumn still felt a bit like a summer rainstorm, and the water flowed gurglingly, falling on the creek on the top of the mountain, on the grass that was already turning slightly green and yellow, on the big trees that had been exposed to the sun for a long time, and on the bricks and tiles of the pavilion. As the raindrops fell, Lin Cheng changed to a more comfortable position, lying on the bench in the pavilion, watching the heavy rain in the dark world.

"What a pity...how are we going to get down the mountain?"

"Why are you in such a hurry to go down the mountain? Isn't it better to listen to the rain?"

"I came to see the sunrise, not to listen to the rain."

"Sunrises can happen most of the time of the year, but rains cannot. Relatively speaking, rains are more worth cherishing, but all you can think about is watching the sunrise."

"It's different." Xia Ning said stubbornly.

"You just think climbing a mountain is so painful that you must get the predetermined result you expect, but there are not so many things in this world that are predetermined. What's wrong with rain?"

Lin Cheng suddenly raised his hand high and snapped his fingers, and then a pure white light suddenly lit up beside the pavilion. Every raindrop under the light looked like a crystal clear pearl. Xia Ning subconsciously looked up. The light was buried in the darkness, and the raindrops were buried in the sky, but when she looked up, the falling raindrops were refracted by the light and looked like shining stars.

Xia Ning was dazzled. She slowly walked into the rain and stretched out her hands to let the raindrops fall into her palms. The shining raindrops splashed into flowers in her hands, but when she looked back, Lin Cheng had already closed his eyes. The expression on his face was extremely lazy, as if he was preparing to have a good sleep.

The light in the rain gradually disappeared, and the world became dark again, but Xia Ning suddenly felt that the darkness was not so lonely. She heard the sound of rain falling on bricks, leaves, and grass. The raindrops were clearly frantic, but her heart seemed to become extremely peaceful again.

Xia Ning stood under the eaves of the pavilion, watching the rain. She didn't look back, but asked, "Lin Cheng."

"Ok?"

"I seem……"

"You seem?"

"It's okay." Xia Ning shook her head again.

Lin Cheng stood behind her at some point and suddenly stretched out his hand and put it on her shoulder. Xia Ning turned around. There was a subtle height difference between them. If they wanted to kiss while standing, Xia Ning would have to stand on tiptoes slightly.

"Do you want to kiss me?" Her eyes no longer dodged.

"I didn't plan to, I just came to hug you." Lin Cheng turned Xia Ning's body over again and hugged her gently from behind. Xia Ning said faintly, "Why did you turn me over?"

"Because the way you look at me is like you're waiting for me to kiss you."