I'm not Yingjie

……

"Captain Lin, I don't have nightmares anymore."

Hun stood in formal attire in front of the table where the group photos were placed. She stared at herself with a gentle smile on her face, then quietly took the photo out of the frame and put it in her pocket.

“Don’t we always look back on the past and feel that we have become a different person?”

"I think I have changed a lot, but one thing has not changed." She put her palms on her face, imitating herself in the photo, and a smile climbed up the corners of her mouth. "I am a coward. When you, Team Leader Lin, were still moving forward recklessly, I had already hidden in the corner long ago, afraid that the people around me would sacrifice themselves, and afraid that death would take away everything from me."

“Until now, this has not changed.”

"But I will move forward, even if I stumble and fall, I will move forward."

"For everything you want to protect, for everything I want to protect, even if it means death, I can face it."

"So, you have to fulfill your original promise..."

The palms dropped.

Let's go.

She whispered to herself.

Quiet death bloomed in her eyes.

Chapter 51 Destruction

"Once, we dreamed that we were strangers. When we woke up, we realized that we loved each other."

The man chanted poems softly, his deep and magnetic voice was like the solemn and loud bells in a church.

"drop--"

He put down the collection of Tagore's poems and picked up the communicator.

"..." The man who put the communicator to his ear finished listening to the report. After thinking for a long time, he said faintly, "No, let him be. You did a good job."

After putting down the communicator, he opened the poetry collection again, looking for something in those sour words.

After a while, he whispered:

"I sat by the window this morning, and the world was like a passerby, stopping for a moment, nodding to me, and then walking away."

……

"Sorry for the wait."

After the punctual music started, a man with a cane and a gentleman's hat appeared in front of the Fifth Squad. His polite and apologetic smile made the somewhat nervous Fifth Squad feel relieved.

Himiko said to the Speaker seriously: "No, you are on time."

"Really? But I feel like this moment seems to have been long overdue. I really have made you wait too long." The Speaker adjusted the brim of his hat and said with a smile.

"No." However, it was not Himiko who answered the Speaker, but Soul. Her short hair was blown by the breeze, and she said calmly, "Now please get on the transport plane and let us do what we need to do."

The Speaker nodded, supported himself with his cane, and slowly walked past them.

Himiko frowned slightly. She noticed that the Speaker's movements were a little slow, and his feet were not coordinated. The cane didn't seem to be a decoration...

"Speaker, is your leg injured?" She certainly couldn't pretend not to see it. It was their responsibility to protect the personal safety of these senior officials.

"No, I'm just old." He said without turning his head. "When people get old, their bones will rust, their flesh will rot, and their brains will become cloudy. I'm just walking the path that humans should take. There's nothing to be surprised about."

"No matter who I am, I am a human being."

"Just like a bad person, he won't become a good person just because he does one good thing."

……

"You want to leave?"

After hearing Lin's words, Spasi was silent for a few seconds, stopped adding the medicine, and looked at Lin.

After a few days, his condition did not necessarily improve, and the erosion of Honkai energy was only temporarily suppressed.

There was no physical change at all, only the mind returned to its normal state.

"You are still alive, not in a crematorium or on a lab table. It's not because you are so special. It's because I am keeping you alive. If you leave the infirmary, your organs will quickly lose vitality and you may die in a few days."

"Thank you."

"I'm not asking you to thank me, I'm just stating the facts."

"I have someone I want to see, and a question I want to ask."

"..."

Spasi's expression was a little subtle, and there was some...surprise in it.

"Is it important? To you."

"I do not know."

"..."

"No, it's very important." Lin answered seriously.

……

"Su, don't you want to take a break?" Director Farr put a tube of hot coffee on Su's desk, but the other party just glanced at it weakly and made no move to take it.

"Rest? But the patients' conditions are getting worse. How can we rest in peace with this abnormal phenomenon?" Su sighed, and was extremely worried about the critically ill patients on the list. "How could this happen?"

Director Farr opened the coffee and took a sip without hesitation: "There is one piece of bad news, and that's the only piece of news."

"what?"

"It's not just the patients with Honkai disease, and it's not just our hospital. Patients in other areas have experienced varying degrees of worsening symptoms, and the cause cannot be found."

"..."

"Su, although this sentence should not be said by a doctor like me." Director Farr's palms gradually clenched, leaving wrinkles on the coffee can, "but what is happening now may not be something we can explain with medicine."

"but……"

"Dong dong."

There was a knock on the door, interrupting their discussion. A brown-haired woman with a ponytail appeared at the door, wearing a white doctor's uniform.

"Doctor Su, Director Farr, a patient's Honkai disease has broken out and requires immediate resection surgery."

"Dr. Ragnar, please prepare for surgery immediately, Su..."

