Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Obviously, for her who has low self-esteem, every minute and every second of love is important.

It was obviously difficult to even make her realize that all this was not bubbles in the sun, and would not suddenly disappear, leaving only bubbling water.

It is difficult for a girl to calm down because she will feel panic due to the inferiority complex that is deep in her bones and the past experiences that are engraved in her soul.

If I can't smell my own scent for a moment, I will feel uneasy. If I can't look at myself for even a second, I will tremble with fear.

She was completely unable to return to darkness after seeing the light, and was unable to return to the freezing cold abyss again after no longer being able to feel warmth.

This feeling of disapproval and inferiority complex were intertwined. For this girl, the only thing that could be called a treasure was probably...

--like.

Just as the saying goes that the world is not black and white, most of the time it is just a cover-up for some people to make profits and refuse to explore further. If you really believe it, then it will be completely unrelated to your IQ.

At least Jiang Cheng has never forgotten, and will definitely not forget the pain that almost tore his heart apart, crushed his heart, and cut his intestines into pieces.

Now it is only because of one unstoppable thing after another, which slowly corrodes and corrupts everything like a gradual dripping punishment.

time……

Habit……

What a powerful force.

It can even make Otto grow from an initial hero who joined the rebel army because of Saint Kallen to an evil person who loves human experiments, and even in the early stages, whenever he appears, he is almost certainly accompanied by human experiments that do not care about life.

A shameless person who could drop a nuclear bomb on Cecilia's location without hesitation just because of fear and concern for Siegfried's power.

It wasn't even to fight against Honkai, it was even thrown in their direction after seeing Cecilia calm down Sirin's rampage.

He was able to do this after his most loyal subordinate died.

Siegfried's lover was killed by his own explosion.

After resolving the Great Disaster, he was killed by his own explosion.

The man known as the dragon-slaying hero still chose to return to his destiny, but his life began to fall apart because he lost the most important person.

They used their daughters, the daughters of their own subordinates, the orphans of heroes, and such young girls for human experiments, and cloned hundreds of experimental subjects.

Perhaps a person named Otto is not essentially someone who can be described as good or normal.

From the very beginning, he was a person who could participate in black box experiments and treat human lives as toys and jokes.

This is enough to prove the erosion of will by time and years.

If things like this continue for a while longer.

I'm afraid that Jiang Cheng is really only tough in words, and only maintains the stubbornness of not wanting to accept easily, with a disloyal mouth but a righteous body.

Until a scene appeared before my eyes that I had never imagined since my resurrection.

Until a cruel, terrifying and cold choice appeared before my eyes.

There are three options, and none of them leads to a good ending.

It no longer has anything to do with the players. Just by thinking from Jiang Cheng's perspective and looking through Jiang Cheng's eyes, you can already see the final ending.

Again.

That feeling seems to be coming back again.

The tangled, stretched emotions.

It's like cutting something bit by bit like a gear, so sad and indescribable.

There was no blade at all, it was just that angular structure that struck the heart, causing blunt force trauma again and again.

It's just that the occasional expectations for the truth to be revealed and the hope to escape false sweet words seem to have inadvertently turned into the fear of the destruction of the beauty before my eyes.

what……

Aponia.

I seem to...

I can understand Qianjie.

Why can't you just do something that doesn't cause any trouble?

I just hope I can find Alicia soon... and at least land safely without getting smashed to pieces.

[Option 1.]

……

[——You decided to go find Alicia.]

[You don't want to be handed a dark gold whip with that coquettish expression, that look of a complete ○ gentleman, that attempt to change the subject, that guilt of not being able to save you in the first place, and a pouting mouth as he hands you a whip. ]

[In the end, you are needed to comfort Alicia and find ways to squeeze out some reasons for the girl's innocence from the memories that don't exist at all.]

[So much so that when you are pressed down by Alicia, you often don’t realize that you have already entered the prelude to exhaustion.]

[Once or twice is fine, three or four times is fine, and you are also happy to accept more, as long as you are not exhausted every time, as a lover, this behavior is not a big problem. 】

[The only problem is that no matter how you try to hide it or evade it, what exists exists, and what doesn’t exist doesn’t exist. And it’s impossible for humans to hide from a problem for a lifetime.]

[This is actually nothing. You just saw a golden girl in your memory who might have a good relationship with you.]

[The only close contact I could have with the girl whose name I couldn't call out was probably the dark gold panties that I only saw a glimpse of in my memory.]

[This was revealed accidentally during the breezy uphill section, and it was only seen with the naked eye.]

【What does this even count for? 】

[Until now, you are willing to believe in Alicia, as long as she is willing to tell you the reasons that will convince you or at least make you accept them.]

[No matter if there are falsehoods in the memories, no matter if there are lies in the words, no matter if you have ever met another important friend. ]

[That friend who might be very close to you is definitely not as important as the lover who has never been apart, the childhood sweetheart who has always been together. ]

[It's impossible that Alicia has already broken up with you. The girl who has so many fragments in your mind is your lover. ]

[——How is that possible?]

