This is not the date I wanted.

In a trance, Kuang San couldn't help but recall her life.

At first, she had a warm family, close friends, and a happy life. But because she was not satisfied with the status quo, she believed the lies of Takamiya Mio and became the ignorant clown called "Partner of Justice".

Innocent lives were killed by her gun, but she seemed to be having fun as if she was playing house. It was not until the moment when Sawa died that she woke up from the false dream.

However, waking up does not mean awakening.

What about erasing the original spirit and changing the tragedy of thirty years ago? That was just a nice excuse she made to cover up her childish self-esteem and her hatred for Takamiya Mio.

Now that she thinks about it, if she really wanted to save people, she could have used Kokoro's "Vav (Six Bullets)" to go back to the time when Sawa and the others were not killed by her.

In her life after that, she continued to make choices that she regretted deeply.

--boom!

After that, the first person died under Kuang San's gun. It was not because she was deceived by Mio, but she chose to kill based on her own consciousness.

Although she deliberately chose a scum who wanted to violate women, in fact, the guilt brought by her first murder still made her vomit and unable to sleep all night.

This is necessary. If she can't get enough "time", she has no chance of winning against Takamiya Mio, let alone killing her.

In this way, Kuang San, who cut off her own retreat, could only continue to deprive others of their lives and numbly move forward on a path of self-destruction.

Then, she met Gokawa Shido, a stubborn yet gentle boy who knew her sins but still insisted on lending a helping hand and trying to save her at all costs.

Then, she met Ryougi Yumezuki, a girl who did not regard her as the "most evil elf" but treated her as an equal to "Tokisaki Kurumi".

This may be the good luck that others desire but cannot obtain. The existence of the two of them brings some comfort and redemption to Kuang San's heart. But Kuang San still does not know how to cherish him, using him as a tool for revenge and hiding her as a safe haven to evade responsibility.

And finally, it is now. All those she loves and cherishes have left her, but she is still alive in this world.

“Hehe…hehehehehe——”

Thinking back, what a stupid and ridiculous life this was. Kuang San herself was amused and laughed out loud.

(Really...why on earth...am I still alive?)

"Ala, I'm even more of a wimp than I thought."

“How is this sad journey going in the future?”

At this moment, a familiar voice sounded in her ears. Kuang San raised her head blankly, only to see several girls who looked exactly like her standing in front of her.

"Ah...what...it's 'us'..."

After just a glance, Kuang San looked away.

In the past few years, she has not dared to use angels and spiritual power. First, she did not want to recall the memory of Shidao being killed continuously. Second, she did not dare to meet the clones, fearing that they would look down upon her. The clones seemed to have sensed Kuang San's mood and had not appeared in the past few years. They just slept in Kuang San's shadow.

But now, nothing matters.

"Hmph...are you here to blame me...no, are you here to kill me...'us'?"

With a lifeless sneer on her face, Kuang San spread her hands, looking ready to be slaughtered.

"Okay... Let's do it... I don't know what will happen if the clone kills the real body, but maybe with luck, after devouring my spirit crystal, it can replace the real body. Hehe——"

"Are you serious about this... 'me'?"

There was a hint of anger in the clone's voice.

"Well...it doesn't matter anymore...I...there's no point in living anymore..."

--Snapped!

Suddenly, there was a burning sensation on her cheek, which made Kuang San dazed.

"You bastard! Aren't you our original self? Have you forgotten what you said when you summoned us?!"

"You are clearly a loser who has killed more than 20,000 people and has accomplished nothing. Why are you acting like a victim here?"

“…What do you know!!”

Being insulted like this not by others, but by her past self, made Kuang San grit her teeth and roar.

"Everything is over! Whether it's DEM, the spirit reversal, or the problem of the origin spirit, it's all over in this future. In a place that has nothing to do with me, it's all over without me doing anything! Everything I did, the people I killed, are all meaningless! In the end, I still didn't save anyone, I just kept hurting others. Why am I still alive!?"

"So... why didn't you choose to commit suicide? Why did you ask 'us' for help?"

