Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

"I'm leaving now. I've packaged all the necessary procedures and sent them to you. I referred to the Paradise APP designed by Dr. Jiang Cheng, and you should have downloaded it as well."

After the scene and the room were almost set up, he turned around and left without any reluctance, leaving behind only a huge cake with everyone's blessings. He had no intention of participating in this birthday party as a light bulb, but before taking the last step, he turned his head and revealed half of his mask.

"This is not just my achievement. Cats, rabbits, ducks, fishes... this is the result of the joint efforts of all people and non-humans."

"Stop worrying about gains and losses all day long."

"—You deserve this."

……

Yes, this is the credit of all humans and non-humans. Faced with the only banquet of the fairies in paradise, individuals at different levels of the food chain, which was once cruel and extreme and only had a relationship of eaters and being eaten, chose to unite and work together.

In today's world, Eternal Paradise can be regarded as the place where culture is best preserved. Compared with other cities that have spared no effort to survive, this is the only city that still has some basic light industries.

Even so, the dilapidated world cannot leave behind a perfect industrial system. It may not be difficult to live well, but if you want to pursue the most wonderful banquet, it is already something that this planet cannot afford.

Since no one party can make perfect preparations, then we might as well gather everyone's strength. Human tailors have exquisite skills, but sometimes they also need help from the Indian bird, the bird tailor.

As the back mountain that preserves the last and most complete collection of flowers in the world, it once again welcomed many people's exploration after the first destruction of the town. The animals that were good at searching carefully uprooted the flowers needed for the materials.

The natural and never-trimmed hair encountered the biological scissors for the first time. The sword-billed hummingbird, with a body only fourteen centimeters long but a beak of ten centimeters, is nature's best barber.

The one who was gently lifting the hem of her inner skirt was a sash bird. Its feathers, which were supposed to be white and were called a flower, were now stained with a hint of cherry color.

Normally all black, the bird of paradise only displays its brightly colored, dress-like beauty when courting a mate. It also puts on a dress for the party.

The green and blue gradient feathers in the middle are spread out, like a gentleman in black, or a firework floating in the air, flying naturally.

It seemed as if with a bang, a dark mass of things would suddenly unfold from the original place, scattering dazzling and sparkling sequins reflecting the light like a salute.

My face, which I never wear makeup, even at important moments I would only put on lipstick by myself, was now fully armed for the first time, with lip gloss, mascara, eyelash curler, blending brush, foundation brush, detail brush, tapered brush, eyebrow brush, eyebrow trimmer, pure brush, pure liner pen, powder puff, upgraded version of powder brush, sponge, blush brush… just looking at the tools with brushes made me feel dizzy.

Although all of this can only serve as a foil because of Alicia's natural beauty, no lipstick can compare to her natural pink.

[——You deserve this.]

[No matter how much you hate yourself or how closed you are, you have changed the world after all. Maybe the places you touched were not many, but you did create a perfect paradise and saved many people who would have died.]

【Then all the people you have helped will give you their strength when you need it, to help you break through the difficulties that are blocking your way forward. 】

【What are you hesitating about now? 】

【Everything is prepared for you. 】

[Clothes, makeup, venue, food... even the necessary small activities have been arranged by Qianjie long ago, guaranteed to enhance the relationship between you. ]

【You just need to prepare gifts that can make you young. 】

[A gift that you may not have dared to imagine before, but after living with the boy for more than a year, you have once again developed a greedy and despicable desire to possess. ]

[You prepared a super big box, stuffed yourself into it, and used two bells with wings that could fly to hold up the box.]

[——The gift will be yourself. ]

[——You gave yourself to the boy. ]

[It took you three full days to find a suitable reason to leave early.]

[After spending the day with the boy pretending to be mysterious, and after seeing the boy enter his birthday party and start to taste the cake, you wrapped yourself in festive bandages and got into the box.]

