Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Today I met the man named Jiang Cheng, on an uphill road. I don’t know if I was being impolite, but it must have looked strange for someone like me to stare at someone I didn’t know.

It seems that I was not wrong yesterday, and it was not that I judged Alysia with a jungle bumpkin's heart. Jiang Cheng, as the host of the banquet, did not receive any gifts from anyone, and there was no surprise or celebration at all.

Jiang Cheng is obviously a very good person, and he is even willing to make friends with a guy like me. It is obviously my fault... and he is willing to apologize to me.

"——Your ability is the proof of everything."

"——You really helped me. Although I didn't think this was my birthday party, you were still willing to give me a birthday present and give me a blessing without any perfunctory intentions. This is already the greatest help."

“——It’s very simple.”

"——I can be your friend."

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Chapter of Stars and Moon: 114. I Have Also Been Watched Like This [Free]

I feel like melting just listening to these words. Is a guy like me really worthy of being comforted and praised like this by Jiang Cheng?

He has a weird and eccentric personality, and he can't do anything well. He just wanders around blaming himself and making mistakes every day. Anyone who sees him will feel disgusted.

Can I be praised by others as someone like this?

As expected, she is Alicia's companion.

It's like a replica, even more realistic than the ethereal one, more intimate and more touchable.

Why would someone who is so gentle, so polite, and just like the sun be ignored?

Jiang Cheng and Alicia are really a perfect match. They are both gentle and kind. Shouldn't people like them stay together very closely?

Really incomprehensible.

It must have been an accidental mistake.

But it feels really good to be able to chat with such a person, who will not deny, scold or criticize. It would be great if we could continue...

Alas, how could someone like this waste his time on a guy like me.

If it weren’t for today’s mistake, I’m afraid Jiang Cheng wouldn’t even look at me.

……

Jiang Cheng actually came to chat with me today.

He actually took the initiative to chat with me.

He actually sent me a message asking if I was free today? !

Ah ah ah ah ah ah!

Simply unimaginable.

Someone like me was actually able to chat at the end of a birthday party. Is there really a second chance before the third time?

At that time, I just added him as a friend while chatting, and I never thought that someone like this would take the initiative to send me messages or something.

That's weird, wasn't he traveling with Alicia?

Why would you waste your precious time on me?

I don't want to think about all that clutter. A gift from heaven like this must not be wasted.

Chatting with Jiang Cheng or something like that, even replying one second late is a crime, absolutely, absolutely, absolutely unacceptable.

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Birthday party.

Those words should have been beautiful and should have carried the blessings of others, but they were attached with unspeakable complexity and distress in the memories of ordinary people.

Alicia always feels sad when she mentions this, even though in the girl's mouth, there is no sad meaning at all.

The boy could only guess, and gave answers blindly with doubt in his heart. He thought it was because Alicia felt remorse for his false memories, and could not accept that his precious memories were tampered with by the Honkai.

But if it was just because of this issue, Alicia shouldn't and wouldn't feel so guilty. This is inevitable.

Being able to cross the line between life and death is already as difficult as ascending to heaven, so how can one force the girl to give an absolutely perfect ending?

Until now.

Until now.

This doubt that has been lingering in my heart for a long time, difficult to forget and ignored, and which has only been suppressed all along, finally reveals its true face.

All previous speculations vanished into thin air, and the naked truth appeared before our eyes unobstructed with one beautiful word after another.

That was a truth that he was unwilling to imagine, unwilling to guess, unwilling to think about, and even a truth that the boy had never thought of in the past.

Because if what is recorded in these notes, which appear to be at least ten years old, is not false, it is not a forgery intentionally created by someone else.

That means the fragment rooted deep in one's heart is the real one, and it is not a false past created by Honkai to increase hatred and resentment.

There is no such thing as a journey that belongs to just two people, and there is no such thing as a relationship between childhood sweethearts that has never suffered any setbacks from the very beginning.

He had really been completely ignored by Alicia and bullied at his own birthday party, something even bystanders couldn't stand.

——Why would Alicia lie about something like this?

——Why would you lie just because of something like this?

It is obvious that a person who has lost a large amount of memory and has just been resurrected cannot completely deny the present because of part of his past experiences.

It was just a birthday party. Even if every birthday party was like this, wouldn't the girl feel regretful and eager to atone for her sins now?

As childhood sweethearts, even if I did something wrong, as long as I am willing to repent, I am definitely not someone who is overly harsh.

A girl like Alicia shouldn't lie. She couldn't lie just because of something like that.

