Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

The people who are alive now are more important.

【--you do not know.】

[After all, humans will always encounter many things in their lives, and it is impossible to use rational thinking to weigh the pros and cons and calculate the best result. ]

[Perhaps it is because wisdom has its limits, or perhaps it is because this rationality is not matched with the abilities it is equipped with, and it does not have the talent to handle everything.]

[If you still have a little bit of emotion or complete memory, you should be able to make a final decision quickly. ]

【No need to think too much. 】

【No need for extra analysis.】

【If you can't do it rationally, you can use emotion. 】

[Being dominated by emotions is never a bad thing, because humans are not essentially machines made of silicon. ]

This compassion, this empathy, this feeling, this ability to make choices from the heart is an innate talent of human beings.

[Just follow your inner thoughts, just follow the strongest, biggest and most undeniable voice in your mind, just follow the direction of your beating heart and move forward boldly. ]

[——You can’t do it anymore.]

[Option 1: You are still confused about the inexplicable emotions in your heart, and you still want to explore what the lost memory is. ]

[Option 2: As the price of your resurrection, since it is a lost memory, there is no need to rush to find it.]

[Option 3: No, you shouldn't care, you shouldn't care, you absolutely can't do this, you can't explore the truth about this memory, you shouldn't look for anything other than the girl's... wish.]

Once again, I am faced with the long-missed option of making a choice. The results of the three choices are not essentially the same, nor are they three options connected into one.

Perhaps it was because after the memory was cleared, even the obsession in the heart disappeared.

Instead, it was like the past, as if he had just met Alicia, just set foot in this world, and just went to the Spiral Workshop. He had countless thoughts in his heart and many possible choices.

Apart from……

"—Option three?"

"What's going on?"

There was doubt in the young man's dark eyes. After blinking several times, the same options were still reflected in his sight.

It was still the same idea that he couldn't feel at all in his heart, and in theory it was completely inconsistent with the choices and options that might pop up in his mind.

This simulation is different from the simple simulator in general perception. Rather than calling it a simulation, it is better to say that it is personally going to a new world to live a brand new life and adventure, to explore completely opposite possibilities.

In a world that is theoretically impossible to travel to, even if the point of travel is the current civilization, you can still meet those heroes who are theoretically dead.

At this point in time, except for the few people who survived, the rest, even if they still exist, are just dead data.

Strong empathy is closer to personal experience and participation, rather than manipulating other people's lives from a high position across a screen.

It was for this reason that Jiang Cheng could clearly feel his own beating heart. He was still missing everything he had just seen, including the swimming pool he saw again, and there was absolutely no such thought in his heart.

This option triangle is extremely ridiculous, including the so-called wish which is very abrupt.

——Could something have gone wrong when I was resurrected?

Probably not?

How could someone like Alicia, who is so cute and flawless, whose heart is still pink even after being cut open, and who loves the world like a goddess or a fairy in paradise, see her own problems and not say anything?

There might really be some problem, and it may be that the girl has not yet realized the existence of the problem.

After all, we spend too little time together.

Although it seemed that he had spent his entire childhood and teenage life from the age of five to twenty-one, in fact, except for the first five years, he had always been chasing the girl, while the girl ignored him. This one-sided love could not give the two people room for communication.

Just like I said before, there is no emotion that I can express, and Alicia has never given me the opportunity to understand her.

In contrast, the girl also had no chance or time to understand herself.

——I hope it can be seen as soon as possible in the subsequent interactions.

As for options or something.

There's no need to be so radical.

Alicia has been traveling all the time and has no chance to meet Wei Erwei. Even though she has participated in every exchange meeting before, she has never had any sense of existence and no one cares about her.

If we look for it now, there is probably no chance of finding it. Even if we find Dr. Mobius, it seems that nothing will change.

It would be better for me to look for it together with Alicia when we have the chance in the future, and try every possible way to see if we can also revive it in such an incomplete way.

Jiang Cheng's fingertips gently touched the second option, and after thinking for a while, he still chose the most common one as he had done countless times before.

For most ordinary people, a simple and moderate life seems to be the best choice.

【——Option 2.】

[According to my memory, you and Velvet finally chose to leave Alicia, and worked together to embark on your own new adventure.]

[No matter how close the place called Spiral Workshop is, the girl who keeps traveling and exploring paradise and beauty will eventually be left far behind, and it will be difficult to even see her shadow behind her.]

[It is impossible that the girl was staring at you specifically, otherwise you would not have been alone for such a long time before your death.]

[According to the tragedy you experienced at that time, at least in my memory, you were almost dying. Even if the girl had the slightest affection for you, she would not turn a blind eye to it. She would not even sit idly by and watch ordinary people.]

[Eighty percent of your past has been buried under the ruins, and you can’t find the friends or people who know you that may still exist in your memory.]

[It is better to rest slowly like this and adapt to life. Anyway, Alicia will definitely help you find your lost memories and past. ]

[Even when I was most ignored. ]

[Even when my inner distress is at its worst.]

[You have never thought that a girl would do anything shameless, dirty, or wrong, and she may not even do anything selfish.]

[Choosing to ignore yourself, choosing to give your tenderness to the public, choosing to help more people is not itself a manifestation of fraternity? 】

[It’s just because you alone would feel uncomfortable because of this tenderness. ]

[Because it comes from people’s selfishness and greed. ]

【Because of this ugliness and mistake. 】

[You just want the girl who looks at everyone to look at you more, but you are not satisfied that you can only follow the girl's footsteps alone, and you can't get more attention no matter what. ]

[This selfishness comes from you, it is definitely not Alicia's fault. ]

How can you blame others for your mistakes?

