Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

It is indeed the birth of tragedy.

The best comedy in the world is the tragedy of other people, and the most hellish joke is also, in a sense, the most tragic tragedy.

Knowledge flowed into my brain in a despicable way.

……

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 113. This is... Weiwei's diary [Free]

[——The truth is definitely hidden beneath the ruins.]

[In all these years since you were resurrected, you have never felt such a denial about this matter in your heart, almost a rejection from the bottom of your heart.]

[Even if you see Alicia crying, you are just sad, and returning to the old swimming pool to bathe is just a little nostalgic. ]

[The surging emotions are enough to make you sink into the fragments of the past, indulge in past thoughts, and achieve a soul fusion with your past self. 】

[But in the end, these emotions can only subtly promote and guide you, but cannot make you have any excessive emotions that can be called substantial. ]

[Although it was inevitable for you to lend a helping hand when you saw Alicia crying, it was definitely not forced.]

[The only thing that piqued your interest the most was the daily oppression of Alicia, which made you feel an emotion that should be universally called fear.]

[All of them combined are far less than the current denial. Just the feeling of wanting to dig it out is like a turmoil in the soul. ]

[You don't think you could have such a deep fear of something, a certain thing that might happen, unless there is a disaster that absolutely cannot be explored, or a seal imposed on you by others.]

[You have been reborn, as a Herrscher, is there anything in the world that can be called a disaster? ]

[If it's the latter, wouldn't that be better? ]

【You are just trying to find the source of your memory. 】

[You grit your teeth, resisting the nausea and disgust in your heart, and stretching out your hands to gently dig up a piece of gravel.]

【——Uncomfortable.】

[The emotions I felt when I actually got started were of an intensity that I had never imagined before.]

[If you hadn't become stronger under the daily pressure from Alicia, the long period of sage time would have deeply trained your will and awareness. ]

[I'm afraid that after just digging up the first piece of rubble, you will completely lose the ability to continue exploring, and you can only choose to seek comfort from the girl. ]

[Alicea probably didn't expect that her past actions would lead to the results she has now.]

[——You are now capable of continuing to explore.]

[Under the circumstances of your own resistance, this dissatisfaction can do nothing but disgust you. The remaining instincts cannot influence your current emotions. The only thing you can do is perhaps to restrain the use of your authority, so that you can only use your bare hands to forcibly dig out the ruins.]

[For ordinary people, this may be a fantasy, and your hands will be worn out very quickly. ]

【pity……】

[You are a Herrscher.]

[This overly powerful force, enough to unite all of humanity without any internal unrest, is not just about gaining power. ]

[If this is the only factor, then humans only need to pile up a large population and weapons until the Herrscher's body can no longer bear it.]

[How could it be possible that it has fallen to the point where some refugees from other places say that it only has a dozen cities left and can only control one-fifth of the earth's area. ]

[It also includes the physical qualities of individuals called fusion warriors who are enhanced by Honkai energy and can even surpass ordinary ones. 】

[You don't need authority, just your hands and your physical fitness, you are enough to smash the skull of an emperor-level Honkai beast with one punch.]

[The so-called imperial-level impact may scare ordinary people, but for you it is meaningless except as a joke. ]

[How could someone with such an extreme level of physical fitness feel exhausted and overwhelmed just by digging through a pile of ruins? ]

[This isn't Alicia. Perhaps this girl is the only one in this world who can make you feel the exhaustion you want to escape from.]

[The Fire Moth is indeed worthy of its reputation. The ruins of the Spiral Workshop can also make you feel prickly, and even the Herrscher's body may bleed. ]

[——It’s just a small hill after all.]

[For the ant, climbing up this hill may be an impossible task. Even if it looks up, it can only see the peak that is out of reach, and it cannot even fully grasp the tip. ]

[But for humans, if they don’t want to waste time, they can just stretch out their feet and use a little force to break, flatten, and trample the small dirt slope.]

[It seems that the white hands and the hard stone are in a laborious and difficult confrontation, but in fact, it only takes a slight wave of the hands, bending the fingertips and exerting force, and those sharp, dusty stones will fly away. ]

[If it weren't for something deep in my soul that prohibited the use of authority, even my fingers wouldn't be stained with any dirt or dust. ]

[The deeper they dug, the more solid they touched. When they opened up about a meter of ruins, the remaining framework was almost intact.]

[In order to ensure your own safety and protection, it is normal to use special materials in key places. 】

[The only thing that is a little difficult to understand is that this inexplicable protection does not seem to be used for protection or to better guard life. ]

[This sentence may be a little difficult to understand. How could the place where an important person lives not be for the purpose of protecting that important genius? ]

[But when your hands thrust into the ground, your mind did give you a response that you should never know and could never understand.]

[——This is definitely not the Spiral Workshop, and this is definitely not the attitude that the measures designed here should have.]

[——This kind of unfolding posture should not appear here. ]

[——This is clearly for preservation.]

