I'm not Yingjie

She carefully shone the light of her mobile phone forward and searched for useful things in the dust in the air. Soon, she had searched the small basement thoroughly and indeed found some interesting things.

"Experimental log?"

After shaking off a centimeter of dust on the surface, she opened the old, yellowed diary in her hand with a dusty face.

Most important documents are kept on paper, but it is obvious that the reason why the one in her hand is kept on paper is not just to prevent leakage.

"In the first experiment, the target's blood, cells, and brain all showed signs of modification. It has been confirmed that the blood and cells were modified during the embryonic period, and the brain was modified during the early childhood period... The thinking ability and physical ability far exceed those of ordinary humans..."

"The second experiment, the scope of this experiment is the target's learning ability..."

"the third time……"

"the fourth time……"

She read the entire experimental log in one breath. The crazy content in it made her doubt whether it was a fabricated false log. But when she saw the seal of the Fire Moth at the end, she confirmed the authenticity of the experimental log.

All the inhumane experiments were tried on this child. If the above contents were to be leaked, it would cause a social uproar.

"But why, it seems that none of the Fire Moth people know about this? Is it too inconspicuous? Or... is someone deliberately covering it up?"

She made up her mind, put down the lab log, and turned her eyes to another object in her hand.

a letter.

It seems that the key lies in this letter.

This letter was also very old, and the glue on the seal had lost its stickiness. She easily opened the envelope with a pull and poured out a piece of paper.

The printing and workmanship of this paper seem to be different from other papers. It smells fragrant, and it doesn't feel rough or dry when you touch it. It is very likely that it is not from a long time ago.

An envelope from a long time ago, and a letter from not long ago... It really makes me want to know what was originally in the envelope before this?

But this was just a small matter, and she was soon attracted by the neat handwriting on the letter.

"Zero, Xiaolin, MSA-079, no matter which name you are, it seems that it cannot describe you, but it doesn't matter. When you see this letter, I think either the Houkai has ended or humanity is about to perish, but in either case, I think I am already dead."

"I don't know if you have recovered your memory at this moment, but you can probably guess what happened after reading the experiment log, hehe... After all, you have always been very smart. You can guess the ending of a novel just by reading the beginning."

"If human history is likened to a novel, I have been thinking about what kind of ending would be worthy of such an impressive beginning?"

"I'm sorry, I'm just speaking my mind again. I have a lot to say to you."

"What kind of person are you to me? And what kind of person am I to you?"

Chapter 49: Qualified

"I killed your parents. No one threatened me or ordered me to do it. I killed them on my own initiative."

"I didn't hesitate at that time. Humans are keen on creating monsters, and I, and the Fire Moth, have always been committed to fighting monsters, so I would shoot without hesitation."

The handwriting becomes a little sloppy here, but quickly returns to a neat style. It can be seen that the writer's mood has changed. Overall, he is a mature and stable person.

She could imagine him sitting in the dim light, holding an old fountain pen, thinking over the words and writing a complicated confession on the letter.

"In order to protect humanity, we can do anything, even if the people we want to kill are our compatriots who share the same ideas as us but have taken a different path."

"I believe my faith is indestructible. I am a demon with blood on my hands. I don't think the people I killed personally or indirectly have souls, but I will remember them all."

"I was right...I thought so until I met you."

"The first time I saw you, you were standing in front of your burning home. I thought you would be sad about your parents' death, or hate me, because that's what a normal human being is."

"But you didn't do that. You are just a rag doll. Your parents attached arms and legs that didn't belong to you, and then sewed a monster's name on you."

"You're Frankenstein, you don't even have a heart."

"Do you think I would be grateful for saving you from that devilish couple? And more certain of my own righteousness?"

"At first, that's really what I thought."

She suddenly held her head.

She realized the mood of the person who wrote the letter.

This is neither atonement nor farewell, but a kind of... alternative and complex care?

A certain emotion is placed in this letter, and the reader will discover this emotion in it.

But this letter... Damn it... This letter is not for her, but for Lin!

At this point, she had no choice but to watch.

"Then I had them conduct experiments. Yes, most of the inhumane experiments you have experienced were arranged by me personally."