The clone lifted up Kurumi's collar, forcing her to look at him, and questioned him harshly.

"..."

Hearing the clone's words, Kuang San was speechless for a moment.

"You can't commit suicide because you understand that Liang Yi Meng Yue wants you to live."

"You want to respect her consciousness, but you can't give yourself a reason or purpose to live."

"That's why you summoned 'us' unconsciously. I hope 'us' can make the decision for you."

"coward."

"Hey, hey, hey."

As if her thoughts were revealed by the clone, Kuang San pushed the other person away in annoyance.

"If that's the case, just tell me. What should I do?"

"Sa. In fact, you should already have the answer in your heart."

As he spoke, one of the clones took out two flintlock rifles, one long and one short, and threw them in front of Kurumi.

"Zafkiel..."

Kuang San held her breath and whispered the angel's real name.

"This place is both the present and the future for you."

"For others, the past cannot be changed. There is no regret and no future. All they can do is passively accept the results and move on. But you are the only one in this world who has the right to realize 'what if'."

"Although this path has little hope, there is still a glimmer of possibility."

"But this also means that everything will have to start over again. The future created by Liang Yi Meng Yue will vanish into thin air. And the next future may be even worse than the current one."

"It has nothing to do with Takamiya Mio Mukou, Gokawa Shidao, or Ryogi Yumezuki. It's up to you to decide how to choose."

"But we will never allow the option of dying."

Listening to the clone's words, Kuang San picked up the Keke Emperor silently.

His fingers were trembling slightly, and the moment he picked up the Kekeketei, the tragic scenes of Shidao's countless deaths and Mengyue's smile before her death began to emerge in his mind.

"I……"

-

①I cannot accept such a future.

② Be willing to accept the current reality.

-

Kuang San gritted her teeth and gripped the handle of the "Ke Ke Di" tightly.

“Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha—”

With a hint of joy on her lips, Kuang San raised her head and laughed out loud in the silent forest.

It was a laughter that seemed to sweep away all the timidity, cowardice, and confusion in one's heart without leaving any room for further laughter.

"Hahaha...really...what on earth have I been thinking about so far?"

After laughing so hard that she almost got a stitch in the side, Kuang San finally stopped and sighed with a somewhat speechless bitter smile.

"I'm sorry, Miss Mengyue. It's rare for you to be so kind, but I can't accept such a future."

"I will not give up on Mr. Shidou, nor will I give up on my own goal. I will completely deny this future and move forward towards the future I believe in."

——Elohim, the third divine spiritual outfit.

The next moment, the light of spiritual energy gathered around Kurumi, transforming her casual clothes into a black and red frilly dress.

At the same time, a huge clock appeared behind Kuang San. At the moment when "XII" was engraved on the top of the clock, thick black mist surged out and filled the barrel of the gun.

Zafkiel (Emperor of Keke)——Yud.Bet (Bomb of Twelve).

There are two bullets in Kekeketei that can go back to the past. Although the "Twelve Bullets" can jump for a longer time, it can only stay in the past temporarily; the "Six Bullets" has a shorter jump time, but there is relatively no need to worry about the consumption of "time". However, if Tokisaki Kurumi does not exist at the time of the jump, the "Six Bullets" will become invalid. Furthermore, if Kurumi at the past time point does not have the ability of the "Six Bullets", she will not be able to continue to go back to the past.

Neither the "Twelve Bullets" or the "Six Bullets" alone can allow Kurumi to return to the past seven years ago, so she must use a combination of the two.

(First, use the 'Twelve Bullet' to go back to February 2th, seven years ago, when he did not exist, and then use the 'Six Bullet' to jump to February 14th, before Mr. Shidao was killed.)

After confirming that this method was theoretically feasible, Kuang San took a deep breath.

"Oh, is vacation time over?"

"Have you decided? 'I'."

"Well, sorry to have kept you waiting, 'we'."

Facing her own clone, Kuang San said with some shame.

"Then, I will return to that hell again, and then... maybe I will negate all the efforts I have made so far."

"Hehe——what else do you have to say now?"

