I'm not Yingjie

"I think it's OK."

"It's really okay. The problem is just that we are cold-hearted people." There was a bit more complexity in Alicia's smile. "Xiao Qi, you must become a gentle person, as gentle as Lin..."

Chapter 52: Just a Symbol

"Dr. Lin, are you ready?"

He stood by the window, looking at the sky, but could not see any flying birds.

There is only boring nothingness, the sky.

It seemed as if it would collapse with thunder at any time.

The waiter asked him, who was motionless, and after hearing it, he sighed softly: "I'm just a high school student, not a doctor, and I don't have a doctorate."

"But the theory of Honkai energy deconstruction that you published is enough to make you the highest achievement in the field of science."

"..."

Here we go again, everyone is like this.

He actually knew that these people were praising him sincerely, believing that he was able to research the deconstruction of Honkai energy, which would be of great benefit to mankind at his age, but he did not want to listen to these meaningless compliments.

He was even brought to this conference where elites from all over the world gathered to run for the so-called opinion leader of the Falling Star.

He didn't want to live up to other people's expectations because he never thought he could do what they expected of him.

Soon, it was his turn to go on stage to give a speech, but he didn't even have a script prepared. He just wanted to say a few words casually and then leave the stage with nothing in his hands.

What's funny is that other people who found out that he didn't prepare a manuscript thought he had memorized it. His casual look was considered a sign of confidence, and they said he was worthy of being Lin who published the theory of Honkai energy structure.

And he could only smile bitterly.

"I understand. Let me be quiet for a while."

He sent away the waiter and stood in the empty room.

After a while, there was a knock on the door. He was already a little impatient and walked over to open the door: "I didn't mean..."

Halfway through his words, he saw that the person standing outside the door was not a waiter, but...

Girl with long pink hair.

"Can you let me in?" Her smile was refreshing, but her face looked much more haggard.

The First Herrscher descended on Changkong City, and then almost the entire Far East was reduced to ashes in thunder. After leaving the Far East, it wreaked havoc for a full month, wiping out three-tenths of humanity from the earth.

Among them, the first batch of victims, that is, Changkong City, was where he and the pink-haired girl were. On that day, all the pink-haired girl's family members were killed. He and he were the only ones who survived in the entire Changkong City. While waiting for rescue, he discovered the Honkai energy.

At this moment, the pink-haired girl seemed to have come out of the grief of losing her family and showed her previous smile again.

The pink-haired girl who lost everything now depends on him for survival, and this time, she also came with him.

"Are you worried?" The pink-haired girl walked into the room, stood on tiptoe, reached out her hand and gently stroked his head, smiling as gently as possible.

"If they had seen me clearly from the beginning, I might not be so distressed." In front of the pink-haired girl, he took off his disguise, sat helplessly on the bed and laughed at himself, "Now I have to go in front of them and tell them that I am actually useless. I am just a guy who hasn't even graduated from high school."

"But you have done this many times before..."

"That's different."

He interrupted the girl and said in annoyance, "I just... I'm just doing extremely rigid and conservative things in the field I'm good at, just like the knowledge in high school is actually just some knowledge used to answer questions. I'm just doing the same thing in another aspect. There's no way I can pretend to be the savior when the doomsday comes. I'm just like everyone else, expecting others to play this role."

"I told you, don't... give me expectations, it will only disappoint you."

He buried his head even lower, as if he wanted to bury it in the ground and never look at the things in front of him again.

If all of humanity places their hopes on the same person, then that person must respond.

But he knew he couldn't do it. There was no protagonist in this world, and even if there was, it wouldn't be him.

He was just a coward who could only hide in a corner to protect the girl he liked when the Herrscher came. He didn't even dare to go out to save people. He didn't dare to move and prayed for rescue every day.

"Then run away."

"Eh?"

The pink-haired girl's gentle voice raised his head, and he looked at her blankly as her smile gradually faded.

"In that case, then run away, go to that place and say something silly, and then go somewhere where no one can find you." The pink-haired girl said solemnly, "No one has the right to ask you to take any responsibility, you only belong to yourself"

"..."

After being stunned, he fell silent.

Run away?

In fact, he thought so from the very beginning.

"So, what about you? After I run away, will you look down on me like I said before?"

"No, because it was you who saved me on that thunderous doomsday." She smiled as gently as she could, "You have already been my savior."

"..."

He seemed to hear something collapsing in his heart.

He often doubted himself: Can he really take on that responsibility? Can he really meet everyone's expectations? Can he really defeat that terrifying monster?

To this day, he still doesn't know the answer.

But maybe that's just how humans are.

Even if the future is uncertain and fate is unknown, we will continue to move forward.

"Dr. Lin, the time has come. Are you ready?"

There was a knock on the door.

At this moment, he no longer had any thoughts of panic or escape, but instead calmed down.

"I have always believed that the word savior will only exist in fictional works. It is a unique title that represents a person who saves humanity from danger."

He stood up. "

"But now it seems that maybe the savior is just a symbol. I may not be able to become a real savior, but I think I should try hard to become a symbol."

The pink-haired girl stood up, fixed his tie for him, and looked at him with a big smile on her face.

"Young fiancé, you look a lot like when you proposed to me."