[You are more obsessed with this, perhaps in addition to some obsession that you are unwilling to give up, which has been buried since the first day you came to the paradise, and the obsession of wanting to figure out the specific falsehood in your memory, the only thing is transparency. ]

[——You are transparent. ]

[Alicea once told you that as the most important lover in the world, you should not hide anything from the other person.]

[For this, you specifically disclosed all your hobbies and XP, including some marginal comics you bought from Padofelice.]

[That night, although you didn’t notice that all your comics disappeared, you saw something a thousand times more terrifying than losing your collection.]

[Alicea has restored all your XP. The smile on her soft lips is more frightening than a billion murderers.]

[Just by looking at those beautiful eyes filled with mist, as if they have been carved into a diamond-shaped heart-shaped pupil by something called love, you can feel your waist aching instinctively.]

[You obviously didn't hide anything from the girl. ]

[As your lover, how could Alicia hide anything from you? 】

……

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PS:

It really feels weird. After Cecilia was killed in the explosion, Siegfried still returned to Tianming, the place where the person who killed Cecilia personally lived.

Didn't Siegfried choose to leave only after he found out that his daughter was being experimented on? I don't think many people in the world can accept their daughter being experimented on.

The reason why they lost Yulandel was because it was blocked by Otto and bombed down. Inheriting a name is a common custom in Europe and it is not considered an insult.

Otherwise, has Louis XVI, who always appears in brainless places, been insulted for sixteen generations?

He left Kiana just to prevent another outbreak of Honkai and to prevent her from losing control again. In fact, he had been staying by Kiana's side to protect her.

Why would some people deny Siegfried and even think that he is not suitable to be a father?

Chapter of the Moon and the Stars: 103. Aponia: I seem to have done something wrong...

"These are some clear yet fuzzy memory fragments. It seems like I really need to be impolite this time and get to the bottom of it."

"As the most important lover, there shouldn't be any falsehood or concealment. Isn't this... not what Alicia told me herself?"

"The plan of collapse, true and false, real and fake, I really can't tell them apart."

The dark and deep hair, like the endless ocean, was gently lifted by the wind coming from nowhere, revealing eyes that had regained some of their humanity.

But the words that came out of his lips again were no longer as gentle as at the beginning, and the thought of wanting to help others had been completely shattered.

Now all that's left is a mixture of inexplicable and mixed feelings, and everything that was shattered after the chaos.

Those were the broken pieces of stone left after the flood tore through the dam.

The memories that emerged in my heart, the things that my instinct urged me to trust, the lies and fallacies that Alicia said, the denial of all the past.

The contradictory and weird psychology is as if all the emotions that had been diverted were merely suppressed, buried deep in the soil like seeds, and would quickly break through the soil and sprout as soon as a drop of dew fell.

The so-called changing the subject is nothing but a lie. It only changes the topic but buries the facts, storing up the emotions endlessly.

It is essentially ridiculous to the extent that they cover the seeds with soil in an attempt to press them down so that they cannot germinate or grow.

What's the point?

Have.

It cannot be denied that there is.

Emotions will never disappear, and no matter how much you suppress them, they will eventually stay there. But just like love, emotions can be transferred, from resentment, complaint, and doubt to love, warmth, and enjoyment.

The wear and tear brought by time and habit can even tear rocks beyond recognition, and the boy will one day become like Alicia.

Not only physically, but also in terms of habits, hobbies, but also in terms of soul, one day he will never be able to leave that flawless girl.

This is not something as simple as one plus one. It is not something that can be easily solved with just a little action and a little time.

The prerequisite for engraving one's presence into the lives of others is that there is enough time, enough time to wear away everything, to be together intimately.

Now the new life between the boy and the girl has only been going on for less than two years, and even the emotions in their hearts occasionally sprout up.

——It’s totally not enough!

……

The gray eyes that belonged to the nun, that had witnessed countless disasters and listened to countless prayers of others, revealed doubts for the first time, as if they were really covered with a layer of dust and were stunned.

Can't understand.

do not understand at all.

I can't understand it at all.

As a nun, the real job is to listen to other people's prayers and have a keen emotional insight, so that you can realize the emotions and problems in the enemy's heart the moment the enemy opens his mouth.

Regardless of whether it is Twilight Street or not, whether the qualification of this nun is questionable, the girl must also have a strong ability of empathy.

But at this moment, Aponia could not understand what was happening in front of her, nor could she understand the subtle emotions contained in those dark eyes.

There is no explanation or description.

There are not even a few complete and continuous sentences.

The boy seemed to be just complaining about some resentment that had been buried deep in his heart for a long time, using some meaningless, emotional symbols or characters.

This seemed very common in the past and was a very normal thing at any time, but it seemed extremely strange at this moment.

Haven’t the precepts been issued?

Why……

Jiangcheng seems to be completely unaffected?

The so-called forgetfulness...

What exactly does it mean?

It is impossible to piece together complete information from it, and I can't find out the specific situation. I can only feel a subtle weirdness, which is not in line with the behavioral logic and standards that a life with the precepts engraved on it should have.

This is completely different from any previous time, any point in time, and the scene and posture of the person being imposed after any commandment was implemented.