Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

just now……

The boy stretched out his hand.

Even though I know that all of this is false, it is the result of my own wishes.

Even though I know that this so-called atonement is nothing but an attempt to cover up the truth and deceive myself.

When the victim Jiang Cheng reached out to her, willing to accept and admit everything in the past and give herself a chance to repent for her heinous mistake.

"Am I really worthy?"

“Am I really still qualified?”

"Can I really still hold a birthday party for you?"

……

"--certainly."

"Don't do it in Velvet's way, please do it in Alicia's way and hold a party for me to celebrate my survival in this world."

……

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 136. Stop imitating Vivi.

"Please hold a party for me to celebrate my survival in this world, not in Vilvi's way, but in Alicia's way."

This will be a party that belongs to you alone, this will be a party that belongs to the two of us alone, and it doesn't need to be influenced by anyone else.

Please fulfill your wishes.

If you want to atone your sins, I'll give you the chance.

At least before everything ends, let's put a perfect end to this offensive journey.

"Okay?"

"——My dear Alicia."

……

The last ray of light before the sunset shines on Jiang Cheng's outstretched fingertips. At the last moment, the smile on the corners of his lips is still shining. His pupils reflect the girl like a mirror, but can only reflect the faint color of one person. Gusts of wind blow through his hair. The world naturally gives him the most appropriate glow at this moment and distinguishes the most perfect light range.

Obviously, time is rolling forward unstoppably, but at this moment, the sparse light and darkness together form shadows like tree branches, with the blown hair ends trembling slightly along with the blinking eyelashes.

The shadow of the past still persists in proving its existence again and again, as if time is playing a joke, making the former ash forest reappear before our eyes, and the young man stretching out his hand towards the wind, the night and the flowers.

It's just that the gentleness in those eyes and the smile on the corners of his mouth are more than gentle, but also contain sadness, helplessness, and the feeling that there is nothing he can do.

Very well hidden.

Or maybe I just don't think there will be any sadness.

Alicia raised her delicate head, and just stared quietly at the young man who was so close to her, her eyes seemed to be squinting to make the observation more detailed.

It was not until the back of his hand, which was raised because of shock and incomprehension, gently touched the corner of his lips that the happy smile that was provoked brought everything back to reality.

original……

Laughter does not require any movement.

No practice or preparation is required.

When you feel happy, the corners of your mouth will naturally turn up.

……

"Of course."

"The cutest river city in the world."

……

[Today is the first time you feel that revisiting the past journey is not a waste of effort, and it is not just letting things go after you are unable to make a choice. ]

[The beautiful warm red sunset, the endless magnificent mountains, and the boy who is far more wonderful than the previous two combined. ]

[Although the broken earth is not as bright as the hillsides full of flowers in the eternal paradise, and the breeze does not stir up scorched black dust, the petals of countless blooming flowers are swaying in the air, like countless butterflies dancing to the beautiful music played by willow branches and green leaves.]

[Although the sunset is far inferior to the big tree you planted in the eternal paradise, it casts a dreamy glow that is enough to cover the entire town, adding a bit of fairy tale beauty to the already colorful streets. ]

[As long as you have Jiangcheng by your side, as long as you can see that familiar figure standing beside you, there will be no beauty or ugliness. ]

[It’s not that the boy’s ability can change everything, it’s just that at this time you will lose all the ability to judge and will only feel sweetness. ]

[Humans are inherently subjective creatures, and even the smallest things can lead to completely different opinions from different people.]

[Some people think that sunset is too sad and symbolizes the coming darkness, while others think that dusk is the prelude to hope for tomorrow.]

[Isn't it understandable that Jiang Cheng's surroundings are a paradise or something, and that as long as you stay in the paradise you will feel happy? ]

[Even fairy tales don't strictly define what paradise is, so why set standards for something that doesn't even have standards? ]

[At least after taking off all the masks, you can enjoy the happiness that you don't deserve to taste as Alicia. It's so beautiful that you feel like you're drowning in it.]

[The boy also seems to be becoming more and more normal. He is not only gentle, but also sighs and gets excited about the scenery he has seen in the past.]

[Sometimes you can't even tell whether the other person has recovered his emotions, recovered his memories, and is no longer controlled by Honkai. ]

[You even made a promise with the boy to go watch the meteor shower together, to see how beautiful the scenery that is said to be extremely rare is.]

[Even though this natural phenomenon can be easily brought about by your own power, you still made a decision that seems a bit unnecessary.]

[If there is something wrong with your peaceful life now, it is that you always feel that Jiangcheng seems to be sad about something.]

[There must be something buried in my heart. ]

[No matter how hard he tries to hide it, the sadness hidden in Jiang Cheng's eyebrows is still obvious. When he looks at you, his eyes always become dazed and absent-minded, and his thoughts fall to a deeper level.]

[The dark eyes seemed like the stars lit up in the night sky, eternally lonely and distant, but a little too empty.]

[Although there was tenderness in the past, and although it was solidified like a photo in a camera, the tenderness contained in it was by no means false.]

【Now……】

【ah……】

[If I must use a word to describe the look in those pupils, then the word "sadness" is the only one that can do the job.]

[At first, this feeling of sadness was not much, but as time went by, it became more and more, and became bigger and bigger. For a period of time, the boy even locked himself in the room and did not open the door until the next day.]

[The originally relaxed pace of the trip, along with my heart and ideals, became unusually urgent on that day, just like you once were. 】

[It was as if the other party was also being chased by something and was about to be caught up, and then seemed to realize something and became powerless. ]

[Is it also because of the collapse? 】

[After all, the development of Honkai was indeed a little too fast. With just this little bit of time, the Herrscher was born. He has the ability to control consciousness and mentally erase individuals without even having to go through the forged defense barrier.]