"Director Farr, I haven't finished yet, please calm down." Ragnar pursed his lips, his eyes twitching, "There is not one patient, but fifteen patients, and the Honkai disease is spreading rapidly at the same time, and is about to erode the heart."

Director Farr and Su looked at each other and saw shock in each other's eyes.

……

"…Is this what happened to Lin?"

She put the letter down and walked out into the sunlight.

The sunlight that illuminates everything is a little dazzling at this moment.

“When did the mistake start?”

She muttered softly.

This sentence was the last sentence of the letter. When the writer wrote this sentence, his fingers no longer trembled.

He was full of doubt, full of determination, and even full of murderous intent.

The first half of the letter is a farewell to Lin, while the second half is a farewell to himself, which means that he may be sober and look at his actions from a third-person perspective.

“No one is born with mistakes, and no one is born with hope. But as we grow up, we will make mistakes, and as we grow old, we will correct these mistakes. This is the course of human history.”

The letter is full of the man's ideals and ambitions. He understands his own treachery and evil, and to some extent he even despises himself.

That's why he said those words to Lin.

"In love with humans..." she said softly.

This letter should have reached Lin's hands, and the impact it would have on him is foreseeable.

So she put the letter in an envelope, and tore it up along with the experimental log, breaking it into irreparable fragments, and then threw it into the brazier, burning these papers that recorded words and the past.

"I'm sorry, it seems I can't convey this to Lin for you, but I think he will follow his own 'right', even if that 'right' goes against your thoughts."

"But it's normal for children to think differently from their parents, isn't it?"

The pink-haired girl looked at the sparks floating in the air, crossed the brazier, and walked in the direction she came from.

"This is Alicia. I have searched Dusk Street and found nothing unusual."

Alicia suddenly turned around and looked at the house.

"Yes, there is nothing here."

Chapter 52 Hide and Seek

"Sister, what's wrong with you today..."

Ling looked at Sakura who had just returned from outside in confusion. She rarely saw her calm and gentle sister looking so panicked.

Ever since she came back from a business trip for work, Ling felt that her sister seemed to be going out more frequently, and each time she left, she would take a long time to come back, and her face was always filled with deep fatigue when she came back.

Whenever Ling asked Sakura what her job was, she would evade the question with all kinds of excuses.

This made Ling think that there was something wrong with Sakura's work content, but only after Sakura's repeated assurances did Ling have to believe Sakura.

"Ling, pack your things. We are leaving here." Ying said to Ling while putting the knife passed down from her father on her waist.

No joke at all.

"What happened? Sister, is it about your work?"

Ling couldn't help but ask Sakura. She could see that Sakura's movements paused after she asked this question, and it was obvious that she was hit on the mark.

Ying's tense arms relaxed: "... Ling, I'm sorry, I can't tell you."

"Sister, it's okay! Haven't we always come this far like this..."

"That's not the case." Ying looked at her sensible sister bitterly. She was indifferent to others, but she could only treat her only relative with the most real and fragile emotions. "Ling, I don't know where to start. If possible, I think you will never know..."

"drop--"

The sound of the communicator shocked Ying's body. She looked at the ring with a complicated look, picked up the communicator and walked outside to answer it.

"...Yes, I will carry out the mission to defeat the Sixth Herrscher after I complete the evacuation."

……

"Whoosh..."

The boy tried hard to blew air into the balloon. In a season that had not yet fully warmed up, his cheeks were red and his inflated cheeks looked even more like a balloon, which struck many onlookers as adorable.

Do you have enough lung capacity and strength?

But apparently their worries were unnecessary, as the boy easily blew up a balloon and handed it to his father, watching him tie the balloon to other long balloons to form a strange puppy shape.

“Thank you for your review, I hope to come again next time~”

The father rubbed his cracked hands, smiled kindly, and waved to the family of three who were walking away with balloons.

After finishing his morning work, the father touched the boy's head with his big hand and said, "Okay, go and have a rest, little life."

"Yeah! I want chocolate!"

"Okay! Let's go and eat some chocolate."

The father and the boy found a place to rest. The father put all his tools aside, bought the boy some not-too-expensive chocolates, and smoked a cigarette while smiling as he watched the boy happily eat the chocolates.

The boy licked the crumbs on his fingers and looked curiously at the busy amusement park: "There are so many people today, Dad."

"Yes, it's the right season for traveling, so we have to work harder." My father's wrinkled face seemed to relax with joy at the huge number of tourists. The more people there are, the better the business will be. He didn't have much education, but he still understood this. "If we make a little more money, we won't have to worry anymore."

The family had no foreign debts and was a little poor, but they had no problem making ends meet. It could be said that they were a fairly free family.

"Oh, by the way, I also need to buy sleeping pills for your mother. Xiaoming, just watch the things here, I'll be back in a while."

"okay!"

Xiaoming sat on the chair bored. The amusement park was very interesting. All the children of his age were very excited when they came here and wanted to play every project several times.