"It was from these experiments that I discovered that you are actually an ordinary child."

"You go to bed early occasionally. You usually feel sleepy on rainy days. You subconsciously count the number of floorboard patterns you walk on. You like to look up at the ceiling at a 45-degree angle..."

"It's funny, isn't it? At that time, I realized this. Then I realized that even if I was a devil, I couldn't do those things to an ordinary child. We shouldn't take that step. This is true for all human beings."

"So I want to train you to be a normal person, cultivate your interests and hobbies, and let you return to a normal life."

"But one day, when I was loading the gun, I suddenly recalled the look in your parents' eyes before they died."

"They made their own children into monsters, monsters dedicated to all mankind. I naturally think that they will have no love for you."

"But maybe, I just can't understand it. They still have the love that parents have for their children."

"Do you know how I found out?"

The tone of the letter was full of self-mockery.

"I found that I am the same as them. I have the same twisted feelings towards you."

"So my wish to turn you back into a normal person was impossible from the beginning, because I have taken away your parents for my own 'justice' and 'right'."

"We are not justice, and we have never been justice since the beginning."

"Putting human lives on the balance of the sky and calling it a choice is just a bunch of high-handed and self-righteous assholes."

"It's sad that humans need such assholes."

"So when they tried to make you into a jerk like me, I backed off."

"Who wants to see their children follow the same mistakes they made?"

"Hehe... Sorry, you are not my child, and I am not yours."

"It's just... I really, really want to see you grow up, get married and have children... Even if I can only watch you from afar without saying anything, it would be great..."

"Why can't such a world come true? Why do I always have to do the wrong things? Why is this happening..."

“But someone has to do it.”

“I will become whatever humanity needs me to be.”

……

When Lin woke up again, he didn't know how much time had passed. It seemed like more than a day had passed since the last time he woke up.

Spasi was injecting some medicine into his own sanatorium cabin. Lin felt that his body felt a little more relaxed. Perhaps it was the effect of the medicine.

"Hey, are you awake?" Spasi knocked on the glass of the sanatorium. "It seems that you have recovered well. At least there are no more hallucinations and abnormal reactions. The rate of Honkai energy erosion has been stabilized for the time being."

"…Now, how is the headquarters?"

"You're almost dead, and you're still worried about others?"

"..."

"Something else?"

Spasi thought for a moment, as if considering where to start. He looked into Lin's calm eyes and spoke after a long while: "Lin, I met a young man with great potential in that hospital. He is full of love for life, compassion for patients, and very talented."

"He reminds me of you, but he's obviously not like any of us. I want him to make the choice you made back then, but I'm afraid he would hesitate until Karen pounced on me and bit my throat off."

"...Su?" Lin asked.

"Huh? You knew?" Spasi was surprised for a moment, then realized, "So that's it. The member of the Fire Moth he mentioned is you."

"He is Kevin's friend. I saw him heading to the quarantine area of ​​Changkong City that night. He told me that he wanted to know the truth."

"Is that so... I'm paying attention to him because an old friend of mine is in that hospital..." Spasi's nostalgia lasted less than a second. He rarely misses the past that can never be returned. "Do you think he can join the Fire Moth?"

"……for what?"

The truth or saving lives?

Recalling Su's compassionate eyes, Lin already had the answer in his heart.

"I think he should know what he is doing, but he is not mature enough yet. He is a qualified 'doctor', but not a qualified 'Fire Moth' member."

"…A qualified member of the Fire Moth?"

Lin murmured this and looked at the pistol placed on the table outside the treatment cabin.

Chapter 50 Let’s Go

"What does Dr. Mei think of this incident?"

On the eve of the high-level transfer, Einstein approached Mei and asked questions to the R&D director who had remained indifferent from beginning to end.

Einstein felt that this high-level assassination was not a targeted assassination. Before this, the high-level officials were mainly divided into two factions, one was May's supporters and the other was May's opponents. It can be said that the conflict and struggle revolved around May.

But this time the deaths of senior executives were more like a purge of the entire senior leadership. The dead included both supporters and opponents. It was a completely random killing. Mei, who should have been at the center of the storm, was safe and sound. She even went to get off work on time every day. She didn't even take the most basic self-protection measures. If Kevin hadn't often hovered around her, people would really think that she didn't care about her own life or death.

