This is not the date I wanted.

"That was a really bad experience. I can't seal the spirits directly like you can. I can only beat them half to death, take out the spirit crystals and then heal them. I always thought that kissing to seal spirit power was a joke, but at first I thought it would be great if it could be solved that way."

"However, the result is still good. After taking out the spirit crystal, everyone is no longer at risk of reversal, and their bodies are gradually getting better and healthier. Now I live with you in a small town not far from here. But speaking of this, there is something I must apologize to you for..."

Speaking of this, Meng Yue showed a guilty expression.

"Although it is possible, your death is still an insurmountable pain for everyone. In order to prevent anyone from developing PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder), I used the 'Sealing Master' to delete everyone's memory of you. No - it should be said that your existence was erased from the world."

There was a self-deprecating smile on Mengyue's face.

"The hairband you gave to Kotori, the four-leaf clover hairpin Tohka gave you, the comb you gave to Rokuko, the comics you drew for Nia, the recordings you gave to Miku... I have destroyed everything that was related to you and could be a chance to restore your memory. But I don't regret it, because it is because of this that everyone can live happily like this. What do you think? Am I a very excessive woman?"

Looking up at the leisurely blue sky and white clouds, Mengyue couldn't help but muttering in a trance.

"Hey... Shidou, if you were still alive, would you blame me? If I apologize to you... would you... forgive me?"

32 Disappearance

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"Hey... Shidou, if you were still alive, would you blame me? If I apologize to you... would you... forgive me?"

Staring blankly at the sky, Meng Yue couldn't help but ask.

Of course, she knew that this was just a meaningless self-deception. This was a hypothesis that did not even have the possibility of "what if". It was just nonsense that the girl said with a little nostalgia and guilt after seeing the tombstone.

After a while of brewing, Mengyue buried her sadness deep in her heart and smiled.

"…I feel like I've been apologizing since I came here. Should I just say something happy when I come to visit the graves?"

As she spoke, Meng Yue leaned against the tombstone and spoke in a light tone.

"You know what, Shidao? Now Tohka is the manager of a bakery and is already well-known in the town. Our Tohka is not only gifted in eating, but also a very hard worker. She works hard every day to make better bread. When I saw her store successfully opened, I was so moved that I almost cried."

……

"After graduating from high school, Origami secretly applied to the police academy without telling me. To be honest, I was against it at first, because she had better choices with her grades. But in the end, I couldn't convince her and agreed. Really... I never realized before that she was such a righteous person. Really, should I say she is worthy of being a former soldier of the AST unit?"

……

"Kotori-chan is studying abroad now, and it seems that she is planning to go to Ratatoskr to work with her parents soon. It seems that Kotori-chan is really destined to be with Woodman's company. With her ability, she should be able to make a name for herself soon. To be honest, although I was troubled at the beginning, whether I should seal her parents' memories together? But after thinking about it, I gave up. Since my family is still alive, I should cherish them. I have no reason to interfere."

……

"Miku has become a household name now. In recent years, she has often held free performances in the areas affected by the space earthquake, and unexpectedly gained considerable popularity. She is now developing into an actress and voice actor. However, her old habit of being careless has not changed. Once, her address was accidentally exposed, and she was almost surrounded by paparazzi and fans outside her home."

……

"Yakuya works at a game company, and Yui is a nurse at a hospital. The two discussed for a long time in their third year of high school and finally decided that they didn't want to be bound to each other. Well, having said that, they are still as inseparable as ever. They are still the same now. Whenever they have free time, they hold all kinds of strange competitions to show their affection. They are like little kids."

……

"Rokuko is now a teacher at a kindergarten. The world of children is small, their desires are light, and they love children very much. Compared to the bustling and colorful world outside, such a stable and peaceful job seems to suit her better. Every day when she comes home from get off work, she will talk to me about the naughty things that happened to the children in the kindergarten."

……

"Nanazain... that girl dropped out of high school. It seems that she was assigned to a different class from Yoshino in the third grade, and was isolated by the students in the same class. Although it was not to the extent of bullying, it was still a big blow. I did not persuade her to return to school, but asked Nia to let Nanazain intern there as an assistant. Now she is an independent manga artist. Although she is a bit of a shut-in, she has not given up on herself, so don't worry."