Even what the owner of this diary wrote at the very beginning, at least at the very beginning that can be seen, was still praise for Alicia.

Could it be that there is something else related to the birthday party that needs to be concealed, something that cannot be known or explored by myself, and I am even willing to deceive myself?

Any one of the questions here is enough to worry him, and he cannot erase them from his memory temporarily unless he is squeezed to the point of complete exhaustion by the girl.

Only at this moment, the doubts lingering in my heart gave way to bigger and more important doubts.

what……

I used to...

How could I be stared at like this?

Can I, too, be looked at with such admiration by others?

Although he is just an ordinary mortal, he can arouse other people's emotions just because of this little thing, and even record his mood in a notebook.

I have clearly made friends with him because of helping me, and we have become good friends who can send text messages to each other, but I have no memory of it.

The owner of this diary...

Who is it?

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I'm still chatting today, and I've been chatting for five days in a row. I feel like I'm addicted. Is this what it feels like to be able to have a good conversation with someone?

It turns out that there really is friendship and kindness in this world, and there are people who are willing to help others and are willing to be a trash can.

Are there really people willing to praise others for their actions, even if those actions are just a big step ahead of the times, advancing technology by hundreds of years or something, which no one would praise or bless.

Not everyone in the world says bad things to others just because they are in a bad mood.

No...

It's really addictive.

If this continues, I won’t be able to imagine a day when Jiang Cheng doesn’t chat with me.

People like him will definitely go far away from Alicia and live a happy life together. Chatting with incompetent trash now is just a whim. A guy like me can only stay in the shadows and watch. I am obviously a person who only deserves to stay in the shadows, how can I be exposed to the light?

……

I really don't want to...

I don't want to separate like this.

I felt uncomfortable just after typing a few words. The simple case seemed to be filled with sharp thorns and electric currents, and blood would flow as long as I pressed my fingers.

This was the first time in my life that I met a companion with whom I could communicate.

This was clearly the first time in my life that I had experienced someone praising and comforting me like this.

Why do you have to actively push it away?

Why do you curl up like a stupid hedgehog and hurt others with your sharp thorns even when faced with warmth and kindness from others?

Jiang Cheng would definitely not be able to understand.

It must be very shocking.

It must be...it must be very sad.

But when you take the initiative to help and comfort others, you are rejected and hurt by others. People who think they are friends actually don’t regard themselves as friends at all.

Just thinking about the expression Jiang Cheng might have made made me feel as if my heart was closing up, and I felt a physical suffocation.

——This must be done.

Such concern, such praise, such comfort, every word comes from the heart and comes from the beauty of nature.

It is so dazzling just by looking at it. If a creature like a bat in the dark encounters this light, it will definitely not be able to accept the darkness anymore.

Although with Jiang Cheng's kindness, if I tell others, he will definitely be willing to waste a lot of time every day chatting with me and helping me.

It will definitely happen.

He is someone who can listen to someone like me who is introverted and eccentric.

No.

How can someone like this be dragged down by me?

How can someone like this waste his time on me.

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Do not……

can not do this!

If you feel the warmth and happiness, then cherish it all and hold this beauty firmly in your hands. Never give up just because you feel you don't deserve it or because you are worried about dragging the other person down.

Could it be that the owner of this diary left no information in my memory because we parted ways early because of inner inferiority?

Isn't this way of ending a little too ridiculous?

Jiang Cheng's fingers have already fallen on the edge of the page, and his uncontrollable mood has unconsciously experienced the emotions recorded in the notes.

What was reflected in the dark pupils was no longer the vague desire to explore, nor the sadness that even he himself was unaware of, but rather unwillingness and reluctance.

Look at everything that happened in another way, and look at the delicate, self-abased, and escapist mentality from the perspective of your former lover.

It was as if the soul flickered gently, bringing with it all the sadness and anger that belonged to Jiangcheng.

It was not until the tilted page of the book was half turned over and the first sentence of the next page appeared in his sight that the breath mixed with emotion came out of his lips.

That is……

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——Jiang Cheng seems to need me!!!

I had been waiting for the final outcome, for a mouse like me to return to the shadows, but I never expected that he would...

"Sorry, it seems that I talked too much to myself. I have been ignored too much recently, so I accidentally wasted your time."

He said that he had been ignored a lot recently, so he became addicted to chatting with me unconsciously, and also hoped to spend time with others.

In a situation like this, even a mouse like me can get the opportunity to communicate with people like Jiang Cheng.

But why is this happening?

How could this happen?