Einstein thought about it and decided to ask Mei's opinion. Her intuition told her that Mei, who had been observing from a bystander's perspective, would give her a different answer.

"Why do you want to ask me?"

"Because Dr. Mei doesn't seem to care..." Einstein stared at Mei's expression, but she couldn't see any extra expression on the face of this genius. "Besides, I thought about who would benefit after the reduction of senior executives. In addition to other senior executives, the biggest beneficiary is you, Dr. Mei."

"That is to say, your suspicion is not low either."

Will the loss of senior figures and the killing of her supporters affect May's plans?

To outsiders, it will have a significant impact, but in fact it is a reduction or even disappearance of the entire senior management. Mei is likely to increase her voice. After all, her abilities have been recognized in recent years and she has frequently participated in high-level meetings. If it were not for the great controversy about her herself, she might have already been among the senior management.

"However," Einstein changed the subject from a harsh, critical and questioning tone to a normal conversational tone, "This is not in line with your way of doing things, Dr. Mei. Moreover, even I can see it. I don't think Dr. Mei would do such an obvious and low-level thing."

After listening to Einstein's explanation and analysis, Mei showed her signature smile on her face, as if to confirm her statement.

"Dr. Einstein, I would be happy to share intelligence with you...if it weren't for the tragedy that happened today."

"...So you refuse?"

Being rejected was a situation that Einstein had already thought of. As she said, May was the beneficiary of this incident and she could just sit back and watch how events developed.

"You once said that the murderer took advantage of our habitual thinking. The murder method, murder location, and murder weapon are all quite confusing elements." The girl with long black hair pushed her glasses back to their original position, her eyes full of the wisdom and calmness of a rational person. "Then why do we have to limit this incident to the thinking of 'competition for interests'? And... why do we have to use 'logical reasoning' to find the murderer? This is not a detective game."

"Logical reasoning..." As he said this, the hazy smoke in Einstein's thoughts seemed to be brushed away by a big hand.

Yes, since they are using inertial thinking to mislead from the beginning to the end, why do they still use traditional logical reasoning to find the real murderer? Isn't this also a kind of inertial thinking?

Now that the Collapse has already occurred, countless Collapse phenomena that cannot be explained by current science are occurring frequently. So even if the murderer, who is a member of the Fire Moth, has mastered some undisclosed technology that they are unaware of and used to commit the crime, they will not be able to find clues using the existing information.

"But, Dr. Mei, why do you say that the motive of this matter is not 'competition for interests'?"

"Dr. Einstein, why did you join the Fire Moth?"

"For...humanity..."

Einstein murmured, then his eyes gradually widened, and an absurd guess came to his mind.

Since she joined the Fire Moth for the sake of humanity, what were the thoughts of the top leaders who established this organization?

I'm afraid that there will only be people who are more radical than her in wanting to protect humanity.

It’s just that their definition of human beings is different from that of ordinary people, which leads to a distorted approach.

They were the ones who established the system of decentralization in the first place, and they would not have held senior positions for "benefits" from the very beginning. Otherwise, they would not have been able to jointly command the Fire Moths in peace for decades.

Even the murderer endured a long time in this system because their previous methods did work.

Until the internal contradictions reach a peak, this system will become a moth chasing fire and an obstacle to human progress.

Mei is the fuse that triggered the conflict, but that doesn't mean she is the real reason. Various phenomena are deeply buried inside the organization, like maggots in the tarsal bones and poison in the bone marrow. The controversy over her is just the manifestation of this defect. This is why the target of the assassination was the top management, not Mei, because the murderer also realized that the fundamental problem lies in the structure of the organization.

"He loves humans, but at the same time he despises those humans who are 'incompetent' in his eyes. What a self-righteous 'judge'."

"It doesn't matter who will become the leader of mankind after this. What matters is that there is a person who thinks that I will only create more monsters, so he wants to get rid of me in advance. Now it seems that he has no energy left to target me anymore..."

"Or maybe he believes that after the disaster, humans will choose the right person to lead the way forward. Such blind trust in humans reminds me of Lin..."