……

"Speaking of Niya... She's still the same. Outside of the comics, she's always been carefree. She'll come over for free meals whenever she has nothing to do, and she's become a good 'negative example' for Tohka and the others. Among all of them, she's the one who's changed the least. In a way, I feel relieved by the above statement."

……

"Yoshino-chan, I always thought she was the strongest of all. And that's true. Ever since we moved in, she's been helping me with housework—no, I should say learning how to do housework. After graduating from high school, she didn't choose to go to school or find a job, but instead stayed at home to take care of my apartment and became a housewife. It seems that she thinks I'm old, so she wants to stay and take care of me. She's too sensible, and I'm a little overwhelmed."

……

"And Mana, your biological sister. In a sense, she worries me more than Nanashi. Ever since her hidden illness was cured, she has been running around like a tomboy. Like you, she has an excessive sense of justice and is prone to getting into trouble. She often fought with others in junior high school, and only restrained herself after entering high school. Now she is the advisory teacher of the high school kendo club, and also the big sister of the bad boys in town."

……

"Time flies. Seven years have passed in the blink of an eye. Watching them grow up healthily and happily, becoming independent and having their own lives. I am really...very happy."

While recalling and recounting the events of the past few years, Mengyue felt both gratified and a little sad.

"But when I think about the future, they will fall in love, get married, and have children like ordinary people... I feel very complicated. Maybe this is how it feels to be a parent. They have all become beautiful women. If the other party is not a man who can make them happy, I will definitely not agree."

………………

Hiding behind the tree trunk, Kuang San curled up her body, hugged her knees and buried her head in them, without making a sound.

However, even so, Meng Yue's voice still reached her ears clearly.

Her voice is so kind, so gentle, and yet so powerless.

It was as if I was not facing a desolate grave, but a family member with whom I could confide and share all my worries and joys - a family member I love so much.

It was as if the young man who had saved Mengyue was right beside her at this moment.

This made Kuang San feel extremely heartbroken.

Every word Meng Yue said was like a sharp sword piercing Kuang San's heart.

My throat is choked, my nose is sore, and tears are welling up in my eyes. If I'm not careful, they will burst out.

Self-blame. Such feelings continued to spread in her heart.

She knew very well how deep Mengyue's feelings for the girl were, and she knew very well how terrible an impact the boy's death would have on the world. But in the end, because of a trace of weakness in her heart, she chose to escape and let the world fend for itself.

Obviously, the boy's death caused Meng Yue no less harm than anyone else, but she did not vent her anger on Kuang San. Instead, she chose to tolerate her and took the initiative to clean up this hopeless situation, taking all the sin and pain on her shoulders and bearing them alone.

(What can I do?)

Kuang San thought in confusion. She was only a hundred meters away from Meng Yue, but she didn't know how to meet Meng Yue. Even if she really met, she didn't know what to say.

This was a world that belonged only to those two people. She had no right to interfere with the world after escaping from her sad wish and mission.

"Hey... Shidou... it's all right now."

Just as Kuang San was about to leave quietly, Meng Yue's words forced her to stop where she was.

A chill spread from deep in her spine, and an indescribable uneasiness surged into Kuang San's heart, forcing her to fight out from behind the tree.

As the sun sets, the dim glow shines through the dead trees and falls on the ground. The cold autumn wind blows through here, blowing the dead leaves into the air, like a depressing oil painting.

"I... killed... not just one person, not just ten people... nearly ten million innocent voices died because of my choice."

"I... lied to everyone... said that Gokawa Shido didn't exist in the world... said that I was just a lonely old man... said that I didn't know about their lost memories... I have been lying for the past few years... This morning... I lied to Yoshino and told her that I would go back for lunch..."

"I haven't fulfilled the wish you entrusted to me... Mariya, Junai, Lingyin... are all gone... and will never come back..."

"To be honest, I can't even remember your appearance..."

“…I’m already tired…”

"So I'm sorry... so from now on... just let me have a good rest..."

The girl in the painting seemed to be about to fall into a short deep sleep. She slowly closed her eyes with a comfortable and peaceful smile.

