Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

No matter how sad, no matter how tragic, no matter how tempting it is, we must keep moving forward until we have completed this journey, until we can give the young man all the happiness that Weiwei can give.

"No matter how much I hate you, at least at this moment, you are the only one who can help him. I will give you my best help."

"The premise is that you don't do anything that is too difficult to help, otherwise I might choose to use another method."

Mebius comforted others in his usual way, with slightly raised eyebrows and dark circles under his eyes, which made him look inexplicably cold.

The condescending words still carried with them the contempt and disdain of a person in a superior position. It was the arrogance from the bottom of the genius' heart towards the foolish common people.

Even caring about others must be mixed with sarcasm.

Even giving comfort must come with thorns.

This is not an active desire to hurt others or to ridicule others.

It tends to be instinctive. As long as I open my mouth, I will say these things unconsciously. In a sense, I almost forget how to speak normally.

Perhaps it is because they cannot imagine or understand normal communication with others, they are afraid of normal social interaction, and they do not want to be understood by others forever.

It is better to have no insults and ridicule in the first place than to have them not understood, so we have to use such harsh and excessive words to force others to leave.

People who grow up in an unhealthy environment do not have the ability to love normally. If they have never received complete love and have never experienced personal feelings, how can they learn normal love?

Even the top geniuses, the ones who hold everything in their hands, cannot avoid this.

This comes from the imperfection, incompleteness and brokenness within our hearts.

The essence of human beings is still stuck here and has nothing to do with anything, strength, or talent. The only way to overcome it is to stop being a human being. The only way to overcome this natural shackle that belongs to human beings is to stop being a human being.

Not only in terms of strength, but also in terms of life, it transcends the existing limitations of humans and becomes a new species that cannot be called human biologically.

In the true sense, even human feelings need to be abandoned, even the sadness of one's lover, one's happiness, and one's loss, all need to be abandoned.

Perhaps the arrogant Mebius who had never truly explored his own heart ten years ago might have agreed arrogantly.

Now standing here, after being given warmth by others and then having it taken back like bubbles, and after paying an extremely heavy price, Mobius has finally arrived at the position he once wanted and has everything he wanted.

I am no longer as stupid as I used to be and I can no longer easily make promises that I can never fulfill.

--no!

Only this!

Absolutely not!

If all emotions are completely lost, then the individual is essentially erased and all that remains is an empty shell.

This is not limited to the individual's cognition and self-construction, and it is not just because it is still restricted by the ethics of this era.

In the energy called Honkai, emotion is an extremely important factor. If this is lost, even Honkai will not acknowledge or affirm it.

The evolution of life is inherently ugly, and it is impossible to achieve true perfection. So why bother pursuing things that are simply impossible?

There is no room for denying this incompleteness, this unhealthiness, this abnormal self that has never received normal care.

Can only be accepted.

Can only be acknowledged.

It can only be affirmed.

Abnormal people are incapable of giving normal things, cannot give healthy and sufficient love, and cannot cultivate a healthy and normal person.

Mebius also knew that he couldn't do it.

This is not something that can be overcome by talent alone.

But if she doesn't have it at birth or in childhood, then it is basically impossible to have it in the future. Maybe she once had such an opportunity, but she only touched a little bit and then lost it.

The only person here now is a demon scientist, a student who doesn't care about the will of individuals at all and doesn't have much empathy.

and so……

Only she can allow Ai Lishia.

……

"The important part of Vivi is not only the heavy love, but also the talent and gift that can support the girl's crazy imagination."

"If she were just an ordinary person, she wouldn't have the qualifications to worry about gains and losses, and she wouldn't have the ability to spy on your life with Jiang Cheng."

"Whether it's something that seems completely willful or some other fantastic idea, it takes talent and genius to make it happen."

"In terms of your uniqueness and strength, there is no one in the whole world who can match you, but the only thing you can compare to is your wisdom..."

Mebius did not continue speaking. He closed his mouth at the right moment, showing a rare bit of emotional intelligence, because what could come out of those rosy lips would only be a cold and biting denial. The only thing in those eyes, which should have been as cruel and inhuman as a gloomy venomous snake, was affirmation.

"Don't worry, I will help you. If I can only play her in terms of talent, it will be enough even if there are some areas where I am not good at."

"Jiang Cheng's amnesia seems to have caused him to forget a lot of his own talents. If he is not stimulated once again, he may remain the same as before."

"If you just live happily as an ordinary person, you won't notice any loopholes."

——Mobius will indeed help Alicia.

No matter how disgusting.

No matter how annoying.

Regardless of whether or not one was simply looking at this girl, looking at this person who was completely opposite to him in character and behavior and whose attributes were totally incompatible with his, one could feel disgusted and want to kick her out immediately.

She is indeed not a person who would compromise herself. Just like the top chef described in the story of how the butcher cuts up an ox, she can always avoid the parts that cause mental exhaustion and deal with all problems in the best and most perfect manner.

If it's for Jiangcheng's sake...

For the sake of that one birthday cake.

——Only once.

Mebius felt that he could learn to accept it.

It was the first time that I could be self-defeating, the first time that I could make myself a bad cook, the first time that I could give up the privileges that belonged only to geniuses.