"We are you, the you of the past."

"You are our accumulation and the destination we will reach in the future."

"Therefore, every choice and every decision you make, whether it is sacrifice or escape, we will accept it."

"……Thanks."

Looking at their happy laughter, Kuang San inexplicably felt defeated and convinced by herself.

"Then - let's go back to the 'now' that is waiting for us."

Moving the flintlock to her temple, Kurumi pulled the trigger with an extremely strong desire.

"This time, I will definitely break that cycle."

--boom.

With the sound of a gunshot, this nameless grave hidden deep in the forest returned to silence along with the rain of light falling from the sky.

——The future where he doesn’t exist, true end.

[Beep - World line fluctuation detected - Start saving host information - Error - Confirmed that the host has lost life activities - Memory synchronization - Failed -]

postscript

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Hello everyone, I am very nervous on the chess field.

Special Volume - A World Where He Doesn't Exist. I've been writing it for two or three months, and now it's finally finished.

I remember that I first conceived this volume when I finished reading Volume 18, "Mio's Game Over". How should I put it at that time... How should I put it at that time? After reading it, I was shocked in many ways, especially after seeing the scene where Mio swept the whole place with unparalleled power. I kept thinking about how to make Mengyue defeat this combat power ceiling, and then the plot of this volume came into being.

As for the final battle between Mengyue and Mio in this volume, to be honest, it was the most difficult plot I have ever written. On the one hand, Mio is really strong, and it is really difficult to design an environment that can give her a glimmer of hope of victory. On the other hand, when I was writing this plot, I almost had a falling out with my die-hard fans of the original work.

Mio is set to be invincible in this game, and she cannot be defeated no matter what. Mengyue will definitely lose this battle. I and them had a debate like the pros and cons in a university debate, bringing out all kinds of information and evidence to discuss for a whole night.

But in the end, no one convinced anyone (shrug).

But in the end, we all gave in. The final decision is that I will write the story while respecting the original work's description of Mio as much as possible, but the ability settings that are inevitably modified will be explained in this postscript.

First of all, I changed the setting of Mio Takamiya. But thanks to the discussion with my friends, I gained a lot of new insights into Mio Takamiya's abilities and avoided a lot of useless changes. In fact, I didn't change many settings. Whether it was the Universal Temple, the Paradise of Samsara, or the Angel of Nothingness, I tried my best to follow the original settings.

The only thing that cannot be changed is Mio's final trump card - Ain ( ) Angel of Nothingness. According to my friend, it seems to be a skill that can conceptually lock onto the target with a 100% hit rate. As long as Mio activates it, the opponent will surely die.

However, I added another lock-on attack method based on this, which is to erase all objects within the specified space. To put it simply, the original Angel of Nothingness is similar to a missile that can automatically pursue with just one button, and I added an additional option for the driver to manually aim.

Secondly, it is the Samsara Paradise. The part in the story about using the elf technique developed by Westcott to seize control was discussed with my friends, and it was changed to that way after I finished reading the plot after volume 19. My original plan was to let Mengyue make up something and get away with it.

However, there is a problem that there is too little positive description of the spirit art in volume 19. It only says that after Westcott used the spirit art, he took away half of Mio's power. To be honest, this development makes Mio, who was still invincible in volume 18, a little bit subtle in my mind, so here we assume that Westcott in the original work perfected and strengthened the spirit art in volume 19, and the spirit art that Meng Yue got in this world line is the initial version 30 years ago, so it is so difficult to fight.

Having said that, you may have discovered that the focus of my modification of this plot is not to weaken the original setting, but to strengthen Meng Yue... No, strictly speaking, it is specialization.

Angels who can use other spirits and cannot be directly locked on a conceptual level, it is precisely because of these two points that Mengyue is qualified to fight with Mio without being defeated, and in the end avoid Mio's attack of the Angel of Nothingness and survive.

Also, I have made some changes to the ability setting of Kurumi's angel, Kekeketei.

To be more precise, the settings of "Eleven Bullets" and "Twelve Bullets" have been modified.