[Now, it’s time for the gift. ]

[When you are a little chubby, you try your best to squeeze your body into this box which is not that big but at least it won’t be seen at first glance. ]

【It’s a bit difficult.】

[Maybe it’s because I’m a little overweight. ]

[Or maybe that perfect body really doesn't fit the limits of normal life. ]

[It was not until I used my authority and put in a lot of effort that I was able to squeeze myself in so that no one from the outside could see what was inside.]

[The good news is that the interior is quite spacious, so you won’t feel uncomfortable when you actually get in. ]

[In fact, it doesn’t matter at all. It doesn’t matter how uncomfortable, narrow-minded, or painful it is. ]

[Even if you feel extremely uncomfortable, you will squeeze yourself in without hesitation. At most, you can just regard it as a punishment for your greed and shamelessness.]

[You have done countless wrong things, and even single-handedly caused the boy's disaster, turning the boy who should have fallen into eternal sleep into a monster. You could have been resurrected intact, but because of your own selfishness, you turned the boy who should have been ordinary into a puppet, a repeater, and your toy.]

[Since you have been forgiven, you should atone for your sins and atone for what you have done. The most important thing you should do is to choose to change everything. Not to mention taking another step forward, even the present situation should not exist. ]

[But after all the courage was melted by the boy's embrace and spilled out from his fingers, everything changed unstoppably.]

[Perhaps it is because he realized that Jiangcheng is still Jiangcheng after all, or perhaps it is because his firm ideals cannot compare to the existing warmth and embrace of the young man.]

【Now greed arises in your heart. 】

【I want to win the boy’s love. 】

【I want the paradise to last forever. 】

【Think about making this moment of happiness last forever. 】

[You just want to hug the boy when you are sad and in pain, and fight against those annoying emotions and hateful enemies together.]

If this is greed.

【That……】

【Just let you be a little greedy. 】

[No one in this world will stop you from doing this. You do not have the right to choose, but at the same time, no one has the right to deny you. ]

[——I have never been a human being.]

[——I am the First Ruler.]

[——I am the embodiment of evil.]

【so……】

[You don’t need to follow human rules, and there is no need to suppress yourself or make yourself hesitate. If greed is wrong, then please make this mistake as much as you want and let yourself have more sins.]

[It's painful enough now anyway. Everything in the past has piled up together. The mixed emotions of regret, sadness and guilt for not being able to save Jiang Cheng have become something that is simply unimaginable.]

[You can feel as if countless needles are piercing your skin and heart at every moment, and feathers are teasing your exposed nerves... The act of tickling only brings a mild pain, which seems small but will never stop.]

[Perhaps this session will not end until one day when the nerves are provoked to collapse and the heart is pierced with holes and stops beating completely.]

[Yes, it has stopped beating, it is already filthy, it is already dirty, why bother to think about it, why bother to think about it anymore? ]

[You are a complete sinner anyway, and you can never atone for your sins against the young man.]

Why not let you get a little closer?

【Atonement in a closer, simpler way. 】

[Jiangcheng is Jiangcheng, no matter what.]

[You have prepared everything, now you just need to wait for the final opportunity. ]

【look. 】

[We have arrived.]

[The birthday party bells rang again and again. There were only the two of you in the huge palace. The glass windows were painted like colored glaze, and under the specially guided light, all the beauty was spread on the smooth ground.]

[The servants driven by Honkai energy performed one activity after another according to etiquette, selecting the most gorgeous music that suits the moment from the records of a certain music master named Eden who died young, and gently placed it on a vinyl record from a century ago, turning its own notes, elegant, classical, slow... The exquisite dishes were gradually served in the changing music. ]

[Although the wonderful food has become the object of neglect at this moment, it was never designed to be eaten up. ]

[This is the first time you are not dancing alone. You can finally stand at the top and do what you should have done decades ago, watching the boy extend an invitation.]

"Want to join us..."

"Jiangcheng?"

The fingers covered by white gloves are still slender with distinct joints. Ai Lishia's expectant eyes and the light flashing in her pupils are like a shy lover inviting her to dance on the stage.

