Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

At least Aponia did feel that at a certain moment, something flashed in those eyes that was even far superior to the so-called thread of fate.

A certain inexplicable uneasiness and fear that cannot be described in any specific words has unknowingly crept into that overly full heart.

That is the fear that mortals feel when they gaze into the abyss or into the night sky. It is the fear that comes from knowing that something will change, but not knowing exactly what the change will be.

It seemed that what she did, the application of this commandment, had burst something as fragile as a bubble.

"How……"

"what happened?"

……

The tone that came out of her mouth had lost its compassion and concern, and was replaced by the panic that should not belong to a nun.

There was an incomprehensible undertone, full of inappropriate emotions and gaffes.

——It’s all meaningless.

The coldness in those eyes remained, completely destroyed and shattered by the flood, and the heart with nothing left once again welcomed the embrace of the sea.

——After all, it’s just too late.

The narrow corners of the eyes, dotted with scarlet, revealed some emotions that should not have existed and had been blocked long ago.

"Thank you for letting me recall some things, some memories... that are not very similar to what Alicia said."

"Wei Weiwei, the dark golden girl, the girl with low self-esteem, the only birthday present, and the gorgeous cherry blossoms in full bloom."

"what……"

"I seem to..."

"I forgot something I shouldn't have forgotten."

……

[Such arrogance.]

[So self-righteous. ]

[Aponia actually thought that he had solved everything in his own way. ]

[If everything really went as she thought, then this behavior could not be called so wrong or incomprehensible.]

[For an unknown disaster that is about to happen, the best way is indeed to muddy the waters to prevent the worst outcome that has already been reached.]

[The only problem is that this so-called best ending is only for Aponiya. In her eyes, this ending is the worst.]

[——This is ridiculous.]

[What she knows is totally inconsistent with her courage. What goes along with her courage is ignorance.]

[——Excessively stupid.]

[Aponia arrived too late. The day she arrived at the Paradise was less than a week before your resurrection. She had no idea that the Paradise was just a willow branch that Alicia casually planted.]

[She watched Alicia taking you for a stroll in the town every day, so she arrogantly believed that Alicia would stay here forever.]

[Seeing that Alicia would occasionally care about the residents of the town under your guidance, I thought that the paradise was very important to the girl. ]

[She arrogantly guessed that this was the paradise that Alicia was looking for, and arbitrarily considered the impending disaster to be the worst possible outcome.]

[Under such circumstances, it seems understandable that such a stupid act would be performed. ]

【Aponia is always like this.】

[She always tries to save and change things unilaterally, but she also always causes other disasters without even knowing her own abilities.]

[Compared to the fact that he almost single-handedly destroyed the only three remaining cities of mankind, causing the death of a hero, shattering the trust between people, and even the heroes could no longer unite. ]

[Alicea had no choice but to transform herself into a Herrscher, put on makeup for the first time, and attend a death party in exchange for the only remaining hope and unity.]

[Now everything she did could actually be considered her preferred choice. ]

[Aponia...]

[In a sense you should thank her.]

【Thanks to this arrogant nun...】

[At least at this moment, the impact of her actions on you is not that far-reaching, and she has indeed helped you in many ways.]

[You recalled a number of past events that were completely different from what Alicia had said, countless blurry but extremely impressive fragments.]

[The vast majority of them had the same figure, a dark-gold girl who always lowered her head, habitually felt inferior, and self-loathed.]

[That was something that Alicia had never mentioned before. Even if she had to mention it occasionally, it was just as an ordinary friend.]

【why? 】

【how come? 】

[If that figure was really just an ordinary friend that I met casually, then how could it appear so many times in my memory? ]

[No other irrelevant people will participate in your journey with Alicia, not even Mebius has really joined.]

[However, the time intervals between those clips are definitely not short. Just from the length of the hair, you can tell how long the time span is. ]

[Perhaps all of this can still be explained as Alicia said, that Honkai fabricated false memories in order to make you take revenge on humans and to make you stir up disasters with anger.]

[But you no longer want to perfunctorily deal with yourself like this, and you don’t want to be forced to suppress your doubts before they emerge, and give an unsatisfactory answer.]

[Your doubts and confusion have been suppressed time and time again. Alicia chose to escape and circumvent every time. ]

[As childhood sweethearts, lovers who have never been apart, and the closest lovers in the world, what on earth can't you say? 】

[Option 1: You have to figure out why you have so many flashbacks in your mind, and why these memories are all different from what Alicia said? There is absolutely no similarity at all.]

[Option 2: You have never doubted Alicia. Even when she denied your only memory, your first choice was to doubt yourself, everything about yourself, even your own self.]

[Option 3: You cannot accept being deceived by a girl and being played with like a toy. You cannot accept your trust being treated as cheap trash and trampled on at will, even if there is only that possibility.]

……

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Chapter of Stars and Moon: 102. You decide to go find Alicia

As expected, it is Aponia.