Force yourself to suppress your disgust and nausea, and choose to help the person you hate the most, the person who makes you want to vomit just by seeing him.

The evolution and eternity of life are destined to be ugly. There is no such thing as perfection in this world, and there is no such thing as inevitable and absolute beauty.

Even if Shesha's genes were integrated and combined with multiple experiments, the result that could be achieved would still be almost immortality, not absolute immortality.

Perhaps one day, through the study of Honkai, true immortality can be achieved, but the price to pay will inevitably be unimaginable.

Having truly experienced the loss of everything and the non-existence of everything, Mebius is no longer as ignorant and arrogant as he once was.

The limitations of human life are destined to make us ignore the things that exist around us at every moment, and we will only experience pain when we lose something.

Maybe.

Maybe acceptable.

Maybe not acceptable.

Everything is a complete unknown.

At least Mebius really didn't want Jiang Cheng to experience pain again, and didn't want to experience the fleeting happiness again.

She once thought that she was a very open-minded person. This did not mean that she would not bear grudges, but that nothing would cause serious psychological friction.

No matter what kind of past you have experienced, no matter what ugliness you have witnessed, it will eventually only become a driving force for moving forward and continue to move towards eternity.

——This is just an arrogant idea after all.

It was not until the Second Collapse that Mebius truly realized how foolish his self-confidence, arrogance, and his belief that he could control everything and achieve his goals were.

The inexplicable, inexplicable emotions that seemed to be always with me like a maggot on the tarsal bone and were difficult to get rid of kept rising and falling in my heart.

It's not just because of the helplessness of losing two important people on the same day, but also the realization that there is no way to rewrite all the tragedies.

There is something clearer, more painful, and more felt called guilt.

in case……

Jiang Cheng didn't dig me out at the beginning.

Will he have time to save Velvet?

……

"what……"

"You... can tell."

The gentle voice just interrupted my deep thoughts of memories, and the unforgettable fragments and undeniable emotions from the past suddenly shattered.

It was as if I was dragged into the newly built library by the wandering memories. In that place that should have been quiet, I heard the rude and random noise of others shouting, and my mind was forcibly awakened.

In the blurred vision, the concerned and worried look in the boy's eyes disappeared, leaving only the cherry-pink eyes right in front of him.

What was contained in those pupils was the panic of being pointed out by others.

So noisy...

what……

Still can't forget it?

It was obviously several years ago.

Obviously my vision was not that clear at that time, and I couldn't tell what emotion was contained in his eyes.

He is not a fusion warrior and there is no strengthening experiment. He is just an ordinary person. How is it possible for him to retain clear perception after being seriously injured? Even the act of opening his eyes has already shown his best effort.

Now it is clear in my memory, not only the general outline of the surrounding ruins, but even the expression on Jiang Cheng's face is so perfect.

It's because I instinctively blur the past little by little and cover it with filters... Although if it were Jiang Cheng, he would definitely be worried too.

He is always like this, keeping his distance while also being willing to show concern for others. Anyone who can understand him is willing to waste his time.

This is clearly a stupid thing to do...

If it is someone who has no conscience and doesn't care about kindness, he will only be used as a stepping stone.

Mebius took a deep breath of air, and the moment his resentment left his lips, he felt relieved. For the first time, his eyes, which always maintained a superior look, lost all their coldness.

——How can I be completely emotionless?

——It’s not a mindless beast.

I want to become cold but I can't be completely cold. I don't want those meaningless feelings, but meaningless feelings still exist in my heart.

Jiang Cheng’s ability is truly amazing. Maybe he is the most powerful genius who can make everyone become as anxious and worried as Wei Liwei.

However, in this world, only those who have nothing, those who are barefoot, and those who have experienced nothing can always move forward courageously.

No matter who you are, as long as you have something that you cannot give up, you will be bound by that thing.

Mebius raised his head and looked directly into the girl's pupils again. The tenderness that existed only for a moment was not even noticed by anyone in the world.

"I'm not like Jiang Cheng who has lost his memory, so how could I not see it? Or do you think that my memory of Wei Erwei, the only genius who can rival me, is so good that I can't see it even if I deliberately imitate her."

"Alixia, I don't know what to say to you. You didn't think that my birthday... all those days I spent were wasted, did you?"

"Stop wasting time talking about useless things. Tell me what you are going to do and I will help you plan the problems."

"My understanding of Vivi is not as profound as yours, but in terms of talent, you are far inferior to me."

……

Leave things that you cannot do to those who can do it. Since you cannot solve the problem yourself, don't be arrogant and want to take everything. The result of wanting everything but being unable to bear anything is to end up with nothing.

In the end, even this tiny bit will disappear completely, slipping quietly through your fingers with the wind, and nothing will be left.

After getting something you have never had and must cherish, you can give it up and let everything you have go to waste.

You can also choose to bet the only thing you have on a roulette game where you have no chance of winning and there is not even a glimmer of hope.

Mebius believed that he could never do this and would never accept the possibility of putting everything he had on the line.

Perhaps only the most determined and least cowardly people in this world can do this.

Someone who can do this kind of thing...

How can it be called inferiority complex?

……

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