[Obviously, he is just an ordinary person who cannot be more ordinary, and his talent is obviously limited to that of an ordinary person. 】

[But when you first see the measure in front of you, the relevant data and the correct way to start it automatically pop up in your mind. ]

[Compared to the data in my memory, the activation in front of me is full of loopholes, just like a mentally retarded person who knows nothing. ]

[Rather than being a protective measure that was automatically activated at the first moment, this seemed more like a last-minute measure to seal something.]

[Even if it was to save important files, it is hard to explain. If there were any files that really needed to be saved, they would not have sealed it up like this, and they would not have left it here for so long.]

[If there was something really important, then this place should have been opened long ago, and the confidential documents should have been taken out long ago.]

[How could I wait until you get here? The sealed equipment is still intact, as if no one has ever tried to open it. ]

[It's not like a major collapse would cause the technological level of all mankind to regress by hundreds of years, right? ]

[It doesn’t matter. ]

[These have nothing to do with you, you just need to open it. 】

[The equipment used to seal and preserve things may be beyond the reach of ordinary people, but if you suppress your dissatisfaction and apply a little gravity, it will fall apart and collapse into distorted matter.]

[Before reaching the last floor, you forcibly tore off the previous layer of protection with your bare hands. Unlike before, this time what appeared in your sight was not twisted garbage, but a notebook lying quietly.]

[The notebook is dark gold, with a gear drawn on it with a pencil. After years of wear and tear, it has faded a little without anyone noticing.]

[With just a little more effort, you can tear open all the defenses and see what secrets are buried underneath. ]

[For some reason, the resistance this time was unusually strong, so strong that you felt a heart-wrenching pain just by thinking about it.]

[It seems that there is something hidden in the next layer that you absolutely cannot touch, and absolutely should not touch. ]

[If you really open the last layer, you may really not be able to turn back. ]

【perhaps……】

You need to take it step by step.

[Let's first take a look at what's written in that notebook. ]

……

Jiang Cheng gently picked up the notebook from the ruins and carefully brushed off the dust on it, and every breath he exhaled from his lips was so cautious.

In his eyes, without even his own awareness, there was a deep flash of sadness, as if his body already knew in advance what was going to happen next.

When I opened the first page, I saw that it had been torn off. It was so long ago that I couldn't tell what was written on it. Only half of the fragments were left.

Is it something important?

So they choose to tear it off before they die, for fear of being discovered.

However, it is obvious that these marks have been torn for a longer time than the wear and tear experienced by the outside of the notebook.

It doesn't seem like it died just before death, but more like it was torn off hesitantly a long time ago, and even the cracks on the edges seem so hesitant.

Jiang Cheng then flipped through five or six pages and they were all the same, until he started from page 23, when he finally found complete text written down in pen.

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——Today I met someone named Alicia. She was really beautiful. When she walked, she was like a floating flower. Her youthful and lively steps without any restraint seemed to sway in the wind.

Moreover, she only needs a few words to communicate with others, and can easily transform from a stranger to a good friend with whom she can chat.

You won't feel tired when chatting with her, and there won't be any embarrassment or the possibility of the topic falling through. You can chat happily all the time.

It's really amazing, but I don't know why someone like this would come to me and be willing to be friends with a guy like me...

Maybe you brought it along when you were making friends with others?

How can someone like me be taken seriously by others?

……

——I heard that Alicia is now traveling around the world with a very, very close friend of hers, preparing to see this beautiful world.

So envious...

Being able to see the world with friends or something.

Although I have traveled around the world before, a cute girl like this must be completely different from my travels, and it must be more beautiful.

Even if a guy like me goes traveling, all I can do is waste the scenery.

……

Today, a person named Alicia is holding a birthday party for Jiang Cheng. As soon as she announced it, a lot of people came to help.

As expected, she is a cute fairy-like girl. A useless loser like me feels offended just by looking at her.

I don’t know who Jiang Cheng is, since he could ask that flower-like girl to prepare a birthday party for him.

……

Not right.

Something is very wrong.

Today, Alicia mentioned the birthday party again in the group, but why do I feel that the way it was held doesn’t look like a birthday party at all?

Well……

Maybe I'm so incompetent that I'm thinking wrongly.

Maybe it's a completely new way, a completely new way that a jungle bumpkin like me can't understand at all.

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Jiang Cheng's brows were slightly wrinkled. The handwriting looked delicate and exquisite, but it was always written with thick ink, leaving a few strokes, highlighting the writer's hesitation.

Alicia...

And me?

The description of being like a fairy and as graceful as the wind is indeed the same as that of the girl. She is the only one in the world who deserves such a description, which can negate the possibility of having the same name.

But didn’t this journey belong only to me and the girl?

Who is the author of this writing?

And a birthday party.

The birthday party that invited many people seemed to ignore the behavior of the birthday host. Shouldn't this be a false memory imposed by the collapse?

Alicia still remembers the solemn promise she made two years ago, and her cherry-pink eyes contain only pure love.

But the older book in front of him, which was obviously a diary, recorded something different.

What's even more strange is why a diary needs to be sealed so tightly?

This is a blockade that even an emperor cannot easily open, right?

Unknown and incomprehensible emotions drove the boy to turn the page again, trying to find all the answers from more information.

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