"...Haha, I hope I won't be rejected again this time."

Perhaps it was from that time that his lover was no longer a certain person, a certain individual.

He "should" and "must" love all human beings. His lovers are all human beings. In order to protect them, he will stand in front of them like he did to protect the pink-haired girl in the thundering Changkong City.

Once you take a step forward, there will be no turning back.

However, he always recalled many things, not the cheers of people when he developed various weapons and technologies to protect mankind.

Instead, on a breezy morning, he sat on the lawn, enjoying the morning breeze.

Chapter 53: An Operation

"The Herrscher of the Wind has been defeated. The body will be transported back to the headquarters after being quarantined."

Everyone in the command room felt relieved. The second battle between humans and Honkai ended more easily than they had imagined. The cost was less than one-tenth of the first Honkai, and the terrifying Herrscher was killed by the advanced Honkai energy weapon.

When they thought of this, they couldn't help but cast their admiring gazes towards the young man's back. However, he did not relax at all at this moment and was still directing the post-war work with a serious face. Only after everything was completely settled did he put down his headphones with an expressionless face and walked out of the command room.

As for the applause in the command room, he acted as if he didn't hear it.

He went all the way back to his room, then rushed into the bathroom and lifted the toilet lid.

"vomit--"

Vomited.

He leaned against the toilet with a pale face. The nausea made his throat and stomach cramp. His brain couldn't think, his ears couldn't hear any sound, and all he could see were distorted images.

He staggered to stand up, but...

"vomit……"

He hadn't eaten today, and all he vomited up was the water he drank while conducting.

His whole body was twitching and he couldn't even feel whether he was still alive.

"Lin? Lin!"

A man saw him at the toilet door and rushed in immediately, hugged him who was twitching wildly, and patted him on the back gently.

"It's okay... It's okay now..."

Under her gentle voice, he gradually stopped his possessed state, and finally his eyes regained clarity and he collapsed in her arms.

pressure.

The life and death of mankind is in his hands. Not only does he have to bear the pressure, but he also has to make quick and decisive judgments. The indescribable oppression seems to tear him apart.

He enjoyed the peace that belonged to the two of them. After a long while, he quietly lowered his eyes and said, "...more than a million people died."

The massive collapse that occurred the moment the Herrscher appeared caused the death toll to an exaggerated number.

"It's not your fault that you can't save everyone." The pink-haired girl patted his back soothingly.

"But there are many soldiers who died too." His mouth was full of bitterness. "Their lives were ruined by a stranger, just to kill the Herrscher."

"But you still led humanity to victory."

"Victory? The Herrschers are transformed from humans. From the moment the Herrschers appeared, it meant that people had already sacrificed themselves. And we are going to kill our former compatriots... How can we talk about victory..."

He seemed to be able to hear those people's dying cries, no... most of them were torn apart by the hurricane before they even had the chance to let out a dying wail, and he stood coldly in front of the screen, watching this scene.

At that moment, he seemed to have become the Herrscher and killed these people with his own hands.

"Take a break, Lin..."

The pink-haired girl hugged him quietly, feeling the beating of his heart and his body temperature.

"No... I still have work to do... The Herrscher's corpse and the Herrscher's core..."

He pushed the girl away, stood up unsteadily and walked towards the door.

The pink-haired girl reached out her hand, but failed to hold him back.

……

He stood in front of the operating table.

The pale operating room was the same color as the skin of the woman tied to the operating table. Thick blue veins popped out. The man with his limbs tied and his mouth gagged tried desperately to struggle, but it was useless under the restraints.

The terrifying cutting tool was placed aside, flashing a cold light.

But what really scares women is not those dangerous tools, but his eyes.

It was like looking at an inanimate object, with eyes that had neither pity nor contempt, looking at everything, including himself, impartially.

The woman was one of his assistants. The three of them were both his students and his assistants. It had been three years since they first met.

"Teacher, do we really have to do this?" The other two students, who were standing beside him wearing protective gear, asked him tremblingly while keeping a straight face.

He did not stop because of the student's hesitant questions. After simply and directly disinfecting, he picked up the cutting knife beside him.

"Will there be any signs of the birth of the Herrscher? Will Honkai consciously choose the Herrscher's body? Will Honkai allow the Herrscher to be born in advance?" He stared coldly at the woman who was still twisting her body on the operating table. "The answers to these questions are very important to mankind."

"But she hasn't become a Herrscher yet!"

"When she entered the ruins of the third collapse, the remaining collapse energy gathered towards her, which is exactly the same as the birth of the Herrscher. However, that collapse energy is not enough to completely produce a Herrscher, so she looks like a conscious dead soldier."

He said without mercy: "If there is enough Honkai energy, or if the next major Honkai breaks out, he may become a Herrscher. What we have to do now is to study him and experiment whether Honkai will cause a major Honkai to break out in advance for him."

Is this person crazy?

The students thought in unison.

He seemed to have no humanity, analyzing how to dissect and study a person who still retained human consciousness, and testing whether a large-scale collapse would break out prematurely?

If it really erupted prematurely, then they would be the people closest to it and would be corroded by the Honkai energy and die on the spot.

"Teacher, please reconsider. She must still be saved..."

"We are not trying to figure out how to save her."