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And at this moment, an extremely huge wave of spiritual power suddenly burst out from Meng Yue's body.

Kurumi seemed to realize something and her eyes widened in horror.

——! ! !

At the same time, the whole forest was in turmoil, as if escaping from some ferocious flood or beast. The wild beasts in the forest were running for their lives, scrambling to run towards the outskirts of the forest.

"Don't...don't!"

Tears flowed down her cheeks uncontrollably, a weak sound came out of her throat, and Kuang San finally took a step forward, running towards Meng Yue desperately.

"Well--"

However, after finally taking a step forward, he was blocked by a wall.

It was a barrier formed by the spiritual power emitted by ten spiritual crystals. Not to mention now, even Kuang San in her prime would not be able to break through this barrier.

However, even so, Tokisaki Kurumi still gritted her teeth and continued to hit the barrier.

"Don't go! Don't go! I beg you! Meng Yue——"

Looking at Mengyue who was gradually closing her eyes, Kuang San cried out with all her might.

"Don't leave me alone!!!"

…………

My body became heavier, my mind became cloudy, and my five senses gradually dissipated like ice cubes in water.

The existence named "Liang Yi Meng Yue" disappeared.

Continuously absorbing violent spiritual power and using various angels without restraint, this already broken body and soul finally reached its limit at this moment.

"—!!"

In the haze, I seemed to hear a voice calling me.

Barely opening her eyes, in the blurry world, Kuang San was like an abandoned child, standing on the other side of the "wall" and crying, looking so painful and helpless.

This was the future she had gazed upon in the distant past.

At this moment, a trace of hesitation and guilt arose in her heart. For Meng Yue, this moment was a prophecy of victory and a relief. But for Kuang San, it was the beginning of a new nightmare.

Something must be left behind.

It was not left to the most evil spirit who killed tens of thousands of people and was the most evil to humans. Instead, it was left to an ordinary girl named "Tokisaki Kurumi" with the blessing of being able to live.

With such an obsession, Meng Yue squeezed out a smile with her last bit of strength, and slightly closed her lips towards Kuang San.

——Welcome home, Kurumi.

The next moment, a dazzling beam of light rose from the ground and penetrated the entire sky.

33 An Unacceptable Future

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The scenery before me was covered in white.

There was not a trace of haze, not a single sound could be heard, and as if to dispel the sadness in Kuang San's heart, the warm white light enveloped her, as if she was in heaven.

But such happiness only lasted for a moment.

The light faded, and Kuang San returned to the forest covered with dead leaves.

At some point, night fell quietly, covering the world with a veil of darkness, and it was silent.

Then, unknown points of light began to rain from the cloudless night sky.

It was like a light snowfall in winter, but without a hint of chill, or like fireworks blooming in the summer night sky, but so simple and unadorned. Countless points of light danced in the wind in the sky, and then gently fell to the earth.

This is a beautiful scene that transcends nature, as mysterious and dreamy as a fairy tale, making everyone intoxicated by it.

However, Tokisaki Kurumi turned a deaf ear to it. The only thing she saw was the nameless grave made of mud and dead wood.

At this time, the girl sitting in front of the tombstone had disappeared.

"—!"

Just like an abandoned child, anxiety and fear spread in Kuang San's heart. She rushed to the grave and waved her hands desperately towards the empty place, as if she wanted to grab something, as if she wanted to save something.

Inadvertently, my fingers touched the scattered light spots, and in an instant, the light spots evaporated and turned into light dust and dissipated.

"This is... Meng Yue's spiritual power..."

Feeling the familiar fluctuation of spiritual power, Kuang San raised her head. It was only now that she noticed these falling points of light.

In contrast to this dreamlike scenery, a cruel reality lies before Kuang San.

“Ah…ah…mmmm…Aa ...

Tears as big as beans flowed down the helpless face, Kuang San opened his mouth blankly, and finally, as if he had collapsed, he let out a heart-wrenching cry.

Liangyi Mengyue is dead. No matter how much she cries or shouts, she will never come back.

However, there was no point in doing this, the more she cried, the more reality pierced deeply into Kurumi's heart.

I don’t know how long it took, until her tears dried up, and Kuang San knelt in front of the grave in a daze.

“…What am I…doing…”