Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

[Knowing what cruel words I said to Alicia. 】

[Knowing how you have done things that you shouldn’t have done because of your slowness and incompleteness, you gave up the life you once longed for. ]

[Your resurrection is a farce, a circus clown show, just like a pile of garbage written by a third-rate author.]

[At least you didn’t live to the end, at least you didn’t have to see the final outcome, at least you didn’t have to experience that kind of sadness and tears yourself.]

[——The birth of tragedy has not changed. ]

【Simulation settlement completed.】

【New entries:】

[Blessings from the stars and the moon: No matter what, this is the blessing the girl gives you. Even if you go through twists and turns, your heart has never changed. All the extras are burdens, and only emotions are the most precious.]

[Herrscher of the Star Sea: You have the talent for metamorphosis, but you have never used it. Can this power really be considered a blessing? What is the point of using it other than adding constraints to yourself? Perhaps the only use of this power is to allow you to commit suicide more thoroughly, causing cracks in your core. Even Alicia cannot save you and can only watch your life disappear.]

[Seventh Key of God: The Harmony of the Star Sea: Perhaps you as a weapon are more useful than you as a Herrscher, even for yourself.]

“How funny…”

Jiang Cheng's gaze stayed on the Key of God, which was floating quietly in the air in front of him. It was as magnificent and dazzling as a gem, a celestial body, and the vast stars. It took him a long time to come back to his senses. It seemed that what was reflected was not only everything dim and without light, but also a celestial body like a black hole that could reflect different things.

Because of the self-righteousness caused by the lack of mutual understanding, a new tragedy was created, and everything in existence was messed up.

If I had stayed at that time, everything could at least end in a less bad way. Even with a broken heart, I could at least respond to everything about Alicia, and there would at least be a little love.

Why……

Is everything heading towards the worst possible ending?

Why……

Such a terrible ending was so perfunctory and simple?

At least until the last moment, even though he had made the choice himself, Jiang Cheng had never thought that everything would happen this way.

Something as important as this shouldn't have just one choice. Even the time in Vilvi's notes pointed to the final outcome after multiple choices, and that was just exploring the truth. This time it's a choice to die, a choice to leave Alicia. No matter how you look at it, it's impossible to reach the final conclusion with just one choice.

I should have stopped when I felt Alicia's emotions halfway through. This isn't a retro game where things won't change once you make a choice... At the very least, I should have followed the girl's choice.

But this time, no other options were ever presented until the very last moment, and this time, there was only one option available for such a long time.

Options are born after the self falls into extreme hesitation. In essence, it is the same as every thought in the heart. Any thought of an individual life is not just one thought, but countless thoughts combined to choose the most suitable one.

Although many so-called thoughts cannot be put on the table and cannot even occupy a little bit of status, although sometimes thinking itself is just a redundant thing, what to do is determined from the beginning.

Thinking itself is an indispensable ability for human beings.

No options...

Maybe it also means that I wasn't even aware of the change in Alicia's heart.

Even Alicia couldn't feel the gradual change from simple sadness to cherishing all of this, and gradually sinking into this tenderness.

This is quite normal.

Even to confirm that Alicia would feel sad after seeing me, something that only requires eyes, took a full year and visited countless tourist attractions before I could be sure.

How could one force a person who was abnormal, incomplete, emotionally broken and incomplete to keep up with the psychology of a delicate fairy?

In a sense, that option might not be wrong.

If we continue to stay, we can certainly live happily together.

But if the gap between the two parties is too big, it will take a long time for them to empathize with each other. If one of them cannot even behave in the most basic way, then in the end, one party can only accommodate the other party's affection, right?

……

I was made into a tool, using the research notes I left behind. In stark contrast to normal development, the Star Sea Concord, which was supposed to be the ninth sword of God, became the seventh, and would no longer be held by Golden Eden.

The name of the Seventh God's Key came from the fact that he was the seventh to be discovered, and from the resurrection act that Alicia could not accept.

Let's continue to call it the Ninth God's Key...