[In your memory, she is as brilliant as ever, including when you and I gave flowers to passers-by outside the church when we were little, and helped the children in the orphanage do some simple handicrafts - this is why you believe that the girl will definitely find her own paradise.]

[Because if even such a perfect person can't find his own paradise, then who in this world can find his own paradise? ]

[You are not a selfish and self-deprecating person, right? ]

[Anyway, you don't have to worry about the girl's character. ]

[Even if you are worried about yourself, you don't have to doubt Alicia. The probability of you becoming a demon king in your memory is higher than the possibility of a girl doing bad things. ]

[Since you are the one who was resurrected by the girl, you only need to talk to her later, and I believe you will naturally be able to work together to overcome the lost memories in your heart. ]

[With this in mind, you choose to step into the swimming pool. Because the dress you are wearing is made of the power of the Herrscher, you don't have to worry about getting wet by the water, and you fall directly into the deepest part.]

Chapter of the Moon and the Stars: 85. People gather around Alicia again

[You rely on gravity to adjust your body underwater, just like in your memory, looking at the yellow light hanging next to you that looks like a street lamp.]

[The warm yellow light flows along the slightly blue water waves. Even the slightest change can be captured by the dark blue pupils. He opens his mouth gently and deliberately exhales a little air. The exhaled bubbles float upward like jellyfish.]

[It is exactly the same as before, without any changes, just like a scene in a dream, the whole world is filtered through a warm water filter.]

[No longer need to worry about whether or not you will get infected if you open your eyes under the pool. 】

[The Herrscher's body is already immune to all viruses. ]

【There is no need to be afraid.】

【No need to worry.】

【No need to worry. 】

[Indulge yourself in this, indulge yourself in the beauty of the past, the only beauty in life that has theoretically passed for more than 30 years. ]

[Until the fish-like girl gently left, her delicate feet gently splashing in the 9 pools of water to create momentum for moving forward, and her cute face almost bumping into you, this intoxication has somewhat subsided. ]

[Looking at those flawless pink eyes, and the smile that was raised gently, which even the water could not bend, you understood and extended your right hand.]

【ah……】

【A beautiful paradise, a flawless land. 】

……

[——This is simply wonderful.]

[Looking at the boy who was so close, lying quietly at the bottom of the pool, in the rippling water, his pair of dark starry eyes were still shining like stars, reflecting the traces of the warm yellow light being refracted by the water surface.]

[The eyelashes fluttered in the water. Perhaps because she became a Herrscher, she was dressed like other Herrschers. The corners of her eyes were raised with a touch of scarlet.]

[Whether it is the pupils, the tall eyebrows, the body that is exactly the same as in your memory, or even the gently pursed lips, you are intoxicated. ]

[Even if you go back to the only past that can retain a beautiful place in your memory, the past before you were five years old. ]

[You can no longer suppress your emotions, and you quickly swim towards Jiangcheng, your bare feet splashing in the water. The boy seems to understand your emotions better than you do, and he gently reaches out his hand.]

[After becoming a Herrscher, his right hand, which had returned to its youthfulness and no trace of any extreme play with Vivi, touched the girl's delicate fingertips.]

[It feels like an electric shock, transmitted from the fingertips to the nerve endings. This numbing current jumps across the entire pool of water, attacking you from the inside and outside, from every part of your body.]

[——You were crushed in an instant.]

【There is no need to think about any mess. 】

[The so-called guilt, the so-called atonement, the so-called meanness... all of this has become meaningless at this moment. ]

[Originally, you might have felt bad that your despicable emotions caused the boy to be trampled on, that even his last wishes after death could not be fulfilled, that he was resurrected by someone who was insulted at the level of life, and that he lost his emotions.]

[Because I chose to take advantage of the boy's comforting me, and used this concern to gain the opportunity to monopolize Jiangcheng and make Wei Erwei's memories completely forgotten. I feel guilty. ]

[This time you are doing bad things nakedly without any disguise. ]

[Even if the person involved, Wei Wei, agrees, it is still a bad thing. 】

[It will eventually deal a blow to your heart that has grown up with so much hope from the beginning, and hurt your numb self again.]

[——It doesn’t matter now.]

[You don’t care anymore.]

[You are a Herrscher anyway. Isn't it normal for a Herrscher to do bad things? ]

[Even if you hold on to the idea of ​​helping others, your actions will only lead to tragic consequences, just like a disaster. Jiang Cheng only saved you once, but you wasted his entire life.]

[It is not difficult to admit your true nature and embrace your reality. 】

【Perhaps most people still refuse to accept her true self.】

[At least not for you now. ]

【At least you can accept a lot. 】

[It doesn’t necessarily mean I can accept everything about you, nor can I necessarily accept all of my own ugliness, but if I compare myself to the past, I have made a lot of progress.]

[The only thing that can stay in your heart at this moment is a word that you would undoubtedly have considered a false lie and a deception in the past. ]

【really……】

[It’s still most comfortable to be a bad guy. ]

……

what……

Being a bad guy?

seem……

That’s true.

She used to be obsessed with saving, helping, and pursuing so-called atonement, but she ended up missing opportunities again and again, and ignoring the young man again and again, until she lost the only person she loved with her own hands.