[Almost no physical defenses were effective against the new Herrschers. Even the humans who had been transformed into fusion warriors were hit hard, destroying three cities in three seconds.]

[It seems that the existence of Honkai is the nemesis of all civilizations, and the Herrscher was created to deal a fatal blow to the current human race. ]

[Just like the Second Herrscher possesses the power of space, and directly decapitates the fully armed and watertight human headquarters.]

[The defensive shield created by Jiang Cheng has taken on a new lease of life under your adjustment as a tester. Even a Judgment-level Honkai Beast cannot cross the outermost layer of defense even by one step.]

[The previous Herrscher of Fire burned an entire continent to ashes the moment he was born. The Herrscher that he could create was only a disaster smaller than that of a city. He was killed by you who rushed over before he could even break through the third layer of the city's defense shield. He didn't even have the slightest ability to fight back.]

[Even if the outermost defense is breached, even if humans really need to face the Herrscher directly, it is impossible to inflict a devastating blow on any human who has been transformed into a fusion warrior with extremely strong vitality and has all the potential equivalent to the emperor level.]

[Because of you, the originally scarce materials have been provided in large quantities, from the most common Assault Class, Chariot Class, Knight Class, Temple Class, Collapse Emperor Class to the higher Emperor Class, Judgment Class, and even the End of Law Class. ]

[The excess of materials is enough to arm all of humanity. Ignoring growth and combat effectiveness, just keeping the first fusion operation can make the success rate soar to an unimaginable level.]

[Although the success rate of the next few experiments was still very low due to Mobius's lack of energy, she had already achieved the ultimate in popularity, and made the collapse no longer a complete disaster. ]

[This change may be because the purely destructive Herrscher is no longer an unattainable threat to humans today.]

[In Jiang Cheng's notes, it has been confirmed that Honkai will change with the changes in human technology, and the upper limit of energy is unclear. ]

[Since energy itself can be increased with the advancement of technology, then the creation of Honkai - the Herrscher should also be able to carry out special attacks on humans. ]

[This Herrscher with the ability to control consciousness, because he absorbed the previous mistakes, is the Herrscher born this time without any entity and can directly attack across the defense layer? ]

[For the relatively peaceful human civilization, the news of the destruction of three cities was earth-shattering.]

[Even if he had already set foot on the journey to the past, even if he had already reached a deserted place, it was not incomprehensible for Jiang Cheng to learn of this news.]

[As a former guardian of humanity, he inherited the legacy of Velvet and developed one top scientist after another to combat the collapse. 】

[It is true that the achievements that you thought you had made were negated and trampled upon by the collapse, which can be very heartbreaking. 】

[Just a special Herrscher...]

[Will it really make Jiang Cheng's mood become so weird? ]

……

He has clearly done such a selfish and greedy thing.

It is obvious that Jiang Cheng is already so broken that he has lost his feelings.

It is obvious that when one is infinitely tolerant, infinitely forgiving, and infinitely showing a gentle smile, one will never bring up the sadness of the past.

But is it still for me to bring up the mistakes of the past once again and have the opportunity to touch upon things that cannot be solved by theory at all?

Having no feelings doesn't mean losing everything. At least under my greedy desires, I can at least keep a little bit of what is related to me.

Joy, sadness, happiness...loss means unfamiliarity, and the instinctive fear and escape from unfamiliar things are what we should really choose.

Just because he wanted to atone his sins, did Jiang Cheng take the initiative to open his wound, give up on escaping, go against the best option given by Wenrou, and reveal the only pain he could feel without hesitation?

For me...

what……

I don't want to be forgiven anymore.

I don't want to be treated so gently anymore.

A bad guy like me should be dealt with by rough means.

The only person who deserves to be treated gently is someone like Wei Liwei, who is both self-deprecating and soft to the core. How can I deserve this gentleness?

Alicia's dissatisfaction and self-blame could only turn into a sigh of relief. The traces of gently tapping the table had left circles of fingerprints on the wooden surface, which were brighter and more obvious than those on her neck.

No matter how perfect the skin is, its plasticity is ultimately not as good as objects that are oppressed by brute force in real life.

The relatively fragile physical product of life.

If only it were that fragile.

If only I could die in a fragile way.

The girl raised her head, revealing her smooth collarbone, and her slender, soft fingertips gently brushed across the swan neck that was branded with layer upon layer of marks.

There is hardly any trace of its past colors left.

My neck was already covered with bruises from self-punishment.

Countless times of near-death suffocation left only marks on the body, confirming the punishment chosen time and time again in despair.

One could only barely see a glimpse of the fair and soft skin that had fortunately not been tortured among the layers of scars from the edges of the bruised fingerprints.

It is as delicate as gentle white jade, but not overly cold like jade, and it gently reveals the vitality of a young and energetic girl.

No matter how hard he tried to suffocate himself, he couldn't die completely. Instead, because he couldn't give the boy a choice in the first place, he had to make the boy wait there for no reason, waiting for an answer that was not worth it.

It would be better to wait until I have free time to try again. At least I won’t be delayed in Jiangcheng because of my insignificant little things.

But this kind of look, the pupils were exactly the same as before, glowing with a faint light, and the diamond symbol in the middle was like a cooling celestial body.

No matter how you look at it, it is extremely cold, just like a photo taken by a camera, each one is so attractive and so similar.

No matter how fake that gentleness is, it only takes a slight sound to make oneself melt instantly and lose strength.

But it seemed that there was more than just pure tenderness in Jiang Cheng's eyes now, more than just a puppet created according to his own wishes, but also sadness and helplessness, as well as the feeling that he could do nothing.

Is Jiangcheng also sad?

What would he be sad about?

Is it really just because of the collapse?