Jiang Cheng didn't want to let different names aggravate those bad memories. Even if it was just a cover-up, at least he could deceive himself.

The memory of being controlled, bound, and always being a step behind in everything I did, and even unable to keep up with Alicia's emotions and psychological changes.

If there is anything more tragic than being unfree, it must be being manipulated and forced to do things that hurt the people you love and the people who love you.

——That’s what I did.

I want to create the best result, hoping that Alicia won't be so sad, won't stay in the same place forever, tied by herself, living in the sad past, and can take her own step towards tomorrow.

There is nothing wrong with this, and Alicia absolutely should not let everything she has remain in the past that has been lost and cannot be rewritten.

She is not Eden, and the era that ended was not the era that could understand herself and use herself as a symbol. She is just a childhood sweetheart.

Anyway, I can only have feelings for Alicia. All the possible love and hatred in this body are for that fairy-like girl.

So in order to be less sad, and to allow Alicia to look forward, it is understandable that she chooses to sacrifice something that is already dead, right?

The problem is that how can a person who is abnormal, incomplete, and even lacks emotions design a perfect plan?

If the prerequisites for everything do not even include the most important thing, called the heart, what is the point of all the fantasies?

The plan to soothe Alicia's wounded heart was a heartless and emotionless plan created by a heartless and emotionless person.

This was a huge joke from the beginning, one that didn't even have the slightest chance of success and was laughably absurd from head to toe.

The result was as bad as expected, even beyond reason, a development that was not even thought of in the worst possible scenario.

I gave the blessing before without knowing it, but this time, I gave the curse called blessing again after knowing it.

How can those last few words be called comfort?

It was clearly a knife, a rusty knife.

I also sprinkled some salt on it.

……

"Is this really the birth of tragedy?"

"I should have known the development of this simulator long ago. Good endings are rarer and bad endings are always more numerous. Once you make the first wrong choice and touch the first bad node, you will roll on indefinitely."

"Despair, sadness, fear, anger... the endless accumulation of negative emotions almost cannot be rewritten, and there is no turning back."

Jiang Cheng sighed deeply, suppressing the inexplicable urge to absorb, enduring the inner sense of loss, and receiving the Star Sea Harmony, which was emitting an aura that was about to merge with me, into the system's built-in space.

It was not until I used space to cut off the connection that the feeling that had been bothering my heart all the time and teasing the soles of my feet with a feather finally subsided.

If they really choose to merge, or should we call it restoration, they will transform into the Herrscher of the Stars. Those who have enough combat power at this point in time have either not grown to the full potential or have been sealed.

It can almost be said that the combat power of an ordinary Herrscher with brains is enough to kill indiscriminately, and he is definitely not an ordinary Herrscher.

This Herrscher core is infinitely close to the limit, or even has reached it. It only needs one more chance to transform into a Herrscher who has attained enlightenment.

That was honed in a dungeon that was turned into hellish difficulty thanks to the efforts of the perfect-formed Velvet, who was a threat to both humans and Honkai.

Even the Emperor-class, which is a superior Honkai beast, can only be used as a small soldier there. After the Seventh Herrscher, even ordinary people can fight against the Judgment-class.

However, there is nothing so cheap in the world.

If you want to wear a crown, you must bear its weight.

The core structure of the Herrschers of the previous civilization and the current civilization is fundamentally different. It is essentially a fallacy to give humanity to the Herrschers in this civilization, because the difference in structure means that every Herrscher will not be controlled. If no special problems arise, they will have a complete self like ordinary humans and do not need to be given additional humanity.

This is essentially due to the sacrifice of the Herrscher of Origin. After returning to the Sea of ​​Origin, all Herrschers born afterwards became structured like Alicia, but those before that were not so lucky.

Being tightly bound and locked by iron chains, like a bird in a cage, it has no room to look up at the sky. All emotions of existence may even be wiped out from the beginning. It is simply impossible to give it human nature.

Not to mention the possibility of being bound, even if he would not be bound by the collapse, even if he only lost some of his feelings, Jiang Cheng would never accept it.