At this moment, the eyes of the whole world seemed to be focused on the young man, as if countless people through the walls were expecting this scene to happen.

Of course it is...

"——Okay~?"

……

The air is filled with a faint scent of perfume, I don't know where it comes from nature or through craftsmanship, it has a dreamy and hazy feeling.

Jiang Cheng and Alicia looked at each other, and in the spacious palace where only the two of them were, they began to dance without any constraints.

The fingertips are crossed and clenched, and the feeling of twenty fingers connected to each other gives the illusion that the world is in the hands at this moment.

At least the girl's gesture as if she would never let go, her strength enough to make even the Herrscher's body feel a little uncomfortable, and her expression as if her heart was burning, showed that she was indeed embracing her only one, her own world.

Jiang Cheng, who had never learned to dance and did not even have any memory of it, felt for the first time the awkward emotion in his body. He could only let himself be led by Alicia and perform one gorgeous dance move after another. As he spun, his scattered skirt blocked the light from time to time.

They could still control themselves when holding hands and rotating against each other. Occasionally, the girl would kick high and jump far away, and the boy could only stand there like a fool.

Unprecedented experience, some dreamy dinners...

Velvet doesn't like dancing.

In the past birthday parties, the two people who were equally excluded would not be chosen by others to dance.

This is the only skill that has no meaning from beginning to end and is of no use at all, so I have no interest in learning or exploring it.

This was the first time Jiang Cheng discovered, after he found out that he used to be a scientist, that there were things that even his past self could not do.

At least……

This should make up for the regret.

Holding her hands and gently spinning, Jiang Cheng looked at the colors in those pink eyes. His short movements also became slow under his extreme observation. He could clearly see the doting, deep love, indulgence, and entrustment...

This is the emotion that a complete and intact person should have, and it is also something that an incomplete individual cannot bear.

continue……

In the lights of the banquet, the warm light reflects warmth, and the infinite energy ensures that this dance can only end with the next ringing of the bell.

……

"clang--"

The classical bronze bell, with luxurious patterns reflected on the painted glass, elegantly indicates that the birthday party has reached its final prelude.

After personally presenting gifts to the host of the banquet, savoring a cake as big as a hill, and dancing to the music in the center, the grand event that was used to make up for all the regrets will end in perfect style.

The luxury and exquisiteness are far better than before. Even the result of the joint efforts of countless fans and supporters cannot compare to the blessings of everyone in the paradise.

There was no perfunctory banquet at all. The luxurious palace belonged to only two people and did not require anyone's participation or any extra light bulbs. Although everything here was not entirely from the hands of Alicia, it was indeed the harvest of the pilgrimage so far and a beautiful gift from others.

With one more chance given by Jiang Cheng, the regret of not being able to deliver the gift personally was made up, and the mistake of not watching him carefully was corrected... Now there is nothing left to do except the last step.

After saying goodbye to the boy and leaving with an excuse she had already thought of, Alicia was secretly preparing for the surprise that would announce the end of everything. As the most perfect ending, she had everything ready and only needed to reveal everything.

Yes.

Now is that time.

Now is your chance to make amends.

No need to think any more, just do it boldly.

To be able to live happily again with the one I love.

……

As the birthday party progressed one by one, gazing into the boy's eyes filled with tenderness, making up for past scars and regrets, even the heart that should have been withered and exhausted seemed to be rekindled and welcomed a new life.

It was as if even the tiny, almost nonexistent sense of anticipation was building up layer by layer, like a kite with its wings pierced soaring into the sky once again against a hurricane, inevitably charging upwards in the thrust that was hurtling straight into the sky, gradually climbing to a point that the person named Alicia could not afford.

Even though I have never felt this way before, I still dare to face the cruel life again after knowing everything.

So what if it’s a broken kite?

As long as you follow the wind, you can also fly into the sky.

If you can reach the highest clouds, there will be no possibility of falling.

That was the last chance for the Fairy of Paradise.

and so……