The boy thought that everything had calmed down, and there would not be any twists and turns or disasters in his life until the end, and he would continue this warm and beautiful life.

I even subconsciously thought that the birth of the so-called tragedy simply meant that the end would inevitably come and shatter all the beauty of the present.

Because there is really no possibility or chance of breaking all this, his trust in the girl is absolute.

Alicia had already patched up everything, and the lies woven with countless lies had formed an unbreakable dense web.

It is more indestructible than the real thing, and is forged from the shattering of all selves.

He was reborn like a baby with almost no common sense and memory. When he opened his eyes, the first person he saw was Alicia.

The first beauty felt in the heart, the first cherishment that could not be tolerated, the sadness when the girl cried, the pity for those beautiful eyes full of moisture, and the first love that touched the heartstrings after resurrection.

From top to bottom.

From start to finish.

Every part of my body was firmly stuck in it, and I didn't even have the strength to move my fingers.

what……

It's a reality that makes people powerless to resist.

The girl was really like a spider, shrouding herself with false sweet words and gradually entwining herself with the tenderness that really existed.

If this is real and all of this is correct, then the body will instinctively deny it, and the memories in the mind will refuse to accept all of this countless times, refuse to accept this falsehood.

But if this is false, this genuine tenderness and love can also make you feel warm deep in your heart and the excitement of being embraced.

This is also something that cannot be denied, rejected, or slandered.

We should not deny love, and we should not deny everything blindly.

Everything in the world has edges and corners and has many aspects. Even a circle, even a circle that seems to have no edges and corners and whose edges can be seen at a glance, can only appear in front of people's eyes in that area.

If you deny everything about a girl just because of one thing, and deny the true emotions hidden in her heart just because of one mistake.

No.

Not accepted.

deny.

Alicia inadvertently conceived a dragnet that entangled not only the boy who was treated as a plaything and manipulated like a puppet, but also the boy himself, and the people who should have been watching everything from a higher level were also entangled.

The warmth and falsehood that exist at this moment together create a pulling feeling that seems to be stopped in an inch, constantly seducing the emotions but suppressing them.

The boy knew clearly that what Alicia said was false, but he could not deny that she was willing to give up everything for him, even treating her dignity and self as cheap as stones found everywhere on the roadside like Vivi.

On one hand, there is dissatisfaction with falsehood and anger at being deceived, and on the other hand, there is worry that one cannot bear to break this beautiful feeling and indulges in gentle decadence.

Over and over again, again and again.

As if it were endless, this life that should have been beautiful and full of happiness has turned into a purgatory that drains away the self and the fighting spirit.

Every time the boy discovered a loophole in Alicia's words, every time the boy expected to find the truth behind the scenes, he couldn't help but feel uneasy that this beautiful thing was broken.

When he really found the problem and started to speak, his little heart was at its highest point, but was suppressed again by the girl's few words.

The heart also returns gently to its place, without having to endure the torture of falling to the ground. The process of going up and down is a huge burden in itself.

Until the surging emotions in my heart are completely exhausted.

The up and down pulling was too much for the fragile heart to bear.

Even having any extra emotions became impossible.

In a tug-of-war game where there is no opponent, no matter how much weight is clamped, you can always pull the rope out little by little as long as you rely on time. No matter how long it takes, no one on the other side will pull the rope back.

It's just time.

……

Jiang Cheng had silently accepted all of this, accepting that Alicia had obtained all of his love and affection through despicable means.

Even in daily life, you can still find some flaws and make some choices. In the acquiescence caused by excessive fatigue, everything finally becomes calm. Even if a stone is thrown into the ocean of your heart, only slight ripples will appear.

At least the pursuit of the truth rarely appears in the options anymore, and what occupies more focus is, instead, the development of the gameplay with Alicia.

Due to limitations in her physical condition, there were some things that even Wei Li did not dare to try easily, for fear that she would be worried if she got injured.

Although if he wasn't worried, the boy had no doubt that Vilvi would accept the possible damage caused by those games as a reward.

The girl has already transformed herself into someone's lover, her own exclusive Masochist. She will never refuse such a thing that allows her to play deeper games with her lover and deepen her impression of her.

Ultimately, it was limited by various factors and could not be done, could not be truly realized, and could not show this overly perverted posture and technique.

It has been occupied by the latecomer Alicia, and a way of playing has been developed that belongs only to her.

Before I knew it, my heart had been gradually occupied.

Inevitable and unstoppable.

A long period of time is enough to change anything. Even seemingly insignificant water and tough rocks will be penetrated one day.

Weiwei really can't be ignored...

That love must not be ignored.

Even if the girl's last words in the pocket watch she left behind were to forget her, the boy would not be so stupid.

This forgetting is not a denial of love, but rather the greatest sublimation of love.

Weiwei can even trample on love and affection for her own sake.

——In order to stop myself from being sad.

Velvet could even tell her first lie to herself.

——In order to stop myself from feeling pain.

Obviously, the girl cherishes all of this the most.