He is just an ordinary person. Until now, there is nothing he must do, and he does not have the noble ambition to save the world like those heroes.

For normal people, no matter it is rights, money or power, the essence of existence is just to enjoy better, to enjoy life better, to enjoy everything better. They don't have to work, produce resources, or waste their time like the lower-class people who have nothing. They can use all the space to make themselves live more comfortably.

Everything is done in the service of one's own senses, whether it is oppressing others, hurting others, or giving charity and doing something kind.

Tasting delicious food, enjoying entertainment that others can't imagine, and experiencing extreme sports are all for sensory pleasure, while abusing and helping others are for the sake of enjoying the feeling of superiority that it gives oneself on a psychological level.

In other words, if you give up the enjoyment itself for the sake of these things that you enjoy yourself, then even if you say you are giving up the forest for the trees, it will not be enough.

This kind of common phrase can accurately express its meaning with just four words. Its disadvantage is that it cannot fully express emotions in some special occasions.

If you really do that.

That's more than just stupidity.

Either he has some enlightenment, or he is just out of his mind.

Because this behavior essentially involves deeper things, the existence of human beings cannot be explained by just a few points.

I lost my emotions.

Is it still me?

No matter whether the past was good or bad, whether it only added to one's suffering, whether feelings were useful or not, whether they could be used, whether one's feelings were important or not, these are all that make up who one is standing here today.

Bullying others, being bullied, hurting others, being hurt, even arguing with people online, being angry, being baited by people for fun, having your box opened by people with some mental problems... These things seem to be useless and don't matter if you don't do anything about them, but as long as you experience them, they are also an indispensable part of your personality. It is because of experiencing all of it that you become the individual you are today.

It doesn't matter whether it is important or not, because even an inadvertent detail in the memory may be the cornerstone of creating a significant character today.

Someone who finds his own actions ridiculous and cannot even empathize with his emotional experiences... can he really be called himself?

Ugh……

Is the result a bit tasteless?

I wonder how much stronger this weapon is than the Star of Eden?

Jiang Cheng closed his eyes, relaxed his body, let his hands hang naturally, leaned on the toilet seat that conformed to the ergonomics, was clean and had no odor, and quietly suppressed and digested the endless emotions in his heart.

In the pool of water that was rippled by the Tsar's nuclear bomb, it was not easy to stop the overlapping of layer upon layer of ripples.

Before the resurrection match, one or two major incidents would be enough to affect my mood. This time... it might take a long time to recover emotionally.

Alicia, Velvet...

But they are already dead.

Otto only opened up a new world line in five hundred years, and did not resurrect Kallen as he wished.

In this world that is constantly moving forward, there is no way to save the dead in the past.

Emotions can only be worn away and suppressed over time.

In the simplest and most physical way.

……

"Boom boom boom——"

There was a sudden knock on the toilet door. It was the sound of knuckles tapping lightly on the edge, a little muffled, as if there was a layer of paper between them. Following closely was a gentle tone that was so familiar that it couldn't be more familiar, with a hint of shyness.

"Jiang Cheng, are you there?"

——Raiden Mei.

Although this is a portable toilet in the wild that can be used by both men and women, most people have not used it in a formal way. It is usually used as a rest area to provide a quiet place for some people with special inspirations.

But there is no doubt that this toilet is being used by someone now, and the person using it is a man, both physically and psychologically.

This is not normal.

Very abnormal.

Mei Raiden has good upbringing and is not the kind of person who would do such a disrespectful thing. Even if she didn't say what the emergency was, the fact that she was staying in the bathroom meant there must be a possibility.

It is inappropriate for a woman to stand outside a man, let alone take the initiative to knock on the door or remind him, as this would make both parties feel awkward.

Jiang Cheng waited with his hands crossed. He did not choose to open the door immediately. He used his physical fitness that was gradually improving during the simulation to observe every move outside and listened to the hesitant footsteps outside through the wall.

……

"—you left something in the garden."

……

Huh? Did we see that right? .jpg

PS: What do you think would happen between the two of them if Velvi knew what Alicia did?